Yeah Firn is sending some not so subtle signals we're on shaky ground and we need to proceed extremely carefully. That's not to say this wasn't necessary but still careful now.
 
[]Does anybody ever? Deserve or not, I don't care, even if you can't see it, I want to help you find it. For acting as a force multiplier beyond my wildest dreams, being as much a cause of this fledgling shadow governments accomplishments as me, enduring the ravages of fate, I think you deserve no less. The only reason I had the gold to fund Sayaka's tutoring , host refugees in the first place was you. The reason I can perform operations outside Mitakihara without gambling the apocalypse on full disclosure? You. The reason I was able to get any use out of Oriko and Kirika in the first place instead of still fighting them or being forced to kill them? You. My time is finite. I cannot be everywhere at once. You make that significantly less of a problem.
 
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Hmmm...

Gut instinct: Affirming that Homura is needed.

"How?" Homura whispers, her voice raw and agonized. "I don't deserv- I can't."

(Telling her she is good person who deserves good things comes before or after, I don't know. Probably after, since Homu probably woudn't hear it now?)

So, for one we could go ahead and re-affirm Homu is needed to protect Madoka.

We can turn the world on its head and fix every issue out there forever, but we can't protect everyone all the time. Protecting Madoka is Homura's job, necessarily.

Second, Feathers.

Explicitly, not Feathers because Oriko says Feathers exists, but Feathers because we can't deny something shitty is going on, what with Sayaka's mysterious Witch Kissing... and maybe we can offer metaknowledge, too.

So. Fair warning. This is not going to be an easy Quest. Oriko is going to be a primary antagonist, for starters, and, well-

I've long believed Feathers is some sort of equal and opposite reaction to us, so just like we're here to fix things, Feathers is around to unfix things.

And we believe we will need Homu's help in order to deal with Feathers (partly because Oriko is so sure of it, but also because she's our friend who is far more capable she can possibly give herself credit for).

...

Maybe we can point out that she never was meant to do this alone? That while the loops would destroy us (and still haven't broken her), the reason we're doing so good is because it's our first time trying, but we have all the metaknowledge accumulated from Homu's loops to guide us.

Hmmm... And remember to tell Homu she's good. She might not believe it, but it'll do her good.
 
so from what im getting out of that is that firn cant realy reread the entire thread to grab context, so include the context and meaning as well?
 
Oh, for fuck's sake.

So apparently the vote that we spent all that time working on and got to a winning number of votes came too late and got ignored. So Firn went one of the "credit everything to Madoka's wish" votes, which had exactly the effect that I said it would and mad Homura feel worse.

So I say we just go ahead and make basically that same vote again, and hope that this time it actually gets said.


Gut instinct: Affirming that Homura is needed.
You mean like I've been telling you for the last several days? :mad:
 
Oh, for fuck's sake.

So apparently the vote that we spent all that time working on and got to a winning number of votes came too late and got ignored. So Firn went one of the "credit everything to Madoka's wish" votes, which had exactly the effect that I said it would and mad Homura feel worse.

So I say we just go ahead and make basically that same vote again, and hope that this time it actually gets said.



You mean like I've been telling you for the last several days? :mad:
Redshirt's vote had no context, merely saying "do thing" and looks like it stripped whole sections of mCooperative's earlier vote. Given the trouble we've had before with sentence-long bits of votes being cut down to two or three words it's not surprising that it came to this.
 
So, I can think a few ways this could go wrong, but I want to consider sharing our knowledge of the last canon loop.

Telling Homu that the events we knew about are different from what's happened in PMAS; how Madoka made a Wish that had her fix everything with her own hands. Share our speculation that something make PMAS Doka realize what this would have done to Homu, and that she must have made this different Wish so it was someone else in her place, fixing things, so that Homu could have her chance at accomplishing her own Wish still.

That's Madoka's Wish. This has been discussed, yes?

Could this help, if we share it with Homura?


so from what im getting out of that is that firn cant realy reread the entire thread to grab context, so include the context and meaning as well?
Just don't let the votes bloat to the point they're difficult to understand.

Punctuation and linebreaks help as with any text, but super long votes are not just disrespectful, they're actually hard to understand and votecraft with. And of course, interpret when the QM needs to write.

