Chapter 61
I wonder if it's odd that I feel more at home here than on shore. In my, supposed, actual home. I can never get past the fact that I don't really know anyone there, not really. And...
Staring up at the rising sun, James Thompson smiled lightly. His view of the sun was obstructed by a towering pillar of steel that, even now, comforted him more than he would ever admit. The familiar black stripe was long gone, replaced by dull camouflage in keeping with the rest of her hull. Men were milling about, putting the finishing touches on paint and other such things, in preparation for sailing back into the war. Had it been any other ship, she probably would have
already been back in the war, by this point. But she wasn't and so she hadn't. Because this was
his ship.
"...Roosevelt must have pulled quite a few strings with the Navy. Him and Richardson." Thompson shook his head, chuckling softly as he strode down the flight deck of USS
Saratoga. "I'd never want to command from a different ship, after all. And they know that."
Everyone knew that, it felt like, as he got knowing looks from the crew. Those that had been aboard since the start of the war, anyway. He did his best to ignore those looks, while inspecting the ship and making sure she was ready for sortie. Technically the Captain's job, but if anyone had a right to inspect Saratoga, it was him. No one on the crew would begrudge him that. So, he walked, stopping to look at new anti-aircraft mountings. Talking to the crew to gauge how things were working. Seeing if there was anything that still needed done. All things that were technically beneath him as the Admiral.
All things that he would do anyway, because Sara was
his ship.
"Welcome back, Admiral! Took you long enough, we were beginning to think the Brits had kidnapped you!"
Thompson came to a halt, outside the entrance to her superstructure, staring at a grinning pilot with a couple other men on his flanks. "
Commander Thach. They haven't stuck you on Lady Lex or something? I would have thought someone like you would have been kept on the front." Thompson said that with a grin of his own, as he walked up to the aviator. "Who at command decided they didn't like you?"
Thach barked out a laugh, while tossing a lazy salute the Admiral's way. Thompson was one who had always tried to be 'down in the dirt' with his men, even before the revelation of Sara being alive came to the front. And when it came to Thach...well.
I did steal his claim to fame, so the least I can do is talk to the man. Thompson snorted, internally, and returned the salute.
"Honestly, sir, I requested this. Sara and I have a good working relationship and I wouldn't want to have to replicate that on her sister," Thach patted the hull next to him, with the soft touch of an old friend. "I don't think you'll find many of us actually transferred, once we figured out you were sticking around. We love Sister Sara and wouldn't trade her for anything. It helps that Admiral Richardson has the final say, and he knows how close you two are."
It was said with the utmost respect...and still came across as a joke that had the Admiral coughing to hide his spluttering. "Damnit, you too, Thach? I got enough of that from
Churchill!"
"Huh," Thach whistled, deliberately ignoring the first part with a smirk on his lips. "Getting up there, aren't we, Admiral? The President
and Churchill? And he even knows about you and 'ole Sara? That's impressive."
"Pilots," Thomspon shook his head, prompting another round of laughter from the group of naval aviators. "Can't be serious if it was to save your own life. Well." Here, he gestured up at the superstructure, making his intent fairly obvious. "If you could tell me where Sara
is that would be helpful. Contrary to apparently popular belief, we don't read each other's minds or anything like that. We're just very close friends."
"Whatever you say, Admiral," for a man as old as he was, Thach still acted like a much younger man, as he gave a respectful yet dubious answer. And hooked a thumb behind himself, pointing into the superstructure, "She
was on the bridge, talking with the Captain. Doubt she's still there now, since she likes going to your cabin. Best bet is there...sir."
One of these days, Thompson was going to learn how pilots- no matter the branch or time -were able to sound so casual, while not once dropping the respect needed for a superior officer. It was a unique skill that only they seemed to have.
He certainly didn't have it. Might have helped with dealing with King...
