The Phoenixian
The Glacier Witch
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Too late.That's, uh, that's... we are not voting that giant hydra thing in mkay? And... God I dunno.

But seriously, once you condense that, it looks like a very good analysis.
Too late.That's, uh, that's... we are not voting that giant hydra thing in mkay? And... God I dunno.
Finally someone says something. What even. I want to make a point of this:No. Dude. What even?
Don't... don't tease Homura about actually serious topics. Just don't. Please. She doesn't need that from us.
Without being too harsh Homura at this moment.I kind of also feel we should try and make it clear that it's not okay for Homura to think of Sayaka in terms of "she's useful". Sayaka's not a commodity or a tool, she's a person. Admittedly, the fact that Homura's even asking for help in understanding Sayaka is already a very positive step, but it's not healthy for Homura herself to think of people like that. I understand why she does and what led to it, but I'm sure we can all agree it's not healthy.
For nothing.
Okay, I'm wary here. Please do not fall into the trap of cutting too much.
Firn has made mistakes before because what was thought to be obvious was not explained, and at other times we've distilled complex points down to meaningless shorthands for what should be entire discussions.
[] People are complicated. Millions of tiny features contribute to their actions, and nobody can account for all of them. But.
[] Sayaka is... Loyal, hardworking when she puts her mind to it, strong moral compass... And highly judgemental, with low self-esteem and lower self-worth. For the most part, these traits define who she is, what she does, and how she sees the world.
-[] Stemming from those, and from her youth and lack of experience, she sees the world in black and white. Either someone is a good person with forgivable flaws, or a bad person who might do something decent on occasion but isn't to be trusted... and she makes conclusions about who falls into which category really, really quickly.
--[] It makes her a great friend, someone who will never believe bad things about you, someone who takes your enemies as her own... Just as long as you're not in conflict with another of her friends who she admires more greatly or is closer to.
---[] She values Madoka the most. Then Mami, who she takes as a role model due to her low self-worth and her morals, seeing Mami as a Hero of Justice where she sees herself as just a talentless poor girl. Hitomi falls in there somewhere, but you're much less clear on that. And then the trouble has always been that Sayaka decides Kyubey is good people and doesn't trust or admire Homura enough to place her over Kyubey.
----[] How that actually happens is complicated, and you don't have much information to work with, but it's some blend of Mami trusting Kyubey and Kyubey making good first impressions. You're almost certain it's mostly that Mami trusts Kyubey -- Mami is who Sayaka wants to be, from Sayaka's point of view, so she can't have bad people as her friends.
-----[] Once Sayaka sees Kyubey as a "good person who might have forgivable flaws," and doesn't view Homura more highly than Kyubey... Then it's "Why would Kyubey do that," and what she really means when she says that is "I am not willing to believe you telling me that Kyubey is actually evil." And more recently, when Homura makes a poor first impression on Sayaka, usually coming off as cold, then Sayaka categorizes her as a bad person for it and promptly will believe things like "Homura is the reason Mami is dead," because that's what bad people do, right?
------[] Here, that's been turned on its head from the moment Mami broke down crying about Kyubey being an evil bastard in front of Sayaka. Sayaka admires Mami a helluva lot more than Kyubey -- Mami is the nice cake-baking senpai who risks her life fighting monsters, in Sayaka's eyes, while Kyubey is just kind of there. And so the moment Mami turns on Kyubey, Sayaka believes, and then Kyubey is evil. Meanwhile, Homura is Mami's friend, and Mami can't have bad people as her friends, so Homura is a good person who might have forgivable flaws. Things kind of stay in limbo for a while, because Sayaka hasn't figured out a way to forgive what she sees as Homura's flaws -- and then Walpurgisnacht is explained, and suddenly Homura is Captain Ahab, all abrasive and sketchy and unfriendly but actually she's at heart a good person out to kill a giant monster. Now Homura is Sayaka's friend and a good person, and... well, Sayaka stands by and helps her friends.
