Eirny Khairsdotter - Training
In a small, cleared section of the camp, the young woman began to twirl, her blade held in hand as she did. As she spun, she felt her legs fight to move differently. And yet she continued to spin. She felt her body sicken as the world spun around her. And yet she continued to spin. She felt suffering as her arm fought with the weight of the sword, extended out so far. And yet she continued to spin. Her breath quickened as she felt the exertion of repetitive movement in such speed. And yet she continued to spin.
In time, she felt none of these things. The suffering coalesced into something more. Her legs moved not under her own guidance, but through the pattern she had danced. Her eyes did not track the outside world, but instead the blur was ignored. Her arm carried itself through the weight of the force, carrying the spinning blade without conscious use of muscle. And her breathing grew still and soft as her mind stopped grasping for breaths.
The sufi danced to embrace their God, to empty themselves to the world, to purify themselves of thought. And so Eirny danced, a dance of one with blade in hand. A dance that left the distant girl without the faculties to think, but instead only with the trust in what she felt. She moved how her body felt was optimal, she swung how gravity and mass swung her arm, the world itself her guidance, her blade itself her teacher.
As she felt the emptiness of self, her body memorized the feeling. The feeling of trust in the unknowable, in what her Father would call his peoples God. He would have told her in these moments to trust in his God's direction, that all things fall into place in their moments. That he would guide her to the point of perfection, where all things moved as Intendended.
Eirny had never felt the presence of God, not how her father did. Instead she embraced the feeling of motion carried by motion, never stopping, never stilling, feeding, growing upon itself in power, in speed. She did not shut her eyes; for she had no need to do so. She no longer directed herself any more than an ant directed which way a river flowed. It was by letting go of her need to control the energy that she felt the energy best.
As the dance grew longer, it's cadence grew faster. In one breath she spun once. In two breaths she spun twice. Her body twisting, moving it's weight to a natural optimization as it corrected itself for the air resistance, for the uneven ground, for even the slight off-ness of weight from the woman's recent meal. And by the end as she spun to a final stop she was left - ground carved into by blade, creating a perfectly mirrored concentric
pattern with a balance that would have been impossible for her to make with intention.
As the switch in her brain flipped back, as she took back control for her actions in full, she could feel every ache of her body, she could feel the nausea flowing through her from the force of the spins, and she could feel the fire in her lungs from the long period of utterly heedless movement. But she forced herself to rise, from the center of the pattern she had carved into the earth itself. Sweat dripping down her body as she rose to face the sun.
She did not know where her Father's soul may lie, but in this act of surrender to the force he loved as greatly as his own wife, she knew a part lay within her.
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To an outside observer, to a Norse perspective, there was none of the usual energy in this surrender. There was no ferocity, no will to destroy, to kill. It was an oddly silent dance, as even blade striking earth did so in the softest manners, cutting through the dirt and ground whilst barely touching it. There were no screams. There was no passion. Eirny was always odd, distant, but in those moments of witnessing her, she seemed to cease as a person.
Her entire body directed by the blade in the foreign movements.