"Understood," instead, the relatively young Admiral stuck with 'formal and dignified' in his response. And absolutely did
not send his gaze skywards, pleading with God for strength. "Now, do you and your men have work that needs done, Commander?"
With a laid-back smile, Thach nodded and waved at his companions, "Come on boys, let's make sure the new Wildcats are up to spec. Don't want to keep the Admiral from his good friend, now do we?"
With a chorus of 'no sir!', the other pilots followed Thach out, leaving Admiral Thompson alone to shake his head bemusedly. He could feel the eyes of a curious group of deck workers, watching his back, as he strode into Sara's dim superstructure. The dull metal walls and the dim, artificial, light somehow feeling more comforting than the warm sunlight and soft breeze of Bremerton. Hah. He really was
home wasn't he?
"I don't even mind the jokes, honestly," Thompson muttered to himself, before smiling and humming a little as he went through the familiar halls towards his cabin. No. He didn't mind the jokes, that much.
I'm home and back with Sara. Now we can get back out there and do what we do best. Leave the heavy lifting to the ones who know what they're doing. I belong on the front, trying to save as many lives as I can. I already did that with Wake. Now...
Well, as he walked through the comforting metal corridors, Thompson knew that he was where he belonged. Doing what he should have always been doing.
-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-
Sitting inside her Admiral's cabin, Saratoga stared up at the small ceiling. Even in such illustrious quarters, space aboard her was tight, and every inch was used for
something or other. The bed could barely fit her, if she curled up tight. The desk was more of a 'piece of wood jammed into the wall'. The less said about the 'closet space', the better. It beat out her suddenly expanded crew having to use hammocks in her mess, but not by as much as one would think. It was...
Enough to make her feel self-conscious about herself.
She
knew that the newer carriers, even Little E, had more space. They were designed from the keel up for their space, after all. They didn't have cramped hangers bolted atop of a hull never designed for it. Their crews had proper quarters, and their Admirals had actual
cabins. She knew that even if she had never been aboard one of her little sisters. And it made her very aware of her own limitations in a way she hadn't been, before she met her Admiral. It just hadn't occurred to her to think about it, before then. It did now and all because she wanted the best for her dear Admiral.
Look at me. I'm acting like a silly girl. Sara giggled, softly, brushing back a lock of her blue hair. She stared at that, wondering not for the first time, if there was some reason her hair was so...strange.
It probably doesn't matter. It's just...weird, I guess. Or I'm just being silly again. It's been too long since I was out there, hasn't it?
Leaning against the sparse bulkhead, Sara gave a small smile to herself. She'd never say no to having her Admiral back, of course, but even she had to wonder if there was some reason why she was being treated with kid gloves. Her repairs were done. Shouldn't she be back out, fighting with everyone else?
"Lex...are you alright? I haven't seen you since the War started, and..." The old carrier shook her head, not willing to finish that sentence. One of the first things her Admiral had told her was how her sister sank. They
should have fixed that problem, but it still worried her.
It would worry any big sister to know their little sister was out in danger. Even when that sister maintained that
she was the big sister!
Before she could go far down that particular rabbit hole, the cabin was opened from the outside. Sara instantly jumped to her feet, only avoiding braining herself on the low ceiling by virtue of instinctively knowing every inch of her own hull. She still stumbled a little, on landing, and only avoided falling by virtue of her surprised Admiral reaching his hands out to steady her.
If those hands landed a bit lower on her waist than intended, neither commented on it.
Guess I'm still a klutz after all. Only one of our carriers to run aground!
Fighting down a blush, Saratoga pulled back and flashed a grateful smile at her Admiral. "Thank you, Ad..."
She trailed off, her green eyes widening a bit. The face looking back at her was so...different. Older. She knew it had been a while since she had last seen her Admiral, but it looked as if he had aged
years in that time. His eyes crinkled at the corner in his soft smile, age and worry lines plainly visible. The corners of his mouth were little better, stretched in ways they hadn't before. Even his short hair was greying, flecks of silver in the dark mass beginning to outnumber the darker strands. He was...getting old. The war was aging him.
