Jello_Raptor
(Confirmed Jelly)
- Location
- Left of Center
The following is conjecture, despite the style it's written in.
So let's look at our fundamental problem:
Keiko has no agency. Party after party keep using her as a tool or treat her as a problem to route around.
She also knows that she is valuable as an asset, be it for the pangolin, her optimization, her fighting, logistics, etc..
Likewise, she knows that one of the main motivations for people routing around her is to protect her from situations she dislikes. To her this looks like people minimizing how much they have to 'deal' with her problems. The benefit she gets looks entirely incidental, they just want a 'useful asset'.
As of late, this has had horrible consequences to things she values. (Even if it's overblown and illusory from an outside perspective). Multiple things she values at her core have just ripped themselves apart because of people making decisions for her, or presenting a biased set of options.
People forcing her into patterns, even to 'help' her will just feel like a repeat of the same phenomenon. "They're just trying to make me a more useful asset"
This is problematic, because at this point is Keiko will probably react badly to being given choices, or even open ended overtures, to help her. (She'd definitely still be in the loop about things we are doing)
I don't think we can really fix this by giving Keiko choices or control, since that isn't the problem.
What she needs to stabilize right now is time with Tenten. Who is basically the only person she thinks wants her companvy with no strings attached.
Thing is, I'm not sure if stabilizing Keiko is the best thing for her. Like she's stuck where she is mentally. Were we back at Leaf, my first priority would be to tell Tenten whatever we can (sticking to facts, not judgements) about Keiko's state. If she has anything to say, heed it; if not, just informing her is good.
The thing I'd want to do, as Hazou, is give her 1000 hours. (Using 1000 in the ye-olde way, to mean "uncountably many". Whatever version of that works in the setting) With an explanation that, "while yeah, it is a literal gift of a thousand Hazou hours. But symbolically, we want to say that we care about Keiko, and that her value function is a large part of our own."
Mind, she won't take the gesture particularly well in the moment. But doing it now will be valuable later on in the process of getting her to feel like she has agency.
I am on a phone so I don't really want to continue this train of thought right now.
Tl;dr: Agency and choice are not the same thing. Keiko needs the former, and trying to solve that by giving her the latter is inefficient.
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So let's look at our fundamental problem:
Keiko has no agency. Party after party keep using her as a tool or treat her as a problem to route around.
She also knows that she is valuable as an asset, be it for the pangolin, her optimization, her fighting, logistics, etc..
Likewise, she knows that one of the main motivations for people routing around her is to protect her from situations she dislikes. To her this looks like people minimizing how much they have to 'deal' with her problems. The benefit she gets looks entirely incidental, they just want a 'useful asset'.
As of late, this has had horrible consequences to things she values. (Even if it's overblown and illusory from an outside perspective). Multiple things she values at her core have just ripped themselves apart because of people making decisions for her, or presenting a biased set of options.
People forcing her into patterns, even to 'help' her will just feel like a repeat of the same phenomenon. "They're just trying to make me a more useful asset"
This is problematic, because at this point is Keiko will probably react badly to being given choices, or even open ended overtures, to help her. (She'd definitely still be in the loop about things we are doing)
I don't think we can really fix this by giving Keiko choices or control, since that isn't the problem.
What she needs to stabilize right now is time with Tenten. Who is basically the only person she thinks wants her companvy with no strings attached.
Thing is, I'm not sure if stabilizing Keiko is the best thing for her. Like she's stuck where she is mentally. Were we back at Leaf, my first priority would be to tell Tenten whatever we can (sticking to facts, not judgements) about Keiko's state. If she has anything to say, heed it; if not, just informing her is good.
The thing I'd want to do, as Hazou, is give her 1000 hours. (Using 1000 in the ye-olde way, to mean "uncountably many". Whatever version of that works in the setting) With an explanation that, "while yeah, it is a literal gift of a thousand Hazou hours. But symbolically, we want to say that we care about Keiko, and that her value function is a large part of our own."
Mind, she won't take the gesture particularly well in the moment. But doing it now will be valuable later on in the process of getting her to feel like she has agency.
I am on a phone so I don't really want to continue this train of thought right now.
Tl;dr: Agency and choice are not the same thing. Keiko needs the former, and trying to solve that by giving her the latter is inefficient.