I mean, that's common sense, right?
 
You mean like I've been telling you for the last several days? :mad:
You mean you wanted the right thing for this moment at a moment in which it wasn't the right thing?

Why would you do that?

Homu just expressed her own feelings of inadequacy, of not deserving (good things), of being bad, basically. Now is the time to act on it.

We never disagreed that these must likely needed to be done, onlt at the timing.

Kai's vote, which I supported, had the purpose of doing exactly this (in this regard): help Homura express herself so we could then reassure her.

If you wanted to do this this update, then I was right in thinking you were rushing the hell up. That would've not gone right; this is only a possibly right course of action right now, not before.
 
[]Does anybody ever? Deserve or not, I don't care, even if you can't see it, I want to help you find it. For acting as a force multiplier beyond my wildest dreams, being as much a cause of this fledgling shadow governments accomplishments as me, enduring the ravages of fate, I think you deserve no less. The only reason I had the gold to fund Sayaka's tutoring , host refugees in the first place was you. The reason I can perform operations outside Mitakihara without gambling the apocalypse on full disclosure? You. The reason I was able to get any use out of Oriko and Kirika in the first place instead of still fighting them or being forced to kill them? You. My time is finite. I cannot be everywhere at once. You make that significantly less of a problem.
I like this, but think it could use a slightly more explicit note on "her watching Mitakihara and our backs" and and possibly her aid in saving Sayaka, but yeah, it's good.

Unless that's what you mean by "Gambling the apocalypse on full disclosure" but that's a bit weirdly worded and sounds like you're referring to Homura informing us of stuff rather than her keeping guard.
 
So, comment. I believe there's one thing that's the most important in this conversation, and it's to reassure Homura. Simple as that.

There's other important things to do, and as much as possible (without rushing) we should address Homura's specific concerns, but the most important part for this string of updates is gonna be to reassure Homura.

Emotional support. She needs it more than she lets herself believe.
 
I like this, but think it could use a slightly more explicit note on "her watching Mitakihara and our backs" and and possibly her aid in saving Sayaka, but yeah, it's good.

Unless that's what you mean by "Gambling the apocalypse on full disclosure" but that's a bit weirdly worded and sounds like you're referring to Homura informing us of stuff rather than her keeping guard.

Yeah her watching Mitakihara is what lets us operate outside it without gambling the apocalypse on madoka being able to replicate our wish or bootstrap herself to godhood. I'm not sure of a better way to put it right now. Any ideas?
 
"How?" Homura whispers, her voice raw and agonized. "I don't deserv- I can't."

Can we continue to hug Homura? I'm not sure this is the right conversational break for it, but I feel that Homura continues to need hugs.

Maybe we should make a flowchart.

That sounds like you jest, but on the other hand, we had a brief, shining moment in which the vote was a screencap collage of present discussion. And a flowchart would be clearer than another vote-strosity from me, so, **shrug**.
 
Redshirt's vote had no context, merely saying "do thing" and looks like it stripped whole sections of mCooperative's earlier vote. Given the trouble we've had before with sentence-long bits of votes being cut down to two or three words it's not surprising that it came to this.
What's up there isn't Redshirt's vote at all. Firn must have started writing the update before Redshirt's vote surpassed the others.


That's Madoka's Wish. This has been discussed, yes?

Could this help, if we share it with Homura?
No, telling her more about Madoka's Wish will absolutely not help. Homura feels that she's failed because she is not saving Madoka as she wished to do. The more credit you give to Madoka's Wish, the less worthy Homura will feel.


Maybe we should make a flowchart.
That's what using hypens to indent is supposed to do, but people never use 'em right.


You mean you wanted the right thing for this moment at a moment in which it wasn't the right thing?

Why would you do that?

Homu just expressed her own feelings of inadequacy, of not deserving (good things), of being bad, basically. Now is the time to act on it.

We never disagreed that these must likely needed to be done, onlt at the timing.

Kai's vote, which I supported, had the purpose of doing exactly this (in this regard): help Homura express herself so we could then reassure her.

If you wanted to do this this update, then I was right in thinking you were rushing the hell up. That would've not gone right; this is only a possibly right course of action right now, not before.
But jumping immediately into talking about Madoka's wish wasn't rushing? And I don't remember you warning us about anything of the sort.

