Lamb Among Wolves/Sheep in the Big City
Part 4: The Lamb and the Crow
The two women stood at the dock. Watching the gangplank.
"You know," President Johnson said, thoughtfully. "Ralson sent an interesting report to my desk this morning. Apparently, we've confirmed that Toronto and Hamilton are sending someone."
"And you didn't tell me? I'm hurt, devastated." Sara Goldblum gave an overdramatic look of betrayal, clapped a hand to her chest, and feigned collapse.
"Slipped my mind." The president smiled.
"Well, then! I'm off to help den-mother the ambassador from our favorite on the list of Places Whose Very Name Makes Children Scream In Terror!"
"Oh?"
The president tilted her head so, and Goldblum gave the rippling hand signal they'd been using since '57 for 'bear with me, aides, overliteral military officers, and other kinds of impressionable small children are watching.'
"It's my field of responsibility. I'm reclassifying her as a type of highly portable bridging equipment."
The best deadpan the Assistant Secretary of War Excuse Me Defense For Munitions had was almost good enough to make a majority of bystanders take that seriously. For a moment.
"I mean, seriously, we know how this plan ends. It would hardly do for the head of the country to miss two of the most important ambassadors to arrive today! But me! Little me! I'm just some military bureaucrat. Meek. Inconsequential. Replaceable. You'll whistle up another assistant under-whozit that they might actually want to talk to in minutes. I'll make sure that Madame Ambassador Layers doesn't accidentally barricade herself off from the entire conference."
"Don't break her." The president's gaze went flat for a moment.
Goldblum sighed. "I know, I know. I'm going to need a Layla for this, aren't I?"
"Maaaybe."
Mary walked out of the ship, calmly heading down the gangplank. She reached the bottom feeling, strangely, much calmer. She had failed, but this was a script she knew. She knew the way the woman (who was perhaps a
grandma) had ordered her. This was failure enough that she had to be ordered to be corrected. But having time to think about it, that they had bothered to give her instructions, rather than going straight to discipline, met her offense had probably not been as great as she had first feared.
When she reached the bottom, she curtsied. "I'm sorry about my poor choices of clothing. It's my first time coming to your city, and without my husband, I didn't know what to wear. Thank you for instructing me." Smile, apologize, give a reason, and thank them for instructing her. If they let it go, act extra happy and grateful. If they did discipline, accept it without complaint, but make it clear you felt it, so they know it worked. It was all easy.
But when Mary looked up at them again, the two were looking at her, and then each other with a look she didn't recognize. It wasn't anger. It wasn't the indulgent smile of mercy. It was.... what? It was something she didn't know.
Mary flipped through her memory, what had she done wrong? They had instructed her, it was something she knew, what had gone wrong? Had it been her husband? Perhaps they were some of those 'lesbians' Mary had heard about, and any mention of a husband was a death sentence for him. No, she couldn't let this go, she had to focus on the now.
One of the women held out her hand, and Mary shook it. "Sara Johnson, President of the Commonwealth." Handshakes weren't really something the Children did that much, but she knew of them. Probably something she should have practiced more, but she could do it. Focus on the now and not making the worse, worry about John's death and/or castration later. "If you head to the end of the docks, there will be a car waiting to take you to your lodgings." A pause. "Do you know what a car is?"
"Yes, ma'am. I received lessons on them. Am I to drive it?" Mentally, she thanked God that she had had the foresight to learn of them, and then despaired at driving one of those...
things again.
"No, we have a driver for you, and if you have any baggage, you.... you know what? Never mind. We will send you a set of appropriate clothing."
Mary curtsied again. "Thank you for your generosity." She waited a moment to see if there was anything else. She then began to move, not so swiftly as to look like she was retreating from the terrifying women, but not so slowly as to be slothful. As she walked down the dock, her thoughts turned to that look.
She had seen it before, once. Grandpa Smith loved his Children and wanted to make sure they built a community. As such, there were specialized trades that were needed, such as blacksmith and carpenter. In time, once enough Children learned them, they would pass them on to the younger ones. But for now, in the planting time of the Garden, outsiders were needed, which were dangerous. Thus only a few Children, those most trusted, would learn.
