Mathilde's evaluation of her own trustworthiness is coloured by how the Colleges would, if they had all the facts, probably consider her to have betrayed that trust multiple times over, and would definitely have to disavow her if those facts became public knowledge. Mathilde has succumbed to the temptation of what pretty much every authority in the Empire would categorize as forbidden knowledge on multiple occasions, and though she can justify it to herself, she knows there's a lot of contexts where those justifications won't cut it. She's not thinking 'would this wrongfully colour me as untrustworthy', she's thinking 'would this reveal me as untrustworthy'.
That sort of thing tinging her self-evaluations is the price you pay for having unexpurgated works by three of history's greatest necromancers in her personal library. And OOCly it works out, because having those sorts of things knocking around the place is an excellent reason to be a little more leery of appearing suspect.
Another factor here is that Mathilde wholeheartedly believes that while, of course, she'd never willingly go down that road, she would make an excellent Everchosen. She thinks that's something people might worry about because she thinks the idea should worry them.
She'd present it as a statement of fact. Something along the lines of: I encountered a Greater Daemon of Tzeentch, its words are as squirrelly as you'd expect but I suspect its interest in me has something to do with it being involved in Karak Vlag's predicament, it mentioned that there was an Everchosen on the rise.
That sort of thing tinging her self-evaluations is the price you pay for having unexpurgated works by three of history's greatest necromancers in her personal library. And OOCly it works out, because having those sorts of things knocking around the place is an excellent reason to be a little more leery of appearing suspect.
Another factor here is that Mathilde wholeheartedly believes that while, of course, she'd never willingly go down that road, she would make an excellent Everchosen. She thinks that's something people might worry about because she thinks the idea should worry them.
She'd present it as a statement of fact. Something along the lines of: I encountered a Greater Daemon of Tzeentch, its words are as squirrelly as you'd expect but I suspect its interest in me has something to do with it being involved in Karak Vlag's predicament, it mentioned that there was an Everchosen on the rise.
