Changing Destiny (Kancolle)

Interlude: Utah and Ari
Interlude: Utah and Ari

Tired eyes cracked open and looked around in clear confusion. This wasn't where she was supposed to be. In fact, she didn't know where she was. The bed was comfortable, but it wasn't her hull. Her hull was gone. And it wasn't a hammock strung across a dock either, so she hadn't fallen asleep instead of working. At least not where she had been supposed to fall asleep.

So how...

"Mom? Are you okay?"

Grey eyes refocused, as Utah stared at her daughter. Arizona.

"Ari? Why---how did I--"

A gentle smile cut Utah off, as Ari's gloved hand reached down and brushed some hair from her face. "You needed to rest, Mom. I had Captain Jackson help me bring you here!"

"More like drag you." A much rougher voice, like sandpaper over her ears, echoed from behind Arizona. Utah knew that voice by heart. "Goddamnit, woman, did you have to work yourself to passing out? I had to fish you out of the water."

After giving her mother an apologetic smile, Ari moved aside to let Joe Jackson step forward. The old engineer, scarred face twisted into an annoyed frown, took her seat. His eyes bore into Utah's soul...until the battleship couldn't bear to look any longer. She turned her gaze away from her beloved engineer and captain, refusing to look at him. She was afraid of what she'd see.

She was afraid of what he would see in her. She still heard the voice crying for blood in the back of her head.

"Arizona, you mind leavin us alone?" Jackson's gruff voice echoed in the silent room.

Ari probably wanted to protest. But she only nodded and left the room, leaving Utah and her Captain alone. The very last position that the old battleship wanted to be in.

"Why did you bring me here?" Utah was the first to speak. She still couldn't look Jackson in the eyes, and her words were more bitter than she intended.

Jackson just snorted. "Do you really have to ask that question, Utah? Don't ya know me better than that?"

Perhaps it was just guilt. Perhaps it was wanting to know that Jackson hadn't stopped caring about her. Perhaps she was just tired. But, no matter the reason, Utah could only laugh humorlessly and turn shining eyes on her Captain.

She made no effort to wipe her tears away.

"You don't know me as well as you think." Utah's voice cracked. And she hung her head, lank gray hair falling in front of her newly-scarred face. Those flames had hurt her more than she wanted to admit. "Cap...Joseph. I lost myself out there. I murdered our own pilots."

Her Captain nodded, "You did. Willing to be more than a few flyboys hate you now."

If that wasn't rubbing salt in a very raw wound, nothing else was. Utah winced and slumped her shoulders yet further, unwilling to think about that. How many men and their families did hate her now? How many best friends, sons, husbands...

"But that's a fact of life in the Navy. Flyboys, especially Army flyboys, hate us anyway." Jackson's voice, for a rare change, was filled with amusement. He even laughed.

And laughed some more, when Utah's head snapped up and stared at him like he was a Martian.

"Come on, Utah, they're Army and we're Navy. We're supposed to hate each other."

Utah could only gape at the man, "Wha..."

Perhaps that was what he had been trying to do. As Utah's exhaustion fogged mind caught up with itself, she realized that. He had been purposely trying to get her mind off what she had done. And the worst of it was, he had succeeded. If nothing else, in making Utah think about something other than her ever present guilt. Or the anger that lurked beneath the surface.

That scared her more than anything to do with the flyboys. That she had lost herself and that, if it weren't for that, she'd be dead and a rusting hulk.

She owed her existence to anger she couldn't control.

"Look, Utah," Jackson got up from his chair, and sat down on the edge of her bed instead. His hand reached out to grasp her own. Jackson's calloused grip enveloped Utah's small hand and squeezed it tightly. "You're worrying too much. Even if someone hates you, fuck 'em. You're not at fault here."

"I'm a warship," Utah's voice was tiny and weak. "I'm supposed to protect. Not kill my own countrymen!" Tears freely rolling down her face now, Utah looked up at Jackson. Her grey eyes were misting over and she could barely see him out of them. "Why can't I try to make up for that by saving everyone I can?"

That was the crux of the matter. Utah wanted to save everyone she could. And as light from the smoke-clogged porthole illuminated the room she was in, it only served to remind her that more work was needed. Ari had told her that. She had to do what she could, no matter what it was.

"For the love of..."

That same light illuminated Joe Jackson's scarred face, as the aging man leaned forward. His lips brushed against Utah's cheek.

I--I--wh--

Utah didn't know how to react. She froze.

Her Captain just pulled back, and stared at her with a hard expression. He wasn't joking around at all anymore, was he? Jackson's voice was barely above a growl when he spoke again, "Utah, for once in your life, let someone help you. We're doing everything we can to get those men out, and killing yourself ain't going to help them."

The battleship opened her mouth to refute that...and only succeeded in having Jackson glare at her.

"We need you, believe it or not. You're the only ship like this, and who even knows how the hell you did it." Jackson clenched Utah's hand tightly, reminding her that- for better or worse- she was alive. "We can't lose you now, and you know that. So for the love of God, just stay in this bed and rest. Let the rescue teams do their jobs, and when that Admiral gets back, knock your heads together and figure out how this happened. Got it?"

It was a rare day when Jackson actually acted the Captainly role. Utah couldn't help the smile that crossed her lips to see him doing that.

"Yes sir."

This time, it was Utah who leaned forward and captured her Captain's lips. It was a chaste kiss.

But a kiss nonetheless.



With a small smile crossing her own face, Ari pulled her cap down and limped away from the room. Her Mother needed a man like that in her life. Someone who truly cared about her, despite what she was. She could only hope that nothing happened to Jackson, or it may break her mother.

"Hey, Ari."

On a related note...

"Tommy!" Ari hobbled up to the man who had given her a new lease on life.

The Marine was clutching a duffel bag over his shoulder, however, it did nothing to dim his smile. "Feeling any better? I know that the Sarge said it'll be awhile before you're fit to head to San Diego."

Ari couldn't help a wince, though it didn't compromise her own smile. She still walked with a limp from that torpedo and bomb hit along her flank during the attack. But she wasn't at any danger of sinking and it would only be a couple more weeks of makeshift repairs before she returned to the West Coast for a more complete reconstruction. Just like all the other Standards. Except...for poor, poor Cali.

"I'm better!" Arizona hardly let that keep her down, though. Not around this Marine. "The repair crews really know what they're doing. Everything is getting better, even my leg."

As if to demonstrate this, Ari stuck said leg out. Tommy valiantly fought to not look down, his honor warring with his Marine nature.

The Marine side won.

"Good to know," forcing down a slight flush, Tommy turned his eyes back on Ari. His free hand scratched at his fuzzy chin, as he looked at the girl.

Returning the glance, Ari smiled at him, "How are you doing? Are you leaving?"

Her smile did crack, a tad, at that idea. Tommy had given her a new motivation in her life and taught her a very important lesson. That everyone could help in their own way. Even if she couldn't leave her hull, she could still help her Marines and her Captain and her Admiral.

"Yeah," unfortunately, that didn't change Tommy's answer. The Marine rubbed at his bandaged face, the gash he had earned during the attack still healing. It didn't dim his own grin though. "Command decided to reassign me to the Raider Battalion. I'll be back with my buddies from basic. You'd like them, even if Frank would probably want to get in your skirt."

"He's a Marine. That's all they think about."

Ari spoke with such solemn grace and poise, placing her hand on her hip and staring up at Tommy with serious eyes, that the Marine actually stepped back. Before a smile crossed his face. And a laugh escaped Ari's lips.

"You ain't wrong about that," Tommy's grin widened a bit when he confirmed that.

"Of course not." While Ari just grinned back, completely at ease with this man. "Come on! If you're leaving, we should have some fun while you're still here!"

If Tommy was going to be leaving, though, she was going to spend every bit of time she could with him. Who knew when she would see the Marine again, after all!



Double post go!

Also, setting things up for later. You know how that goes. :V
 
American Ship Girls
And now, triple post ho!

These are our main American heroines, at the moment. Haven't gotten art for Yorktown or Lex or Hornet or Skip yet, but that'll come. Eventually. >.>



Let's recall that Destiny!Sara has that holdover blue hair from my original Pacific!Lex inspired design. And I'm still too lazy to go back and change every mention of 'blue hair' to 'brown hair'. So the blue stays.

Otherwise, this is about what she looks like. Minus the bare arms, but this is the closest I could get with the dress.

next:


Still cute, hopefully.


Probably the single hardest to get right (or as close as I can) was Utah. This thing is not designed for mature looking characters. I had to do some serious improv with the eyes and this fits better for post!Pearl Utah who is...rather depressed. To say the least.


The final one of the bunch (so far) is Ari. I will admit that I changed her eyes to blue for this, because I found the blue worked better than the brown. Go figure :V
 
Maybe take the advice of multiple people in thread and stop the derail in the future, yeah?
On the other hand you can still shove some crew quarters, stores, etc. in there so it's not totally "ballistic cap" level stuff a la APCBC shells.



Naw, it's...
What is Love Lowe* Lift?




cool. i have an issue with this though. This is a derail, plain and simple Guardian. It has never not been a derail, and your consistent attempts to push this topic has gotten very disruptive.

No one should have to keep trying to get you to drop the topic Guardian. Hell, I shouldn't have to come in here and do this.

But such is life I suppose. So yeah, take 25 and a 3 day timeout. And in the future, I would strongly urge you to remember to stay on topic, regardless of what thread you participate in.
 
Chapter 49
Chapter 49

The SBD Dauntless was an excellent plane. Fairly fast and agile for a dive bomber, with a heavy bomb load and enough armor to come back missing a wing. It had the range to scout the enemy, and still have enough to attack at the end. It could put its payload down on a pickle barrel. And it was a joy to fly. It was, in a word, the perfect dive bomber.

Or so Ensign Manuel Lawrence told himself, to take his mind off what had gone over the radio. He never wanted to hear that scream ever, ever again.

"We're going to hit the Japs with everything we've got, ya hear?" His commanding officer had ground out, when the scream stopped.

Lawrence had no desire to dispute the point. As strange as it had been to see that tall woman with blue hair walk in with the Admiral? Everyone aboard Saratoga had quickly become attached to their ship. The old girl never let them down.

And none of them would let her down, after hearing the anguish in her voice. They couldn't.

"I think I see something at two o'clock, sir!" That was the designated scout, the man with the best eyesight in the entire squadron. And those eyes had been looking almost religiously for any sign of Japanese warships. "Make it...at least one carrier and escorts."

