Maria and the Three Masters (Part Three)
Maria Turn 10 Fourteenth Omake
"Alright. Now." Book gives Maria a skeptical glance. She colours a little. "Look, it'll work, alright? Just – do it."
"You're sure this is what it said to do in the training manual?"
Infuriating man.
Shut up.
"Yes. Now will you stop going on and do what I asked you?"
The Flood Dragon raises his hands in defeat, steps back, and lights the torch. Maria settles herself again, breathes, and cycles. After a moment, she directs her meridians up, around, and out into the world. She's good at this bit. The Contemplation of a Single Point might have been annoying, but credit where it was due, it had done wonders for her control.
She sets them twisting into each other a foot from her, tightening the air and locking it off invisibly. She opens her eye, and nods.
Book – face still doubtful – flings the torch overhand into the sphere.
*whumph*
The flames immediately leap a foot and a half into the air. Maria grits her teeth, and puppeteers the meridians as carefully as she can. The sphere opens, one side spitting out smoke, the other pulling in clean air. The point was to try and keep it constant, feeding the fire enough to keep it alight and close to the sphere without letting it shrink or grow. This was the Contemplation's big brother – ' A Feast for the Hungry Guest". 'On the Mastery of Flame' had called it the central requirement of the true master.
So when, for the ninth time in two hours, the sphere almost immediately spun out, scorching Maria's face and taking off what little remained of her eyebrow (singular – the other had been lost the day before in similar circumstances), it doesn't exactly fill her with joy and goodwill to all men.
"FUCK!"
She spits char out of her mouth and snarled in painful irritation. The burn was already starting to heal, but it'd take weeks before her eyebrows grew back. Book laughs.
"Oh, fuck yourself, will you?" she mutters. He doesn't stop. "Look, it's what the book said to do!"
"Book is clearly useless then," he answers, around chuckles. "Gods. Two days in and that never stops being funny."
"Fuck off."
"You look like you've been kissing a scorch-snake."
Maria growls in irritation. Since her run-in with Cao Pai Mei, most of the fort has been treating her with an uncomfortable combination of respect, deference, and outright fear. It's not fun. Book-Of-Names (or Wei Shi, as he was currently calling himself – the bounty was apparently pretty good on that one), by contrast, gives her the same good-natured ribbing he gives everyone else. Normally, she preferred it. Now, though, she'd very happily take some terrified obsequiousness if it'd get him to stop fucking laughing.
"The book," she growls, patience stretching thinner and thinner, "is the central text for almost every act of fire cultivation in the last four centuries."
"So you're just shit then," says Book-of-Names, grinning.
"I- Fuck you."
"Buy me dinner first, we'll talk. She's back, by the way."
Maria doesn't turn around. There was no point. It'd just go the same way it had since she'd started practicing her fire techniques again. Shanshu would be glaring at her in undisguised annoyance. If Maria said anything, she'd leave, fuming but silent. If Maria stared her down, she'd do the same. There was no damn difference no matter what she did, it seemed – even ignoring her just led to fume, leave, but at least that way no time was wasted.
Book is giving her a considering look.
"I could say something," he says.
"No."
"Just something simple. Ask for a few pointers."
"She set my dormitory on fire last time I tried."
"I'm more charming than you."
"Fuck off."
"See?"
"Book. No. I'm good."
He raises his hands in surrender.
"Well, you need to do something, because your manual isn't working, and I have a patrol."
"Manual's working fine," she mutters, as he leaves. Book doesn't answer. Nor does he need to.
Fuck.
---
She hadn't exactly stopped her study of fire techniques, but she had shifted focus for a while. The Black Bull's Dance had taken up most of her attention. But in the last few months, the Sibling had seemed… she wasn't sure 'satisfied' was the right word, but comfortable enough with her progress that she'd been willing to split her attention.
It wasn't going well. She'd gotten good enough at Contemplation of a Single Point that most of the time it didn't explode, but that wasn't translating as well as it should. Worse, 'On the Nature of the Flame' was no damn help. The only thing she could really find was a paragraph on mindset;
"The true master of fire is hollow. Externally, all is burning and chaos. Internally, there is only stillness, serenity, and understanding. In this lies understanding; one must master the fire within oneself to master the fire within the world."
