There were eight of them on the beach that day. SEVEN. SHOULDNT COUNT SCARED LITTLE GIRLS WHO'VE NEVER FOUGHT A DAY IN THEIR LIVES. SIX. SHOULDN'T COUNT DEAD MEN EITHER. Gefjosa's eyes flicked to Uncle Torgarr. He was crouched over the makeshift battlements, murmuring softly to the seaweeds below. Totally heedless of the chains which hung clung bound him. TAKE A GOOD LOOK NOW, SOON HE'LL BE FACE DOWN IN THAT SAND, CRABS EATING OUT HIS EYES Gefjosa swallowed. In the days before she'd tried to tell him, tried to say anything, but the words had clogged like mud in her throat. The Blomtamja didn't speak much as they worked, after all. Gefjosa couldn't remember the last words she'd said to him. Had it really been back at the Thing at the beginning of the season?
The Thing. It had all felt so different since the Thing. For a while, the change had been good. She'd let herself... feel again. Feel more than just the Sorrow, walk other paths than a slow march towards the grave. It had been awful, too. When the nightmares came back, when the Red Voice roared, it was all the worse for their moments of absence. YOU'LL NEVER BE FREE. THE MORE YOU STRUGGLE, ONLY THE MORE TRAPPED YOU BECOME. Since that day in the fields, however, she hadn't heard the Blue Voice again, not even a whisper. OR THAT NASTY LITTLE PINK ONE EITHER, YOU CREEP. YOU WORM. Things weren't back to the way they were before. They were worse. That dark world of peaceful pain, it was lost to her. Try as she might, and try she had, the numbness of Sorrow would not come. She was trying now. She tried to pull the darkness over herself as the sounds of Gutes fighting and dying in the surf beyond them filtered to her ears.
They hadn't wanted her here. When she'd told them she wanted to fight, they quietly put her in the reserves. If all else failed, if the village was about to fall, if she was going to die anyways, that's when they'd wanted to let her to fight. And Gefjosa couldn't blame them. Winter in this new land wasn't cold the way it was in Gotland. LOST GOTLAND, FALLEN GOTLAND, DEAD GOTLAND, DRAGGED TO HEL WHERE YOU'RE GOING SOON TOO But she was shivering in the damp, salt-scented heat like it was Fimbulwinter itself. It wasn't cold that set her teeth to chatter and bones to ache, it was FEAR.
FEAR. When Gefjosa asked to be placed on the frontlines besides her kin, perhaps they thought it had been bravery, right action befitting a drengr to demand to stand shoulder to shoulder with kith and kin. Gefjosa knew better. In that moment, she'd feared living while her Uncles died more than she'd feared death itself. If she could stand with them, maybe even save them! that would be good. If she could die with them, that would be good too. BETTER The chains on Uncle Torgarr clinked as he brushed a lock of dark, wet hair from his eyes and squinted at the sun. YOU SHOULD TELL HIM, GEFJOSA... TELL HIM AND MAYBE HE'LL LIVE... OR MAYBE YOU TELL HIM AND THAT'S WHY HE DIES! EITHER WAY, YOU CAN'T STOP WHAT'S COMING! When she'd taken her place between her Uncles on walls of their sand castle that day, she'd felt the Sorrow swell in their hearts.
There were eight of them on the wall. Long-armed Erik who always smelled a little of sawdust. When he died here, his baby grow up never knowing that scent or seeing the beautiful things he made. Black-skinned, mysterious Akali, silent if not singing and loved by all the village children. When he died here, silence would strangle the village and no one would ever sing again. Dashing Rikard who seemed to know everything and had grown so much since arriving in this land. When he died here, his brothers would throw their lives away avenging him and leave a sucking wound in village it would never recover from. Harald Logarson from big farm next to her family's in Gotland. When he died here, the waves would take his bones and he'd never return to the soil he loved. Uncle Njal, Uncle Torgarr, Little Geffy Nidheart, when they died here... when they died... when she died... When I Die... darkness rose in the corners of her vision and...
A steadying hand grabbed her shoulder just before she fell off the battlements and Gefjosa looked up into the eyes of Uncle Torgarr. They were the same color as newly turned earth. The Blomtamja don't speak much as they work because they don't need to. Little things can speak louder than any words. That touch... it's alright, it said. Focus, work to be done now, time for everything else later. Then he pointed to the horizon and she needed not guess what he meant.
The dead were coming.
As the breath quickened in her throat and the panic rose, he squeezed once more and shifted in front of her just a hair. On the other side, Uncle Njal had done the same. We'll protect you, no matter what comes.
Then the fight started. At first, it was quiet oaths and subtle summoning of power. Sand and soil moved and twisted. The seaweed danced to writhing life. Gefjosa's breath came in quick ragged gasps as she struggled to move, to summon her own magic, to do anything at all. "Concentrate." She grabbed both her ears and pressed, hoping to shut out the incessant splash-slap of skinless feet charging across wet sand and low surf. She squeezed her eyes shut tight, trying to blot out the sight of the battalion of living dead coming to make dead of the living. "You are the Plow. You are the Plow, whatever it is you push through..." There was a familiar grunt of effort then something EXPLODED in the distance. Gefjosa shrieked, her eyes snapped open, and she saw the rune-carved caber hurled by Uncle Njal smash through the brittle bones of the charging skeletons. He turned slightly to her, smiling, hand still raised as if in victory and... the line of defenders below the wall crashed into the oncoming tide of bones and one slipped through... metal flashed and Uncle Njal's hand fall from his wrist. Hot blood splashed on Gefjosa's face. He stumbled back. The skeleton raised its axe again.
GEFJOSA ASLAUGSDOTTIR. YOU ARE DEATH TO EVERYONE WHO LOVES YOU. BUT SHE WHO BRINGS DEATH CAN GIVE DEATH! WILL YOU JUST LET THIS MAN DIE FOR YOU? OR WILL YOU FIGHT?! The sound that tore from Gefjosa was more animal bellow than something that should come from a human throat. It struck the skeleton like a physical weight a moment before The Plow tore into reality and reduced the skeleton to arcing fragments. CRUSH THEM! BREAK THEM! BRING THEM OUR SORROW! The Weight of Sorrow descended on her Plow, the Knife scraped and sharpened its edge. Gejfosa roared again, pain fear hate rage bloodlust indistinguishably mingled into one rumbling feral sound. And she brought the image of her bared bleeding soul down upon the enemy and broke them.