"I..." You dither for a moment. You
could go into all the update stuff you had on your mind, to keep her up to speed on what's happening in Asunaro and to ask her if she's managed anything with the original Yuuri's Clear Seed.
You toss all that out. For the moment, at least, that isn't important.
"I want to know how you're doing," you say, smile unwavering. You look at her,
really look, and... she looks listless, if you had to describe her in a word. One hand still resting on the mouse, the other curled on the desk, her shoulders slack and expression bored.
Pile of clothes in the corner, and now that you're looking, fresh clothes hanging over the headboard of her bed, half-unfolded from what must have been a careless toss. No plates, empty, filled, or in-between, nor anything outright
dirty in the room, either, which you can probably chalk up to Yuki being fastidious about that.
Listless.
"I heard you weren't eating well," you say before she can snark at you again. "What kind of foods do you prefer?"
Anri gives you a disbelieving look.
"It's a small thing," you say. "If it would make you feel better, then I'm more than willing to see what I can do."
Anger flickers across her face as she swells up, as if preparing for a rant... and then abruptly deflates, her gaze skittering off and down to the floor as the energy drains out of her.
"I've had a lot of time to think," she mutters sullenly.
... you suppose she would, yeah. Your gaze flickers to the computer -
that's not a difficult connection to make either. Something to get out of her head, to
distract herself from her thoughts. As vices go, it's... not too bad, you think, and it's certainly not as self-destructive as things could be.
Then again.
You carefully
don't look at her left hand, curled loosely around the Clear Seed you'd left with her.
Yuuri's Clear Seed, the soul of the girl she loves. And you don't know whether that's a
romantic love or not, but you're comfortable saying that Wishing to become someone else after learning of their death is something in the same ballpark - and any additional details aren't yours to dig up. Not like this.
But with that Clear Seed held close...
Well.
You'd...
thought that leaving it with her like that would be a good thing, especially since she would have the time to channel magic and hopefully make tangible progress, but now you find a kernel of worry working its way into your mind. And it's not like you can expect to just ask to take it away from her, either.
"... yeah, I guess so," you say. "I... maybe it rings hollow, considering
I'm the one who put you here, but... I'm sorry. I wish things could have gone differently. I really do."
"Don't we all," Airi says, her eyes lowered to the Clear Seed cradled in her hand. She sighs. "Seriously, what do you want?"
"I mean, I'm here to check in on you and see how you're doing," you say. "And again, I know it might ring hollow coming from me, but I really want to know how you're doing."
"And I'm
sure you can guess," Airi says, waving grandly at the confines of the room with her free hand. "It's a
lovely cage."
"That's more than reasonable," you say, grimacing.
Ultimately, though... she stole a Clear Seed. And yes, maybe she thought it was Yuuri's Grief Seed, but you were clear to yourself, and to everyone else: Clear Seeds are
dangerous, in the wrong hands.
Unlimited magic is something you have to be careful of handing out, and knowing what Airi planned and could have done with that Clear Seed, you couldn't just let her go.
More than that, you feel like you can't just let it go. You can't just let
her go. You believe in rehabilitative justice, yes, and you're still shaping out what you want that to look like. You want to get people counselling, to
help people. But at the same time, you can't let people
take Clear Seeds, not when you'd simply give them out if asked, not when you'd fully expect to kick off
wars over them if taking them by force were on the table.
"I... is there anything I can do?" you say instead.
Her gaze snaps back to yours again, locking eyes with you as she thrusts the Seed at you.
"
You tell me," she hisses. "
Is there anything you can do?"
"Let's find out," you say.
You reach out to touch a finger against the Clear Seed - you don't think you can take it away from her, not with the desperate
hunger on her face. You don't need to touch the Seed, either, but a gesture to show you're actually
doing something, and to help you focus as you finally all your attention to fall from Airi and down to the Clear Seed of Asuka Yuuri.
Of Arzt Kochen.
You exhale.
It's not like you weren't aware of its presence, but your initial impression hadn't been promising. It looked and felt much like any other Clear Seed, that same glassy crystal in its cage of intricately detailed metal. But now you turn your attention fully towards it, examining it with your senses, both physical and magical.
There's Grief, of course, that ever-present trickle constantly seeping into every Clear Seed, but there isn't even enough to cloud the crystal yet. And at the same time, it mingles with the soft radiance of
hope, of magic that hums of better days, of joy, of love. Of overwhelming delight of wobbly first steps in another's arms, of shared meals, of a spoon, traded as a good luck charm.
You turn your mind's eye away from that. It's voyeuristic, in a way, despite the fact that you
know your friends' stories in equally intimate detail. Even Airi's and Yuuri's stories, once-upon-a-nevers you're not quite sure apply exactly: sourceless knowledge you've never been able to place your finger on, bubbling up from deep within you... but experiencing it like this is different, and uncomfortable.
You turn your attention to the abyssal speck of darkness at the core of the Clear Seed. To what you think of as Arzt Kochen itself,
herself, the never-ending despair of a Witch mired in its own grief.
Arzt Kochen pulses beneath your gaze.
It's nothing
physical, not at all. But there's
something impinging faintly against what you vaguely think of as your soul-sense, a sense of attention turned your way, weak and hazy and distant, maddened and mourning and thrashing, scattered and shattered and splintered, a dizzying series of impressions ripping through your mind... and gone again. It's not the simmering despair of Hildegarde, that time you'd tried to reach out to it.
But you're not sure
what this is, either.
[] What do you tell Airi?
[] Attempt to use telepathy on Arzt Kochen
[] Ask Airi to attempt telepathy on Arzt Kochen
[] Some specific experiment to try?
[] Write-in (word count limit: 150 words)
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Alright. I'm sorry this update took so long - the week before, I had a nasty bout of stomach flu across the entire weekend and part of the week, and then that left me playing catchup
last week on everything I didn't manage to. Life is life, I suppose.
But still, we're back! I'll try and keep the momentum going (he says, having said that a dozen times before >_>).