She'd remembered the stillness she'd found, at the heart of the Black Bull's Dance – the simplicity of it. Hollow. It wasn't an exact description, but… it wasn't a million miles off, either. So she'd tried to reach for that as she worked. And that was where the problems began. 'Nature of the Flame' had prescribed the usual tricks for this; breathing exercises, meditation, seclusion if possible. It had seemed like the kind of thing she struggled with, but then, what else did she have? So she'd tried.
And tried again. And again. And again. And now she's starting to dream of just beating
everyone to death, because it wasn't fucking working.
"Book might have a point," says Letha. As always, these days, she's surrounded by paperwork – Alexandria from the Diviners had sent on something important.
"About the Manual?"
"Yes."
"Maybe," says Maria. "But I'm a little short on alternatives."
"What about the library?"
"Tried that. Every damn thing in there just harks back to 'On the Nature of Flame.' See the problem?"
Letha nods sympathetically. "I do. You couldn't try asking a senior?"
Maria shakes her head.
"We're short on fire specialists. There's a handful on the Line, but not here, and it's been a while since we moved around."
"Thus complicating matters further."
"Yeah."
"…You… could send Shanshu another letter?"
Maria gives her friend a look. Letha winces.
"Yes, even as I said it I was regretting it."
"It's on my own or nothing, Leeth." She sighs, and runs a hand through the (scorched) tangled mass of her hair. "I just have to get on with it."
---
So she does. Every day she's not training with the Sibling, she splits her time as best she can; Black Bull's Dance gets a third, squad gets a third, fire gets a third. In the evenings, meditation. This has to be a matter of perseverance, surely. With enough time, she'll get it to stick. Granted, her appearance in the training courtyards is starting to scare everyone else away for fear of exploding fire techniques, but hey, she'd never been particularly social anyway. And she was not going to let her life be dictated by a fear of losing her hair. Scorchmarks would fade. Presumably.
The meditation has to be the key, she decides. That idea of hollowness – being still inside to control the havoc outside. That's what she's missing here. She benches the Feast, goes back to the Single Point, and tries for stillness. Nameless, she remembers, had once asked if her breathing might be the problem, so she starts there.
It ruins everything. The Single Point either sputters out within seconds, or explodes. She goes back to her old breathing pattern. It's disheartening, but she can-
"OH FOR FUCK'S SAKE!" Shanshu's bellow sends Maria's spark skittering across the room, where it cuts a bright line through the air in front of a Bear Enslaver. (He pelts out of the courtyard in fear of the inevitable detonation. He's not alone.) "What are you
DOING!?"
Maria turns to stare. She's gotten so used to the silent, fuming rage dogging her practice that she stopped registering the old pyromancer was even there.
"…Contemplation of a Single Point?"
"WHY?!"
"I- to learn how to-"
The question was clearly rhetorical, given the way Shanshu just shrieks over her.
"THE CONTEMPLATION OF A SINGLE POINT IS AN IDIOT'S WAY OF MASTERING FIRE! YOU USE IT TO PUNISH YOUNGSTERS! WHY THE *FUCK* WOULD YOU TRY AND- AND- I DON'T EVEN HAVE WORDS, YOU IMBECILE!"
Maria feels her temper rising.
"I was short on fucking alternatives, wasn't I?"
Shanshu's jaw shuts with an audible click, but she doesn't stop glaring.
"And the meditation? Is there a reason you're doing
that?"
"Book," replies Maria, her tone just short of hostile (and even that costs her effort), "says a true master needs to master the fire inside of them first. I'm having
trouble with the technique, so-"
"Master… the fire-"
Shanshu buries her face in her hands.
"It wants you to try fire techniques
while calm?"
Maria blinks.
"…Well yeah."
"And all that nonsense with the air, it-"
"Feast for the Hungry Guest."
"Right, it told you to do that too?"
"…it's central to mastering fire."
Shanshu stares at her. Whether she's about to cry, laugh, or kill everyone within reach is anyone's guess.
"Idiot. Answer me honestly. This manual. Has it even
mentioned fire qi?"
"…Yeah."
"What did it say?"
"That you needed good foundations before going near it."
Shanshu's face contorts. Laughing has fallen out of the running. Killing everyone within reach has now grown to include 'starting, but not stopping, with herself.'
"…Foundations. You need… foundations… before approaching fire qi."