Straining his own gaze down towards the ocean, far below, Lawrence let out a soft whistle. A Jap flattop was clearly visible. Boxy and fat, the ship was steaming along in formation with several destroyers. He couldn't see any smoke, but then, the Japanese had that idiotic downward facing exhaust. According to his identification book, anyway, that he had turned his eyes towards and was frantically paging through.

Not Akagi. Not Soryuu. Kaga?

Glancing back down at the carrier, blissfully unaware of the Americans rapidly approaching, the Ensign clicked his tongue. It was certainly ungainly enough to be Kaga. Right.

This is going to be exciting. Training can only do so much.

"You alright back there?" Lawrence spared a glance over his shoulder, shouting back at his gunner.

A slam into his seat answered him, and a grin he couldn't see. "Of course! I'd pay good money for a chance to get some back for Pearl!"

Grinning himself, Lawrence returned his attention to his wingmates. Sunlight glinted off the wings of the Dauntlesses, and the handful of Wildcats escorting them. Far below, he knew that the same light shone on Devastators. He was glad he wasn't in that deathtrap. It took a special kind of person to go into battle in a Devastator.

He wasn't that kind of person.

Regardless, those planes were still important. Admiral Thompson and Admiral Halsey had come up, jointly, with the new 'hammer and anvil' approach to bombing. The torpedo and dive bombers would coordinate their attacks as one group. The Japs wouldn't know where to send their fighters, and at least some of the weapons would get through. The divebombers were the hammer and the Devastators the anvil.

"The Japs are going to come down on them like an anvil."

Muttering to himself, the young American goosed his throttle a bit, pulling in behind his wingman. As the sunlight grew ever brighter, the Dauntlesses began to line up for their dive. It was now or never, and they wouldn't get another chance to hit the Japs like this again.

"Alright, everyone, let's show the Japs what it means to fight the United States Navy!"

With a chorus of cheers answering him, the Commander winged over first. And the rest of the squadron followed him, angling down on Kaga.

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To the perspective of the Japanese, the Americans had come out of nowhere. Only a handful of Reisen fighters had been left behind in the attack, too few remaining from the raid on Pearl Harbor. That bare handful of A6Ms had been caught off-guard, when American torpedo bombers came into sight of the lookouts aboard Kaga and Hiryuu. With little to no forewarning, the fighters set to their duty. Silver wings glinted, as they twisted out of patrol formation and down to attack the Americans. No plane in the world could match the A6M's agility and they proved it.

Within seconds of sighting the Devastators, Reisen pilots were already looming out of the blue. With radial engines roaring in their ears, the Japanese pilots dove down on the hapless Americans. To their credit, the torpedo bombers did not deviate from their courses. Even the Japanese pilots felt a tinge of respect for that.

Gaijin fools the Americans may be, they did not lack for bravery. Even as twenty millimeter shells lanced into the fuselages of their planes, the Americans kept going. One, two, three of the planes crashed into the water in flames. The Reisen, shells expended, had to pull off as fire broke out from Kaga. The Americans didn't even hesitate and dove right into the anti-aircraft fire.

Kaga was not refit to modern standards. Her defensive suite was adequate at best. Yet, the Devastators died. What else could they do? They had to fly low and slow to drop their payload, and a blind monkey could hardly fail to hit a plane such as that. The gunners aboard Kaga were no such thing. Grimly setting to their tasks, orders were barked out and men rushed forward with ammunition. It was a well oiled machine that could not fail to do its job.

The clatter of twenty-five millimeter guns was only matched by the shrill shouts of gun commanders and the thud of ammunition boxes being pulled off mounts.

Americans flew into this fusillade of defensive fire. They died.

And yet, they kept coming with a dogged determination that was almost Samurai. Inside Kaga's fighters, the pilots who had pulled off could only watch. Despite flames licking their fuselages, the Americans threw themselves into the fray. Not a single one of their planes pulled off and away, until it had released its torpedo.

I almost envy these Americans. They are fighting with more honor than many men I have seen.

Sitting secure in his Reisen, a young Japanese pilot shook his head. The Americans missed their strike on Kaga, he could see it. For all the futility of their attack, these men were worthy of respect. They deserved that much.

A soft sigh came from the young man's lips. His head turned towards the sun, as he prepared to move towards the heavens again. The Americans were all dead or retreating, and he must return to his...his...

What is that?

Grey specks were visible towards the sun. Little more than dots in his vision that could be explained away as sunspots. Yet, there were too many for that. They were moving too fast as well. It couldn't--they wouldn't--not even--

"American dive bombers!" The young pilot screamed into his radio, pulling harshly on his control stick. The force of his sudden maneuver pushed him back into his seat. His body screamed back at him, protesting his actions. He didn't even notice. "The Americans are coming from the sun!"

Around him, the other Reisen pilots were quick to turn up. Kaga's pilots were some of the most experienced in the entire Imperial Navy, and her A6M pilots were chosen for their immense skill and experience on top of that. It was a lucky man who flew a Reisen.

None of these men felt lucky now. Their beautiful fighters struggled to climb into the air, as the grey specks quickly coalesced into American planes. The roundel, a star, only drove that point home. Like shooting stars they dove down in perfect formation, one plane after another. Their gull-wings scythed through the air, while the planes went into as steep a dive as physically possible.

Beneath them, Kaga frantically pulled into a starboard turn. Even as she made that turn, forcing her escorts to do the same, a massive explosion rocked the destroyer Arare. Flames and water shot into the sky. With a tortured groan of crumpled steel, Arare began to settle into the water.

One of the American torpedoes, having overshot Kaga, impacted the destroyer. A few men cried out in a blind rage at the sight. The destroyer came to a rapid halt, listing sharply. Her crew could spare no attention for Kaga, wrapped up as they were in trying to save their own ship. Nor could the crew of Kaga provide aid to their escort.

For the American planes, screaming from the heavens, would give no time to think. Kaga's sharp turn had succeeded in throwing off the aim of the first American planes. Bombs dropped from those aircraft impacted the water on her port flank, popping rivets and buckling hull plates. However, they caused no severe damage. Men who knew what to listen for may have heard a stifled cry of pain, echoing over the thud thud thud of heavy guns joined by the clatter of machine cannons. Her crew continued to fire, the Reisen pilots ignoring the fire and charging at the Americans in their desperation to save their home.

It would not be enough.

Not every American would miss, of course. Adjusting their trajectory to compensate for the turn, the second wave of bombers was deadly accurate. Fat black bombs, larger than any Japanese weapon, fell from the centerline of each plane. Kaga, as a legacy of her battleship hull, could not turn hard or fast enough to evade them. Three bombs hit home in rapid succession. Each impact rattled the carrier and threw men to her deck. Fireballs reached into the sky, smoke and debris flying away from the carrier.

The explosions flung some men onto the decks of the nearby destroyers, and the crippled Arare was hit by a piece of Kaga's deck. A deck that had been shattered by the rapid explosions. Each bomb was enough to cripple a smaller warship, and the old carrier had taken three of them. It was a testament to her crew that she did not stop, dead in the water, despite the ruined flight deck and fires raging in her hangar.

With flames wracking her from the bombs, Kaga turned away from the battle at Wake. Her escort fighters gave up chasing the fleeing American dive bombers, returning like a flock of birds defending their nest. Each pilot felt suitably chastened for focusing on the torpedo bombers instead of watching, despite knowing that there were too few of them to cover every approach. Despite the crippled Arare serving as an example of what ignoring the torpedoes could have done.

These men would never forget the sight of Dauntless bombers coming out of the sun.


Far away from the flaming wrecks of Kaga and Arare, or even the smoldering Saratoga, another battle was being waged. With Japanese cruisers withdrawing to support their flagships, the Marines on Wake were given a respite from the gunfire. No silver Japanese planes flew in their skies any longer. This would be a cause for celebration.

Were these men not engaged in a battle to the death with hardened Japanese Special Naval Landing Forces.

With a savage jerk of his wrists, Corporal Steven Miller pulled his rifle from the chest of one such man. The Japanese soldier fell, clutching at his heart. Miller paid him no more mind than a butchered cow already turning to parry a bayonet from another Jap. After the destroyers and cruisers had left, these men seemed to have lost all sense of self-preservation. With calls of Banzai ringing, they had charged right into the guns of the Marines. And, in more than a few cases, into foxholes.

Goddamnit!

Grunting with exertion, Miller pushed up and to the right. The smaller Japanese man, overbalanced by the movement, slipped on the blood coating the foxhole. His rifle flew past the Marine, and Miller didn't give him a chance to recover. His Springfield, bayonet stained red, stabbed into the SNLF man's side. A strangled gurgle came from bloodied lips, as the Jap tried to pry the blade out of his side.

Miller obliged.

"Take that, you goddamned asshole." The Marine spat out, pulling his bayonet free. Ignoring the pained cries of the soldier beneath him, the Marine scrambled up and out of his foxhole. All around him, the screams of dying men echoed through the air. His own comrade, his foxhole buddy, lay dead inside the hole with the two Japs.

Colonel Devereux had long since vanished. Either back to the command bunker or under a swarm of Japanese steel, Miller didn't know. All he did know, was that the chatter of a machine gun was firing at SNLF forces just ahead of him. Men who weren't looking in his direction.

Those bastards are going to pay!

Dropping to his stomach, the Marine pulled back the bolt on his Springfield and stuck a new stripper clip in. With a satisfying click, the old bolt was rammed home and he could do what Marines did best. Shoot better than any other man on the planet.

"This is for Davidson, you sons of bitches." Miller growled, his finger pulling the trigger on his antique rifle. Old it may have been, whoever was on the receiving end of a .30-06 didn't care how old the bullet or gun was. A Japanese marine fell, a strangled scream alerting his comrades to Miller. Who, without hesitation, pulled back his bolt and fired again.

Return fire forced him to roll into an empty foxhole, but he never once stopped shooting. Miller was a marine, through and through. It would take more than bullets pinging around his head to make him stop. His actions were almost mechanical. Training and a desire for revenge had taken over. He pulled his bolt back and rammed bullets home. He aimed and fired. Each bullet he shot found a target.

Screams of anger from the Japs rang in his ears, as Miller smiled grimly. His eyes had long since hardened to the death he was seeing. It almost didn't register, when his rifle found its mark. When an SNLF soldier fell back, his head vanishing in pink mist. He only felt the need to avenge every single American those bastards had killed. He would make them bleed. No matter what it took.

He would only duck down when a bullet ricocheted off his helmet and forced him down.

