Well long time lurker but fuck it, I got something to say.
We fucked up. We shouldn't have joined Cai Renxiang. When the Elders said "there's no place in the Light for shadows" I just figured we had time to get Cai used to bending the rules. I failed to take into account how deep her purpose is already ingrained in her, and cultivating will only serve to strengthen the purity of that purpose.
Following Bai would've been a terrible idea as well, it needs too much intrigue and that isn't our build. We honestly should've joined the Sect instead or Demonic Sun Lady (forgot her name).
Honestly, I'd start advocating looking into leaving her service just because... "I'm with you because I don't want people to just be slaughtered" is something that isn't hard to come across and anyone else would provide. There's been a misunderstanding, and I genuinely don't believe in continuing service under Cai. We're becoming more of a musician than a spy now sure, but... I dunno, I just don't see it working out.