Saratoga, naturally, didn't look like she'd aged a day. Never before had she felt the realization of what that
meant, quite like this.
"Good to see you
too, Sara." Admiral Thompson's warm smile showed no signs of noticing what she was feeling, as he dropped the little luggage he carried to the deck. He used his now-free hands to pull her into a soft, gentle, hug. "It's been...a long time. Too long. I missed you, y'know?" Holding her close, the Admiral whispered into her ear, his breath brushing over her sensitive skin. "Everything holding together up here? I know it's been a wait and a half. You haven't been bored, have you?"
Sara blinked, before flushing again at the concern in his tone. At what he wasn't saying. "I--I'm fine, Admiral. Nothing to report."
Thompson pulled back, his gaze meeting her own, looking for any sign of a lie. "You sure? I know the Sara
I knew would want to be on the front, protecting all her baby sisters." He chuckled, softly, and shook his head. "Sorry, sorry. I shouldn't compare you to her."
There was a wistfulness in his expression that almost had Sara asking about the
other, her from the future. She didn't. She just smiled and shook her head, herself, "I'm fine, really! I do want to help Lex and Little E and the others, but I didn't mind waiting for you. I wanted you back."
I needed you back, she didn't vocalize.
"Got it, Sara." Thompson sat down on the bed, pulling Sara along for the ride. She didn't resist, even though she was more than strong enough to do so. "So, tell me how things have been? Thach and his boys driving you up a wall like they did me?"
Sometimes, parsing her Admiral's turns of phrase were difficult. Decades of lingo she had never learned. This wasn't one of those times, as Saratoga giggled merrily. She could forget her own concerns, for a moment, when she thought about her merry band of misfits. Her pilots were almost like her children, no matter that they were all far older than she was. And like a mother, she couldn't help but smile when she thought about their antics.
"I think they're the ones at risk of that, Admiral. Commander Thach wants to get back out there, but he doesn't want to leave either." With a warm smile, a motherly one, Sara leaned back and waved her hand. "I wouldn't want him to leave, either. He's a good man. We work well together."
In lieu of a response, her Admiral just leaned back beside her. His hand drifting to lay on her arm, as he looked at the sky, as if he could see it through her deck. As she, herself, could. His face bore a pensive expression, deep in thoughts he wasn't sharing with her.
What are you thinking about, Admiral? Did something happen in Britain? Something you don't want me to know about?
Saratoga knew, better than anyone, that her dear Admiral Thompson had things he told no one. She still didn't know the true extent of his relationship with her other self. Or, for that matter, with the Japanese of the future. Was that what he was thinking of?
"Don't worry about that, Sara," he finally spoke again, turning his head down to give her his classically lopsided smile. The age lines and greying hair did little to take away the boyish charm he had always had, as Sara felt a tightening in her chest. A rush in her boilers that had her engineer blinking in confusion. Thompson didn't show any signs of noticing, other than perhaps a softening of his eyes. "None of us are going to leave you.
I, sure as hell, wouldn't want any other ship. You're special. You know that?"
That cut right through to the worries she had been feeling before, and she couldn't hide it this time. She looked away and waved at the small room. "I'm old and tired, Admiral. Wouldn't it be better to get one of those new carriers? Everyone is relying on you and...I can only do so much. Didn't Admiral Halsey have to leave Little E, in your past? She's even newer than I am..."
"Sara," in response, the Admiral took his hand from her arm and wrapped it around her shoulder, instead. "None of that matters. I don't have that kind of relationship with Hornet or the Essexes, when they start showing up. I have that relationship with
you. I trust you. I care about you." He squeezed, gently, and laughed softly. "Everyone else does, too. So you're a bit cramped and old. Do you think anyone cares about that? Even if they're grouching about the hammocks, they'll still stick around. You're our Sister Sara. We'd never want anyone else."
