The Heart of the Matter
SaltyWaffles
I am dissapoint, son
- Pronouns
- He/Him
Wrote this, @BoneyM . Not sure if you ever accept things such as this as canon, or whatnot. If I had to give it a title...
The Heart of the Matter
It's rather surreal, you think, seeing dwarves being jolly everywhere you look. Even those whose grimness seems everpresent are clearly in high spirits, at least relatively speaking. There will be celebrations throughout Karak Eight Peaks tonight, you know. Preparations are already underway, though almost entirely by the noncombatants of the karak. Still, one dwarf has his mind on other things entirely, and you see this clearly as you walk out onto the top of the Citadel, seeing King Belegar gazing out at the Caldera.
"You called for me?" you say, walking up alongside him. Despite feeling quite satisfied and relieved, you can read his mood well enough to know that he did not summon you for a social occasion, and your tone is adjusted appropriately.
He is silent for a moment before answering. "Songs will be written for this battle. The story will be spread far and wide among the Karaz Ankor. The greatest victory my people has achieved in living memory. And yet..." He turns to look at you, emotions dancing across his features. "...I was not here. Not for much of it. And even when I was...it was your ideas and insight that proved decisive. While much credit belongs to the runelords and the warriors and the mages, the credit of command is something else entirely, and I think you're more deserving of it this time than I."
The weight of that statement floors you. For a dwarven king to outright say something like that to anyone below his station would be remarkable--for him to say it to a human subordinate is unprecedented. Perhaps noticing your shock, he laughs, but it is a light, almost sad thing. It is that, more than anything, that brings clarity to your mind. You take a minute to gather your thoughts while he looks out towards the Caldera, seemingly melancholy.
"You are my king," you say. "That means more than just loyalty and service. I'm here because of you. We're all here because of you." He turns to look at you once more. "Sure, I made good use of the hand I was dealt, but the only reason I got to play was because you had given me everything I needed to win. I had all the right people, all the right tools, all the right defenses, all the right resources, all because you inspired everyone to believe in you. And besides, I know that you know that much of command is simply delegating tasks to other, highly capable leaders. That we already had all of those capable leaders under your banner was all you."
He tilts his head slightly, gaze shifting to the side, features smoothing out, clearly considering that point of view. You say nothing, despite feeling to urge to say even more to make your case. Your faith is rewarded a minute later, when he nods decisively. "Mm. I suppose so. But you'll forgive me if I thank the Ancestors and your Ranald for fortune blessing my Expedition with you."
You can't meet his eyes after something like that, and fight down a blush. Being praised so highly by a dwarven king is something the peasant girl you once were--even the apprentice of the Grey College you once were--could never have imagined. "I feel the same way about you, you know. After...after Abelhelm died, the campaign he died for was finished with decisive success, and Roswita...dismissed me, I didn't know what to do with myself.
"I think I do best when I'm given a chance to put down roots and a clear set of goals to work with. But then I suddenly found myself with nothing--no leader, no home, no goals. Your expedition sounded like a good break from all of that, a good, simple cause to join and fight for while I figured out what I wanted to do with my life. And...I began to feel like my old self again. Working towards clear goals, a new home, and a leader I greatly respect and believe in--not to mention all of the great research opportunities--it's everything I could have hoped for."
For some reason, the gentle smile he gives you in return is enough to make you bashful again.
You fall into a companionable silence for a while, gaze returning to the Caldera, lost in thought. Finally, though, he sighs. "This letter..."
He doesn't need to say anything more for you to catch on. "Any idea how you're going to respond?" you ask, genuinely curious.
"Part of me wants to declare a Grudge," he admits, to your alarm. Noticing your worried glance, he quickly clarifies. "Only a part. The rest of me knows it would be petty and foolish. But letting the matter go entirely doesn't feel right either."
"I don't know how much he knew, when he wrote it," you say. "And him deciding not to send aid is one thing. But for him to just blatantly write off an entire karak like that, to write off all of the people within it, before the battle even begins...the implications are disturbing."
"Aye. I don't understand it--shouldn't the High King believe in his people more? Or be driven to change things if he doesn't? Does he see something I can't? Does he know something I don't?"
