Chapter 51
"Welcome back to the world of the living, James."
Admiral Thompson cracked an eye open, wincing at the sudden barrage of sunlight. Birds chirped and the faint sound of wind whistled in through an open window. Soft curtains shifted in the breeze, and in the distance, nurses bustled around. The Admiral, wincing with every movement, opened his eyes fully. A green gaze shifted over the room. Clearly a hospital. Smiling women carrying around supplies and dishes, whispering to men swaddled in blankets and bandages. More men than he would have expected.
Unless--
"You're in Pearl, Admiral." A much softer voice, in contrast to the gruff male one that spoke first, rang in his ears. A very familiar voice.
Twisting his head slightly, despite the protests his body screamed at him, Thompson blinked owlishly. Utah smiled at him, a hand idly twirling in her long grey hair. Equally grey eyes looked...less tired than before. Lines still crisscrossed her face and there was still a crease in her forehead. Even with that, though, the battleship looked
far better than she had. The last time he had seen her--
Well.
At least she wasn't covered in soot and burns now.
"Utah?" Thompson croaked, painfully pulling himself up. His lips twitched into a pained scowl, even as he came to rest on his pillow. The Admiral looked down on himself, and grimaced deeply at what he saw. Bandages, some redder than others, covered his chest and arms. "What happened?"
The battleship gently reached a calloused hand out, setting it on Thompson's. "You don't remember, do you?"
Thompson closed his eyes, and leaned back. What was the last thing he remembered? They were fighting off Wake. He had been giving orders to his crew, to Sara. The Japanese were counterattacking, like they always did. Why couldn't he...
"Admiral, get down!"
Green eyes shot open, as that panicked,
fearful, scream echoed in his ears. If he were in any condition to do it, he would have shot out of bed. Instead, he lurched forward---and fell back, only able to manage a pained whisper of, "Sara!"
Utah stared at him sadly, shaking her head slightly. Beside her, swimming into focus, was a more familiar face. Chiseled and grizzled, Richardson frowned down at the younger Admiral. It had been
his gravelly voice that had first woken Thompson. And now, he was staring with a mix of pity and resignation in his expression. Not exactly something one wanted to see from a commanding officer. It was rather hard for Thompson to care at the moment though.
"What happened to her?" He ground out, fighting past the pain from--from--
Well, everything, really.
Richardson reached a hand up and pinched his brow, "
Saratoga put into dock a few days ago. We patched up her stack and sent her on to Bremerton for a full refit. You're
damn lucky that Jap wasn't carrying any bombs, you know."
"Bombs?"
A sigh answered that question, Richardson shaking his head. "She said you wouldn't remember that. A Jap decided he wanted to take a few of us with him. Rammed his plane right below the bridge. Saratoga is fairly convinced you would have died if she hadn't protected you."
Thompson frowned. He faintly,
faintly, remembered Sara tackling him. Nothing more. Had he really survived a
kamikaze? More importantly, though, Sara had survived. He wouldn't have wanted to live if she died. Utah may have been standing right there, proving that the girls could still come back. It didn't matter. If Sara died from his orders, under his command...no. He'd rather die himself.
I can't let her die.
"In any case, we have a
lot to talk about." Richardson continued, waving a hand at Utah.
The battleship took that as a sign to take over, smiling apologetically at the Admiral. "Before I say anything else, promise me you won't be angry at Little E for this."
"Angry at Enterprise?" Thompson blinked, tilting his head to the side. That hurt less than actually shrugging. "Why in the world would I be angry at her?"
"...she told Halsey." Utah's smile turned frail and small, as her grey eyes looked resolutely forward. At the wall, not Thompson.
A man who had paled, blood fading from his face as his heart began to race a mile a minute. No no nononononononononono---
"I...she..."
Words failed him. Thompson vaguely felt that the doctors would be worried about the sudden spike in his pulse. He was far more worried about the sheepish look Utah was sending him. The stony and unreadable expression on Richardson's face. It was impossible to tell what he was thinking. Thompson didn't know what he
himself was thinking. His mind raced a mile a minute, his eyes frantically scanned over the suddenly quiet room. Looking for exits. Even if he couldn't even move in his bed.
Not that there were any exits. There was merely one, large, doorway. And dozens of occupied beds, filled with wounded from Wake or Pearl. Even the open windows seemed to squeeze in on him now, an inescapable vice.
