Regal Cuddling
"All I ask. Don't force yourself on me."
"I won't. I won't until you are ready."
Not a day went by that Princess Isabella Hapsburg, or more accurately Queen Isabella Grazini as she often had to remind herself, didn't go without Isabella thinking of those words that marked the beginning of hers and Luciano's first night as spouses and monarchs.
She had asked what had been a rather childish wish, one that went against all the principles of royal marriages and would have seen her receive a firm slap, if not multiple from her Austrian tutors if she had shared such a desire before her marriage. The wedding night was supposed to be that of consummation, the creation of the heir. Even if the future Italian King were not conceived that night, it was still her duty to at least try.
However, Isabella was tired, weak, and fearful. Even with all the progress the Italian doctors had overseen, she was still a sickly girl who was not even twenty. Isabella had no idea if she would survive the birth of her first child, and she had long ago accepted death in the birthing bed as a likely path for her in life.
It was only thanks to the naivety and surprising empathy from Luciano that she had dared to ask a question. Luciano could have rejected and it would have been his right as King. Isabella did expect him to break his word, he was a young man after all and she a beautiful women. Yet King Luciano the Magnanimous had earned his reputation by being more noble than all the Knights of Europe and honoring her request. They did not touch that night save for the brushing of skin when they laid in bed together and a surprising chaste kiss by Luciano which accompanied a promise to make this marriage work.
In the weeks afterwards, Luciano had honored her request further by setting up her own chambers and never once advancing on Isabella in lust. It was not as if Luciano was a sodomist, for Isabella observed the looks of attraction he gave to other women and her, even if Luciano thought himself rather clever in how he hid it. Yet he never once advanced on her, all because she asked it.
It was a nice state of affairs, allowing Isabella to continue to strengthen her health and adapt to her new role of Queen than be solely concerned about babymaking. Yet as pleasant as such a state of affairs was, Isabella could not continue with her selfishness. With each passing weeks, Isabella heard more whispers in the court. Gossiping about why the King and Queen barely shared any physical interest, how they never shared a bed, how she showed no signs of lost virginity. As both the foreigner and the woman, most rumors were focused on slanders towards Isabella. How she was barren, had a secret lover, or had no interest in men. Even if Isabella wasn't ready, she had to at least give the appearance of working for an heir so that she could be accepted as Queen of Italy.
One night, Luciano arrived at his chambers with a heavy yawn, then stopping at his door as he found his wife in his bed, with Isabella bundled under four layers of blankets and reading a book.
"What are you doing?" Luciano asked. Isabella flinched with the expectation of a scolding, but then she realized Luciano's tone was more of curiosity and amusement.
Isabella lowered her book with a sigh, "As honorable as you have been, I have to at least spend the night in your chambers to give the appearance of copulation, for both our reputations." She informed.
"Ah." Luciano simply said, then moved to sit on the edge of the bed, the two spouses staring away from each other in awkward silence. "Do you....wish for me to-"
"No!" Isabella said in reactive alarm, then curled up and away from her husband in shame. Once again he was asking for her desire and command. Him the King, asking for what should be rightfully his.
"I will someday, soon. I just...need more time. Until then, we have to at least show the court we're trying." Isabella argued.
Isabella turned back, expecting, almost wanting Luciano to be enraged and angry at her. Instead he simply smiled softly at her in understanding, "As you wish." Luciano then moved to a nearby desk, lit a candle, and began writing in one of his large books he had writing around, leaving Isabella to stew in confusion, gratitude and frustration.
For the next month they spent half the days together in Luciano's chambers, with Luciano sometimes being as bold as to venture to Isabella's. As they were not even close enough to be friends, the days spent together were quiet with little direct interaction. Yet in spite of the lack of intimacy, Isabella found herself enjoying these shared times. Luciano respected her boundaries and in return she respected his work or studies. During these nights, there was no obligation from either to perform as King and Queen, or even husband and wife. They were simply too young souls living in comfortable silence, left to be whatever they wanted in their brief respite from the demanding and burdensome world. There were even some nights where they would engage in conversation and Isabella found herself enjoying these talks, where she was spoken to as an equal with a valuable opinion instead of as a tool of her family.