Have you even been reading the thread? Because the rest of us figured out that this was what Homura was feeling based on what she said last update, and while we were going to try to get her to talk more about it to make sure, we were also going to avoid blurting out a bunch of stuff about Madoka's Wish that would make her feel worse in the process, and even warned you repeatedly that doing so would make Homura feel worse, which it just did.






Okay, basically the same vote as last time, but the no-wordcount-limit version with full context:

[x] Main goals, in no particular order:
-[x] Encourage Homura to believe in her own value, and in a good future.
-[x] Prevent her from feeling that her wish isn't being fulfilled because she isn't the one saving Madoka.
-[x] Explain, as best and clearly as possible, everything Homura indicates she wants or needs to know.

[x] Overall tone and subtext:
-[x] Optimistic and certain this loop will succeed.
-[x] Comforting and encouraging.
--[x] Don't make Homura feel like a sidekick. Make her feel like The Hero in a Five Man Band.

[x] Reaffirm that Homura can do this and deserves a happy ending.
[x] "I'm not succeeding. We're succeeding. Together. Everything we've done--it's been all of us."
-[x] "We're succeeding as a team. Kyubey tries to keep magical girls at each other's throats because it knows that no one can make it alone. Only together can we do this."

-[x] If Homura is feeling that she is not fulfilling her wish, that she is useless because she is not able to be the one protecting Madoka.
--[x] Remind her: Without her, it all would have been over in the first timeline. It's only because of her that we got this far.
---[x] She's been the one keeping Madoka safe this whole time.
---[x] Holding down the fort while Sabrina rushes off to deal with out-of-town crises
---[x] Timestop as an epic force multiplier, or letting us get there in the nick of time.
----[x] Tracking down Oriko
----[x] Saving Sayaka from the witch.
----[x] Watching over Sayaka when she stormed off and ran straight into Kyouko.
-----[x] Giving us the knowledge needed to make the right choices, both from metaknowledge and just her advice.
----[x] Even just giving us this safe space to talk without Kyubey listening.
---[x] The only reason any of this is possible is because of Homura's strength, because Homura fought and persevered all alone for years to carve out a chance at victory.
--[x] Make sure that Homura knows that she is incredible and the hero of this story, that she is the one who will save Madoka, and that Sabrina is just here to help her.
--[x] And we--the people around this table--are her friends and we care about her and Madoka and we will do whatever it takes to help them find their happy ending.

-[x] If the problem is Homura not liking herself; feeling that she specifically is why the loops have failed before; feeling that Sabrina is doing better with the same tools; possibly regards Sabrina emphasizing Homura's contributions as platitudes.
--[x] Remind her that Sabrina is cheating:
---[x] Sabrina got to start with the knowledge that Homura had to learn the hard way over multiple loops, so she could make a wish that broke the system.
----[x] Griefbending: Power that specifically derails resource issues
----[x] Also, we had Homura as an ally. Don't let her sell herself short: we stand on the shoulders of giants.
-----[x] Remind Homura of her contributions; connect this back to the above.
 
Yeah her watching Mitakihara is what lets us operate outside it without gambling the apocalypse on madoka being able to replicate our wish or bootstrap herself to godhood. I'm not sure of a better way to put it right now. Any ideas?
What I had been writing, before I stopped and gave up, went like this:

[] She helps you here and now: Catching Oriko, saving Sayaka, the money and opportunity to even have the chance to go out and make allies? Is all because you have her here, watching your back. And she keeps you from doing dumb things too.

The bolded bit being the relevant section.
What's up there isn't Redshirt's vote at all. Firn must have started writing the update before Redshirt's vote surpassed the others.
No, what's up there is the same vote in abeyance that was in the last vote, that we made two votes ago.
 
Nah. This vote under-performed. A lot. I think we can see why. First biggest issue here is-

Not Knowing The Territory.

We (voters) need to turn our love into understanding. Technical understanding. Some folks may benefit from reading these? "just" trying to support Homura is insufficient, if we don't do it with her problems in mind. Support will only be partial, and we won't help enough, if we can't get it to her past the wall of her symptoms. Oh, there is also her abusive past, but one at a time<

All or Nothing', or 'Black and White' Thinking and Depression

The long-term costs of traumatic stress: intertwined physical and psychological consequences

https://nvf.org/effects-of-ptsd-in-veterans/

Regular comfort is only part of the picture.