There's a long moment of silence where Shanshu is staring into the air and Maria is waiting uncomfortably for literally
anything to happen.
"…Are you doing this on purpose?"
"What?"
"Are you doing this – and by this, I mean following this utterly asinine training regime pioneered by an idiot for whom all knowledge of fire was clearly surgically removed – to purposefully annoy me?"
Maria blinks again. She's been doing a lot of that. There might be something in her eye.
"…No, Shanshu. I'm not."
"It's working, if you are."
"I – okay, but I'm still not."
A long silence.
"You're not going to stop, are you?" asks Shanshu, eventually.
Maria shakes her head.
"Why?"
"…I don't know. I just want to learn fire techniques." There's another silence that Maria feels compelled to fill. "They're cool," she manages, lamely.
Shanshu laughs at that. Then she realizes she's laughed, and stops, startled. Then she thinks.
"We start tomorrow," she says eventually. "Here. I have patrol in the evening, so I can't give you more than an hour. Skip your lunch."
"I – what?"
"My first order, as your master, is to take that book and burn it. Without using techniques, I have enough damage to repair as it is."
"It's not my book."
"Burn it anyway!"
The next day, she gets to the training courtyard ten minutes early, only to be grabbed by her sleeve and dragged after her new master, who mutters about tardiness and poor timekeeping. Thus begins her first lesson with Shanshu. A large portion of which seems to consist of a very angry lecture.
" 'On the Nature of the Flame' is trash," she says flatly. "Do you understand?"
"…Yes master."
"Idiot. No you don't. You think, at least right now, that it's an acceptable way to train. You're not the first person to think that. In fact, most everyone agrees with you. This is why they are idiots, and only the Xin have ever produced fire sorcerers worthy of the name."
Maria makes herself nod.
"Yes, master."
"Shut up. I will not be teaching you the deeper mysteries of my order. I don't care that we're vassals of your clan. I don't care that you can destroy us. It doesn't matter. Fire is our path to enlightenment, and that's private. Are we clear?"
"Of course, master. I wouldn't-"
"I said shut
up, girl. Gods, grant me patience to ignore the prattle of idiot students. What I will teach you are the basics. The rest you will develop yourself."
"…I-"
"You're clearly capable of self-directed learning. I'll intervene if you pick another brick wall to bang your head against. Now."
They've arrived at another training courtyard – smaller, and currently empty. Shanshu closes the doors after them and locks them.
"Let's start with the basics. Flare your qi."
Maria's starting to grasp Shanshu's teaching style, so she does what she's told, silently. The sorcerer furrows her brow.
"Bronze, under that fire, under that wood," she mutters. "We can work with that. Alright. What do you know of qi transfiguration?"
"Elemental technique," Maria answers. "Shifts your qi's alignment."
"Can you do it?"
She hesitates.
"…The manual-"
Shanshu's lips thin. Maria winces.
"No, master."
"Alright. I suppose we'll be starting there, then."
What follows is one of the most gruelling hours of Maria's life. Shanshu's good at explaining things, but she's not willing to repeat herself. Every screw-up is dissected with withering scorn. The technique itself is complex as all hell; half of what they're doing boils down to forcibly running her qi backwards through her meridians until it shifts in some imperceptible way. Worse, she can't force her calm.
"Gods," growls Shanshu, as she brings her hand around in a rough slap to Maria's ear. "Stop that."
"It's supposed-"
"No. It's not supposed to do anything. It doesn't belong here. Does fire strike you as a calm element? Of course not. It's passionate. Furious, joyful, excited. How, precisely, do you expect to get anywhere if you keep hamstringing yourself?"
There's a polite cough from the doorway. They glance up. A runner from the dispatch office bows deeply, and Shanshu curses.
"I'll see you again tomorrow," she growls, before stalking off for her patrol.
---
And so, things shift. Maria finds herself with a second master, and a new course of study. The days take on a new rhythm. Patrol. Bull Dance. Transfiguration. Squad. Sleep. Patrol. Bull Dance. Transfiguration. Squad. Sleep. Over and over. She finds herself dreaming of katas, and muttering training koans in her dreams.
Her fire techniques do improve a little, but she can tell Shanshu's irritated by how slow they're going. The calm. That's the sticking point. Maria knows she should follow instructions, but she can't see how to do it without fucking up the Dance. How can she be angry and still find that serenity?