Groaning a bit as his head rang with the impact, Miller kept his head down until the firing stopped. All of the firing. Confusion warred with pain and caution, and won out. Sticking his head over the lip of the foxhole, the Marine's eyes scanned the horizon. The burning destroyers on the beach were still there. The SNLF men were still there.

Or, at least, their corpses. Miller could see more than a few men he had shot, laying on the ground. Dead or nearly there. Even more Japanese soldiers were piled at the foot of the machine gun nests, where they had finally been pushed back. He wasn't enough of a fool to think they were all dead. If nothing else, this was not the only beach that the Japs had landed on. But this little slice of Wake? It was as clear as it would ever be.

Corporal Miller didn't know what to feel, about that. On the one hand, the Japs were gone or dead. On the other, he wasn't able to kill any more of them.

Ah hell, at least we held the island. Now we need those navy bastards to get here and relieve us.

Letting out a tired sigh, the Marine propped his rifle against the side of the hole, and slid down. His hands shook as they pulled out a cigarette and a lighter. He knew it was likely he'd have to move to fight other parts of the island, but for now, he was going to take a smoke and rest. God knew he needed it.


When the last of the Japanese planes had vanished over the horizon, Sara picked herself up on the ruin of her bridge. Her entire body felt as if it was on fire, reflecting the blaze burning on her deck. Her bridge had been torn to pieces. The man who had come up from her damage control teams was dead. His body had been torn into pieces and scattered across the room. Sara couldn't bring herself to look at it for too long, her stomach churning and her heart aching.

A lot of the pain came from the fact she couldn't bring herself to care, not really, about a nameless officer she had never talked to. All her attention was on the silent man laying at her feet.

Admiral...

Thompson was covered in blood. Her own and his own. His head was cradled in her lap, as she sat in the flickering lights from what remained of her electric network up here. He was quiet in her lap and she had no idea what to do. She could try and use whatever she knew from her medical teams, but she had no supplies or experience in using them. So Sara did the only thing she could.

Hold him and gently run her hand over his pale face.

"Admiral...why didn't you go somewhere safe?" Sara whispered, her hand running along a gash over his eye. Her body had shielded him, but there was only so much she could cover.

No words answered her question, either. She hadn't really expected any.

"You never did care about yourself, did you? Just about the others. Just about me."

Tears pricked at her green eyes. Tears that Sara didn't wipe away. Faintly, she heard her pilots reporting that they had hit a Japanese carrier. Words that she knew would pain her Admiral, if he could hear them. He cared too much. She often wondered. If he could really put aside the girls he knew and realize they were not the ones that he would have to face in combat.

This wasn't the way she wanted to find that out.

Choking back a cry, the carrier turned her reddened eyes out of her shattered command center, and over to Enterprise. Little E was the lucky one. She hadn't been hit once in this battle, and was steaming along. Her decks were crowded with her own planes and Sara's. And her voice was begging a way in.

"Aunt Sara, what's going on over there! Please talk to me!" The panic in her voice was something that Sara hated. She was the older one. She was the one who should have to take on the load of this war, and keep her Little E innocent.

But if things went anything like they had, in her Admiral's past, she wouldn't be that lucky. None of them would.

"I--I'm alright, Little E." Despite the hitch in her voice, Sara couldn't let herself look weak. "I'm okay."

"What about Admiral Thompson, then?" Little E's words hit harder than she probably expected. "Da---Admiral Halsey needs to know if he's okay. Is he? You haven't said anything and I'm so worried and I need to know that he--"

Ordinarily, the rambling of her little niece would have brought a smile to Sara's face. Right now, it just pained her more than any fire or any number of explosions.

"He...he's hurt. Badly." Sara returned her eyes to her entirely-too-pale Admiral. Biting her lip, she turned off her connection to Enterprise, and tried to speak through her damaged hull. "If anyone can hear me, I need a corpsman on the bridge. Please hurry, the Admiral is---the Admiral--"

She couldn't finish the sentence.

"...Aunt Sara..." Little E restored the connection, without even a second to waste. Her voice was tiny and quiet. "I..."

A connection that was soon taken away from her. Bull Halsey's gruff voice replaced it, likely speaking directly through the TBS system. "Listen up over there. Saratoga, I know what happened, but I need you to stay focused you hear me? Don't forget what he would want you to do."

Sara had never forgotten what her Admiral wanted her to do. She couldn't.

"Right now, I need to know if you can get back to Pearl. Can you?"

Looking down at her blood covered hands, Sara sucked in a deep breath. It was difficult to breathe...the damage to her stack? She wasn't sure. But she could move under her own power. Not at full speed and she wouldn't want to make sudden turns if she could avoid it. However, she could still move.

"Yes. I think I can." Her response was as mechanical as her hull.

"Damn good news." Halsey grunted, even as he barked orders at his own crew. "Right, I'm detaching Northampton and a few destroyers to escort you back. Get that Admiral of yours back before he does some damn fool thing again, and get yourself fixed up. We're going to need every ship we can get out here."

"Please be careful, Aunt Sara!"
Little E managed to break in one more time, before the connection was cut entirely. Sara smiled, ever so slightly, before it faded away.

She could hear corpsman running towards her bridge, and she needed to be ready when they arrived. Her Admiral's soft breaths were too weak.

She would be damned before she let him die.



Very difficult. I think that's what I can say for this one.

Of course, after this, we're moving out of the battles and back to stuff I find easier to write. For example, Germany. Though that's a couple chapters away. Next chapter will wrap up Wake and after that, I'll probably cover a couple more chapters in the Pacific, though nothing as major as Second Wake.

Which I tried to meld Midway and Coral Sea here, to some extent.

Either way, next chapter shouldn't take near as long, I think. Holding the Line should also be updated soon to cover the after effects of this. Debating if that will be before or after the next mainline chapter.
 
Warning: DO BETTER
You seem to have a personal vendetta or something. I advise taking internet foruming less seriously.
do better @Guardian54, video games are not historical sources. Stop trying to cite them in arguments. And your repeated wild rants about 'Bullshito' are done. Next one gets points, because that's flying right into some uncomfortably racist territory. Stop.
 
Chapter 50
Chapter 50

"Goddamn, but am I tired."

Letting out a long, low groan of exhaustion, Corporal Miller planted his Springfield into the ground. The rifle's bayonet had long since turned brown with dried blood, and he had run out of bullets hours ago. It was hell on Earth, because those goddamn Japs were insane. Not a one surrendered. They launched suicidal charges. They hid in shell craters and ambushed Marines. They would hide grenades until the perfect moment, faking surrender to take a few more Americans down with them.

They would do everything but give up.

It had been a nightmare. Even for a self-proclaimed 'devil dog'. Miller doubted that he would ever forget some of the things he saw on this desolate little piece of coral.

"Corporal!"

Groaning again, Miller spun around. His boots crunched on the aforesaid coral, while his bloody hand snapped up in an instinctual salute. He was too damned tired to care about protocol now. Major Devereux didn't see fit to comment on it anyway, merely raising an eyebrow as he returned the gesture.

"You look like shit, Marine." Devereux's eyes ran up and down Miller's tired body, while a little smirk tugged at his lips.

Miller grunted in response, "With all due respect, sir...screw you."

While Devereux chuckled at that, Miller just glared at his commanding officer. While he was standing here, covered in cuts and things he would rather not think about, the Major was still in his immaculate uniform. Didn't even look like he'd left the bunker, since he had gone to the trenches earlier. Lucky bastard.

Or just an asshole who stayed in the rear instead of fighting.

Whatever. I'm too tired to give a shit anymore. My buddy's dead, half the others are dead or shot up, and the island is even more of a shithole than it was before.

Grumbling under his breath, the Marine tiredly reached out and pulled his Springfield back up. Cleanup duty was still a thing, and there may be a Jap or two hiding under a rock somewhere. He may get lucky and find an ammo dump that wasn't raided yet either. One could hope.

"Walk with me, Marine," Devereux seemed to have different ideas. He spoke up as if Miller wasn't even there, forcing the Corporal to look back over his shoulder.

Miller sighed in response. "Where to...sir?"

"To the docks." The Major replied, before nodding his head at the battle-scarred landscape. "And anywhere else along the way. I want to see how many men are still ready to fight."

"Like me?"

Devereux chuckled again, "Yes, like you. You can still fight, correct?"

Naturally, the annoyed Marine only pulled his rifle higher on his shoulder, before setting off. He'd probably catch hell for that later. He was surprised he wasn't right now. Yet, Devereux seemed content to let it slide. Either the man was just as tired, or he was waiting to comment on the borderline insubordination later.

Again, Miller couldn't really bring himself to care anyway.

Though...maybe Devereux just didn't want to drive Miller off before he was done interrogating him. A suspicion that would be proven rather accurate, with the next words from his mouth.

"I want your opinion on something, Marine." Devereux used his height advantage to move up beside Miller, and look at the younger man out of the corner of his eye.

"Corporal Miller, sir."

I'm getting tired of just getting called 'Marine'...

If the Major cared about that response, he certainly didn't care to show it. He just shrugged and nodded magnanimously. "Corporal Miller then. Are you going to answer my questions, Corporal?"

Miller was silent for a second. He didn't know what questions he was going to be asked. What the Major wanted out of him. Was he singled out? Or was he just the first Marine that the man had come across?

In the end, he sighed heavily.

"What do you want to know?"

Devereux smirked at the answer, and raised a hand to wave out at the ocean. "Tell me how the Japs fought. I want to know how they think, how they fight, and how to prepare if they decide to come and make a second go at us."

The Corporal fully turned to face his commander. He wasn't embarrassed to say that his mouth had dropped open a little. The Major...how the...if they...

"We're not leaving?!"

Years into the future, a retired Colonel Miller would wonder if he had been a bit drunk on exhaustion, when he had made that statement. Then-Corporal Miller didn't really think about that. He had assumed they would leave Wake, since the Japs would probably come back and in stronger force.

"Of course not!" Major Devereux just snapped at the younger Marine, his eyes narrowed into flints. It was the first time his affable facade had fallen. "Wake is the gateway to Hawaii. If we hold here, the Japs are never getting the drop on Pearl again. This island may be a shit naval base, but it can still be a good airbase."

Pointing a slim finger out at the smoking ruins of the Japanese landing craft, the Major continued with an ever rising voice. Anger and frustration mixing into a dangerous cocktail.

"The Japs will come back. And I'll be damned if my Marines aren't ready to meet them, right here, right now. They won't even make it off the beach."

