I've always wanted a story where it turned that it would've been better to have never loved than to have loved and lost.
I can think of an Eva fic that could fulfill that:

In his first sortie, Shinji's mind briefly connected to that of his mother's, learning all related to the Eva project and her plans to fight Seele, having drawn the spots from seeing Rei later, the boy eventually deduced his father's plan as well. It's then, feeling the weight of the sins of his parents, that Shinji Ikari makes a choice, to right the wrongs they have done, and might do, to the world, to prevent Seele's plans from coming into fructition and to ensure that no one else would have to die in the war to come, and for that, he must avoid that which made his father falter and fall into evil.

He must be alone, never to love nor to recieve love, only then, without the ties that blinded his father, can he be able to suceed where he failed and save this broken yet beautiful world.



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Man, I think the very concept of the story would make Stryp angry, it's like anti-Waff.
 
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Where the hell was the ultra-strong AT-Field that NERV's heaviest weaponry had failed to penetrate?!

Slashed.
Where did the razor blades that had humiliated her with half a thought go?!

Shredded.
Besides, perhaps succeeding against all odds in the recovery of the Third Child would have the even more unlikely effect of earning Ritsuko some affection points with her lover.

'...Like that will happen.'
Haha, not even Rits is buying her own shit anymore. Then again, this isn't far from when she decides to show Misato and Shinji the Reiquarium out of spite at him.
"He cheated...?" The Second Child echoed, taking her time to consider Ritsuko's words. Soon after, she nodded resolutely and with newfound confidence. "Of course he did. This is Stupid Shinji we're talking about, that's the only way he could ever pull something like that off."

And Ritsuko had to fight hard not to roll her eyes at the sight.

'So willing to believe that pile of hogwash. Maybe I did overestimate your intelligence.'
Glass houses, Rits. :p
Happy 14th birthday, Asuka. Sad that even this is still better than her canon one. :(

BRB, need to immediately come up with and write my own Asuka's Birthday snippet.
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I know this is more like a missed moment from canon, but I still somehow hope that Asuka would continue to work on getting Shinji back (in her mind probably rationalizing it as retrieving him only to chew him out for cheating), making just the little difference for Shinji to step over the yellow tape and comfort her after Ariel.
This would especially work out if Asuka manages to feel (even if incorrectly) that she had some effect on the process, and views Shinji's eventual recovery as a personal victory of sorts. This could easily lead to her seeing him while he's still in the hospital, so the first time she sees him after he comes out of Unit-01 is just the two of them alone, instead of canon's 'seeing him smiling and talking to Rei from across the railway platform' that is the final straw in her belief that she's 'lost' Shinji to Rei. Extra power if that bedside conversation leaves enough of a 'Asuka helped save me' feeling with Shinji that it pushes him to reciprocate after Arael, and Asuka is not therefore left feeling totally alone in the aftermath of that.

But as usual, Gryphon has set this up so it could go just as bad as good. :p
This Birthday event could just end up being a momentary blip by Rits before things continue along as canon or worse, and we're left with two broken Pilots on a blood-colored beach, feeling disgusted and empty, as before.

Merry Christmas! :)

Man, I think the very concept of the story would make Stryp angry, it's like anti-Waff.
While I still prefer WAFF, of course, I can see how this concept could still be done to make a very poignant, bittersweet fic about the sacrifices needed for a greater victory... or a very dark one, especially if it backfires, and things go worse than canon due to Shinji sealing himself off.... just like his father. In trying to be unlike him, Shinji becomes identical. He'd end up like Ritsuko when she realized she'd turned into her mother.

Hm... assuming the more positive one, there's even space for a post-war fic where Shinji finally lets himself relax, now that they've won, and start trying to make it up to all the people he wanted to care about but could not. Asuka and the others could be steep mountains to climb in that quest, since Asuka in particular might have been deeply hurt by the way Shinji more actively shut her down than in canon. But the world has been saved, and there's now all the time in their lives to apologize.