She and John had both been so proud, and admittedly a little nervous, when Enoch had been selected to learn cobbling. Part of her hadn't wanted him to risk such corruption, but learning a trade made him a vital figure who mattered. That someone she was raising was selected was an honor. One time she'd had to pick Enoch up. As she talked with him to tell him he was needed back home, the instructor had looked at her with the same look.
It must be something that orcs did, and she didn't know what it was. As she arrived in the car, a man stood by, holding open the door for her. She curtsied to him and got in. He made his way to the front but stopped at the footsteps from behind. The maybe-Grandma had followed her. Mary's heart stopped. Sometimes, if an officer was over, Papa would wait until after dinner to discipline, so as not to disturb the meal. Those were usually some of the worst punishments. Mary tried not to shake as the woman approached her and walked by.
"Keys, please." She said to the man.
"Ma'am?"
"Keys. I'm driving. Go check if Sara needs anything. And call up Layla. She should be at Montoya Engineering; mama needs her soonest, at the Light Feet Hotel."
With that, the woman swiftly sat in the front seat, pulled the door closed behind her, twisted
this with the rumble of an awakening engine, pulled
that, and reached down and did
something that made a startling CLUNK noise. The vehicle began moving. Without looking behind her, the woman with the gray curly hair began to talk. "So tell me, Mary, has anyone ever given you lessons on how to do 'being an important person?' "
Mary was grateful that she was sitting behind the woman, who couldn't see the spike of orcishness hit her again. Of course, she had. She'd had lessons on how to be a good wife, a wife to a Victorian. There wasn't anything more important she could be!
Only, only Mary was pretty sure that wasn't the right answer. She was pretty sure that this woman didn't consider it to be. "No, ma'am." She answered, adding the unfamiliar word to the end.
"Well congratulations! You've probably already figured this out, but you are now an important person, and what you do matters. Some people very, very much want to be important; they're mostly rats. But you? Importance fell on you out of the sky, didn't it? Been there. Not a fun thing, is it?"
Again that orcish. She didn't even know why this time. It wasn't like she wanted to be here, in this den of madness and machines. She'd volunteered, but only so John didn't have to. It wasn't like she wanted this, so why did that sentence feel so wrong? "No, ma'am."
"So, first lesson. Very important lesson. You've probably already thought of it at least once- but you're going to need to carry it next to your heart for what's coming. Remember, always, g-."
Then she stopped in mid-sentence.
"No, excuse me, I apologize, remember always,
Madame Ambassador. Remember, the
perfect is the enemy of the good. If you wait until your decision is perfect, you may never get time to make it at all. And usually, a
good enough decision is much, much better than no decision, or wobbling between two decisions. Or all the decisions at once."
She continued to lecture, but Mary could already see where this was going. She had waited too long on the clothes and had to be dressed-down. It had been wrong, but after her first set nearly cost her arm, it had been... difficult, to try others. Still, she knew not to say anything. Papas (mamas?) did not like their lessons interrupted.
"What was your first goal today, when you walked off that ship for the first time?"
"I wanted to make a good impression, ma'am." She stated with just the right hint of shame to make it clear she knew she was being lectured, but not so much as to not be paying attention.
"Well, if you'd been met by an idiot, you might have had a problem. But now that we're driving away from it and it's over? You did
good enough." There was a chuckle of amusement with perhaps an undercurrent of approval.
Mary waited for the next line, which didn't come. That wasn't right. The lecture was supposed to go on. Ask if she knew what she did wrong, or just tell her. Not stop right there. That just... ended. You didn't get that when failing that badly. "I---"
It was the recovery. It must have been. She'd done wrong, but recognized how wrong it was, and fixed it. That made sense. She was waiting for her to state that. "Thank you ma'am. I always correct my mistakes quickly. If I do anything else wrong, let me know, and I'll fix it right away." The last part was something of a gamble, admitting that more mistakes might come, but the woman seemed happy. It was probably a
good time to talk.
