I know I promised this earlier, but this was a very rough week at work thus far. Please forgive me,
@Velorien, and may your quill be light as you spell out our
doom flawless victory tonight.
What were his options? He couldn't physically stop her going back to the Seventh Path. Well, maybe he could, but it would kill any prospect of reconciliation stone dead. But people in fiction never responded to shouts of "Wait!" It was almost as bad as "This isn't what it looks like!" and only a moderate improvement over "Just calm down!"
Well, thankfully we're not in fiction, and narrative holds no sway over these happenings.
You may follow me to neutral ground.
Man, on one hand this intimidating aura of Keiko's is clearly a coping strategy for situations she's uncomfortable with, and as such, not healthy to overuse. On the other, it's so fun to read.
"Now," Keiko said once they were seated, "be brief. Doubtless Jiraiya will arrive shortly, and I have no desire to interact with him."
"Keiko," Noburi began, "I'm sorry. I don't mean specifically for hurting your feelings—around here, we leave that to the experts—but I should have paid more attention to how you were feeling these last few months. It's not like I hadn't noticed that you've had a lot on your mind. Maybe if I'd done more to support you, we wouldn't be sitting here now, trying to bridge a gap that should never have been there in the first place.
"I know it doesn't change what's already happened," Noburi said, "but I understand exactly how I messed up, and I'm going to learn from my mistake. I'm sorry."
Noburi Awesome Counter: 1
"Your apology is unwarranted," Keiko said tensely. "I appreciate that I am exceedingly difficult to deal with, and do not contribute sufficient value to call for the expenditure of the time and energy necessary to address my psychological issues. I do not condemn you for having taken a neutral stance on the issue."
It was exactly what Hazō had expected. Exactly what frustrated him time and again. Exactly what could be a genuine threat to their relationship at a moment when it was so fragile. He still felt bad for how he'd handled the Mori situation, but sometimes the apologetic approach could only take you so far.
"Keiko, there is not one thing you just said that makes sense!"
"On the contrary, I can provide extensive—"
"Hold it," Hazō said. "You can get back to telling us how much you suck when I'm done."
He took a deep breath.
"Did you or did you not just walk out of that arena as the Chūnin Exam champion? Do you realise that by definition that makes you the greatest genin in the world?"
Keiko opened her mouth.
"I'm not done," Hazō snapped. "Have we, or have we not, repeatedly bet our lives on your planning skills, and always come out alive and sometimes unharmed? Are you, or are you not, a key part of the lives of many people, all of whom clearly have better judgement than you?
"Which part of that lets you say that we're not allowed to take care of you?"
Silence. Keiko thinking. Had he got through to her?
"You are missing the point," Keiko said. Hazō decided that just because the table was going to be replaced anyway didn't mean he should beat his head against it.
"You declare me to have objective value because you lack a clear point of reference. There is nothing about me that makes me particularly suited to being the Pangolin Summoner, and in fact I possess a number of features that render me less fit for the purpose. Countless shinobi would have fared better with the same resources. In regard to planning, I have stated before that I am average at best by Mori standards, and it is merely ill fortune that you were burdened with such, as opposed to a superior logistician, and an emotionally unstable one at that. Ultimately, I am interchangeable, indeed best interchanged in order to serve the needs of the clan—"
Well, this is more or less business as usual. Hazou has a lot of forward momentum with his anger, but rational arguments aren't enough to punch through Keiko's shell of self-loathing.
Something in Hazō snapped.
"Fuck the clan!"
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You have the power, Hazou! Tear down this wall!
Keiko and Noburi reeled back.
"I-I beg your pardon?"
"The clan means nothing," Hazo snarled. "Jiraiya invented it because it was useful. We signed up because it was useful. You do not get to decide your value based on a new surname, a nice house and a bottomless pit of responsibilities none of us asked for."
"Hazō…" Noburi began.
"Still talking. We accepted the label, and we accepted the baggage that came with it, because it was the best way for everyone to get what they wanted. We got rid of Akane, and are in the middle of getting rid of Keiko, because that's what we thought was best for this clan that we'd all created. And by 'we', I half-mean Jiraiya, because we let him make the most important choices for us.