With their time together, the rumors while not completely fading, had subsided and the court slowly started to embrace her as the Queen. Isabella could have well stopped by that point, but she still made sure to at least spend a few days per week in Luciano's chambers, enjoying the peace, though at the same time yearning for more, even if she didn't want to admit it.
One night, Isabella had been bedridden with a drastic drop in composition. Her body combined with a cold front made it feel as if it were winter, and even a fully lit fireplace could not heal her weak spirit.
Delirious and exhausted, Isabella shivered under a pile of blankets, praying for the pain to go away. Too fatigued, Isabella did not notice a visitor in her chambers. In her dazed state, Isabella briefly observed the figure of Luciano, and would have ignored his entrance were it not for him climbing into her bed and wrapping his arms her.
At the touch, Isabella shrieked and thrashed in startlement, believing Luciano to have shown his true colors and that her destined fate as the Queen was to come. Yet instead of ravishing her, Luciano simply held onto her, hands never straying in a lustful manner.
Finally, Isabella managed to push him away, yet only for a brief foot and more out of Luciano's lack of resistance than any strength on her part. "What are you doing?!" She demanded.
"Keeping you warm." Luciano simply answered.
"How?! Could you simply not fetch me another blanket or quilt!" Isabella demanded.
Luciano frowned, "If you add more layers you will be suffocated to death and the fire is burning at full strength. The maids informed me you were heavily ill, and with all of this failing, I thought I could help, however I could."
"Why would that be your course of action?" Isabella questioned.
Luciano's face then fell in mourning, "Cause it was what my mother did when I was ill, and it always made me feel better."
At the explanation, Isabella immediately calmed down and felt great guilt, even if her reaction was justifiable for having felt that she was under attack. She recalled in her education before journeying to Rome how Luciano Grazini was not born a royal, or even noble for he had been a commoner born to artisan parents, parents who if the stories were true he loved deeply only to have them be taken by paranoid nobles in assassination.
Isabella may have had the best pedigree in the world, but she did not grow up in a house of love. Her mother was practically a stranger, often kept in confinement or traveling away from her, whispered to be mad with Isabella keeping distance for fear of infection. Her father was mostly in Spain and when Isabella did see him, she was in return treated with gifts and furthered as a tool.
From just one look at Luciano, she knew that however brief his time with his parents were, that he had been loved and he loved them in return. To honor their memory and share a form of love, Luciano had attempted to treat her with such kindness, and she pushed him away.
Touched by the gesture, confused by his character, her body aching for warmth, and somewhat wanting such a close touch. Isabella tiredly scooted closer towards Luciano, eyes looking downward.
Conflicted by the body language, Luciano slowly wrapped his arms once more, a brief nod from Isabella confirming the consent to continue forward until they were fully embraced, the closest they had been since saying their vows.
"Sleep well my Queen." Luciano whispered, which she soon did. While it was not immediate, Isabella did feel the cold begin to drift away as they were together, and when she awoke, still held in her husband's muscular arms, she felt not a drop of illness remaining in her body, simply warmth and comfort.
For nearly two weeks they did not share the same quarters, an awkward impasse being placed between the King and Queen on what that night meant and where they would go from there. However, at the same time it did feel like some great gap had been closed somewhat, and displays of warmth and affection which were previously rare grew to become daily occurrences in small and private ways.
Eventually, Luciano returned to his chambers to find Isabella retired, greeting at him with a tired smile. Happy that their marriage had returned to normal, Luciano smiled back and concluded his day with letters. Then retired to his bed and found himself surprised when Isabella moved to be closer to him and initiate an embrace of her own.
"I'm cold and I need warmth." Isabella simply explained, yet Luciano remembered that she had only resided with two covers of blankets and had a thin layer of nightwear, not to mention the Roman night itself was rather warm.
Covering her forehead with his palm, Luciano could not detect anything besides a warm temperature, but he did not see the point or desire of challenging her claim, simply returning her embrace and the two sleeping together, with Isabella continuing to be "Cold" for many nights to come.