If it was a good time to talk... Mary felt butterflies in her stomach. "Ma'am, I don't know this place well, is it okay if I ask you something so that another mistake isn't made?"
"
Perfect. You already know the second lesson." Mrs., she might be a grandma so surely Mrs., Goldblum paused. "That didn't answer your question, Madame Ambassador. Again, my apologies. Yes, yes you go right ahead and ask." She nodded.
More approval, still a good sign. It was easy to move forward."Yes, um, your patrols were helpful in telling us where to dock, but we aren't sure what we are supposed to do next."
"Your ship, you mean? Or do you have a staff still on board?"
"Yes ma'am. Were we supposed to all get off?" Mary frowned. If they were all kept, then there was no one to run. But she had told them to obey everything. She should have told them to run. Probably. Mary kept her breathing still. Trying to show more worry.
"Why would you? Nobody else did. Does the-" she paused, and from behind Mary could see her jaw shift a little "
Eve's Redemption have a captain aboard, or was that your hat too?"
Anger, not safe, answer now. "Yes ma'am!"
"Yes, you have a captain, you mean? Well, we have a contract with Red Banner Repairs and Provisioning a way down the waterfront to take care of arriving diplomats' ships, so as long as your crew doesn't have an allergy to socialist pamphlets, you should be fine. Someone will get them a map and tell them where it is if they need supplies or repairs."
Mary kept her smile. "No that's fine." It wasn't fine, but she didn't dare say that, more pamphlets! But it was okay, they didn't have to read them, probably. If they did, hopefully, the captain could lock himself away, and read them alone. Unless they wanted everyone to. "Do you have pamphlets for the conference?" She wasn't sure if it was the right thing to ask, but they seemed to love them here, and then could read it, alone, away from the terrifying maybe
Grandma.
"I… don't know, actually. But I imagine the State Department's got staff at the hotel; if anyone's written up orientation packets, it'll be them. Which reminds me- do you have any staff you'll need room for at the hotel with you, Madame Ambassador?" Mrs. Goldblum's head shifted a bit, and for a moment Mary's gaze was distracted by the movement reflected in the…
Mirror. It was a mirror. In the middle of the car, small. She had thought it was just… some strange parts. But there was a reflection. There had been a mirror the entire time. No wonder the woman had been willing to let Mary behind her, she could see her sins the entire time! Mary froze, letting instinct take over, panicking now was death.
Answer the question! "I don't need anything ma'am." She had to have seen the orcishness. Where was the punishment? Perhaps at the end of the ride, in a place of her choosing. Yes, that made sense, keep it together then. Nothing was more annoying than a Child who whined about their punishment. "If, if you need another ambassador, we will try our best. But we don't have the fuel for another trip." If her defiance meant she needed to be weeded, at least they wouldn't punish the rest for not sending someone else.
Silence hung in the air as Mary waited. She dared to glance at the mirror; if Mrs. Goldblum could see her face in it, then Mary could see… hers…
Mrs. Goldblum was staring straight ahead, probably looking at the road. She looked
confused. Very confused. Then she spoke.
This is it... Mary thought to herself.
"Madame Ambassador, have I done something to frighten you? Did I say something wrong?"
'No, nothing at all' almost came out of Mary's lips.
But, but none of this, it didn't. This was… she knew the words that had come. Papa said them, as the last warning on how thin ice you were, the idea of him saying anything wrong. But here… the tone was
wrong it sounded concerned. Papa could be concerned, but he didn't have to be concerned that he did something wrong, because he never did.
And the confusion. She had to have seen the mirror, why the confusion. Why anything? "I don't… I don't understand." Mary finally whispered out in defeat.
@Simon_Jester originally suggested this and co-wrote. would not have been possible without him.
Also, my personal favorite part of the development.
Simon: Does the ship have a name painted on the side?
Me: Oh god it's probably some hideous Victoria name. Probably referencing the Garden.
Simon: Ugh you're probably right. I'm bad at names like that
Me: Eve's redemption. It's awful and references the fact that they are proud of abducting women. I hate it