For Corporal Miller, it was the final straw. He turned on his heel, and marched off towards where he saw the first transport arriving to unload supplies for the island. Maybe he could hitch a ride. Maybe he could find someone who had their head screwed on straight. Regardless of what he found, he knew one thing for damn sure.

I'm not dying on this lump of coral. No sir.



A victorious day for the Americans, was a solemn day for the Japanese Imperial Navy. Men who had been enthralled by reports of battleships blowing into pieces or American planes lined up like chickens to the slaughter, now had to look at the burnt husk of Kaga. These same men had dismissed the losses in the Pearl operation as acceptable and flukes. The Japanese soldier was superior to the American. They could never truly lose.

No one had believed that more than Hiryuu. The short-haired brunette had always believed that.

And now she had to watch as her hull pulled away from the flaming wreck of her senior. Destroyers circled Kaga, attempting to help deal with the fires. Perhaps they could even save her.

Kaga herself doubted it.

"You must leave, Hiryuu. No one can save me now."

Her voice had been labored and full of pain, yet, still stoic. Despite the immense stress she had to be feeling...Kaga never once lost her even and soft tone of voice.

"All I ask is that you remember, one single thing. Can you do that?"

Hiryuu wiped tears from her face. Her body stood, ramrod straight, as she looked out at the old carrier. She would not, could not, look away. It was true that she had not always agreed with Kaga. It was true that she thought the elder carrier was too cautious and soft. Yet, she respected Kaga all the same. She had built the Imperial Navy into what it was. She was the heart of the Kido Butai along with Akagi. And she was gone.

Or soon to be gone. With her final words echoing in Hiryuu's mind.

"Do not let revenge consume you. The Americans will continue to fight just as they have today. If you allow yourself to be blinded, you will die as I am. Do not allow that to happen. Promise me. Promise me that you will go to Akagi, and tell her the same."

The true reason that Hiryuu could not look away, was that she had no intention of honoring those words. Even as she watched the burning husk of her senior fade in the distance, a growing fire grew in her heart.

"We shouldn't retreat." Hiryuu muttered to herself. "We should fight. I should fight." With each word, her voice rose higher and higher, until- with a turn of her heel -she looked at her crew. "The Americans did this! They need to be killed for what they did to Kaga!"

If there was anything true to Hiryuu, in that single moment of primal rage, it was that simple fact. Americans needed to die to pay for what they had done. Kaga had been fine one moment.

The next, her deck was ruined and her body broken. One moment. One moment, and the pride of the Japanese Navy was gone.

It hardly mattered anymore that she had her arguments with Kaga. Hiryuu was angry.

"Tamon-maru," Hiryuu turned to look at her Admiral. She knew he couldn't see her...but it hardly mattered, did it? She was still going to talk to him like he could. "You always taught me that we should hit hard, and hit first. Devastating strikes before the enemy knows what hit them. Why are we running away?"

There was no answer to that question, of course. Admiral Yamaguchi, even were he able to hear her, was far too focused on his work.

"Have any aircraft that are too damaged to repair pushed over the side," he was ordering the crew of the carrier. Yamaguchi wasted no time in setting to work. "Do we know where the other American carrier is located?"

The younger man he was talking to, could only shake his head. "No."

Admiral Yamaguchi sighed deeply. "I see...then our only mission remains the same. Returning to Japan and retaining Hiryuu. We cannot afford to lose two carriers."

In another time, and another place, Admiral Yamaguchi would have done what Hiryuu was screaming at him.

"Fight them! Don't let the Americans just get away!"

In this time and place, he did not. He had fewer than thirty planes that could conceivably launch an attack. His men were exhausted after the raids on Wake and Pearl Harbor. The Americans had proven quite adept at combat, despite all odds.

And more importantly than anything else, Admiral Yamamoto had given strict orders to pull back to the Home Islands, in the event that it looked as if there would be greater losses. The loss of Kaga was regrettable, if they were unable to save her. The loss of Kaga and Hiryuu would be catastrophic to the plans in the East Indies. That, as ever, had to be the primary focus for the war effort.

Any delays were unacceptable.

"Damn it!" Hiryuu ground out, turning away from her Admiral. Souryuu would barely recognize her, as she walked to look out at the plume of smoke in the distance.

Her sister wasn't here to understand. She couldn't understand.

The pain and rage burning deep inside Hiryuu, as her hull pulled further and further away from Kaga and Wake Island. As she ran away from a battle against her will.

She would never forget this feeling.



"It's a goddamn shame." Admiral Halsey sighed dramatically, safely ensconced inside Enterprise's bridge. "That last bastard got away."

With darkness having fallen over the fleet, only dim electrical lighting illuminated his face. His craggy features were almost ghoulish, especially with the 'bloodthirsty grin' on his face. The Admiral was hungry for blood and had been denied his prize. Saratoga pilots had nabbed Kaga, but the other carrier had snuck away like a thief in the night. It wasn't fair.

It also was him playing things up for the crew. No one knew that better than Enterprise herself, currently sitting on a stool across from her father.

Though he would probably clarify 'father figure' if asked.

He's my father, though. I never had anyone else. I never wanted anyone else.

It was a sign of that fact, that the crew only rolled their eyes fondly when they saw her on that stool. Any other woman would have been told off. Not her. She was almost their mascot now.

"Admiral...what are we going to do now?"

A mascot that was currently looking at her Admiral with sad red eyes. She had been hit hard by what happened to her Aunt.

Halsey turned his head slightly, so he could look over at his trusted ship. "That depends. Wake is secure, and the Japs are running with their tail between their legs. I'm inclined to chase them and sink that last carrier."

"We're with you, one-hundred percent, Admiral!"

Neither Halsey or Enterprise knew who shouted that, but they didn't bother checking either. The Admiral and the Carrier just stared at each other. Halsey may not have appreciated 'dadmiral' jokes, yet, he still treated Enterprise like his own. And he was very much a 'sink or swim' parent.

He wanted her to speak her own mind.

"I don't think we should chase them, Admiral." Enterprise jumped to her feet, her long blonde hair swaying with the movement. Her face was scrunched up in thought, while she paced a little. "Can we even catch them if we did? I--I don't know?"

She really didn't. She knew her own capabilities- nervous stutter and all -but not what Hiryuu could do.

Halsey grunted, "We probably could. Lord knows how much I want to catch those rat bastards and feed them a torpedo or two."

"...Admiral?"

"Don't worry about it, Enterprise," Bull Halsey smirked this time, rolling his eyes at the confused expression his carrier wore. She may not get the metaphor. "At any rate, I want to hear it from you. Do you think we could catch them?"

It was a tough question. Her planes could catch them in the daylight. But Enterprise didn't know if she wanted to.

"I...I think so." She twisted her skirt a little, if only to keep her hands moving.

Realizing what she was doing, Enterprise forced her hands to stop. She needed to conquer her nervous habits. Aunt Sara was gone. She wasn't dead, but she was out of the war for however long it took to repair her. Hornet, the sister she had never met, would be here soon. Yorktown would join her. And she didn't want her big and little sister's to see a nervous girl.

She had to be strong.

I need to act like the Admiral. Father knows what he's doing! As she looked over at the chiseled features of her father, a little mental giggle broke the stress of the situation. Well, maybe not entirely like him.

"I still don't think we should. We need to keep Wake safe in case more enemies show up, don't we?" Enterprise stood as straight backed as she could, and stared her Admiral down. "If we leave, they only have the Marines. We haven't even transferred everyone over yet."

"Very good, Enterprise."

Even as he said that, Halsey placed a hand on his chin and rubbed it a little. Was he faking it for her benefit or actually thinking? Enterprise didn't know.

"Now, second question. If we did catch up to them, and the Japs didn't hit Wake while we did, could your pilots sink that bastard?" Here, he looked out the portholes, at the busy flight deck. Even at night, men worked double shifts to prepare for combat in the morning. Shouts rang out and lights flashed around the deck park.

"Those Jap assholes are tough. We lost most of the Devastators last time, so we can't even rely on that working a second time. Can you send them to hell anyway?"

Enterprise looked down at her feet, and sucked in a deep breath. He wasn't going to want to hear this.

"I don't think I can. Not alone." Looking up from under her eyebrows, she saw an inscrutable face staring at her. No answers there. Right. "I'm not ready yet...Aunt Sara was hurt because of me. If I were better, she'd be fine. I don't want to risk losing again..."

With no answer forthcoming, Enterprise continued to pour her heart out. This had started as a military question, but she needed to say this.

"I know what everyone expects me to do. But I can't. I can't be her." She knew that literally no one would get that reference. Yet, the 'Gray Ghost' of Admiral Thompson's stories hung over her head like an axe. It wasn't her. It wasn't her. "I don't want to try going after that last carrier alone, not yet. I know you do Admiral, but..."

Halsey held a hand up, and shook his head. "Enough, Enterprise. You've made your point."

The Admiral stepped forward and placed a hand on her shoulder, while he looked over at her crew. His sharp eyes dared any of them to comment. None did.

They trusted their ship. They wouldn't say anything about what her views were.

"Well, you all heard the lady. Get the planes fixed up and ready for the morning, but keep close to Wake. I'll be damned if they get the drop on us again." Halsey growled the last bit out, squeezing just a bit too tightly with the hand gripping Little E's shoulder. "As soon as the last supplies are off loaded, we're high tailing it back to Pearl. We'll meet up with Lexington, get resupplied, and keep hitting the Japs where it hurts. Understood?"

"Sir, yes sir!" A chorus of voices answered him, as the men set to their tasks.

As for Halsey? He turned to look back on Enterprise, leaning down to whisper in her ear. Just two statements.

"I'm proud of you for finally showing what you can do, Enterprise. I want you to keep that up." Before she could hope to reply, his voice turned deadly serious. His eyes stared into hers. "And I want to know exactly what you were talking about."

It didn't take a genius to know what he meant. Enterprise flushed...and decided she was fine with that. Admiral Thompson would forgive her, eventually. When he recovered.

If he recovered.

And she needed to do something to help Aunt Sara too. Even if it was only helping her Admiral. She had to make up for her failure here...she had to.



Sorry for the delay. Work is more draining than anticipated...may just write on my days off, to be honest. Either way, here we are. Once again, this isn't as long as I was expecting...but then, I'm still not used to writing what fits instead of going for an arbitrary word count to fluff things up.

Blame FFN for that being a thing for so long. :V


At any rate, yes, Hiryuu survives. This is not to 'balance the odds' or 'buff Japan' or anything like that. Japan loses in the end anyway, we all know that.

