Nash Has The Blues
The rain was coming down outside Nash ka'Sharren's window. She'd never thought of San Francisco as a rainy city during her time at the Academy, but these days it seemed like all it did was rain. It was winter, and of course a certain level of climatic equilibrium had to be maintained, weather control or not. But the city was just too
wet compared to the snows of Andor -- all liquid, even the snow damp in your hands, not like the dry powder that swirled in the Andorian lowlands. It felt unrelenting, an impatient tap-tap-tap on her window, the brilliant luminescence of Sol reduced to a weak grey, filtered through atmosphere and clouds and rain, matching the regulation grey of the athletic sweats Nash was currently wearing.
Every day, same light, same view outside her office, the polarized windows of an office opposite, same rain.
Nash sighed and spun in her chair, facing back towards her desk. One advantage of not being Captain of a vessel anymore: she didn't have ten pairs of eyes that could see her at any one moment. Which meant instead of her usual confident slouch, she was sitting cross-legged in her oversized chair. She'd requested it on a lark, and had been surprised to find it in her office one day, no fuss or wrangling with shipyard personnel. She still wasn't sure if it was simply this easy for everyone or this was a small joke on Sulu's behalf -- or maybe Chen's. In any case, she had it now, and only slightly regretted asking for it.
Nash picked up an earbud and glanced at the monitors to her right. They were a live stream of data from the various Explorer Corps vessels, when possible. There was a cacophony of voices and Nash turned a dial in her desk, another eccentricity, turning the audio to the
S'harien's feed. Earlier, Nash had whooped with joy as Saavik avoided the Syndicate vessel's fire. Now she smiled as she listened to Saavik smoothly and calmly report the state of her vessel to Starbase 7. She flicked the dial to the
Sarek and saw that, despite the drama with the Lecarre earlier, Straak had still flagged some geological scans as priority. She skimmed them over and then tapped her PADD to the screen, transferring them to a followup file. Her smile turned pensive as she flicked to the Enterprise and heard live bridge chatter, Samhaya taking her crew through the recovery of a probe, shot into the heart of a gas giant. It was good to hear her first officer, again. Her
former first officer, rather.
Nash didn't startle as the door slid open, revealing a slender, shorter Andorian woman -- Nash had long ago learned the pattern of footsteps that meant she was getting a visit from Rear Admiral Viraan zh'Dohlen. She spun in her chair to face the Admiral, tapping her main terminal out of sleep mode. The Admiral had a polite smile fixed to her face, but her eyes were fixed on the live feed.
"Something wrong, Admiral?" Nash asked, innocently.
To her credit, Viraan didn't beat around the bush, "You know I don't approve of that. You should be focused on your wo--"
Wordlessly, Nash slid a PADD across her desk to the Admiral. She picked it up, scanned through it. Viraan's eyes snapped back up and Nash shrugged, "Some people have music to help them concentrate. I have this. I think the results speak for themself." The PADD Viraan was holding held a day's worth of work, and it wasn't even lunchtime.
"And your uniform…" Viraan looked in the corner, where the usual crisp maroon-and-black was hung neatly on a rack, then back to Nash in her formless grey exercise sweats, "...or rather, lack of it?"
"Just caught me at a bad time, I'm afraid," Nash said, standing up and stretching. "I'm about to go for my run."
"Well." Viraan backed out into the hall. "Be back in time for the Operations report."
Nash grinned at Viraan as she breezed past her out the hall. "Wouldn't dream of it, ma'am."
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Three months after she'd moved to Earth, Nash had stood on a scale and nearly lept out of her skin when she saw the number on the scale. She had somehow gained seven kilos, despite the fact she did the exact same amount of sitting at her office job as she did on the Enterprise.
She had quickly booked an appointment with the doctor, concerned it might be some sort of bad interaction of Andorian physiology with the Earth environment, or symptom of an energy parasite. Out in the frontier, you learned never to rule anything out.