"I'm not saying we dismantle the clan. We can't and we shouldn't. But you and you and me, Kagome-sensei and Mari-sensei and Akane, are not the Gōketsu. We are Team Uplift, and always were."
He could see Noburi and Keiko frowning, not sure where this was going or why. Hazō's own momentum was starting to stall, but then inspiration flared like a bonfire being struck by a fireball.
"We don't know what it's like to have normal families. Keiko, you and I had our lives revolve around a single person, and we lost them two years ago, and even if we can get them back, the kind of relationship we had back then is gone forever. Kagome-sensei was alone for too long, and on some level he's still getting his head around what it means to have friends. Mari-sensei's family destroyed her. Noburi, you're an exception except when you aren't, and I guess Akane's normal because of course she is. And Jiraiya's an orphan with a weird, tangled family that keeps leaving him behind. Maybe one day I'll even consider him one of us, as soon as he stops using fear to keep us in line.
"We don't know what it's like to have normal families, but I've made a decision. I've had enough of acting like having 'Gōketsu' in front of our names tells us who we are to each other. I've had enough of "stepsister", and "adopted sister", and "sibling", and "clansib", whatever that means. I can't even keep them straight in my head. Noburi, you're my brother. Keiko, you're my sister. Kagome-sensei is my crazy uncle, if he wants to be. Mari-sensei isn't quite a big sister, and isn't quite a mother, and maybe we'll come up with a new word for what she is, but she's as much one of us as the rest. Maybe it's time we asked her about dropping the 'sensei'. And Akane being my sister would have been weird before, but I guess that problem has solved itself.
"Keiko, we are your family now. The word 'value' doesn't mean anything to family."
Hazou Awesome Counter: 2
I honestly don't think the clan thing is that unhealthy for everyone; Noburi and Kagome are doing fine, and Mari was as well before Hana got to her. Jiraiya, in spite of how adversarially Hazou regards him this update, seems to be slowly moving from "This is a convenient way of getting what I want." to "Maybe I can have an actual family?".
It is, however, definitely unhealthy for Keiko, and it doesn't sit well with Hazou, with his experiences so clearly demonstrating that "Clan" and "Family" aren't the same thing. And Akane definitely suffered as a result of our transition to a clan.
Hazou is ultimately right, though. The clan is a tool, a scaffolding to anchor our power to. It's not an end in itself. In this, I think Hazou's mindset is very well aligned with that of the players'.
"Hazō, I do not know if I am ready to have a family," Keiko said with an edge of panic.
Eh, you've had one for a decent while now, girl. Just refused to accept it with your typical mulish stubbornness.
He looked straight at Keiko.
"I love you.
Damn. What a line.
Noburi Awesome Counter: 3
"In an 'if you can get over Mari-sensei, I can get over you, dammit' kind of way," he added a few seconds later, "which is practically fraternal.
"So that's the L-word out in the open," he concluded. "We're all allowed to use it whenever we want, without worrying that it might be embarrassing, or inappropriate, or too strong, or that it might be taken the wrong way, or any of that other crap that's been going through our heads—or my head, anyway—since this clan business got real.
"Oh, and Keiko," Noburi gave a grin, "family tip from an expert: watch out for your younger siblings. Troublemakers, the lot of them."
Keiko snerked even as she made a motion with her sleeve which in no way resembled someone trying to wipe away tears.
"Next order of business," Hazō said, drawing attention away from Keiko while she composed herself, "is bringing back Akane. We've all failed her as a family, and we're going to fix that the second we get to Leaf. Political concerns and clan priorities be damned; we've got a lost sister to bring home."
Akane turning out to have been killed by Tsunade right after Hazou makes a vow to bring her back in the fold would make for some heartrending drama and painful character growth for Hazou...
She's actually dead, isn't she? Is that the other shoe,
@Velorien? You monster.