No.

That was entirely for character reasons. Both for Hiryuu and Enterprise. You're already seeing some of that. Enterprise, in particular, is going to be changing quite a bit in this war...especially with the specter of her alternate self hanging over her.
 
Chapter 51
Chapter 51

"Welcome back to the world of the living, James."

Admiral Thompson cracked an eye open, wincing at the sudden barrage of sunlight. Birds chirped and the faint sound of wind whistled in through an open window. Soft curtains shifted in the breeze, and in the distance, nurses bustled around. The Admiral, wincing with every movement, opened his eyes fully. A green gaze shifted over the room. Clearly a hospital. Smiling women carrying around supplies and dishes, whispering to men swaddled in blankets and bandages. More men than he would have expected.

Unless--

"You're in Pearl, Admiral." A much softer voice, in contrast to the gruff male one that spoke first, rang in his ears. A very familiar voice.

Twisting his head slightly, despite the protests his body screamed at him, Thompson blinked owlishly. Utah smiled at him, a hand idly twirling in her long grey hair. Equally grey eyes looked...less tired than before. Lines still crisscrossed her face and there was still a crease in her forehead. Even with that, though, the battleship looked far better than she had. The last time he had seen her--

Well.

At least she wasn't covered in soot and burns now.

"Utah?" Thompson croaked, painfully pulling himself up. His lips twitched into a pained scowl, even as he came to rest on his pillow. The Admiral looked down on himself, and grimaced deeply at what he saw. Bandages, some redder than others, covered his chest and arms. "What happened?"

The battleship gently reached a calloused hand out, setting it on Thompson's. "You don't remember, do you?"

Thompson closed his eyes, and leaned back. What was the last thing he remembered? They were fighting off Wake. He had been giving orders to his crew, to Sara. The Japanese were counterattacking, like they always did. Why couldn't he...

"Admiral, get down!"

Green eyes shot open, as that panicked, fearful, scream echoed in his ears. If he were in any condition to do it, he would have shot out of bed. Instead, he lurched forward---and fell back, only able to manage a pained whisper of, "Sara!"

Utah stared at him sadly, shaking her head slightly. Beside her, swimming into focus, was a more familiar face. Chiseled and grizzled, Richardson frowned down at the younger Admiral. It had been his gravelly voice that had first woken Thompson. And now, he was staring with a mix of pity and resignation in his expression. Not exactly something one wanted to see from a commanding officer. It was rather hard for Thompson to care at the moment though.

"What happened to her?" He ground out, fighting past the pain from--from--

Well, everything, really.

Richardson reached a hand up and pinched his brow, "Saratoga put into dock a few days ago. We patched up her stack and sent her on to Bremerton for a full refit. You're damn lucky that Jap wasn't carrying any bombs, you know."

"Bombs?"

A sigh answered that question, Richardson shaking his head. "She said you wouldn't remember that. A Jap decided he wanted to take a few of us with him. Rammed his plane right below the bridge. Saratoga is fairly convinced you would have died if she hadn't protected you."

Thompson frowned. He faintly, faintly, remembered Sara tackling him. Nothing more. Had he really survived a kamikaze? More importantly, though, Sara had survived. He wouldn't have wanted to live if she died. Utah may have been standing right there, proving that the girls could still come back. It didn't matter. If Sara died from his orders, under his command...no. He'd rather die himself.

I can't let her die.

"In any case, we have a lot to talk about." Richardson continued, waving a hand at Utah.

The battleship took that as a sign to take over, smiling apologetically at the Admiral. "Before I say anything else, promise me you won't be angry at Little E for this."

"Angry at Enterprise?" Thompson blinked, tilting his head to the side. That hurt less than actually shrugging. "Why in the world would I be angry at her?"

"...she told Halsey." Utah's smile turned frail and small, as her grey eyes looked resolutely forward. At the wall, not Thompson.

A man who had paled, blood fading from his face as his heart began to race a mile a minute. No no nononononononononono---

"I...she..."

Words failed him. Thompson vaguely felt that the doctors would be worried about the sudden spike in his pulse. He was far more worried about the sheepish look Utah was sending him. The stony and unreadable expression on Richardson's face. It was impossible to tell what he was thinking. Thompson didn't know what he himself was thinking. His mind raced a mile a minute, his eyes frantically scanned over the suddenly quiet room. Looking for exits. Even if he couldn't even move in his bed.

Not that there were any exits. There was merely one, large, doorway. And dozens of occupied beds, filled with wounded from Wake or Pearl. Even the open windows seemed to squeeze in on him now, an inescapable vice.

What am I going to do? I was starting to think...I was starting to think it never would get out. I could just live my life, without anyone but the girls knowing. I...I don't know what to do.

For the first time, he felt real fear. Even the Abyssals hadn't brought out this primal, terrifying, fear.

"Admiral...Admiral..." Utah was suddenly in his face, worry overtaking any other expression. The motherly battleship was shaking his shoulders gently, grey eyes wide. "Admiral!"

Behind her, Richardson pulled his glasses from his face, sighing deeply. "Well, if I had any doubts, that just took them away."

"Why did she do that?" It was all he could do, to ask that simple question. Green eyes bored into Utah's grey, desperately seeking an answer.

An answer the battleship couldn't give him. She could only shake her head, leaning back slightly. "Enterprise didn't say. I was under the impression that Admiral Halsey forced her to explain."

Thompson laughed. Weakly, and without any real humor. "That would be just like him, wouldn't it? What am I going to do now...? They'll throw me in a cell and throw away the key."

"Hardly." Richardson snorted, replacing his glasses. Behind them, his eyes were narrowed flints, all hardened steel. "If nothing else, I refuse to lose such a talented commander...and I know, better than anyone, that the girls don't trust anyone like they do you."

"What can you really do?" The younger Admiral couldn't meet those eyes. All he could do, was look down at his lap. Clench his hands, biting back a groan of pain. "At any rate, you probably think I'm crazy."

Richardson sat down, right next to Thompson's bed. The older man stared at the younger one, raising one single eyebrow. "Perhaps. However, you have yet to be wrong. It would be foolish of me to dismiss anything out of hand. After all---"

Here, he waved a hand at Utah. Who flushed pink, looking down at her grey dress. She smoothed it down, while Richardson turned his eyes back on Thompson.

"---our ships have spirits, of young women. Compared to that, whatever happened to you is...hardly a leap of faith." Lips twitching into a small smile, the old Admiral shook his head. He ran a hand through his thinning hair, and sighed softly. "At any rate, that is a discussion for another time. Too many prying eyes, right now."

Thompson looked past Richardson, and saw more than one man 'asleep' in their bed. Yeah, he could really do without the truth spreading more than it needed to. Loose lips sank ships.

Literally.

"As soon as you're recovered, we're going to have a long discussion, Admiral Thompson." Richardson climbed back to his feet, spinning around to leave the room. "I would also expect the President to have a lot of questions. After all, there is a lot you could tell him."

The Admiral swept out of the room, leaving Thompson alone with Utah.

...I just want to go back to sleep. Maybe this is all a bad dream?

"I am sorry, for all of this." Utah spoke up, looking at Thompson out of the corner of her eye. She looked genuinely apologetic. "After everything you've done for us..."

"It's not your fault." Thompson replied, voice dull and listless. "Was bound to come out eventually, yeah?"

Neither of them had any reply for that. They merely sat in silence, together, while Thompson wondered how his life would move forward. And Utah wondered how she could help him. This man had given her everything and she had a way to repay it now, if only she could figure it out...



While Thompson stewed in his worry, the battleship that had once felt something for him, sat at her mooring. Arizona blinked brown eyes, looking up at the sky. She was laid out atop her number two turret, idly twirling a lock of thick red hair. She could feel men inside her, hammering away at burst plates and bomb damage. Making her fit to sail back to the West Coast and a more permanent refit, just like Saratoga. At one point, she may have felt jealous of the carrier.

Now she just worried about her.

Though, that worry was subsumed under her own conflicting feelings.

I should be dead right now. That's a strange feeling.

Ari clenched her hand, holding it up above her eyes. A cloud lazily drifted by behind it, giving the appearance of her hand clenching it. A soft giggle escaped the battleship at the thought, even as she frowned slightly. It was difficult to explain. Admiral Thompson had told her she died, on December 7th, 1941. That day had come and gone.

So had the attack that killed her, but that at least felt different. Surviving an attack was one thing. Living past the day she should have 'died' was another entirely. It was...weird.

"I should be dead," Ari repeated aloud, letting her hand fall, as she rolled onto her side. Her eyes drifted over to where Cali lay at rest. The fires had long since gone out, leaving a burnt ruin, metal torn and twisted. Biting her lip, Ari felt a strange mix of sadness and relief in her heart. "Cali..."

California had taken her place, in more ways than one. She should feel bad about that, but part of her felt glad to be alive.

"Come on, keep at it! I want the repairs finished yesterday!"

"Yes sir!"

Even the shouts echoing up from the dry dock only served to make Ari frown a little. She hadn't even taken much damage in the grand scheme of things. A couple of relatively light bombs and a torpedo. It made her feel a bit guilty, when she let her eyes skip over Cali. Virginia was settled into the harbor, pounded into submission. Nevada had tried to escape, and nearly died because of it. Okie was hurt badly. Ari...felt guilty.

Guilty for being happy to live past her 'death date'.

Guilty for taking so little damage, when her cousins- sisters really -suffered so much.

Biting her lip, the battleship pulled herself to her feet. She still stumbled a little on the warm red metal, sending a baleful look down at her leg. Still covered in bruises and bandages, but at least not broken. Every painful hammer down in her hull made it a bit better. She didn't care to explain how that worked!

"Right...I need to take a walk!" Nodding to herself, hat sliding around on her head, Ari jumped off her turret. A fall that would have crippled a normal person, just sent a sharp jab up her injured leg. Leading to a wince of discomfort. "Right...don't do that again. Owwwww."

Sheepishly shaking her head at her silliness, Ari hobbled a bit while moving down her hull. Topside, she could almost convince herself she had never been attacked. Debris had long since been carried away, and damage patched. It was only below the waterline, that she still ached. And she wasn't about to go down there.

The dark didn't appeal to her, not right now. She liked the warm Hawaiian breeze on her face, and the sun shining down on her. Not to mention she had a destination in mind already.

A very specific anti-air mount. She could see it already, barrels lowered in rest and not a single man around it. She didn't know who would be taking over this mounting, or if it would even be there after her refit. From what Admiral Thompson had told her, it would probably be replaced by some sort of Swedish gun as soon as possible. As she walked up to it, she didn't know how to feel about that.