Unspoken, but no less understood, is the question of whether or not what Thorgrim may know is something so terrible that even the High King has given in to despair and almost apathy.
"You're going to ask him?"
"Of course. The question is whether or not I ask him in front of an audience. And the tone with which I ask."
And that really is the fulcrum on which all of this rests, you realize. With that letter in hand, Belegar could all but declare Thorgrim unworthy of the throne and the crown which he wears, and create a schism in the Karaz Ankor never before seen. With such a spectacular and decisive series of victories under his belt, he could challenge the status quo itself, and become an icon for change within Karaz Ankor. Or he could keep his confusion, his outrage, his doubts, his protests to himself, and demand an explanation from Thorgrim in private, passing up the opportunity. It is an enormous moment in dwarven history, one which could drastically alter the future of the dawi. That must weigh on him tremendously, in a way you can't even imagine.
Then, with a mental startle, you realize that he's asking you for your thoughts on what he should do.
...you suddenly feel very small again.
Among the Karaz Ankor, the name of Belegar Ironhammer drew an increasingly admiring awe--the dwarves, long used to disappointment and a world that seemed rigged against them, had long lost hope of reclaiming one of the Karaks of old.
Karak Eight Peaks, being a sprawling, dynamic, and rather large karak infested with enemies, made it a tough target. That it was practically next door to another enemy-held karak made reclaiming it even more daunting. That Belegar's expedition had reclaimed it even partially in such a quick and decisive campaign was practically the talk of the Karaz Ankor non-stop for years--fueled by another round of success at the recapturing of Karagril and securing of the Citadel. All of this success was at unusually low cost in terms of blood and time, and it put Belegar on a pedestal among the younger dwarves, who had yet to develop the classic dwarven cynicism. Among the older, more cautious dwarves, however, learning to truly hope again was a scary thing. Mathilde had heard from various sources--Belegar included--that many of the older dwarves were still predicting that Eight Peaks would suffer from a sudden reversal of fortune any day now, and that holding the few peaks they had would become an unwinnable, brutal war of attrition with the eventual outcome inevitable.
This victory would change all that. Five peaks reclaimed in a day. Two greenskin tribes destroyed, the contigents of three skaven clans within Eight Peaks all but annihilated, a colony of trolls wiped out, a dragon made peace with. A truly astounding victory, but many would discount it as simply luck--and it was not entirely untrue, you admit to herself. Taking advantage of numerous prime opportunities and exploiting them ruthlessly and efficiently required a great deal of skill, coordination, and cohesion, but those opportunities usually required a great deal of luck to occur in the first place.
But then...a million-strong Waaagh merely a day later? Against a Karak that was not nearly fortified enough by dwarven standards, against a defending force too small to face it in open battle, even in a chokepoint? Even if they survived, it should have meant that the greenskins would simply retake all of the karags that had been reclaimed just a day earlier, and things would be back where they had been. Instead...victory, complete and glorious. A million-strong Waaagh obliterated, with virtually no survivors, in less than a day. And what a statement that was--not only could the newly re-founded Karak Eight Peaks hold against the enemy without suffering serious attrition, not only could it decisively win offensively against the enemy with relatively light losses, it could then defend against massive invasions even when its defenses and defenders were in one of the worst states possible--stretched thin, unfortified, exhausted from a day of fighting and marching, and with mere hours to prepare. Indeed, it could defend so successfully that it made even the most fortified and established of Karaks look weak by comparison. Of course, it was more complicated than that, with plenty of reasons why the feat was not quite as unfathomably astounding as it first seemed, you know, but first impressions mattered, and the first rumors that would circulate would include none of the mitigating factors.
And those first rumors would start when Belegar confronted Thorgrim at his throne room, in front of an audience of representatives from all major clans in Karaz Ankor.
Diplomacy was not your strong-suit, nor was it your responsibility on Belegar's council. Nonetheless, it was you Belegar had asked for, as you and Belegar stand at the top of the Citadel, looking out at what had recently been a battlefield.
Despite your fear, despite the responsibility that you feel totally unqualified to bear, you steel yourself. Your king needs you, and damn it, you'll do your best to rise to the occasion, just like you did with the Battle for Karak Eight Peaks.
Use your training, damn it! you think to yourself.