---[] As for her tendency to get herself killed through bullheaded idiocy... It's a product of her lack of self worth, her contact with Mami, her rich and/or to her eyes more talented friends, and her morals, and in many ways these things are exacerbated here. Sayaka feels on some level that she's lived her life in the shadow of others, and even that she pulls them down, that she doesn't have anything to contribute to society. Homura may have heard her sometimes say that she doesn't really know what she wants to do with her life... in being a Magical Girl, Sayaka finds a calling. Problem is it's not in being a Magical Girl, but in being the kind of Magical Girl that Mami is. Selflessly protecting others from witches is, she decides, what she can do where Kyousuke has violin, where Hitomi is rich and talented. Add in a good dose of grief and she's totally willing to throw away her own life... and then she also rejects help from anybody she thinks of as a bad person, because bad people aren't to be trusted and therefore accepting their help isn't to be done.
[] ... Put together, all of this is, by the by, why you believe Sayaka in particular, here, would react positively to Homura's past. Telling her about it doesn't work when she's thinking of Kyubey as a good person, or Homura as a bad person. But things are reversed. She wants to believe good things about Homura because Homura is a good person. She'll readily believe bad things about Kyubey because it's a bad "person."
[X] Kaizuki
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT CAT VOTED FOR BUT I TRUST IT
got to go to class
Too late.*Edits post*
But seriously, once you condense that, it looks like a very good analysis.
I would like to phrase it better, too, but I can't think of how right now.
I'm sorta of the opinion that if you aren't able to condense something down, then you don't really understand it,
Isn't that kind of what Homura is doing in asking us about this? If anything, I'd congratulate Homura for taking this step on her own.Ask Homura to give Sayaka a chance, to show she's good, and not an obstacle or a thing to be thought in terms of 'usefulness'.
So, uh, something that Homura almost certainly doesn't know, that undermined her every effort to warn the others that Kyuubey is using them?
"Why would Kyuubey do that?"
Homura doesn't know what Kyuubey is getting out of this, because she doesn't have our third-person omniscient metaknowledge.
I mean, maybe Homura didn't get the entropy speech, and if she didn't we should fill her in, but is that actually relevant to her question about Sayaka?
It's not like Sabrina told Sayaka about entropy either.
It is, because part of the underlying issue Homura has was her inability to get Sayaka to ever believe her or take her side. And one of the biggest issues there is that she couldn't ever give Sayaka a reason why Kyuubey would do something so horrible.I mean, maybe Homura didn't get the entropy speech, and if she didn't we should fill her in, but is that actually relevant to her question about Sayaka?
It's not like Sabrina told Sayaka about entropy either.
It's relevant to everything, what the heck?
"Why would Kyubey do that?" -- Sayaka Miki, timeline three.
"..." -- Akemi Homura, timeline three.
It is, because part of the underlying issue Homura has was her inability to get Sayaka to ever believe her or take her side. And one of the biggest issues there is that she couldn't ever give Sayaka a reason why Kyuubey would do something so horrible.
"Ask Kyuubey if it's the truth."It's kind of a fundamental question: did Sayaka disbelieve Homura because she couldn't tell Sayaka why Kyubey did it, or would Sayaka have disbelieved Homura even if Homura had been able to tell her that Kyubey does what it does to tamper with entropy? I think probably the latter is the case, but...
Basically.
I think your earlier analysis is right, it's an emotional matter for Sayaka, who she decides she should trust and who not to.It's kind of a fundamental question: did Sayaka disbelieve Homura because she couldn't tell Sayaka why Kyubey did it, or would Sayaka have disbelieved Homura even if Homura had been able to tell her that Kyubey does what it does to tamper with entropy? I think probably the latter is the case, but...
I'm going to admit I'm entirely confused about what @Kaizuki means in this section. Are we trying to get Homura to talk about her life in the orphanage, or about the loops? What's the purpose of doing either of those things?
Getting Homura to tell someone about the loops is, in all honesty, a quest goal. IMO, much like explaining to Mami why we feel she's done so much for us was a good idea, explaining to Homura why it's safe for her to talk about the loops with the group is also a good idea. We have a history of saying things while giving little substantial justification... It doesn't work. This is just a convenient opportunity to explain why Sayaka wouldn't disbelieve her at the same time as we explain why Sayaka isn't being... Her usual unknowingly suicidal self.
"For hearts long lost and full of fright,
For those alone in Blackest Night.
Accept our ring and join our fight,
Love conquers all with violet light!"
(There's an actual Pink Lantern Corp. because of COURSE there's a Pink Lantern Corp)
I'd say something like "that's for the best" but that would imply that I knew of someone who fully understands the mechanics of the English language.I don't understand the mechanics of English but apparently I can write very eloquently.