The new guns are nice, but I'm going to miss it. This is where I learned how to fight!

With a small smile crossing her youthful face, Ari reached out a hand. She gently ran it along one of the barrels of the gun. The metal was warm...but not the scalding it had been.

"Tommy, everyone, are you going to be alright?" Ari asked aloud, thinking about the Marines that had taught her to fight. Taught her that even she could do some good, if she just found a way to do it. It wasn't the gun she worried about losing. It was the men who had manned it. "I miss you..."

Crews came and went, it was a fact of life for a warship. Any ship, she imagined. Before Admiral Thompson had shown up, she hadn't really noticed. She was never that attached to anyone. Now? Ever since he had walked into her life, she became attached to more and more people. Her old Admiral. Thompson himself, though with a wan smile, she reflected that Sara had more of a claim there than she ever would. Her new Admiral and Captain, men who were like big brothers to her.

And Tommy, who had given her a purpose.

I hope he comes back, some day. I want to see him again!

Giving the gun a final, gentle, pat...Ari spun around, and leaned against the chair mounted to it. Her brown gaze swept over the harbor, looking at ships coming and going. Enterprise would return soon. And she would leave soon. Pearl was at war now, and no one stayed too long. She had been here longer than she should have been.

Ari knew she would probably never fight a proper battle. That didn't change the fact that she wanted to be out there, doing what she could. Even if it was only bombarding islands into rubble. She could do that, in memory of the her who wasn't here. Of Cali and all the others. Of the men and women who had given her a reason to live and fight.

"I need to talk to the Admiral." Mind settled, the battleship sprung up, and set out for her bridge.

She couldn't speed up the repairs, but she could at least let her officers know where the worst damage was and how to fix it. That was something!



Work has been utter hell, by the way. That is why I haven't updated anything really (Arcadia vanity project aside) since...god, the start of November. And why this took so long.

I also wanted this chapter to be longer, to make up for that, but it occurred to me that sticking Schreiber in after Ari would be...questionable pacing. Also, I try to avoid jumping around like that, nowadays. If the two scenes are related (see: Wake) that's one thing. There was no smooth transition back to Germany.

That said, it does mean I'm going to immediately, before anything else, switch over to writing our German friends. So that chapter should be up by the middle of next week at the latest. I'd love to do it today or tomorrow...but I doubt I'll be able to, with the amount I'm being slave-driven the next two days.

Regardless, I'm really sorry about how long this took. Work or no work.

(and in case the Ari bit wasn't obvious, I was really planning on putting this up on the 7th, ie, yesterday. Work was especially bad.)
 
Information: Fashionable late Staff Communication
fashionable late staff communication While it seems that the situation has already resolved itself, allow me to make what @Skywalker_T-65 said above official.

The derail regarding tanks, nuclear reactors, airplanes, or what have you is over. If you want to continue that discussion, you can open a new thread for it. I can even move relevant posts there if you need.

Also, this is your regular public service announcement requesting to keep things civil. While things did not escalate, they did get a bit heated back in that discussion.

Thank you for your attention.
 
Chapter 52
Chapter 52

"Sir,

It has been difficult to evade the Gestapo and SS, at least long enough to send this letter. I do not believe they know who I am, exactly. However, the area around Amsterdam is on lockdown. They are quite determined to catch whomever lead the Jews to safety. I am confident they don't know where the refugees are. His Highness still has enough influence for that, at least. It has done little to calm nerves. If anything, the way that I and the Jews vanished has only made them more angry. I have seen things done by my countrymen that I would not have thought possible. The sailors I remember would never condone this.

Has Germany truly changed, so drastically? Or is it me? Did I never truly know my comrades?

I--I won't worry you with my fears, sir. Suffice to say, I fully comprehend what we are doing now. These men are not worthy of Germany. They are not worth saving. Men who would stand over a child like, like...they aren't worth it. If we are to save Germany, we must cut this darkness out. There can be no compromise. The Germany I remember must return.

You understand that, don't you, sir? That is why you brought me here. Why we all are doing our best. We just need to--

...apologies, I hear men rustling around nearby. I will send another letter as soon as I am able to.

-your loyal subordinate, Frieda Hacke."



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Staring at the letter in his hands, Gustav Schreiber frowned softly. Rumors abounded about what had happened in Holland. Just because he lived in an age before the internet was a fever dream in the mind of science fiction authors, did not mean he could avoid rumors. If anything, it made the rumors wilder, as no one quite knew what had happened. Even in the vaguest terms.

The letter's from Hacke, as she insisted on calling herself, were the only recourse he had. Oster felt no need to tell him anything. Paranoia was strong in the German Resistance.

I suppose I can hardly complain. There are many things I have not told them.

First and foremost, as he looked over his shoulder at a sullen battleship, the existence of the ship spirits. "Bismarck? Is there something wrong?"

His hearing hadn't failed him yet. He had heard her come in, the moment he sat down to read the letter.

"You know exactly what's wrong," not that Bismarck even really attempted to be stealthy. She was crossing her arms and frowning unhappily, actually, with her heeled foot tapping the ground.

All Schreiber could do, was sigh heavily. He pulled himself to his feet, wincing a bit at the sudden cold snap. The depths of a Norwegian winter penetrated, even this deep in the battleship's grand superstructure. The kind of cold that made your bones ache and body not want to move. If he were in Japan...no. That was in the future. The past. He couldn't focus on that.

Instead, a part of his mind wondered, for a second, how the crew on Tirpitz had survived this so long. The thought flitted away as soon as it came. After all...

"Tirpitz will not stop arguing with me!"

...the aforementioned white haired battleship, was the problem. Bismarck tended to get flustered easily when the other girls didn't listen to her, something Blücher abused to no end. When her own sister did it, well, it exacerbated the issue.

"You are aware she just wants to help, yes?" Schreiber gently reminded the tall blonde, placing his hand on her arm. Bismarck huffed, but didn't move away. The Admiral smiled slightly, at that. "I am fairly certain that she'll stop, once we leave the fjord."

If there were ever a girl he met that was completely unlike the one he remembered, it was Tirpitz. He supposed it was inevitable. The Tirpitz he remembered was a quiet girl, who wanted to be left alone and tended to find spots that enabled her. It was a pain to drag her out for anything at all. Her time in Norway- the Lonely Queen of the North -probably caused that.

The Tirpitz here is...different.

Smiling slightly, Schreiber removed his hand and nodded at Bismarck. The battleship kept up her frown, even while she sighed in a mix of resignation and frustration.

"I know all of that, damnit." Bismarck grumbled, turning her intense blue gaze away from the Admiral. Her hands moved down to clench at her nonexistent skirt, while she swayed side to side. "I...Tirpitz is my sister. I should be able to understand her, but I can't. How does Blücher do it?"

Schreiber chuckled, "If I knew the answer to that, I would gladly tell you. I was an only child, I'm afraid."

While Bismarck continued to grumble ineffectually, Schreiber turned and gingerly placed the letter back inside his desk. It wouldn't do to have someone find that. Luckily, Bismarck knew where every member of her crew was, at all times. No one could sneak into this room.

He could still remember the time one of Himmler's plants attempted to look through his belongings, and ended up finding his head down a toilet for his troubles. Bismarck was every bit as vindictive as Blücher some times.

"You know, Admiral," the battleship spoke up, bringing the old man's attention back around. Bismarck looked at him, with an almost pensive expression gracing her classically Teutonic face. "If she can go out like that, what's stopping us? Blücher and I would be quite willing to leave."

That, well, that was a difficult question to answer. Schreiber had explained why, at multiple points. If absolutely nothing else, Bismarck and Blücher were still attached to their hulls. Short of sinking them, he knew of no way to change that. Being as he had absolutely no intention of sinking either of these girls, that was hardly an option. And since it wasn't an option, he had told them to stop pursuing it. Even if they could figure out a way to leave their ships behind, what could they do?

This is Nazi Germany. They will get nowhere, if they try to get close to anyone important.

"You already know my answer, Bismarck." Schreiber merely raised a hand to his brow, rubbing at it tiredly. "At any rate, you're needed here. As soon as Prinz Eugen returns, we are likely to sortie again."

"The Russians," Bismarck practically spat the word, and Schreiber felt a pang of guilt run down his spine.

As much as he loathed the Soviet Union, and what they had done to his family, he still regretted what he had done. He had comprehensively turned Bismarck and Blücher alike, against the Soviets. He didn't want to think how Blücher would react to seeing her sister in Russian service. At least they saw it as harming the Soviets, and not the British.

Lord only knew how many British sailors would die in the cold North, before this was done.

"Indeed," burying whatever guilt he felt deep, deep down...Schreiber looked directly into Bismarck's eyes. "And that, my friend, is why it is so important to Tirpitz that you let her help. She saw what happened the last time you came back from battle."

His eyes, and Bismarck's hand, drifted down to a scar hidden by her overcoat. A web of silvery lines across her stomach, where fifteen-inch shells had cratered her belt. No amount of repairs would ever make that mark go away.

"...I don't want her to get hurt," Bismarck almost whispered, her hand unconsciously rubbing along her hidden scar. Aha. There was the real problem.

Turning away from Bismarck, Schreiber looked out his fogged over porthole. Muggy grey clouds hung low in the sky, covering any sign of the sun. He knew, that if he looked a bit further, he might see part of Tirpitz. The two identical sisters were moored close to each other, for mutual defense. He was also aware that, further out in the harbor, destroyers patrolled. Not far away, Hipper lay waiting for Prinz Eugen to arrive. It was about as strong a battlegroup as Germany could manage, now. Only missing Scharnhorst.

And he knew it would never win a pitched naval battle.

"I can't promise you that, you know." The Admiral continued to stare at the dull sky, whispering himself. Bismarck would hear every word.

"As long as you try, Admiral. That's all I can ask."

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With his hands firmly shoved inside a thick overcoat, Admiral Schreiber stood upon Bismarck's bridge. Rather, upon the bridge wing, looking out over the isolated fjord. There wasn't much to look at. Hastily erected buildings and docks, to support the fleet. Endless mountains set in a grey sky. Forests of trees being lopped down, to cover up the massive forms of the battleships. While a part of him knew that Trondheim was nearby, the rest of him reflected on how isolated he was now.

In more ways than one.

"I can't do anything back home," Schreiber mused, as his breath misted before his face. On the one hand, it showed how much Hitler trusted him. A thought that disgusted him.