She ends up explaining the issue to the Sibling as they're sparring one day.
"I don't see the problem," they say. Maria snorts.
"Come on, master."
"I promise, student, I'm not being facetious. You're talking about a conflict I don't understand."
"The Bull Dance is supposed to be simple. Every time I've ever really made it click, I did it by… by being calm. Letting my thoughts out."
"Yes."
"So how do I do that and also get… angry?"
She goes for a grab. The Sibling steps aside, catches her wrist, and yanks. She staggers into a knee to her gut.
"Like that," her master answers mildly. She curses him. "You've built this up in your head, student. Serenity is a route to… how did you put it, 'letting your thoughts out?' But it's not the only one."
"Helpful," she grunts, dragging herself to her feet. The Sibling shrugs.
"Accurate. You've intellectualized the problem."
"So what, then, just-"
"Yes."
"You don't even know what I was going to say."
" 'Just get mad.' "
"…Lucky guess."
"Perhaps." The Sibling smiles again. "You'll manage, I suspect. Now. Hands up."
---
It's two months later, back in the training courtyard with Letha, Book, and Nameless, that she finally figures it out.
"You can't just pretend this will go away," says Letha, quietly. Maria glares. "If you're struggling this much-"
"I'm not struggling."
"-Then perhaps a different set of techniques? Water, say."
"Wood might work," says Book, watching her move. Maria glares at him, too. She's working her way through the Sixth Kata of the Black Bull's Dance – has been since before this little intervention started – and trying to focus on it and the conversation is starting to get to her. "You have that aspect too. Won't be as strong as fire, but maybe-"
"Perhaps the elements are the problem," says Nameless. She shoots off a third glare in his direction. It shatters in the face of serene smile #646, worried fussing. "One of the unaspected sets might work better. Direct qi blasts can be – "
"I'm not changing shit," Maria growls. "I can get this."
Letha gives her a searching look.
"I don't want to give offence," she says quietly, "but the trials are not that far away."
Maria snarls. Book's face darkens. Nameless is giving them all quizzical looks, but no-one's in the mood to explain.
"So?"
"So, perhaps you need to accept this weakness before an invader uses it to kill you?"
"They might," mutters Book, uncomfortably. "I've heard stories."
"Do you think I haven't?" snaps Maria.
Nameless raises a hand.
"What are the trials?"
"Not important right now," says Maria. Letha shoots her a disapproving look.
"That's not true."
"I have twenty-five fuckin' years, Leeth."
"Which might be better spent trying something less… difficult."
She stops. Breathes angrily. Turns.
"Letha. You know what I'm trying to do. Turning back just because something's difficult won't
get me there."
Letha meets her gaze.
"Then perhaps you should try something else?"
And that's all it takes. The Red Place is a roaring, furious mass in her head, pumping anger through every inch of their body. The potency of it drags her into her lungs, her veins, her heart, every thought drowned out by the thumping of her heartbeat. She can't think. She doesn't think. She just
is, potent and furious.
Which is why it's a surprise when someone throws a damn brick at her head.
She moves before thinking, her arms (still heavy in her Black-Bull sleeves) snapping up to punch directly through it. The brick is dust the instant she brushes against it, but it's not enough; there are dozens of others hurtling at her.
She turns. Shanshu watches, impassively, as a handful of Itinerants fling brick after brick at her.
Maria's head is still full of bile and fury, but even then, it's obvious. Too many of the damn things to break with her hands. So she doesn't bother. She opens her arms and
pushes. Her qi comes pouring loose in a cleansing wave. It combusts the instant it hits the air, and a wall of searing white-blue flame rolls across the ring, searing the air clean of projectiles.
There's a beat before she realizes what she's done. Then it clicks.
Shanshu smirks.
"Good," she says. "Thank you, Mistress Devil, Masters Dragon and Purity, for your assistance."
Maria turns. Her friends nod respectfully back. A set up. She laughs as she looks to her master, and sees a sour smile glide over Shanshu's features.
"Trust your master yet?"
---
And thus Maria finally gets fire techniques to work, yaaaaaaay. As before, I did Shanshu up in heroforge when she first showed up in my head;
here she is. Hopefully I captured the "Done with your shit" look that so characterises her in my head.
@ReaderOfFate @Kaboomatic @Humbaba , may I have a threadmark please?