Kohaku isn't interested in you.
You know this, it's not an earth shattering revelation. You've known for a while, even if Kohaku
herself didn't. Still, it hurts to not even have a chance. But that's what she chose, and you respect her decision.
...Mostly. Honestly, Kohaku being into women was kinda a "non-secret" to you, but why did she have to be into Yumi, too? And now, hey, Yumi's a great person, and pretty, and cool, and she's saved your ass just as many times as you've covered her's...
...But it's not fair.
Kohaku has an actual shot at steal--
courting Yumi. Even though you're the one who was actually around--
What the hell are you
thinking?! Kohaku was being persecuted by a Goddamn cult! She didn't have a choice but to run! Hell, she's probably never had a choice before that!
Kohaku has gone through a lot, so she deserves Yumi more than you. That's how that works, right? You suffer, then good stuff happens! So, if you suffer through your two best friends leaving you behind to start a happy new life, you'll get something good too, right?
Right...?
You should be elated that they're gonna be together. But you're not.
Mom was right.
"
You can't be happy unless you drag everyone else down with you."
You don't understand. You got perfect grades, you tried to make friends, you loved her and Dad...
...But they hated each other so much that you fell to the wayside.
"
You're just like her," Dad would say, "
I'm busy, and you keep bugging me about shit that doesn't matter."
"
You're just like him," Mom would say, "
Always asking for handouts when you don't even lift a finger."
So, here you sit, in the bathroom, desperately trying to regather your rampant emotions.
Men don't cry.
Men don't cry.
Men don't...
...God, you're just the worst parts of both of them, aren't you?
You're the worst kind of friend to Yumi and Kohaku. Like Dad was with Mom.
You're the worst kind of manipulative. Just like Mom was with Dad.
You're the worst.
