What the hell, I responded once- I'll respond again briefly. At the end of the day, it's about the fact that we are solely on this mountain face by our own choices. That's fair. We chose to do so because we thought the experience would be a net positive despite the risk. But that doesn't change the fact that if we fall, here or a dozen meters down- all the people connected to our line are going to start being dragged with us. A bunch of people of no particular crime are going to be paying to one extent or another if we go tumbling down. So it stands to reason we have two additional obligations as a result of reading- to ensure we never fall to the best of our ability, and to try and get the utmost benefit out of our reading. I don't want it to be about Mathilde, or at least solely her stance on the matter because these potential choices will never just affect Mathilde.
At the end of the day I don't want Mathilde to be any more eager about using Dhar than you do- but I want her to consider the issue beyond her opinion on the matter. If our choices are destined to make Papa Regimand sad and disappointed then let's at least focus on making sure the outcome makes that consequence worth it.
Edit: I suppose I should thank everyone who argued with me. It's helped me articulate and put a point to my thoughts on the Dhar matter. Sorry I got so animated about it.
Honestly your first point of "to ensure we never fall" by itself is one I completely agree with, because I don't think it'd actually be fun or beneficial in any manner in universe or out for her to fall for any reason. It is, to use an analogy from a series we love to reference a lot, like Gandalf using the One Ring: He could do great good, for a time, but it would be a terrible awe inspiring kind of good and to quote Tolkein.
But the Ring and all its works would have endured. It would have been the master in the end. Gandalf as Ring-Lord would have been far worse than Sauron. He would have remained 'righteous', but self-righteous. He would have continued to rule and order things for 'good', and the benefit of his subjects according to his wisdom (which was and would have remained great).
Furthermore going by her reaction to the Necromantic College, she hates Dhar users enough that actively choosing to take the next step and wield Dhar and unequivocally not even on a
technicallity but full on be a Black Magister would wreck her self image. And I'll fully acknowledge that if
anyone found out what we've already done it'd be pretty horrific.
However, I have issues with taking that transformative of a character move as using the Second is even in scenarios of immense pressure due to the kind of stories I like. I'm not sure how much the thread shares that opinion but some seems reasonable without being presumptive.
For what its worth, I initially thought that I had
no scenario that'd make me okay with using it but thinking about this post made me realize one. The only situation where I can see myself voting for it is if the Empire is already dead, for the sake of Vengeance, as the dwarves frame it. And at that point it either doesn't matter if she studies it to use Dhar with Ulgu or just uses because by that point she'll be operating on a world so messed up and dead she probably has time either way to really contemplate how to go about that Vengeance; or its not a situation I have to worry about because she is extremely likely to die in the lead up to the end point of the Empire being already dead.
I.e on the back of her basically going her equivalent of Slayer. Which is pretty depressing I'll admit.
Related to all of this, its like that point I've brought up before. When you look at Mathilde's character sheet, and then ponder what she's done with all those numbers and bullet points its kinda joyously simple to realize that she's terrifyingly powerful as a Grey Magister. This would, like Gandalf, make her a terrifyingly powerful Black Magister. But I sit here thinking about the nuances of Dhar use and I'm realizing she doesn't need it or need to subject herself to using it or subject the world to it simply because she is powerful enough to impose her will... to, reach beyond herself and affect the world in good ways more than a tiny peasant mom in the Stirland backwoods ever could dream of.
An example; an elder vampire leading an army of terrible undead can be decapitated by her instead of using the Second Secret. Both options are possible, one is harder to actually achieve. But she has options that involve not using what she learned in the Liber Mortis beyond Necromantic Insight, which is the only thing we can point at as fully fitting with College doctrines.
And I've come to the opinion that with how her power is structuring itself over time, there won't come a time where she actually
needs to use it because every single other option is gone barring the Vengeance scenario. The specific reasons I think this is how we've gone about leveraging our friends, favors, what happened in the Necromantic College and what theoretical options we have in Vitae and Ranald Shenanigans/Theurgy.
I, fundamentally, do not see the
need. In my mind it sits buried under all other paths of improving our ability to do good in the world, and I mean that all with all possible respect as a summary of I guess what I see as the most accessible facet of my point for other people.
However with all that said this line of thought as outlined above has issues with your second obligation where you describe how it reaches out beyond her, in an attempt to get us to consider it from a nuanced perspective. I have been for quite some time, which is how I reached this perspective I'm sharing right now. So, it being used as a qualifier as your first point looks, to use the common metaphor here, like willingly taking a step down the mountain slope when we don't need to and won't need to outside of my worst imaginings and can spend our time on things that make our worst imaginings less likely to happen.
As I describe in my post
here, the strategic implications of applying the Second Secret are ruinous in a way that doesn't incline me to actually examining because I feel that I have a good enough picture of the potential consequences that it sinks to the bottom of the priority pole.
Or to phrase it using some of your words, I think after evaluating it that to get the utmost benefit is to spend time on things that I think are genuinely more effective for less cost. Or in the case of Theurgy, unknown costs that from my read of Ranald wouldn't be Black Magic since he isn't a proscribed god. And I don't see an issue with that, because I don't think you
have to use everything you find to do good in this world, manifestly so with the Torc and this entire section with Sylvania.
Or even more simply, our... approach to Panoramia. We could have thoroughly berated her for her stupidity or otherwise punished her, because she absolutely was stupid with what she did, far more than we did. Instead we didn't, and improvement and good manifested from it.
And like... yeah. At this point I see this topic as a way to debate philosophy, which is far less stressful I can say that much.