Hm... I'm kind of liking this idea, at least for a short fic.
 
For Shinji so loved the world that...
I'll admit that I had some Christian imaginary when I was thinking of that, mainly that of the Saints and how many of them became martyrs for the greater cause that was their faith.

While I still prefer WAFF, of course, I can see how this concept could still be done to make a very poignant, bittersweet fic about the sacrifices needed for a greater victory... or a very dark one, especially if it backfires, and things go worse than canon due to Shinji sealing himself off.... just like his father. In trying to be unlike him, Shinji becomes identical. He'd end up like Ritsuko when she realized she'd turned into her mother.
I have to point out that it is not thar Shinji will become an emotionless machine in his quest to save the world, he cares about those that are immediate to him and wouldn't take it up this task if he didn't care.

The catch is that he can't grow too attached to those that are close to him so that he doesn't lose sight of the people that he doesn't know, he must never think that the lives of his friends are more important than the life of the staff of Nerv that he doesn't interact with more than just a brief hello. He must protect everyone, and because of that, he can't give special treatment to anyone.

Aside from that, the story would be very heavy on manipulation and focus on the greater picture, which is why Shinji can't bring himself to care beyond an impersonal level so that he can keep up with the game that his father and Seele are playing.

Hm... assuming the more positive one, there's even space for a post-war fic where Shinji finally lets himself relax, now that they've won, and start trying to make it up to all the people he wanted to care about but could not. Asuka and the others could be steep mountains to climb in that quest, since Asuka in particular might have been deeply hurt by the way Shinji more actively shut her down than in canon. But the world has been saved, and there's now all the time in their lives to apologize.

Hm... I'm kind of liking this idea, at least for a short fic.
Ugh, now I just had another idea. I was thinking that, after the angel war is over, Shinji would become a nephilim batman to hunt down the remnants of Seele while also "recruiting" Kozo and Ritsuko to help him out.

This is all your fault Strypgia.
 
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Geez, if it wasn't for my alerts showing Stryp posted, I wouldn't have found out about the omake Gryp posted (which was good). :cool:
 
This sort of thing is why my SV bookmark is the Watched Threads page :)
The maddening thing is that I watch this thread, and I tend to refresh the page every several minutes to see if there's a new post.

Which goes into the next problem, how did it miss posts from the last page and this one until Stryp's post?! o_O

(I bet someone screwed up again)
 
Comedy Omake #68 - Backstage #9 KSK Backstage
Aside from that, the story would be very heavy on manipulation and focus on the greater picture, which is why Shinji can't bring himself to care beyond an impersonal level so that he can keep up with the game that his father and Seele are playing.
That is actually just what I was thinking. In fact... let's try this.
I wanted to write a Birthday bit for Asuka, and then someone mentioned KSK... so let's do it. Livejam, writing as we go. First up, KSK's first backstage appearance.

Backstage #9 - KSK Backstage

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"There is just too much irony in this," Sayaka said, putting her feet up on the table in front of the tiny couch in Kensuke's trailer.

"Hmm? In what?" Kyoko asked without looking up from her tablet.

"Having two straight girls playing the lesbians, and the gay guy playing the straight dude."

Kensuke snorted and kept paging through the script on his own tablet. He was holding it over his head and reading upside-down, thanks to his head being in Kyoko's lap. "I believe the Director did mention it as one of those things that gives him a headache, so at least it wasn't deliberate on his part. I'm here because I nailed the audition, I'm fairly sure. And to be fair, you two make a darling couple, and I'm very happy to have you both as my Sassy Straight Friends."

Sayaka rolled her eyes. "Very funny, Mister 'I Have A Huge Fanclub From My Indie Days'. It is so not fair that you never seem to have trouble finding a date on weekends. Aren't we cute?"

"Yeah, but half the fanbase of this project thinks we really are a couple," Kyoko said, paging through her script. "And it encourages the hype to let them think it, which is why the three of us are sitting here in Ken-chan's trailer trying to convince them we're all shaking the bedframe."