Sara thought back to that dockworker, during her refit. The one that had convinced her that these men cared about her, even when they couldn't see her. When she was just metal to them. Now that everyone on her crew could see and interact with her...
"I'm being silly. Mama Langely would smack me over the head and tell me that." Sara let out a sigh and leaned against her Admiral's shoulder, taking comfort in his warmth. He was so much smaller than she was, in so many ways. Weaker and easier to hurt. But, in that moment, she wouldn't be anywhere else. She felt
safe. "Adm...James. Thank you."
Thompson blinked at the close contact, a flush crawling up his own neck. Before he just smiled, and let the carrier stay where she was. "No need to thank me, Sara. I'll always be here for you. Even when we head back out."
Thoughts about that could wait, though. For the moment, they weren't Admiral and Carrier. They were just a man and a woman, curled against each other in the quiet of their shared quarters. There were no thoughts about the War and the battles to come. No talk about how she would sortie again within the week. No talk at all, actually.
Just James and Sara, leaning against one another, as they slowly drifted away.
Fættenfjorden, Norway
Bundling a scarf closer to his neck, Gustav Schreiber looked out at the cold and dimly lit fjord. Unremarkable in the craggy coastline of Norway, where a thousand others just like it stretched from the North Sea to the Arctic. The sheer cliffs tumbled rocks and ranks upon ranks of tough trees were remarkable in their unremarkableness. Were it not, of course, for the row of buildings built along a military dock. The anti-aircraft batteries scattered all around, interspaced with smoke generators and camouflage netting. The signs of a wartime base, setting this barren locale apart from its sisters.
That and, of course, the slate-grey forms of three battleships and a handful of cruisers and destroyers. Two sisters moored right next to one another, in a way their counterparts in another world never were. Another, off on her own, her squat triple turrets seeming to droop with the pain of one who had lost her only sibling. The jealousy that she couldn't quite hide when glancing at her larger cousins.
When did I become so adept at noting these things? Schreiber shook his head, turning his gaze away from
Scharnhorst. He, instead, looked past the imposing form of the battleship sisters, and towards a much smaller cruiser. A cruiser that was larger than most, as he saw a flash of pink, running down from her bridge and towards the stairs leading up from her side.
Ah, Blücher, dear. You always are an eager one. I missed you too.
With a world-weary smile on his lips, the old Admiral ascended those creaking metal stairs, as his launch pulled alongside the cruiser. If any of the crew were confused as to why he came here instead of his flag,
Bismarck, they hid it well. Perhaps they just knew better, as he always did have a soft spot for this cruiser.
Blücher might as well have been his home.
"Admiral!" A home that was currently charging right at him, heedless of how her crew shivered at her passing, as she threw herself at the Admiral. He stumbled, slightly, as the pink-haired girl latched onto his side. "What took you so long? We've been waiting for you to get back for months! It's lonely here~!"
Schreiber was familiar enough with the cruiser, his daughter in all but blood, to play off her antics. He waved off a concerned officer, who thought he had slipped on ice. He tuned out the sound of screaming at men to deice the ship better, something that all navies had. Instead, he just walked forward, with Blücher tucked safely against his side.
"You need to be more careful, dear," Schreiber gave her a stern, but loving, glare. She just stared up at him with her bright blue eyes, completely uncaring of his reaction. It was enough to make him sigh. "One of these days, you will do something you regret. You are too eager."
Blücher only giggled, reaching a free hand up to tug at her
own scarf. The blood-red fabric tightened around her neck, not a single sign of any embellishments on it. "I'm plenty careful, Admiral. I'm just happy to see you back! Do you have any idea how hard it is to ignore those SS asses running around like they own me? Captain Lange has to keep telling me to leave them alone!"
