Honestly, all the talk about what has happened really makes me want to try and read the whole 5852 pages of this thread too. It seems like despite whatever drama has happened it's been a real fun game overall for the players and QM alike. On the other hand, it took me a few days to just ready the 27 pages of IC posts. I might die before I finish reading it.
I...
There's been so, so much grief over this, you have no idea.
And, honestly? I blame myself for so, so much of it. Almost all of it, even.
If I'd just been all here, mentally, the necessary arguments were right there in front of my face. All I had to do was make them. That the attitude Rionna displayed was simply unacceptable, as it made her a clear and imminent threat to others. We could have gemmed her four or five posts into her existence and
that would have been that. I even
started to make them at one point. But my fucked-up brain just didn't follow through.
And the end result of it all, honestly, has been that a number of people I consider friends and respect deeply have been so, so hurt. Almost nobody has a clear enough idea of what this has done -- to Firnagzen, and to virtually every poster here who isn't, well, as new as you are.
I'm not planning to open the goddamn floodgate on my archive of Mami stuff
three IC days early because I think it's good timing.
I'm planning to do that because I've come to feel that we're currently a danger to ourselves.
I'm not going to be pushing to have more of our friends around us only because I think it's good for Sabrina's mentality.
I'm also going to be doing that because I think that they as characters allow Firn to better anchor the plot and the flow of discussion.
I...
I want to highlight something from the most recent chapter.
You groan, covering your face with one hand. "I'm mentally exhausted
This is both
extremely abnormal and
incredibly dangerous.
There is currently a single point of failure for
everything we hope to achieve. All of it. Mami's wellbeing, a resolution to the loop, dewitching, de
griefing, absolutely all of it. That point of failure is Sabrina. She's supposed to be the pillar of strength, because Mitakihara -- and the world, in fact --
desperately need that pillar. As more magical girls contract into a setting where the old, horrific system doesn't exist, things will stabilize, but the truth of the matter is that for the moment everywhere we look
everyone except us is going to have deep mental issues. Exposing teenagers to this sort of system creates
trauma, plain and simple.
We have two advantages, folks: we've got grief powers and we're mentally stable.
We cannot afford to lose that stability. We
cannot afford to push ourselves to exhaustion time and time again, because
we will burn out. IC if not OOC. Firn's warned us repeatedly against overreaching, and I will tell you now: we can overreach in this manner.
To be honest, in scenarios where we lack metaknowledge we need to be quicker to judge. The very first question for Rionna should have been, "If you didn't have to harm other magical girls to avoid dying or witching out, would you still do it?" And when her answer was yes, the second question should been "Why?" And following her response to that, being what it was, that she harmed others because she could and meant to continue doing so, we should have gemmed her then and there.
We cannot as a thread afford another Rionna situation. We cannot.