"Again, to be fair, you both are lovely, and if I was into girls I would be sweetly and tenderly seducing you both right now," Kensuke said cheerfully. "Alas, I am far, far too gone under the gayroller to look upon either of you with amorous desire, so must content myself with lusting after Nagisa and Ikari, not that I think I'll ever pry either of them away from their ladies. To soften my disappointment, I do have a date tonight with one of the guys from FREE! Mmm, swimmer's bods..."

"Quiet down, mister Broadway star. You are such a stereotypical stage actor, too." She sighed. "The things I do for this project. You may have nailed the audition, Ken-chan, but Kyo-chan and I are here since we're currently popular thanks to that magical girl series. We need to branch out some, and I'm just worried we'll get typecast as 'those two lesbians' or something. I mean, the production values in our last movie were sky-high, but the writing just didn't do nearly as much justice to our characters as it should, and-"

Kyoko sighed. "Oh dear, there she goes again." She tapped at her tablet again. "This is why I'm looking through scripts, Sayaka. I am looking for more parts for both of us. Not that we're an indissoluble unit, but I do like working with my BFF. You know I'd be all over you if we were gay, dear."

Sayaka ducked her head. "Alright, I'll stop griping about that movie. It's just sad when no-budget indie projects have better writing than the giant sequel movies to a hit series."

"You'll probably be able to coast on the revenues from that magical girl show and this thing for years," Kensuke pointed out. "I'm still digging for new parts anyhow, since acting is my life, but you two will be set either way." He reluctantly sat up, slow enough that Kyoko had plenty of warning to move her arms and tablet out of the way.

"We're still looking too," Sayaka said. "I had our agent call Aleph's people. I heard there might be some small parts opening soon in her Kerisgame franchise, or some other Exalted project she's got fingers in."

"I wish we'd had the wits to get a part in Panopticon when it was doing open casting. I can't believe Soryu got that part! Look what it turned into!" Kyoko huffed. She looked curiously at Kensuke. "Hey, where are you going?"

Kensuke finished pulling a fresh shirt on and smiled over his shoulder at her. "Got to get ready for my date! It's a pure shame to keep prime beefcake like Hazuki waiting long." He opened his closet and started digging through it.

Sayaka sighed again. "We are cute, popular, and half the fanbase thinks we're bi. Why is it hard for us to find dates? How is it that we have a harder time finding dates than Pen Pen? Seriously, that penguin always has some hot model on his wing when there's a press event or something!"

Kyoko shrugged. "He's just got that suave British charm, and the Oxford accent. I mean, it is pretty hot. And he's smooth as Hell, too..." She trailed off, staring into space.

"It also helps that he's the Director's drinking buddy and even Gendo Ikari seems to think he's a cool guy. I..." Sayaka paused, eyes narrowing. "Kyo-chan, what the Hell are you thinking about?"

Kyoko snapped out of her fugue and blushed. "Nothing!"

Sayaka gave her a very suspicious look. "You were thinking about trying a little penguin for yourself, weren't you?"

"No! I..." Kyoko practically shrank into the couch cushions. "....ok, maybe I was. But he's so cute! And that accent! Plus, I mean... he does keep getting all those girls, so he must have something, right?"

"Ooooh, you go for that gusto, Kyo-chan!" Kensuke said, laughing as he put on an expensive looking pair of tailored trousers. "Do it! And tell me allllll the details when you get back! I'm kind of curious too. Sadly, Pen Pen is as straight as you two, so I'll never know myself, but if you don't mind a little gossip between friends..." He waved as he opened the trailer's door and left.

Sayaka shook her head. "I cannot believe you're thinking about it, Kyoko."

Kyoko opened her mouth, then hesitated. "...you're mad I thought of it first, aren't you?"

Butter wouldn't melt in Sayaka's mouth. "That's immaterial! I am merely concerned with-"

"You totally are. But hey, we're besties, right? Let's both go ask him," Kyoko offered, her fang winking as she smirked at her friend.