Okay, what are the key points on which this matter rests?
Does Thorgrim deserve the benefit of the doubt?
Would a schism in the Karaz Ankor be worth the potential change it could bring?
Would such a golden opportunity to create such a schism present itself again, and if not, would it be worth triggering it over potentially settling for a lesser opportunity later?
You lose track of how long you stand there, staring out into the Caldera but seeing nothing, furiously working through the problem in your mind.
Finally, though, you give your answer. "I don't know Thorgrim well enough to judge whether he's worth the benefit of the doubt. But I can say that one of the most critical things the Karaz Ankor has always had going for it is its unity. It's never had a civil war, never split into separate empires, never had any bitter rivalries develop between its parts.
"Karaz Ankor needs to change--how, exactly, I'm not sure, and I may never really know. But things can't just continue as they have been. You've been the driving force behind that change, intentionally or not, and maybe your continued success can inspire other holds without increasing tensions. Maybe leading by example will be enough."
He takes a minute to consider that. "And what about Thorgrim himself? If he rules in despair and fatalism, not challenging that when the perfect opportunity presents itself may doom us to too little change, too late."
"Or he may have just made a mistake, and your stunning success will cause him to change. Maybe he just needs someone to inspire him for once, not just with an accomplishment, but an undeniable trend."
He grunts, acknowledging the point. "Still," you add, "I would keep the letter, though. Just in case."
He glances back at you and nods.
You lapse back into companionable silence once more for a few minutes.
"...I know it's a bad time, but I have a favor to ask," you say, hesitantly.
He looks over at you, curiosity blatant in his gaze.
"Much as I would hate to pull a gyrocarriage crew away from the victory celebrations, I need to get to Altdorf as soon as possible. I don't want to be late for my seminar on Waaagh and Peace. It's my first seminar--my first lecture, even, and leaving a bad first impression would be terrible."
He stares at you, his expression shifting in a way that would be almost comical if you were in the right mood. Then, he starts chortling, and soon progresses to straight up, full-lunged laughter. You're caught between indignation and confusion--you were being serious! The academic side of the Colleges could be brutal, and you knew that first lectures could make or break one's prestige.
Finally, he manages to get his laughter and breathing under control. "Only you, Mathilde. Only you."
The Heart of the Matter
It's rather surreal, you think, seeing dwarves being jolly everywhere you look. Even those whose grimness seems everpresent are clearly in high spirits, at least relatively speaking. There will be celebrations throughout Karak Eight Peaks tonight, you know. Preparations are already underway, though almost entirely by the noncombatants of the karak. Still, one dwarf has his mind on other things entirely, and you see this clearly as you walk out onto the top of the Citadel, seeing King Belegar gazing out at the Caldera.
"You called for me?" you say, walking up alongside him. Despite feeling quite satisfied and relieved, you can read his mood well enough to know that he did not summon you for a social occasion, and your tone is adjusted appropriately.
He is silent for a moment before answering. "Songs will be written for this battle. The story will be spread far and wide among the Karaz Ankor. The greatest victory my people has achieved in living memory. And yet..." He turns to look at you, emotions dancing across his features. "...I was not here. Not for much of it. And even when I was...it was your ideas and insight that proved decisive. While much credit belongs to the runelords and the warriors and the mages, the credit of command is something else entirely, and I think you're more deserving of it this time than I."
The weight of that statement floors you. For a dwarven king to outright say something like that to anyone below his station would be remarkable--for him to say it to a human subordinate is unprecedented. Perhaps noticing your shock, he laughs, but it is a light, almost sad thing. It is that, more than anything, that brings clarity to your mind. You take a minute to gather your thoughts while he looks out towards the Caldera, seemingly melancholy.
"You are my king," you say. "That means more than just loyalty and service. I'm here because of you. We're all here because of you." He turns to look at you once more. "Sure, I made good use of the hand I was dealt, but the only reason I got to play was because you had given me everything I needed to win. I had all the right people, all the right tools, all the right defenses, all the right resources, all because you inspired everyone to believe in you. And besides, I know that you know that much of command is simply delegating tasks to other, highly capable leaders. That we already had all of those capable leaders under your banner was all you."
