Hmm...
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This is the mind of Tomoe Mami.
She is lonely. Her loneliness defines her.
All she does stems
of that loneliness. That she pushes herself ever harder to present herself as the perfect magical girl is borne of a desire to be looked up to. That she adopts and helps people is obvious.
And every time, they leave her.
It wounds her deeply, every time, another crack in her perfection she desperately shores up.
And yet, she picks another, and tries again.
Kyuubey, perhaps her only constant friend (and even then, not much of one, but one she clings to for a lack of anyone else), brings to her news of a new potential in town, one with gargantuan potential.
And so, Tomoe Mami steels herself to try another time.
Perhaps it'll go better this time.
And then comes the white haired foreigner.
Sabrina.
And she's
perfect.
Everything that Mami could have ever hoped for. She needs help; poor dear hardly remembers her
self. She's cheerful, friendly, and just as happy to have a friend. She's more than willing to help Mami out in a hunt. She's a terrifyingly powerful magical girl, and more than strong enough to hold her own in a fight. She has a
unique power that makes her
amazing.
And she's perfectly happy to go along with Mami. She lives together with her, sees her off in the mornings, and then goes on hunts with her. She's even charismatic enough to do what Mami never believes she could, and helps to mend bridges with the
other magical girl in town. They banter together, and tease like they've known each other for years.
But.
But.
Mami begins to realize...
Perhaps Sabrina doesn't need her. Sure, she's a little reckless, but she has power and then some to blow through obstacles. Sure, she's a little rude, but she's happy and cheerful and charismatic that people can't help but like her. Sure, she tends to go off on the oddest of tangents, but it's just enough to be
cute, on her.
Perhaps Sabrina doesn't need broken old Mami, when she shines far brighter than Mami ever could.
She confesses, in a fit of emotion, baring her soul to this girl she feels she's known for half her life, hoping beyond hope that
this time, it doesn't go bad, but knowing that it will, that Sabrina, on seeing how pathetic Mami is, will walk away. Like everyone else.
But she doesn't.
Sabrina picks her up, tells her she's a wonderful person, that she's helped people. That she's
worth something.
And Mami lets herself believe.
She lets herself believe that one day she can live up to Sabrina.
That if she keeps at it, she can be as good a person as Sabrina says she is.
Perhaps it'll go better this time.
She doesn't think she can take it if it doesn't.
And so it goes.
They live together, they fight together. She doesn't mind much that Sabrina has to go do her own things, too. She can't be tied down all the time with her, after all.
Mami believes, and it is perfect.
And so it goes...
Then Sabrina says she has something to tell her. Something awful, from the way she acts.
Her worst fears come to life.
That Sabrina
knew her from the beginning. From a distance.
Like
Kyuubey said: Sabrina was a good actor.
She has nothing left.