Her pout did nothing to stop a long-suffering sigh from the Admiral, as they moved inside her superstructure. "Blücher, dear, you must stop that. Now that the Italians have proven that your kind exist, the SS will only grow more suspicious if ships
I am closely associated with, continue to have unexplainable 'accidents'." At the look she gave him, the old Admiral shook his head. "No matter how amusing that dunk in the Baltic was, we cannot afford to repeat it. Please. For all our sakes."
Letting out a little grumble of annoyance, Blücher burrowed more into his side, as they walked through her halls. Schreiber sighed with a small smile crossing his lips. His mood wasn't even harmed as they walked by all the crew, none of whom could see the cruiser. He had no idea how it was for the Italians or anyone else, but Schreiber had been very careful to avoid anyone by Captain Lange being able to see the girls. Much as he hated what he had become, he knew it was a terrible idea to spread the knowledge around this Germany.
Only Louis, of his counterparts ashore, even knew.
"Welcome back, Admiral. I see that our cruiser found you." That was Captain Lange himself, standing outside the conference room. Blücher's flagship facilities did come in handy, at times like these. "I warned her against heading out until you had settled back in, but I'm afraid we both know how little she follows my commands." Giving a dry look at the cruiser sticking her tongue out at him, Lange rolled his eyes and sent a shrug his Admiral's way. A good-natured one, at least. "Sometimes, I feel like I'm a lowly rating when I speak with her. At least the crew listens to my orders."
"I listen to your orders!" Blücher shot back, brushing her pink hair from her face as the Admiral detached himself from her to sit down. She allowed that, with nothing more than a pout. "It's not as if I ignore everything you say, Captain."
Lange chuckled, at that, and gave a simple shrug with his hands thrown up. "You listen to my orders when the Admiral confirms it. Sometimes it feels like he's still the one you consider your 'Captain'."
Schreiber, for his part, knew it was exactly that. Blücher would, now and forever, always consider him her Captain and father, rolled into one.
He was also very well aware that they would launch into arguing again, if he let that continue. So he coughed and headed that off, "Blücher, I have important information to share. The time for jokes is later."
Contrary to her usual personality, Blücher was still a warship. She could be serious if that became necessary. As she did now, rolling her eyes and squaring her shoulders, her golden skirt shifting beneath her. "Fiiiiine. What did you learn, Admiral? Anything to help us out?"
"Not as such," Schreiber sighed deeply, sliding down into a chair as he looked at his oldest comrades in this world. "As you already knew, the Italians have somehow brought a destroyer forth. Turbine is...about as I expected. I did not expect her Engineer to be so willing to listen to what I had to say." At the looks he got, the old man laughed weakly, softly. "He served aboard her predecessor. He's not so far off from
my age."
"Ah. He remembers a time before the Fascists." Lange tapped the table, nodding along with Schreiber's words.
"Indeed. Not only that, but he bears no love for the ones who nearly got him killed. Who destroyed his precious Turbine." Schreiber gave a small smile, though it was a dead thing. No happiness to be seen.
Blücher winced and sat next to her Admiral, placing a hand on his arm and rubbing it softly. She could only imagine his reaction if someone had sunk her from beneath him. It wouldn't matter if she came back right away. It would still destroy her beloved Admiral as surely as watching his family die. It was why he hated having to take any of the ships into combat. Why he tried so hard to end this war behind the scenes.
She just...never really thought about how much it hurt him. Not until she saw his face in that moment.
"At any rate," Schreiber gave her a warmer smile, placing his hand on her own. "It is no secret, now, that ships have souls. I imagine it is only a matter of time before the Nazis attempt to summon their own. That madman, Himmler, especially. This is the kind of occult knowledge he dreams of."
Lange hissed through his teeth, clenching a fist on the table. "You won't allow that, will you? The SS with ship spirits...it doesn't bear thinking of. I can only imagine the damage they could cause."
"I do not need to
imagine it," Schreiber shut his eyes. Images of the Abyssals, of burning cities and crippled young women- girls -flashing through his mind. No. He didn't need to imagine it. "For now, we are secure in the knowledge they have no idea how to summon the spirits. I doubt the Italians do, either. Nor the Japanese."
