Winterwind Tales Part 1: Defective
2312.Q4.M3
As soon as the door to her ready room had opened, Abigail Taggart knew today was going to be interesting. Standing in the threshold was Ozzgrizzira, Command Ozzira on the
Ladrirri. He was also the only drone 'officer' in the Apiatan fleet, his name a portmanteau of Officer-Drone, a pseudonym to allegedly to hide the shame he could bring to his original, very conservative hive. He cut a striking figure, standing almost as tall as Taggart, taller with the antennae. If it wasn't for his height he might be easily mistaken for another worker, his hair in the short, severe style of the other Apiata, and his uniform sufficiently loose to hide any curves - or lack thereof.
"Captain Taggart," he said, "I hope I am not interrupting anything. Commander Iekn said this would be a good time." Taggart leaned her head to look around Ozzgrizzira's shoulders and saw the Betazoid giving her a thumbs up and an encouraging grin. She gave him a suitably annoyed glare, but blinked it away when she saw Ozzgrizzira's antennae droop.
"It's fine." She said quickly. She gestured at a chair, "Would you like to sit?"
"Thank you." Ozzgrizzira settled into the chair. Mentally, Taggart ran through the checklist of hospitality her grandmother had drilled into her.
"Refreshments?"
"No, thank you."
"Alright. Well, you let me know if you change your mind," Taggart said, leaning forward and clasping her hands together. In the silence that followed, she studied Ozzgrizzira. She'd talked to him over the viewscreen before, but never in person. Iekn had, during a wargame brief on the Sarek. Which is probably why Ozzgrizzira had approached him first. Apiata worked very strongly on interpersonal relationships.
He wasn't saying anything despite the fact he'd come here personally. She remembered then -- Queens, authority. He was waiting for her. "What brings you to my neck of the woods, Ozgrizzira?"
"The
Sarek is about to depart, and so is the
Winterwind. This is my last chance to ask…" He tugged at his uniform, let out a slow breath. "I wish to know more about your previous ship, the USS
Sappho."
Taggart quirked an eyebrow with interest. He could have just asked via comms. Unless he didn't want his fellow Apiata overhearing. "Well, I don't hear that one every day. Shoot."
"Shoot? Is there a threat?"
"Uh, Earth expression. Just ask whatever questions come to you."
"Oh." Ozzgrizzira took a moment to collect his thoughts, antenna rubbing over each other in a way that resembled nervous hands, "Is it true you were the only woman on the ship at the time? That is was - entirely men?"
"Well, not entirely. I had Holena, and by the time I transferred out there was more women coming in. Including an Apiata spacer, by the by."
"I see. Is this typical of Starfleet ships? That they are mostly men or women?"
"Oh heavens, no. We're still not sure how Sappho got that bad." Taggart saw a shadow of… doubt? Fear? Cross Ozzgrizzira's face when she said 'bad'. "I don't mean that in a negative way, of course. I mean it's unusual. Chad and I could never figure out how Seruk allowed that to happen. Holena always thought the
Sappho was the fulfillment of a private fantasy of his, but I won't go into such low-brow speculating."
If she did, she'd say she Chad was playing dumb and had colluded with Seruk to make the Sappho a reality. Seruk had apparently been fond of Chad when he was an instructor at the academy. But she could never find anything more than circumstantial evidence.
"Ah," Ozgrizzira said, "So most vessels are like your
Winterwind or Straak's
Sarek, a mix of both."
"Correct."
"So only the Sappho has that many males." Ozzgrizzira looked disappointed.
Taggart tilted her head. "You seem very fixated on that fact." She was starting to get an inkling of what was going on. "Is there something I can help you with, Ozzgrizzira?"
The Apiata sprung out of his chair, propelled from his seat by nervous energy. Taggart gave him space, and he stood staring out the window in her ready room. Staring at the Queenship that was a distant speck.
"They want me to return to my adopted hive to begin… reproductive duties." He said, "They say they've tolerated putting it off with my command here for too long." He turned to look to Taggart, "The problem is, I like what I do. And unlike most drones, I am not interested in… reproductive behaviour with queens."
Taggart leaned back in her chair. Iekn would have picked all this up the instant he met Ozzgrizzira. She wasn't sure if she should be mad at him for passing the buck to her or flattered he thought she could handle this better.
Her PADD beeped and she glanced down at it. It was a message from Iekn: "
My vote is for the latter. You've got my confidence, Captain." Sure, Iekn.
She glanced up. Ozzgrizzira was pacing now, his words spilling out in a rush, "I have studied your species. They have struggled with similar issues in the past. I find myself reading about your famous figures like Joan of Arc, Boudica, Catherine the Great. All leaders unusual in their known world in their time. Because of their gender. All killed or slandered later." He turned suddenly, leaning over her table, "They are of a different species and different biology, yet I understand them more than my own sisters and brothers. Than they understand me. Because I'm
defective."
Taggar made a face. "Honestly, I've never liked that term. Three centuries previous and they'd be saying that about me," she said, glancing at the picture of Jennifer sitting on her desk. "In Starfleet, we're taught IDIC. It's not that you're defective, Ozzgrizzira. You're unique. Or a '
different paradigm from the species baseline', if you'd prefer the xenostudies textbook version."
Ozzgrizzira collapsed back into his seat, and sat there quietly. "Thank you." he said, eventually. "I've been reading the publicly available personal logs of some of your Captains: ka'Sharren, Eaton. But it is the logs of Chad and the
Sappho that most intrigue me. He speaks of building a family, or at least, a very close-knit team. It sounds like the Hive, but -- with a place for me.
"It's why I want to be a part of Starfleet. And hopefully, of the Explorer Corps." He shifted in his seat, "But before any of that I need to have a senior officer's recommendation."
Taggart nodded. But confusion crossed her face, "If you don't mind me asking, first -- why me? You'd go a lot further with Straak's recommendation. I'm sure if you told him what you told me he'd help."
"He wouldn't understand like you," Ozzgrizzira said. Taggart quirked an eyebrow, then glanced down at the picture of Jen again. Slowly, she turned it around to face him. He nodded, "Yes. And you served on the
Sappho. And on the
Courageous, with Eaton and McAdams. The…" He gestured out from his chest, "
Symbolism matters. Maybe not to the admissions committee, but it does to me." He gave her a small smile, "Maybe another defect of mine?"
"Hogwash. That's actually the kind of thing the Academy likes in admissions essays." Taggart nodded, "With that, and all the experience you've got, you're the model candidate. They'll probably commission you at a high rank, to boot. But it'll take a couple of years…"
"I plan to do it in a year and a half. I have already… secretly… done some of the coursework by correspondence." The Apiata looked equal parts pleased and contrite for his deception.
"That's the kind of spirit they like in the Corps, Ozzgrizzira."
"Please, call me Ozzgrizz." He perked an antenna, "Do you think Chad would give me a nickname? I know mine is quite a mouthful for non-Apiata."
Taggart was pulling a PADD from her desk, flicking to a letter template, "Well, knowing him…" She tapped her chin with the stylus, "Probably Ozzy. Actually, if you get assigned to his ship-"
"--I plan to." Ozzgrizzira said, intently.
"--Tell him I thought that up. He'll be pleased as punch." She smiled. "Now, Ozzy, if you'll give me a moment I'll write this up. You can go and I forward it or..."
Ozzgrizzira stayed put. Taggart smiled and began writing with the stylus. In her window, the Queenship grew smaller in the distance.