Think more. Be able. Since we went down this rabbit hole, we are assuming the burden of therapy. Do it, by which I mean, learn how to do it.
 
Clarifying my earlier proposal with what I mean by disclosure for people to improve/incorporating Phoenixian's proposal.

[]Does anybody ever? Deserve or not, I don't care, even if you can't see it, I want to help you find it. For acting as a force multiplier beyond my wildest dreams, being as much a cause of this fledgling shadow governments accomplishments as me, enduring the ravages of fate, I think you deserve no less. Catching Oriko, saving Sayaka, the money and opportunity to even have the chance to go out and make allies? Is all because I have you here, watching my back. Regardless of the nature of fate here, having to justify myself to you is good practice to keep myself from doing something so idealistic it circles around into dumb. My time is finite. I cannot be everywhere at once. You make that significantly less of a problem.

Edit: Looks like I removed disclosure mentioning completely. Oh well.
 
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Have you even been reading the thread?
Yep. Maybe you cherry picked which parts you read?

Because it was confirmed (not for the first time) that Firn was taking into account more than the winning vote while writing.

I do believe this update went with pretty much the general idea of what the thread as a whole wanted to happen, and that does include Madowish talk (it's in the vote you voted for at the end, in case you didn't see it).

Also, :facepalm: at this so hard:
doing so would make Homura feel worse, which it just did.
Homura is telling us how she feels. Period. This was the whole point of the vote I supported, though I had hoped we had reached this point before going into Madowish talk: That Homura says what she feels.

It's happening! Now we can help her with it.

I'm feeling pretty well about this, Homunshedtears aside.
 
Clarifying my earlier proposal with what I mean by disclosure for people to improve/incorporating Phoenixian's proposal.

[]Does anybody ever? Deserve or not, I don't care, even if you can't see it, I want to help you find it. For acting as a force multiplier beyond my wildest dreams, being as much a cause of this fledgling shadow governments accomplishments as me, enduring the ravages of fate, I think you deserve no less. Catching Oriko, saving Sayaka, the money and opportunity to even have the chance to go out and make allies? Is all because I have you here, watching my back. Regardless of the nature of fate here, having to justify myself to you is good practice to keep myself from doing something so idealistic it circles around into dumb. My time is finite. I cannot be everywhere at once. You make that significantly less of a problem.
So, examining in detail, I'm wary of the "force multiplier" bit since we've had problems with that before. (We've caused problems trying to build up Mami that way back during the Apprehension.) Homura's mindset isn't Mami's, but it feels like that kind of compliment could feed into the nutcracker/good-for-nothing mentality.

Likewise "My time is finite. I cannot be everywhere at once. You make that significantly less of a problem." contains a good fundamental point. (That we do not and cannot do this alone) But I think it's approached from the wrong perspective.

I also do like, the original "The only reason I had the gold to fund Sayaka's tutoring , host refugees in the first place was you." you had before, and the longer Oriko note. I just feel it might be better broken into a block instead of condensed.

I meant what Sabrina did during the update, not what's in the "vote in abeyance" spoiler.
The actions taken seem pretty typical of an over-generalized vote. Sabrina seems to give a roughly proportional amount of attention to a point that the vote does and, if stuff isn't laid out in detail, Firn often seems to default to the next highest vote that does say stuff.
 
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Vote crafting bits. Vomited!

[ ] Main: Reassure Homura. Show faith and support.

[ ] Re-affirm your belief in Homura. You know what she's gone through, even if you can't understand how much it must've hurt. Homura is Good, amazing even.
-[ ] She deserves better that she ever got.
-[ ] She'll get there. We'll help. Not because of a Wish, but because we believe in her.

This would be an attempt to counter Homu's expressed worries just now.