What am I going to do? I was starting to think...I was starting to think it never would get out. I could just live my life, without anyone but the girls knowing. I...I don't know what to do.
For the first time, he felt real fear. Even the Abyssals hadn't brought out this primal, terrifying,
fear.
"Admiral...Admiral..." Utah was suddenly in his face, worry overtaking any other expression. The motherly battleship was shaking his shoulders gently, grey eyes wide. "Admiral!"
Behind her, Richardson pulled his glasses from his face, sighing deeply. "Well, if I had any doubts, that just took them away."
"Why did she do that?" It was all he could do, to ask that simple question. Green eyes bored into Utah's grey, desperately seeking an answer.
An answer the battleship couldn't give him. She could only shake her head, leaning back slightly. "Enterprise didn't say. I was under the impression that Admiral Halsey forced her to explain."
Thompson laughed. Weakly, and without any real humor. "That would be just like him, wouldn't it? What am I going to do now...? They'll throw me in a cell and throw away the key."
"Hardly." Richardson snorted, replacing his glasses. Behind them, his eyes were narrowed flints, all hardened steel. "If nothing else, I refuse to lose such a talented commander...and I know, better than anyone, that the girls don't trust anyone like they do
you."
"What can you really do?" The younger Admiral couldn't meet those eyes. All
he could do, was look down at his lap. Clench his hands, biting back a groan of pain. "At any rate, you probably think I'm crazy."
Richardson sat down, right next to Thompson's bed. The older man stared at the younger one, raising one single eyebrow. "Perhaps. However, you have yet to be
wrong. It would be foolish of me to dismiss anything out of hand. After all---"
Here, he waved a hand at Utah. Who flushed pink, looking down at her grey dress. She smoothed it down, while Richardson turned his eyes back on Thompson.
"---our ships have spirits, of young women. Compared to that, whatever happened to
you is...hardly a leap of faith." Lips twitching into a small smile, the old Admiral shook his head. He ran a hand through his thinning hair, and sighed softly. "At any rate, that is a discussion for another time. Too many prying eyes, right now."
Thompson looked past Richardson, and saw more than one man 'asleep' in their bed. Yeah, he could really do without the truth spreading more than it needed to. Loose lips sank ships.
Literally.
"As soon as you're recovered, we're going to have a
long discussion, Admiral Thompson." Richardson climbed back to his feet, spinning around to leave the room. "I would also expect the President to have a lot of questions. After all, there is a lot you could tell him."
The Admiral swept out of the room, leaving Thompson alone with Utah.
...I just want to go back to sleep. Maybe this is all a bad dream?
"I am sorry, for all of this." Utah spoke up, looking at Thompson out of the corner of her eye. She looked genuinely apologetic. "After everything you've done for us..."
"It's not your fault." Thompson replied, voice dull and listless. "Was bound to come out eventually, yeah?"
Neither of them had any reply for that. They merely sat in silence, together, while Thompson wondered how his life would move forward. And Utah wondered how she could help him. This man had given her
everything and she had a way to repay it now, if only she could figure it out...
While Thompson stewed in his worry, the battleship that had once felt
something for him, sat at her mooring. Arizona blinked brown eyes, looking up at the sky. She was laid out atop her number two turret, idly twirling a lock of thick red hair. She could
feel men inside her, hammering away at burst plates and bomb damage. Making her fit to sail back to the West Coast and a more permanent refit, just like Saratoga. At one point, she may have felt jealous of the carrier.
Now she just worried about her.
Though, that worry was subsumed under her own conflicting feelings.
I should be dead right now. That's a strange feeling.
Ari clenched her hand, holding it up above her eyes. A cloud lazily drifted by behind it, giving the appearance of her hand clenching it. A soft giggle escaped the battleship at the thought, even as she frowned slightly. It was difficult to explain. Admiral Thompson had told her she died, on December 7th, 1941. That day had come and gone.
So had the attack that killed her, but
that at least felt different. Surviving an attack was one thing. Living past the day she should have 'died' was another entirely. It was...weird.
"I should be dead," Ari repeated aloud, letting her hand fall, as she rolled onto her side. Her eyes drifted over to where Cali lay at rest. The fires had long since gone out, leaving a burnt ruin, metal torn and twisted. Biting her lip, Ari felt a strange mix of sadness and
relief in her heart. "Cali..."
California had taken her place, in more ways than one. She should feel bad about that, but part of her felt glad to be alive.