On the other hand, it also showed how much the rest of the party leadership didn't. Oh sure, it was an honor higher than most. Commanding the best fleet Germany had. And yet, it was also a punishment. In these days, before easy and secure communication, he was unable to work with the Resistance. Everything was up to what he had left behind, and he knew that. He imagined Himmler did too. Schreiber was not so arrogant to think that he was squeaky clean to the Party.

"Admiral?"

It didn't help that the one man who could help him, was kept in the dark. Schreiber had yet to truly trust Lindemann, as the Captain walked towards him. Curiosity in the man's stormy eyes had the Admiral wincing slightly. That was never a good sign.

"Yes, Captain?" Schreiber maintained military discipline, continuing to scan the horizon. Even as his subordinate walked up beside him. "I rather doubt this is a courtesy call."

Lindemann smiled, a small and brittle thing. "Hardly. I have reports from back home, in fact."

That brought Schreiber around, a raised eyebrow crossing his lined face. "Oh? And what does the Fatherland ask of us now?"

In response, the Captain pulled out a stack of decrypted Enigma papers, and handed them over. His face studiously blank, beyond the lingering curiosity in his eyes.

Hm. There is something going on here, isn't there?

Taking the documents, Schreiber began to look them over. At first, it was merely the kind of routine dispatches one could expect. Supply manifests, requests for transfers, reports on progress. Nothing out of the ordinary. In fact, it was so mundane, that he wondered why Lindemann had brought them. This was all stuff that the Captains of the ships could handle, and not by any means something requiring him.

That was, until he reached a much more formal paper. One with the signature of Raeder.

"Sortie will be postponed. Upon arrival of Prinz Eugen, continue training exercises. Do not attempt attack." Schreiber read aloud, looking over at Lindemann. No real reaction. "I wonder if this was the Führer? He does like avoiding risk, when it comes to the Navy."

It was as much a test as a stray comment. Lindemann didn't rise to the occasion.

"It was more likely Admiral Raeder himself, sir." The Captain shrugged slightly, and raised a hand to gesture at the papers. "That wasn't what I brought these for. I'm not pleased by the idea of letting the British supply the Bolsheviks, but it isn't important. Not right now."

Schreiber frowned, and turned back to his reading. What spooked his Captain so badly? Because he was beginning to get the feeling it was more than just curiosity, hiding behind that implacable face. It was with a mounting sense of dread, that the Admiral pulled out the last of the papers. This one was much simpler.

While he had summarized the last one, there was no need to summarize this one. It was a very simple message.

One that had his hands turn white as he read. "Admiral Gustav Schreiber, recalled to Berlin at once. To meet with a representative of the Regia Marina."

"That would be what I was curious about, Admiral." Lindemann's voice was only slightly warmer than the winter air, as he looked over at the Admiral. "Why would command want you in Berlin? To meet with the Italians of all people?"

The Admiral didn't respond. Something that he knew the Captain missed, was printed at the bottom. A picture of the dignitary he was supposed to meet. Perhaps Lindemann had simply not cared about it. Perhaps, he had missed it. Or he brushed it off as a picture taken of a man and his daughter, instead of what Schreiber knew it to be. It was even possible the man who took the picture didn't know.

That was not the case for the man from the future. Even in black and white, with no colors of hair or uniform to work with, he recognized the girl. He didn't recognize the apparent Captain in the picture, but that didn't really mean much. He wasn't Italian.

The girl was. An impossible girl, wearing a very heavily customized version of an Italian naval uniform. She was young, perhaps barely into her teens. A girl who shouldn't be near the military. Unless...unless she were not human at all. Or, at least, not a normal girl.

An Italian destroyer. Impossible.

"Ah...I suppose, it is probably to discuss joint naval actions." Schreiber covered whatever he felt, his roiling emotions subsumed under the mask that had fooled Hitler. "I imagine they want to learn from the man who has actually fought the British and lived to tell the tale."

Lindemann actually chuckled a bit, "You're more famous than you realize, Admiral."

"I am fully aware of that, I assure you." Schreiber continued, carefully pocketing the papers. This was...he needed to let Bismarck know, so she could tell the others. Perhaps he would see Blücher and warn her as well. "In any case, I should probably prepare. Are all the other Captains aware of this?"

"They were informed before I came to see you, sir." The younger man bowed his head slightly, his cap covering his eyes.

Schreiber found it hard to care, "Good...good. I do intend to return, as soon as I am able."

Though, as he left the Captain behind, the time-traveler could only reflect that 'soon' may not be what it seemed. He knew that no one who would betray him knew his secrets. Or of Bismarck, Blücher and the rest. He could only assume that the Party wanted him back, since he was the most successful commander they had. That had to be the reason.

Why else would they want him to talk to an impossible girl?



Still not horribly long, but I'm having to hammer my muse into cooperating on some level >.>

At any rate, no, I did not forget about Turbine. I already said that, but it bears repeating. Fun times ahead for everyone involved. I long ago decided that around chapter 50 would be when things came to a head for both Thompson and Schreiber, and this is what we get. Across the Atlantic, a time traveler revealed.

In Germany, ship girls are more than just a rumor from Pearl now.

Also, since Thompson needs to recover from his wounds, we'll be in Germany for the next little bit again. It won't just be politicking, but that will be a lot of what Schreiber is doing.

Hopefully the chapter at least works out well enough. Not entirely satisfied with it, myself <.<
 
Chapter 53
Chapter 53
Drip. Drip. Drip.

Bright brown eyes stared at the ocean, their owner draped over the side of a pier. Brown curls of hair fell down towards the water, little droplets falling from the tips. A small smile and a laugh joined them. The girl's hand reached out and gently drew circles in the waves. Her bright smile was reflected back at her, even as the water distorted it. She was always more at home in, or at least around, the water. Being on land felt profoundly unnatural. It probably always would. A drydock was one thing, actually walking around was...weird. Frightening sometimes. There was none of the cold that water gave. None of the control that pushing her turbines gave her. She was at the mercy of whomever came across her, much as anyone else was.

And so, she stayed near the water whenever possible. A thoroughbred horse would always want to run in the fields. A destroyer would always want to be in the water. Sprinting to her next mission with wild abandon.

"To Libya I go~ To Libya I go~." She sang softly, her head nodding side to side. Her brown eyes chasing her reflection in the depths. "To Taranto I come home~ To Taranto..."

Behind- above? -her, a distinctly male voice cleared his throat. The little destroyer tilted her head back, blinking a little at the sunlight shining down on her. When the spots cleared from her eyes, her smile widened. A more natural grin appeared. And it was all she could do to not jump up and grab the man in a tight embrace.

"Turbine," for his part, the man clearly realized that. He brought a hand up to keep her from moving...even as he smiled himself. His lined face, now decorated by fresher scars, twisted a bit. No woman would call him handsome after surviving two sinkings, in two different wars.

He didn't, and never seemed to, care. The Navy had always been his life, in a very real way. Now that she was around...well. It was a bit more literal.

"You know, you can't keep running off like this." His voice attempted to be stern. Even with the natural gruffness that came from working in a sweltering engine room, it didn't quite work. The softness of his smile ruined it. "If I have to keep dragging you back, our friend the German will get upset."

As quick as it had come, her smile faded. Turbine let out a sigh that turned into a whistle that would make her old crew jump to attention. Even her...father...Carlo twitched a little. "I don't like him."

"I think the feeling is mutual, Turbine." Carlo smiled and sat down next to the destroyer. His hands produced a piece of bread, that he broke in two and passed over to the destroyer. The engineer chuckled, when Turbine eagerly grabbed her half and stuffed it into her mouth. Chuckle or no, his eyes were still serious, however. "The Lord only knows that I don't trust him."

Turbine nodded, even though her cheeks were puffed out by the bread she was hastily chewing.

"And that's why you can't keep running off like this," Carlo continued, reaching a hand out to pat the destroyer on the head. He still remembered that fateful day, and how she had mentioned liking when he patted her boilers. As she leaned into his touch with a smile, the Italian officer sighed softly. "If you do, he'll start thinking you're going to leave. We can't do that."

The destroyer swallowed, and shrunk in on herself a little. Her feet aimlessly kicked in the air, while her head fell back down to the water. The tips of her hair swirled in the deep blue, as brown eyes stared up at her father. Her voice was tiny when she spoke up, "He scares me."

Carlo could only sigh again, and place his hand on Turbine's arm. "I know."

Nothing more needed to be said. Both of them knew what was bothering the destroyer. Turbine, behind her easy smile, was still a bit timid after her sinking. Who wouldn't be, when they were pounded into scrap by an unusually good shooting light cruiser? No destroyer came out of that easily. And the German...the German. He wasn't normal. He wasn't right.

His smile scares me. What does that man want with me? Why is he...

The German stared at her. When he didn't think she was looking, he grinned at something only he could see. Even when she did look directly at him, he still smiled. A smile that was too wide and that didn't reach his eyes. The man was creepy. He practically leered at her with every glance. Turbine didn't know what he wanted with her, either. It wasn't sexual. She knew that much.

It was something worse. There was a light in his eyes that struck deep into her soul. The light of insanity.

"...you're not leaving me, right, father?" Turbine lifted her head up, water dripping down her face as she stared at her engineer. The closest thing to a father she had.

Carlo just smiled at her, "Never again. I promised you that I would never leave, that day. Remember?"

"...yeah." The little destroyer smiled, and pulled herself fully up. Her skirt ruffled with the movement, as she stood up and looked down on the old man. "Should we head back? I really don't want to..."

"Unfortunately, I don't think we have a choice there." Carlo climbed to his own feet, smoothing down his uniform before placing a hand on Turbine's shoulder. She appreciated the touch. "I heard the Germans are sending an Admiral down to talk to you, now. Can't miss that, can we?" Squeezing slightly, the Italian sighed and looked up at the sky. "An Admiral...they're taking this seriously. I almost wish I had hidden that you returned."

"Would that have worked?" Turbine didn't even hesitate to lean into her engineer's side, looking up at him with wide brown eyes.

Prompting a snort from the man, "No, probably not. I was too happy to have you back, and the Navy wondered where I had hidden your flag. Couldn't very well hide that for long. il Capitano was apoplectic when he found out I took it."

Turbine giggled, and Carlo smiled. Successful distraction maneuver.

"Come on now, Turbine. Let's not keep our friend from the SS waiting. And I'm sure the Admiral wants to talk to you."