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"And that's it for today. See you in the morn, old bean." Pen Pen nodded politely to the Director. "Ladies, shall we?" He offered a wing each to Sayaka and Kyoko. They each took one, giggling in embarrassment at their own audacity. The three walked off in high spirits, already chatting animatedly.

Director Strype rubbed his face and sighed. "I swear to fucking Alien Space Bats, this project is getting weirder by the second."

Rei Ayanami ran by, wearing only a bikini and rainbow bodypaint. "I AM THE SPIRIT OF LOVE AND I ADORE PANCAKES!" She was maintaining a good lead ahead of Shinji and Kaworu pursuing her with large nets.

"Note to self: Drink heavily," he muttered. "Ikari! Where are you keeping that bong?! I need some mellow, stat!"

"Everything's coming up Gendo!" a distant voice answered.

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Next, some Birthday stuff!
 
While I still prefer WAFF, of course, I can see how this concept could still be done to make a very poignant, bittersweet fic about the sacrifices needed for a greater victory... or a very dark one, especially if it backfires, and things go worse than canon due to Shinji sealing himself off.... just like his father. In trying to be unlike him, Shinji becomes identical. He'd end up like Ritsuko when she realized she'd turned into her mother.
Honestly i think it be the latter. Cause honestly that path canon only end up with him tanking his sync score. After all not caring about anyone means you can't connect to another.
I have to point out that it is not thar Shinji will become an emotionless machine in his quest to save the world, he cares about those that are immediate to him and wouldn't take it up this task if he didn't care.
The catch is that he can't grow too attached to those that are close to him so that he doesn't lose sight of the people that he doesn't know, he must never think that the lives of his friends are more important than the life of the staff of Nerv that he doesn't interact with more than just a brief hello. He must protect everyone, and because of that, he can't give special treatment to anyone.
Aside from that, the story would be very heavy on manipulation and focus on the greater picture, which is why Shinji can't bring himself to care beyond an impersonal level so that he can keep up with the game that his father and Seele are playing.
But that't the thing though. You can't keep people at a distance. You either grow to like them or grow to hate them. But you still grow. Just keeping everyone at arms length, ones he will intermingle with on a day to day basis will be impossible. And even if he fakes it's still going to cause problems with the others which will cause problems with him.
It's a down ward spiral no matter what.
 
Sayaka gave her a very suspicious look. "You were thinking about trying a little penguin for yourself, weren't you?"

"No! I..." Kyoko practically shrank into the couch cushions. "....ok, maybe I was. But he's so cute! And that accent! Plus, I mean... he does keep getting all those girls, so he must have something, right?"

"Ooooh, you go for that gusto, Kyo-chan!" Kensuke said, laughing as he put on an expensive looking pair of tailored trousers. "Do it! And tell me allllll the details when you get back! I'm kind of curious too. Sadly, Pen Pen is as straight as you two, so I'll never know myself, but if you don't mind a little gossip between friends..." He waved as he opened the trailer's door and left.

Sayaka shook her head. "I cannot believe you're thinking about it, Kyoko."
Heh. The back and forth between Sayaka and Kyouko is well done imo, including the subversion of their various stage personae.

Rei Ayanami ran by, wearing only a bikini and rainbow bodypaint. "I AM THE SPIRIT OF LOVE AND I ADORE PANCAKES!" She was maintaining a good lead ahead of Shinji and Kaworu pursuing her with large nets.
Oh dear. Someone needs to keep a closer on that girl...

Nice omake!
 
That is actually just what I was thinking. In fact... let's try this.
I wanted to write a Birthday bit for Asuka, and then someone mentioned KSK... so let's do it. Livejam, writing as we go. First up, KSK's first backstage appearance.

Backstage #9 - KSK Backstage

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"There is just too much irony in this," Sayaka said, putting her feet up on the table in front of the tiny couch in Kensuke's trailer.