"I like it," Jiraiya said. "Even a slug wouldn't be dumb enough to go for a full frontal assault on an unknown enemy who can see you coming, which means it has shock value. Also, if it works and she doesn't crush you like said slug, it could be a big leap forward at a time when we won't have many more chances to deal with her. I get this itch whenever somebody somewhere is pointing a dagger at my back, and coming back to Leaf without reaching an understanding is going to drive me crazy. I hate wildcards unless they're me or mine."
Like a certain team of missing-nin.
Hazou's somewhat adversarial attitude towards Jiraiya shows itself again here. It's not that he's wrong, but it's much better to include people rather than exclude them. We might have to clear the air between them a bit. Maybe reinstate "Better Left Unsaid" in a friendlier setting?
Hazō thought back to the Kurosawa, who'd discarded their own heir for the sake of the clan's reputation. Had there been some kind of ruthless calculation behind their unforgivable betrayal, rather than common-or-garden prejudice as he'd always assumed?
Hmmm, and here's a hook for actually interacting with the Kurosawa. I have in mind a scene, where Hazou eventually obtains a private audience with Kurosawa Ginrei, and asks the man point blank what kind of calculation led to Hana's exile. What do you think,
@Velorien?
"Hazō," Keiko said carefully, "that was her treating you as an equal. She was offering you the opportunity to play the game at her level. As she found you increasingly incapable of doing so, she shifted to a didactic approach intended to raise your level, with an ambiguous ratio of instruction to personal amusement."
"an ambiguous ratio of instruction to personal amusement" - well, that's pretty optimistic in the sense that I'd prefer if Ami was amused by jerking Hazou around, as opposed to just going through the motions for their utility.
"The obvious guess is that it's a show of dominance: 'I'm not only a better player than you, I'm so much better I can teach you.' Or worse, 'I'm so much better than you that I can give away my techniques and still expect to win.' But showing off that kind of dominance over Hazō is overkill. It's like using the Rasengan to swat a fly."
"I appreciate and respect you too, sir."
Hey, Hazou did very well on that meeting! Growth mindset! Don't worry Hazou, the hivemind sees and appreciates your progress.
"Ooh, I know this one," Noburi raised his hand. "It's a favour thing. Hazō can't refuse to passively learn from her, and when he does, that puts him in her debt. She can go, 'Oh, hey, remember how I taught you how to greeble the quong?' and he can't exactly say, "But I never wanted to know how to greeble the quong, even though I'm totally going to go on to greeble quongs all over the place because it's a really valuable skill."
"Greeble the quong?" Hazō asked sceptically.
"Sure. It's like greebling the zuzubel, but you divide instead of multiplying. I bribed Honoka to teach me so I could shock Kagome next time I was feeling bored."
Noburi Awesome Counter: 4
"Keiko, I was going to talk to you about your sister," Hazō said. He really didn't want to get into the family thing in front of Jiraiya, whom he was deliberately excluding. You had to be able to trust family not to murder you for the greater good as defined by them personally.
Right, need to take the edge off this anti-Jiraiya sentiment.
Ironically, Hazou's criticism of Jiraiya here looks very similar to what Keiko thought of Hazou recently - that he was sacrificing her wants and needs on the altar of the greater good. So, maybe Jiraiya isn't quite so heartless either?
"The way she's treating you is unacceptable, and we have the leverage to make it stop."
Keiko looked down at her feet. "Not unacceptable," she muttered.
"What?"
"Not unacceptable. Ami is everything to me, even still. She raised me. She saved me from the world. She sacrificed hours and days that could have hastened her meteoric rise to help a little girl who had earned nothing and deserved nothing. If Ami wishes to hurt me, then she may hurt me."
Hazō, Noburi and Jiraiya exchanged glances.
"Kid," Jiraiya said, "I was there with Orochimaru during his last days in Leaf, and that is still one of the most fucked-up things I've ever heard.
Oh? Will Orochimaru turn out to be another one of Velorien's "favourite to write" characters? I can see why he'd leave society to hide out in the wilderness, The Evil One's attention is a horrible curse to bear.
"Hazō, do the thing. You have carte blanche."
In all seriousness, we must be improving if Jiraiya is willing to say this to Hazou and not be afraid of the whole world exploding within the hour. I think we got this "clan heir" thing locked down, my friends.