Nothing of the sort, the doctor had told her. Just your body changing, metabolism naturally slowing down. Nash felt like some part of her had been switched off with the cold, relentless turning of a clock's hand.
So now she ran.
Every day she she ran for a set time, half of her lunch break, trying to push herself out further and further each time, taking in the new sights and twists the city had to offer, committing the familiar ones to memory. It was a nice way to escape the dreary routine she could fall into otherwise.
(Part of her knew that eventually she'd hit a wall, that her body wouldn't be able to take her any further, and that she'd truly have to settle for what was around her. But that wasn't today.)
In the drizzle she ran, hood pulled tight against the hated rain. She ran past the now-familiar palm trees and under the now-familiar pedestrian bridge, then a sharp turn onto new territory -- a park. She'd ran by it for a month trying to build up the endurance to run through it all in one go. Concrete gave way to gravel as Nash made her attempt, trees passing by as she dodged the few pedestrians on the path, most of them politely bowing out of her way. One aged Tellarite even offered Nash hir umbrella, which she waved off with a smile. The path dipped down, and she went into a small tunnel under a bridge. Her lungs burned, but she knew she could make it as she burst into the light on the other end.
And smacked into someone coming around the corner.
Nash saw her unintentional victim, a human woman, slipping as they stumbled onto slick grass, and she quickly reached out to steady them, gently pushing them back onto the gravel. They found their footing as Nash herself found her foot on wet grass, that slid off to reveal slippery mud. Nash went down as gracefully as she could, her arm soaked and covered in muck.
"Oh my, I'm so--" the Human began, and then stopped. She tilted her head slightly, "Sorry."
"It's alright," Nash said, pulling her hood back. The human kept staring, rain dripping off the edge of her grey umbrella. Nash noticed she'd dropped some PADDs -- tourism guides -- and bent to pick them up. She wiped the mud and rain off them apologetically on the front of her sweats, dirtying them worse, before handing the PADDs back. She stood there, panting, hands on her hips. Now it was her turn to stare. Something was… familiar.
"...have we met somewhere?" Nash said.
"No," the woman said quickly.
"Really? Because I don't normally forget faces, and you seem like you might know me--"
"You're Nash ka'Sharren," they blurted, "Who doesn't know you?"
Nash chuckled and rubbed the back of her head, looking away for a moment, "Ha. Well, yes. But you seem really… Did we meet at a function? Diplomatic meeting? Safety seminar?"
"Penelope!" someone called. The woman and Nash looked up, to see a Risian woman's head, peering over the railing of the bridge above, her face framed by the halo of a yellow umbrella. "Are you okay down there?"
Penelope smiled and waved, "I'm fine, thanks. I'll be right up. This tunnel was more dangerous than I expected."
The Risian's eyes twinkled as she looked Nash over. "And who's this? New friend?"
"Not in that way, dear."
"Ah." The Risian frowned so exaggeratedly Nash had to suppress a laugh. "Well, there's something called 'hot chocolate' up here, so!" Her face disappeared. Penelope smiled distantly at where her friend -- probably lover, Nash corrected -- had been.
She turned back to look at Nash as she began again, "Colonist? Oh, did you go to the academy?" She shook her head. "This is killing me. We've met."
"Maybe it was in another life," Penelope said, a sly smile on her lips. "I've got hot chocolate to get to, Ms. ka'Sharren."
"Of course," Nash said, as the woman nodded and carefully picked her way back to the bridgetop and out of sight. Nash stared after her for a long while, her face expressionless with concentration. She snapped her fingers after a moment, a smile of satisfied revelation crossing her lips. She looked up at the grey clouds above, the rain splashing down onto her face, running down her cheeks and neck. The cold seeping into her skin reminded her of home.
Nash shook her mane of white hair out and jogged into the rain, her grey form soon swallowed up by the drizzle.
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AN: Special fangz (get it, coz Im goffik) 2 my proofreeders. More seriously probably of dubious canonisitcal potential due to Penelope but I felt like something a little introspective.