"Hmm? In what?" Kyoko asked without looking up from her tablet.

"Having two straight girls playing the lesbians, and the gay guy playing the straight dude."

Kensuke snorted and kept paging through the script on his own tablet. He was holding it over his head and reading upside-down, thanks to his head being in Kyoko's lap. "I believe the Director did mention it as one of those things that gives him a headache, so at least it wasn't deliberate on his part. I'm here because I nailed the audition, I'm fairly sure. And to be fair, you two make a darling couple, and I'm very happy to have you both as my Sassy Straight Friends."

Sayaka rolled her eyes. "Very funny, Mister 'I Have A Huge Fanclub From My Indie Days'. It is so not fair that you never seem to have trouble finding a date on weekends. Aren't we cute?"

"Yeah, but half the fanbase of this project thinks we really are a couple," Kyoko said, paging through her script. "And it encourages the hype to let them think it, which is why the three of us are sitting here in Ken-chan's trailer trying to convince them we're all shaking the bedframe."

"Again, to be fair, you both are lovely, and if I was into girls I would be sweetly and tenderly seducing you both right now," Kensuke said cheerfully. "Alas, I am far, far too gone under the gayroller to look upon either of you with amorous desire, so must content myself with lusting after Nagisa and Ikari, not that I think I'll ever pry either of them away from their ladies. To soften my disappointment, I do have a date tonight with one of the guys from FREE! Mmm, swimmer's bods..."

"Quiet down, mister Broadway star. You are such a stereotypical stage actor, too." She sighed. "The things I do for this project. You may have nailed the audition, Ken-chan, but Kyo-chan and I are here since we're currently popular thanks to that magical girl series. We need to branch out some, and I'm just worried we'll get typecast as 'those two lesbians' or something. I mean, the production values in our last movie were sky-high, but the writing just didn't do nearly as much justice to our characters as it should, and-"

Kyoko sighed. "Oh dear, there she goes again." She tapped at her tablet again. "This is why I'm looking through scripts, Sayaka. I am looking for more parts for both of us. Not that we're an indissoluble unit, but I do like working with my BFF. You know I'd be all over you if we were gay, dear."

Sayaka ducked her head. "Alright, I'll stop griping about that movie. It's just sad when no-budget indie projects have better writing than the giant sequel movies to a hit series."

"You'll probably be able to coast on the revenues from that magical girl show and this thing for years," Kensuke pointed out. "I'm still digging for new parts anyhow, since acting is my life, but you two will be set either way." He reluctantly sat up, slow enough that Kyoko had plenty of warning to move her arms and tablet out of the way.

"We're still looking too," Sayaka said. "I had our agent call Aleph's people. I heard there might be some small parts opening soon in her Kerisgame franchise, or some other Exalted project she's got fingers in."

"I wish we'd had the wits to get a part in Panopticon when it was doing open casting. I can't believe Soryu got that part! Look what it turned into!" Kyoko huffed. She looked curiously at Kensuke. "Hey, where are you going?"

Kensuke finished pulling a fresh shirt on and smiled over his shoulder at her. "Got to get ready for my date! It's a pure shame to keep prime beefcake like Hazuki waiting long." He opened his closet and started digging through it.

Sayaka sighed again. "We are cute, popular, and half the fanbase thinks we're bi. Why is it hard for us to find dates? How is it that we have a harder time finding dates than Pen Pen? Seriously, that penguin always has some hot model on his wing when there's a press event or something!"

Kyoko shrugged. "He's just got that suave British charm, and the Oxford accent. I mean, it is pretty hot. And he's smooth as Hell, too..." She trailed off, staring into space.

"It also helps that he's the Director's drinking buddy and even Gendo Ikari seems to think he's a cool guy. I..." Sayaka paused, eyes narrowing. "Kyo-chan, what the Hell are you thinking about?"

Kyoko snapped out of her fugue and blushed. "Nothing!"