[ ] Homura is needed.
-[ ] We could go out there and fix the world, but we can't protect everyone all the time. That's why we've got friends; why we've got her.
-[ ] Nobody can protect Madoka like Homura can. Nobody else will walk through hell for Madoka.
--[Q] Play some metal song. :V
-[ ] Or refine Conjured Blade's vote.
-[ ] Feathers: Disregard Oriko, explain metaknowledge; belief of Feathers being a direct and opposite reaction to us being here to help, and that we will need Homura to beat whatever Feathers is. Meta: We were handed far more power than anybody else, yet we always knew this wouldn't be easy. We know we won't win this through megatons, but with the help of our friends.

This would be working on the previous point. I doubt we can convince her she is deserving, in just a few minutes, but we can argue that she's needed nonetheless. Will Homu stop protecting Madoka? No.

Idea: Use metaknowledge. We always knew Sabrina would be OP for PMMM standards, and yet that the quest would be difficult. It's about the people.

[ ] We'll help Homura save Madoka. Will she help us save everyone else?

Maybe, it could help if we offered this as a bit of an exchange. We're not just swooping down and fixing everything; Homu is not getting everything handed to her for free. She wants to work for it, help her work for it.

(Like she's been doing, like Conjured Blade's vote touched on.)
Adhoc vote count started by Firnagzen on Apr 17, 2018 at 12:52 AM, finished with 169 posts and 13 votes.