He tilts his head slightly, gaze shifting to the side, features smoothing out, clearly considering that point of view. You say nothing, despite feeling to urge to say even more to make your case. Your faith is rewarded a minute later, when he nods decisively. "Mm. I suppose so. But you'll forgive me if I thank the Ancestors and your Ranald for fortune blessing my Expedition with you."
You can't meet his eyes after something like that, and fight down a blush. Being praised so highly by a dwarven king is something the peasant girl you once were--even the apprentice of the Grey College you once were--could never have imagined. "I feel the same way about you, you know. After...after Abelhelm died, the campaign he died for was finished with decisive success, and Roswita...dismissed me, I didn't know what to do with myself.
"I think I do best when I'm given a chance to put down roots and a clear set of goals to work with. But then I suddenly found myself with nothing--no leader, no home, no goals. Your expedition sounded like a good break from all of that, a good, simple cause to join and fight for while I figured out what I wanted to do with my life. And...I began to feel like my old self again. Working towards clear goals, a new home, and a leader I greatly respect and believe in--not to mention all of the great research opportunities--it's everything I could have hoped for."
For some reason, the gentle smile he gives you in return is enough to make you bashful again.
You fall into a companionable silence for a while, gaze returning to the Caldera, lost in thought. Finally, though, he sighs. "This letter..."
He doesn't need to say anything more for you to catch on. "Any idea how you're going to respond?" you ask, genuinely curious.
"Part of me wants to declare a Grudge," he admits, to your alarm. Noticing your worried glance, he quickly clarifies. "Only a part. The rest of me knows it would be petty and foolish. But letting the matter go entirely doesn't feel right either."
"I don't know how much he knew, when he wrote it," you say. "And him deciding not to send aid is one thing. But for him to just blatantly write off an entire karak like that, to write off all of the people within it, before the battle even begins...the implications are disturbing."
"Aye. I don't understand it--shouldn't the High King believe in his people more? Or be driven to change things if he doesn't? Does he see something I can't? Does he know something I don't?"
Unspoken, but no less understood, is the question of whether or not what Thorgrim may know is something so terrible that even the High King has given in to despair and almost apathy.
"You're going to ask him?"
"Of course. The question is whether or not I ask him in front of an audience. And the tone with which I ask."
And that really is the fulcrum on which all of this rests, you realize. With that letter in hand, Belegar could all but declare Thorgrim unworthy of the throne and the crown which he wears, and create a schism in the Karaz Ankor never before seen. With such a spectacular and decisive series of victories under his belt, he could challenge the status quo itself, and become an icon for change within Karaz Ankor. Or he could keep his confusion, his outrage, his doubts, his protests to himself, and demand an explanation from Thorgrim in private, passing up the opportunity. It is an enormous moment in dwarven history, one which could drastically alter the future of the dawi. That must weigh on him tremendously, in a way you can't even imagine.
Then, with a mental startle, you realize that he's asking you for your thoughts on what he should do.
...you suddenly feel very small again.
Among the Karaz Ankor, the name of Belegar Ironhammer drew an increasingly admiring awe--the dwarves, long used to disappointment and a world that seemed rigged against them, had long lost hope of reclaiming one of the Karaks of old.
Karak Eight Peaks, being a sprawling, dynamic, and rather large karak infested with enemies, made it a tough target. That it was practically next door to another enemy-held karak made reclaiming it even more daunting. That Belegar's expedition had reclaimed it even partially in such a quick and decisive campaign was practically the talk of the Karaz Ankor non-stop for years--fueled by another round of success at the recapturing of Karagril and securing of the Citadel. All of this success was at unusually low cost in terms of blood and time, and it put Belegar on a pedestal among the younger dwarves, who had yet to develop the classic dwarven cynicism. Among the older, more cautious dwarves, however, learning to truly hope again was a scary thing. Mathilde had heard from various sources--Belegar included--that many of the older dwarves were still predicting that Eight Peaks would suffer from a sudden reversal of fortune any day now, and that holding the few peaks they had would become an unwinnable, brutal war of attrition with the eventual outcome inevitable.