"Come on, keep at it! I want the repairs finished
yesterday!"
"Yes sir!"
Even the shouts echoing up from the dry dock only served to make Ari frown a little. She hadn't even taken much
damage in the grand scheme of things. A couple of relatively light bombs and a torpedo. It made her feel a bit guilty, when she let her eyes skip over Cali. Virginia was settled into the harbor, pounded into submission. Nevada had tried to escape, and nearly died because of it. Okie was hurt badly. Ari...felt
guilty.
Guilty for being happy to live past her 'death date'.
Guilty for taking so little damage, when her cousins- sisters really -suffered so much.
Biting her lip, the battleship pulled herself to her feet. She still stumbled a little on the warm red metal, sending a baleful look down at her leg. Still covered in bruises and bandages, but at least not
broken. Every painful hammer down in her hull made it a bit better. She didn't care to explain how
that worked!
"Right...I need to take a walk!" Nodding to herself, hat sliding around on her head, Ari jumped off her turret. A fall that would have crippled a normal person, just sent a sharp jab up her injured leg. Leading to a wince of discomfort. "Right...don't do that again. Owwwww."
Sheepishly shaking her head at her silliness, Ari hobbled a bit while moving down her hull. Topside, she could almost convince herself she had never been attacked. Debris had long since been carried away, and damage patched. It was only below the waterline, that she still ached. And she wasn't about to go down there.
The dark didn't appeal to her, not right now. She
liked the warm Hawaiian breeze on her face, and the sun shining down on her. Not to mention she had a destination in mind already.
A very specific anti-air mount. She could see it already, barrels lowered in rest and not a single man around it. She didn't know who would be taking over this mounting, or if it would even be there after her refit. From what Admiral Thompson had told her, it would probably be replaced by some sort of Swedish gun as soon as possible. As she walked up to it, she didn't know how to feel about that.
The new guns are nice, but I'm going to miss it. This is where I learned how to fight!
With a small smile crossing her youthful face, Ari reached out a hand. She gently ran it along one of the barrels of the gun. The metal was warm...but not the scalding it had been.
"Tommy, everyone, are you going to be alright?" Ari asked aloud, thinking about the Marines that had taught her to fight. Taught her that even she could do some good, if she just found a way to do it. It wasn't the gun she worried about losing. It was the men who had manned it. "I miss you..."
Crews came and went, it was a fact of life for a warship. Any ship, she imagined. Before Admiral Thompson had shown up, she hadn't really noticed. She was never that attached to anyone. Now? Ever since he had walked into her life, she became attached to more and more people. Her old Admiral. Thompson himself, though with a wan smile, she reflected that Sara had more of a claim there than she ever would. Her new Admiral and Captain, men who were like big brothers to her.
And Tommy, who had given her a purpose.
I hope he comes back, some day. I want to see him again!
Giving the gun a final, gentle, pat...Ari spun around, and leaned against the chair mounted to it. Her brown gaze swept over the harbor, looking at ships coming and going. Enterprise would return soon. And she would leave soon. Pearl was at war now, and no one stayed too long. She had been here longer than she should have been.
Ari knew she would probably never fight a proper battle. That didn't change the fact that she wanted to be out there, doing what she could. Even if it was only bombarding islands into rubble. She could do that, in memory of the her who wasn't here. Of Cali and all the others. Of the men and women who had given her a reason to live and fight.
"I need to talk to the Admiral." Mind settled, the battleship sprung up, and set out for her bridge.
She couldn't speed up the repairs, but she could at least let her officers know where the worst damage was and how to fix it. That was something!
Work has been utter hell, by the way. That is why I haven't updated anything really (Arcadia vanity project aside) since...god, the start of November. And why this took so long.
I also wanted this chapter to be longer, to make up for that, but it occurred to me that sticking Schreiber in after Ari would be...questionable pacing. Also, I try to avoid jumping around like that, nowadays. If the two scenes are related (see: Wake) that's one thing. There was no smooth transition back to Germany.
That said, it does mean I'm going to immediately, before anything else, switch over to writing our German friends. So that chapter should be up by the middle of next week at the latest. I'd love to do it today or tomorrow...but I doubt I'll be able to, with the amount I'm being slave-driven the next two days.
Regardless, I'm really sorry about how long this took. Work or no work.
(and in case the Ari bit wasn't obvious, I was really planning on putting this up on the 7th, ie, yesterday. Work was especially bad.)