  • [X] Standing: Try to lead Homura with questions where possible. Continuous cleanse.
    [X] Tone: empathetic; care to not drive Homu to close herself off.
    [X] Why does she think that?
    -[X] You firmly believe she deserves to be happy. Your friends would agree, Madoka would agree.
    --[X] Await response, then break.
    [x] Main goals, in no particular order:
    -[x] Encourage Homura to believe in her own value, and in a good future.
    -[x] Prevent her from feeling that her wish isn't being fulfilled because she isn't the one saving Madoka.
    -[x] Explain, as best and clearly as possible, everything Homura indicates she wants or needs to know.
    -[x] Encourage Homura to say what she's feeling, and listen to what she says... and doesn't say.
    [x] Overall tone and subtext:
    -[x] Optimistic and certain this loop will succeed.
    -[x] Comforting and encouraging.
    --[x] Don't make Homura feel like our sidekick. Make her feel like she's the hero and we're her sidekick.
    -[x] Don't steamroll over Homura with speeches, let her express herself.
    [x] Reaffirm that Homura can do this and deserves a happy ending.
    -[x] She's spent more than a decade putting herself through a Sisyphean purgatory to save someone she loves. If anyone deserves a happy ending, it's her.
    -[x] Homura is our friend, the closest thing we have to family, and we care about her. We want her to be happy.
    --[x] Not just Sabrina, but everyone. Mami, Sayaka, Hitomi and most of all Madoka. Even if they don't know what she's been through, they all care about her and want her to be happy.
    ---[x] As crazy as it sounds, even Oriko is rooting for her to win, because Homura winning means that the world is saved.
    -[x] Even after Walpurgisnacht is beaten, we're never going to give up on Homura. We'll do everything we can to help her be happy.
    [x] Homura will save Madoka, and all of us will do everything we can to help her.
    -[x] Meanwhile, Sabrina is going to save everyone, and wouldn't mind having Homura's help.
    -[x] If Homura is feeling that she is not fulfilling her wish, that she is useless because she is not able to be the one protecting Madoka or other feelings of inadequacy, then remind her of how much good she's done.
    --[x] Remind her: Without her, it all would have been over in the first timeline. It's only because of her that we got this far.
    ---[x] She's been the one keeping Madoka safe this whole time.
    ---[x] Holding down the fort while Sabrina rushes off to deal with out-of-town crises
    ---[x] Timestop as an epic force multiplier, or letting us get there in the nick of time.
    ---[x] Tracking down Oriko
    ---[x] Saving Sayaka from the witch.
    ---[x] Watching over Sayaka when she stormed off and ran straight into Kyouko.
    ---[x] Giving us the knowledge needed to make the right choices, both from metaknowledge and just her advice.
    ---[x] Even just giving us this safe space to talk without Kyubey listening.
    ---[x] The only reason any of this is possible is because of Homura's strength, because Homura fought and persevered all alone for years to carve out a chance at victory.
    --[x] Make sure that Homura knows that she is incredible and the hero of this story, that she is the one who will save Madoka, and that Sabrina is just here to help her.
    [X] "Okay, let me back up. I didn't properly address your concerns before, so I'll do that first."
    [X] "Firstly, I have a huge bargaining chip that you never had: free, unlimited cleansing, as well as a massively powerful ally. That sways people, and convinces them that you're worth fighting for in a way that no amount of Grief Seeds ever would."
    [X] "You never really had an opportunity to learn charisma and persuasion skills. And while you've had a lot of time to learn since your Wish, you've also been constantly subjected to immense emotional trauma, with no one who could help you deal with it. That makes charisma and persuasion far more difficult. You've been fighting against a massive handicap all along, with no one to help you and no way to figure out what to do about it. I'd say you've done remarkably well, under the circumstances."
    [X] "You know hard it is to start all over and try again, after losing everything. Most people struggle to do that kind of thing once. You've done it dozens of times, without anyone to even talk to, ever since you were--what? 13? The fact that you haven't given up is, by itself, utterly remarkable. Don't sell yourself short. Everyone needs a helping hand, myself included. I'd never have gotten this far without you, for instance. Sayaka would be dead. Oriko would be at large. Kyubey would probably know everything. And more."
    [X] "You're fucking amazing, Homura, and we've only gotten this far because we've done it together. Also, remember how I came about because of Madoka's Wish? Well, the only reason she ever had a chance to even make that Wish is because of all of your efforts."
    -[X] Break to voting if any point needs more detail, or if Homura seems troubled. Don't be pushy.
    -[X] Relax. Comment:
    --[X] Homura's hair and higher dimensions.
    --[X] Raiding Yakuza for (4D) pocket money.
    [X] O&K.
    -[X] Probably a 'random' apartment.
    -[X] You don't know the Kure adults. Could be a bad idea.
    [X] Everyone.
    -[X] Explain your discomfort when dropping heavy topics. Ask if there's anything you can do to make it less stressful?
    -[X] Offer to watch the spar video.
    [X] Put in an order for the tracking devices.
    [X] If there's time, practice enchantment:
    -[X] Try using Control Magic...
    --[X] On Grief.
    --[X] To shape something into a Pocket Brina.
    [X] How can we explain this to the strongest girl in the world?
    [X] Try not to trigger her, must understand her pain right now, before sharing answers.
    -[X] Ask to do pain conversation first
    -[X] We ask questions to get her feelings visible, in a less challenging way.
    -[X] Have a very soft, ask-and-answer talk with Homura. Repeat her statements if they are sentence fragments, help her to express. Do not complete for her, unless she motions for that. Kinda let her drive. If she stalls, only move forward a bit, then repeat the cycle. Stay as long as it takes.
    -[X] If her pain is not covered in the topics of the vote, break to vote.
    [X] Caution her regarding Homura's PTSD, teach her those facts. If she denies, break to vote.
    [X] Promise, and give honest answers.
    -[X] Slowly, and with context conversation, so she doesn't use the facts to hurt herself.
    -[X] Have her generate context examples, be careful not to lecture at this point. Understanding is what we want to see in her.
    -[X] Very small steps
    [X] When a trouble spot is sensed, break for vote.
    [x]Really? For being as much a cause of this fledgling shadow governments accomplishments as me, for enduring the much undeserved ravages of fate, I think you deserve no less. The only reason I had the gold to fund Sayaka's tutoring, host refugees in the first place was you. The reason I can perform operations outside Mitakihara without worrying about a sudden apocalypse? You. The reason I was able to get any use out of Oriko and Kirika in the first place instead of still fighting them or being forced to kill them? You. My time is finite. I cannot be everywhere at once. You make that significantly less of a problem.
    [X] Continuous cleanse
    [X] Of course she deserves happiness. That's what we think, that's what the others would think, that's what Madoka would think.
    -[X] Await response, then break.
    [x] Madoka wouldn't settle for a world where Homura didn't deserve happiness.
    [x] In fact, you're pretty sure she hasn't been settling.
    -[x] Tell Homura about Madoka's prophetic dreams.
    [x] Lead Homura to your theory that Madoka's been working side-by-side with Homura the entire time. She won't stop until Homura succeeds, just like Homura won't succeed until Madoka is safe.
 
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