This victory would change all that. Five peaks reclaimed in a day. Two greenskin tribes destroyed, the contigents of three skaven clans within Eight Peaks all but annihilated, a colony of trolls wiped out, a dragon made peace with. A truly astounding victory, but many would discount it as simply luck--and it was not entirely untrue, you admit to herself. Taking advantage of numerous prime opportunities and exploiting them ruthlessly and efficiently required a great deal of skill, coordination, and cohesion, but those opportunities usually required a great deal of luck to occur in the first place.
But then...a million-strong Waaagh merely a day later? Against a Karak that was not nearly fortified enough by dwarven standards, against a defending force too small to face it in open battle, even in a chokepoint? Even if they survived, it should have meant that the greenskins would simply retake all of the karags that had been reclaimed just a day earlier, and things would be back where they had been. Instead...victory, complete and glorious. A million-strong Waaagh obliterated, with virtually no survivors, in less than a day. And what a statement that was--not only could the newly re-founded Karak Eight Peaks hold against the enemy without suffering serious attrition, not only could it decisively win offensively against the enemy with relatively light losses, it could then defend against massive invasions even when its defenses and defenders were in one of the worst states possible--stretched thin, unfortified, exhausted from a day of fighting and marching, and with mere hours to prepare. Indeed, it could defend so successfully that it made even the most fortified and established of Karaks look weak by comparison. Of course, it was more complicated than that, with plenty of reasons why the feat was not quite as unfathomably astounding as it first seemed, you know, but first impressions mattered, and the first rumors that would circulate would include none of the mitigating factors.
And those first rumors would start when Belegar confronted Thorgrim at his throne room, in front of an audience of representatives from all major clans in Karaz Ankor.
Diplomacy was not your strong-suit, nor was it your responsibility on Belegar's council. Nonetheless, it was you Belegar had asked for, as you and Belegar stand at the top of the Citadel, looking out at what had recently been a battlefield.
Despite your fear, despite the responsibility that you feel totally unqualified to bear, you steel yourself. Your king needs you, and damn it, you'll do your best to rise to the occasion, just like you did with the Battle for Karak Eight Peaks.
Use your training, damn it! you think to yourself.
Okay, what are the key points on which this matter rests?
Does Thorgrim deserve the benefit of the doubt?
Would a schism in the Karaz Ankor be worth the potential change it could bring?
Would such a golden opportunity to create such a schism present itself again, and if not, would it be worth triggering it over potentially settling for a lesser opportunity later?
You lose track of how long you stand there, staring out into the Caldera but seeing nothing, furiously working through the problem in your mind.
Finally, though, you give your answer. "I don't know Thorgrim well enough to judge whether he's worth the benefit of the doubt. But I can say that one of the most critical things the Karaz Ankor has always had going for it is its unity. It's never had a civil war, never split into separate empires, never had any bitter rivalries develop between its parts.
"Karaz Ankor needs to change--how, exactly, I'm not sure, and I may never really know. But things can't just continue as they have been. You've been the driving force behind that change, intentionally or not, and maybe your continued success can inspire other holds without increasing tensions. Maybe leading by example will be enough."
He takes a minute to consider that. "And what about Thorgrim himself? If he rules in despair and fatalism, not challenging that when the perfect opportunity presents itself may doom us to too little change, too late."
"Or he may have just made a mistake, and your stunning success will cause him to change. Maybe he just needs someone to inspire him for once, not just with an accomplishment, but an undeniable trend."
He grunts, acknowledging the point. "Still," you add, "I would keep the letter, though. Just in case."
He glances back at you and nods.
You lapse back into companionable silence once more for a few minutes.
"...I know it's a bad time, but I have a favor to ask," you say, hesitantly.
He looks over at you, curiosity blatant in his gaze.
"Much as I would hate to pull a gyrocarriage crew away from the victory celebrations, I need to get to Altdorf as soon as possible. I don't want to be late for my seminar on Waaagh and Peace. It's my first seminar--my first lecture, even, and leaving a bad first impression would be terrible."
He stares at you, his expression shifting in a way that would be almost comical if you were in the right mood. Then, he starts chortling, and soon progresses to straight up, full-lunged laughter. You're caught between indignation and confusion--you were being serious! The academic side of the Colleges could be brutal, and you knew that first lectures could make or break one's prestige.
Finally, he manages to get his laughter and breathing under control. "Only you, Mathilde. Only you."