Distraction or not, they had a job to do. If Carlo wished he still had Turbine's flag, the heart of an Italian warship? Well, that was one thing. It was another entirely, to be willing to deal with a German without the emotional support it had provided him. In the dark days after her sinking, it was the one thing he had to remind him. To keep the girl he had seen in his mind.

He still didn't know how it had brought her back...and yet, he never complained.

"I wanted her back, so dearly..."

Turbine looked over at her engineer, confusion lining her youthful features. "Father? Is something wrong?"

Carlo was lost in his thoughts and didn't reply.



It was a dark night, on the Taranto shoreline. The new moon provided no illumination. Even the lights from the naval base were gone, as most ships had been moved to safer ground after the raid. Only starlight shone down, glittering upon the dark waters of the harbor. One man stood at a pier, empty and desolate, looking out at the waves. Clenched tightly in his hands was a single Italian flag. The battle flag of Turbine.

Carlo Lombardi didn't know why he came out to this pier, her former pier. Perhaps it was because he missed her. When the first Turbine had sunk, he hadn't felt this way. He had been more consumed with loss for his comrades than the ship.

This was different.

His fingers ran along the rough fabric of the flag, as flashes of a brown haired girl ran rampant through his mind. A teenager, covered in her own blood. Smiling at him through obvious pain. Brown eyes staring into his soul, begging him to leave her behind. He...he still saw her. In his dreams. She haunted him, in a way that he had thought reserved for his comrades from the Great War. Who would have thought a destroyer would haunt him so?

'Who would have thought that Turbine had a soul? God...'

Theological questions that could keep the Vatican running for decades, meant nothing to him. What mattered to him, was that he had a promise and no idea how to keep it. Carlo had sworn, the day that Turbine sank, that he would bring her back. How? He didn't have the slightest idea how to do it. If it was even possible. If the Navy built another Turbine, would it be the same girl? Or a new one entirely?

And he couldn't wait that long. He may not live that long.

"What am I even doing out here?" Carlo asked no one in particular, looking up at the sky now. He felt every one of his years in that moment. His shoulders bowed by age and his limbs tired. "I'm not a man of God. I haven't been to Mass in years. How am I supposed to bring her back? How can I bring her back?"

It wasn't as if he expected any sort of reply. Nothing but the wind to answer him, gently wafting off the harbor. Salt and lingering fuel oil filled his nose. Familiar. So very, painfully, familiar. He could almost imagine himself inside her engine room again. Hearing the boilers and turbines pushing her through the waves, as if she were a purebred horse. Smell the scent of sweat and oil that only a sailor knew. Listen to her crew smiling and laughing as they evaded the enemy once again.

So many memories.

So many regrets.

"Turbine, I'm sorry that I can't do anything." Sighing deeply, the engineer let his head fall back down. He stared out at the harbor once more, shaking his head ever so slowly. Nothing. "One day, I'll bring you back. That's a promise, and I intend to keep it. You hear me? Wherever you are, Turbine, I'll bring you back. I swear."

Letting his grip loosen on the flag, Carlo turned away from the harbor and began marching back to the shoreline. He would probably be assigned to another destroyer soon enough. Men like him, men who were chief engineers, were never common enough. It was only to recover from his injuries that it took this long. He'd probably be put on another Turbine-class. Or maybe Legionario, when she was completed. She wouldn't be the same. But...

With nary a sound of warning, the brush of wind turned into a gale. Carlo stumbled, and fell to his face when something slammed into his back. Cold arms wrapped around him, and rough hair pressed into his back. He could feel the poke of a nose pressed into his shoulder, and the wetness of what could only be tears falling upon his uniform. Sobs rang out over the sound of wind, painfully familiar sobs. He knew that voice. He knew that hair. And he certainly knew that nose, and the face it was attached to.

"F---father! You never gave up on me! You brought me back! I was so cold and it was so dark and I just wanted to hear your voice and I---"

Carlo gently turned around, careful not to upset the babbling girl on his back as he shifted her to his front. His eyes met red-rimmed brown, set in a pale face that was flushed pink. A little teenager, sniffling as she clutched tiny hands in his uniform. This wasn't the tough girl who had told him to leave her to die.

Perhaps, that was to be expected. Strength from adversity could flee like the wind, when the danger passed. Lord, did he know that better than most.

"Turbine? How..." Even as he asked the question, Carlo was shaking his head and holding her tightly. The 'how' didn't matter. The 'why' didn't matter. She was here now, and he had kept his promise. "That doesn't matter. Are you alright? Is anything wrong with your turbines? Or your boilers?"

Turbine hiccuped, and despite herself, smiled. "Once an engineer..."

"...always an engineer." The Italian officer finished, smiling himself. "You have no idea how I missed you, dear Turbine. I didn't know it would be so painful."

"I--I missed you too, father." Turbine didn't even care what she was calling him, and Carlo couldn't find it in himself to correct her.

Why bother? She was the closest thing to a daughter he would probably ever have. And he couldn't say no, not now, and not ever again. Not after watching her die before his very eyes. Who even could?

"I told you, Turbine. I promised I would bring you back."

"And you did."

Carlo's own smile widened, as he held the girl close to his chest, heedless of her tears soaking through his uniform. "Indeed. And I won't let you go again."




Turbine couldn't have known what was going through her engineer- her father's -head. She also couldn't care less, though it would probably make her blush had she actually known what it was. Most, if not all, of her attention was focused on the men visible in the distance. Two Germans, in dramatically different uniforms. The familiar grey of the SS officer, who was taller than the other man. Even from this distance, Turbine could see the leer on his face. Sometimes, having the lookout in her mast was less than useful.

The leer still made her shudder and push herself deeper against her father.

As for the other man? Where the SS officer was young and blonde, this man was old and grey. Lines crisscrossed an aged face that had seen too much. He was older than Carlo, and more world-weary. Even from as far as they were, Turbine could see that. From the creases in his forehead, to the way his entire body hung down.

Yet...

"That must be the Admiral." Carlo spoke up, sending an appraising look at the man in a blue uniform. The Italian was smiling slightly, at how the shorter man stood up to the SS officer. "He seems strong."

"He does!" Turbine nodded, unable to hide a smile at how the Admiral was clearly berating the SS man who was slowly losing his leer. Sure, the man was old and tired. But his shoulders were unbowed and he was strong.

"Let's go see what's going on, shall we?" Pushing away from her, if only a little bit, Carlo smiled at Turbine and bowed his head in the direction of the Germans. "I'm curious to meet this Admiral. You?"

Turbine nodded eagerly, feeling at least a little of her nervousness seep away. "Hm! He looks a lot nicer than the other German. Not that it's hard to do!"

"You aren't wrong, Turbine."

With matching smiles on their faces, the Italian officer and destroyer walked up to the two Germans. The tail-end of the argument wafted over to them, carried on the wind. It seemed that the two were...arguing about Turbine. About what she was, and what she meant to the world. It was enough to make the destroyer lose her smile, and Carlo clench his fist. Though he kept the smile, if only to keep the Germans from seeing what he felt.

"...you don't understand, Herr Schreiber! That girl, that warship, is a sign! She is clearly a spirit, a Valkyrie of war, brought to help the Reich triumph over our foes! Reichsführer Himmler has stated that..."

"I don't much care what Herr Himmler has said," the Admiral, Schreiber, held a hand up. His aged features were showing clear distaste, when they glanced at the SS officer. "Or, for that matter, whatever occult nonsense you believe. At best the girl is an angel. I'm not even sure I'm religious enough to believe that, some days. I am Christian enough to consider her a miracle."

While the SS officer turned an interesting shade of puce, the Admiral turned to look at the Italians. A small smile had taken form upon his thin lips, as he sent a sharp nod at them.

"As it turns out, our guests have arrived. Do you care to introduce me to our miracle, Hauptsturmführer Bruder?"

The SS officer growled a little, stiffly spinning on the spot to raise an arm and point at Carlo and Turbine. "Primo Tenente Carlo Lombardi, and Turbine. May I introduce you to Admiral Schreiber?"

"A pleasure." Carlo completely ignored Bruder, reaching out a hand to Schreiber instead. He didn't have the slightest idea how German's saluted each other.

Schreiber didn't seem to care, merely smiling softly as he took the hand and shook it firmly. "Indeed. I've heard a fair bit about the both of you, though I'm not a fan of some of it." Here, the old man sent a stern glance at the SS officer, who was stewing silently in place. "I imagine that I'll get an earful from Herr Himmler later, however, in this moment? I don't see a Valkyrie or whatever occult explanation they dug up from the Celts right now."

As he said that, Schreiber released Carlo's hand, and knelt down to look Turbine in the eye. The destroyer stared right back, smiling ever so slightly. Something that the German returned, gently reaching a hand out to place on her shoulder. In a way that was so very, very familiar.

"All I see is a girl, who needs to be taken care of. Someone who is a miracle, and someone we should protect at all costs." Schreiber's voice dropped a little at the end, becoming almost melancholic. His smile was brittle. "Am I right, Turbine?"

Sending a quick glance at Carlo, and getting a nod in return, Turbine smiled at Schreiber. Wider than she had been before. "Yes sir!"

"Good girl." Stretching back up, Schreiber removed his hand and looked at Carlo and Turbine at once. "I'm sure both of you have a lot to tell me. I'd like to hear your story, and how Turbine came back like this. Perhaps, a demonstration of what she can do on the waves?" At the nods he got in reply, the Admiral sighed softly. "Whatever I see will be going back to Germany. I assure you both, that I am on your side. I don't have the same opinion of Italy that many of my countrymen do. However..."

Schreiber pulled his cap from his head, and rubbed at thinning grey hair. Mopping at sweat forming on his brow.

"I can't make any promises. I have many friends back home, from what I did with Bismarck. I cannot guarantee that will be enough."



*insert apologies about delay here*

The simplest explanation, really, is that work has been murdering me. Holidays are not fun. Ever since the holidays, it has rarely (if ever) slowed down. This leaves me with little motivation to write when I get off, and much motivation to just relax and game on my days off. Not conducive to writing.

That said, I'm probably going to condense my focus on writing down to this, Adventurous Skies, which I do want to go back to my intended weekly updates for, the Indy rewrite...and Purple Phoenix.

The intention in doing so is simple. I want to be able to focus and make up for how work is draining me by having fics that are most important to me. My ultimate goal is to have the Indy rewrite done fairly soon (not posting it until it's 100% done), get back to my intended schedule for Arcadia, and get back into the swing of things here.

I certainly don't intend to take this long to update this again. No matter what.
 
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