Sayaka gave her a very suspicious look. "You were thinking about trying a little penguin for yourself, weren't you?"

"No! I..." Kyoko practically shrank into the couch cushions. "....ok, maybe I was. But he's so cute! And that accent! Plus, I mean... he does keep getting all those girls, so he must have something, right?"

"Ooooh, you go for that gusto, Kyo-chan!" Kensuke said, laughing as he put on an expensive looking pair of tailored trousers. "Do it! And tell me allllll the details when you get back! I'm kind of curious too. Sadly, Pen Pen is as straight as you two, so I'll never know myself, but if you don't mind a little gossip between friends..." He waved as he opened the trailer's door and left.

Sayaka shook her head. "I cannot believe you're thinking about it, Kyoko."

Kyoko opened her mouth, then hesitated. "...you're mad I thought of it first, aren't you?"

Butter wouldn't melt in Sayaka's mouth. "That's immaterial! I am merely concerned with-"

"You totally are. But hey, we're besties, right? Let's both go ask him," Kyoko offered, her fang winking as she smirked at her friend.

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"And that's it for today. See you in the morn, old bean." Pen Pen nodded politely to the Director. "Ladies, shall we?" He offered a wing each to Sayaka and Kyoko. They each took one, giggling in embarrassment at their own audacity. The three walked off in high spirits, already chatting animatedly.

Director Strype rubbed his face and sighed. "I swear to fucking Alien Space Bats, this project is getting weirder by the second."

Rei Ayanami ran by, wearing only a bikini and rainbow bodypaint. "I AM THE SPIRIT OF LOVE AND I ADORE PANCAKES!" She was maintaining a good lead ahead of Shinji and Kaworu pursuing her with large nets.

"Note to self: Drink heavily," he muttered. "Ikari! Where are you keeping that bong?! I need some mellow, stat!"

"Everything's coming up Gendo!" a distant voice answered.

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Next, some Birthday stuff!
Not what i had in mind but fun none the less.
 
"We're still looking too," Sayaka said. "I had our agent call Aleph's people. I heard there might be some small parts opening soon in her Kerisgame franchise, or some other Exalted project she's got fingers in."

"I wish we'd had the wits to get a part in Panopticon when it was doing open casting. I can't believe Soryu got that part! Look what it turned into!" Kyoko huffed. She looked curiously at Kensuke. "Hey, where are you going?"
Are these references to other fanfics?
 
Are these references to other fanfics?
Just a little.

Kerisgame

Shifting Sands

Panopticon Quest

1000 words in on part 1 of the birthday thing. Writing is going on. 1st person Shinji POV, for a new flavor!

Sample:

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I thought I knew everything. I was also 14. So this means I really knew just enough to be #1) an insufferable jerk, #2) a tormented, overwrought emo jerk, and #3) and hurtful idiot.

And a jerk. Of course.

In my defense, I was trying to save the world.
 
"Note to self: Drink heavily," he muttered. "Ikari! Where are you keeping that bong?! I need some mellow, stat!"

"Everything's coming up Gendo!" a distant voice answered.

Is that me or Yui freaking Ikari is about to serve Gendo some drink? Or worse, Gendo re-marries some ladies from NERV's Section 2 (because that is more insane than a mundane single girl, and insanity is the motto of SB and SV, they are just competing on who is crazier).

And you know, reading this update at 9am, before my engineering class (with two projects coming for this one) does... wonders for my sanity (or lack thereof)
 
Is that me or Yui freaking Ikari is about to serve Gendo some drink? Or worse, Gendo re-marries some ladies from NERV's Section 2 (because that is more insane than a mundane single girl, and insanity is the motto of SB and SV, they are just competing on who is crazier).

And you know, reading this update at 9am, before my engineering class (with two projects coming for this one) does... wonders for my sanity (or lack thereof)
I feel you, I have a final test tomorrow about open channel hydraulics at 8am and I still don't feel ready, nor fully sane for that matter.
 
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