"Even if they did summon one of us, would we even want to serve them? The Imperials certainly seemed like they hated the Nazis more than
you do, sir." Blücher asked the obvious question.
It was a question that Schreiber never wanted to see answered. He pushed aside the images in his head, focusing instead on the pensive expression from Lange and the anxious one on Blücher. That, more than anything, grounded him once more.
I won't allow her to see what I have. So I swear.
"All this means is that we must accelerate our plans," Schreiber looked away from Blücher, and tried to put the image of the worried face behind pink hair from his mind. "What of the British? Have we received any messages at all?"
Lange, now the center of attention, shook his head. "Nothing. Not on the channels or from Gneisenau. It's as if they're ignoring the message entirely."
"Or they don't see a reason to trust us. Just as I expected."
Even for a man for whom history was a secondary interest, at best, Schreiber knew that much. The British had hung the German Resistance, disunified and dysfunctional as it may have been, out to dry. They had strung the leaders along with no intention of truly working with them. Given hope where there was none. Was he a fool to expect anything else of Churchill in this time, even with all he had done? Perhaps. It still stung.
"Very well...we will try another approach. Have a message sent to Seydlitz. She will need to escort a transport of Jewish refugees to the United Kingdom." Schreiber saw the looks he got, and simply brought a hand down on the table. "If they won't listen to the message, we will show them
proof. Proof of what inaction dooms so many lives to. Proof that we are acting in good faith. Proof...proof that we are doing everything we can to end this war!"
"Ah...but what about our sorties? We're still doing that, aren't we?" Blücher spoke up, unusually hesitant in her words. She rolled a lock of pink hair between her fingers, her cherubic face and blue eyes downcast and sullen. "If we want to hurt the damn Reds don't we need to hurt the British too?"
Once more, Schreiber winced internally at how much his own biases had shaped these impressionable souls. He pushed it down, ruthlessly, and shook his head. "We remain at war. To not act would be to allow Hitler to remove us. We
must place ourselves in the greater German mindset. It is the only way to gain their support when the time comes."
Tapping the table again, his eyes rolled up in thought, Lange sighed heavily. He used his free hand to gesture at a map of Norway, as if it explained everything. "Quite the difficult situation, Admiral. Continue to fight those we wish for aid from. Work against our own goals in the interests of serving them. I don't know how you do it."
"I wonder myself. How I have yet to lose my mind from it all." Schreiber looked every inch his age, as she sighed and fell back in his chair. "For now, we do as we must. I will speak with Bismarck and plan our further actions. Can I trust you to keep Seydlitz in contact?"
"Of course."
Schreiber nodded, and turned to Blücher with a soft, fatherly, smile. "As for you, my dear, I can spend some time catching up. Shall we head to my quarters? You can tell me everything you have done while I was gone."
In spite of the situation, Blücher grinned brightly as she hopped to her feet. She was lucky that the men in the room were either too old- and her father figure -or married, as her skirt bounced up a tad too far for modesty's sake. "Yes~! Let's spend some time together, Admiral! It's been a long time since we could cuddle on the bed and talk about things!"
It was at times like this, that Schreiber could try and forget his burdens. Forget that Blücher was anything more than a teenage girl with strange hair. He could pretend, for just a moment, that he was a proud father dealing with a rowdy daughter that he loved with every inch of his being.
For only a moment. For Schreiber could never, truly, forget that he was an Admiral. A traitor to his country, in his efforts to save it.
There we go. Apologies on the much belated chapter. As established, last year was...a thing. And we spent this week basically just recovering from the move, so there was that too. Hopefully this is at least...somewhat worth the wait.
It's a bookend, in a way, as we move back to the real war. Especially for Thompson in the Pacific. Shouldn't be long before this and the ABDA fun start mixing together properly. Hopefully. >.>