It was the smell that bothered her most, He Qingge thought. She had accompanied her mother to the city market before, and felt the press of a crowd. But here, outside the walls of the inner city there was no perfume or incense to mask the smell that arose from the outer city. It was the scent of unwashed bodies, of animals, and cut wood, along with less savory things that didn't bear thinking about. He Qingge found herself hunching her shoulders and covering her face with her hand, missing the wider sleeves of her proper clothes.
But even He Qingge knew that wearing her usual outfits in the outer city was just asking to be tracked down immediately by her Father and her family. She hunched her shoulders further as her thoughts wandered back, her emotions shifting between shame at the position she had put her family in, and determination that she was right to do so. She knew, in her mind, that she had been offered a great honor. To be an official concubine to a young master of the great house of Liu was far more than a girl of a serving clan could hope for. She would have many luxuries, and her children would be allowed to take the Liu name.
In her heart, she could only see the eyes of her 'suitor'. Despite the high summer heat, magnified by the press of the crowd, she shivered. He Qingge was young, just past her fifteenth year, but she still understood the way that a man would look at a woman. If it had been just that she could have been convinced, would have been convinced, she thought. But Liu Fong did not have the eyes of a stableboy or a young soldier. When he looked at her, she felt like a thing, an object that he was considering the worth of, and nothing more. An object he might one day decide to break.
He Qingge ducked her head as she felt a stinging in the corners of her eyes. She had always been good at reading people's intentions. She had to believe her Father had not seen what she had seen at that meeting. Of course, he had been certain she was just feeling overwhelmed and hysterical when she had tried to tell him. How could he not? She had no proof.
That was why she was out here now, wearing clothes stolen from the stables, with her jewelry and every other small thing she thought might be valuable stuffed into a few sacks, and her late mother's flute tucked into her sash. She had a plan, she would get away. It would take some time before her clan would notice her gone and even then they would not want to alert the Liu, for the shame of it. If she could just find transport before the master'sof Tonghou decided to search for her, surely she could make it to another city, where it would be too troublesome to search for a mere mortal girl.
He Qingge let out a startled sound as she ran into a man who had stopped suddenly in front of her, sending the bag at her waist jangling. The man's back was broad, and he was more than two heads taller than her. When he turned his scarred visage to glare at her, He Qingge let out a squeak of alarm and ran down the sidestreet to their left, drawing more grunts of annoyance and alarm as she brushed past people and wove clumsily through the crowd. She didn't stop until she found an abandoned market stall it's awning intact, to catch her breath under.
She had no idea what she was doing. She had no idea what any of the rough people of the outer city would do to her if they could, she couldn't go to the guards after all. He Qingge squeezed her eyes shut, pressing a hand against her chest as she caught her breath. Wasn't she beeing foolish? Did she really think she could make a living with only her flute? That a mere mortal could catch a patrons eye, even if her tutors assured her that she was very good.
If she went back now, it wouldn't be too late. Father would be angry, but he would understand. Just nerves he would say, no harm done. Maybe she was being hysterical. Her cousin's were all jealous of her after all.
But then she remembered the clockwork cold that cut beneath her skin from behind a charming smile and laughing eyes. Liu Fong's regard peered out from her memory, and firmed her resolve.
...She wouldn't go back.
There was music playing He Qingge realized, standing in the shade of the ratty awning. With her heart beating so loudly in her ears, she hadn't heard it before. Now it was hard to miss. The sound of a drum and bells, and a sound like a flute, but deeper. She realized that the side street she was on had far fewer people in it.
Perhaps she was just distracting herself, but she found herself curious. She began to walk down the street, following the flow of the remaining traffic. She soon came to an open square, filled with people. At its center it was clear. There in front of a canvas covered wagon there were three people performing. They were all strange looking, dusky skinned with hair woven and braided with colorful beads. They wore colorful but worn clothing, stitched with intricate patterns and more beadwork. On the right was a man beating a rhythm upon an octagonal drum, hung on either side with a ring of bells that rang with each beat. In the center was a smiling woman, who sang and moved through the steps of a dance.
On the left was a young man, who seemed only a year or two her elder, with a handsome face, playing an instrument she didn't recognize. It resembled a Dizi, but the shape of the cap and placement of the holes was wrong. Although the sound was much deeper than her flute, she found it surprisingly captivating.
However, just as she was reaching the edge of the crowd, the performance reached its finish, the last notes echoing through the square. There was some appreciative sounds from the audience, and He Qingge heard the clatter of chipped copper coins falling into the humble crate which sat in front of the performance area as they began to disperse.
She stayed, watching the musicians turn to one another, speaking with smiles on their faces too low for her to hear. The older man with the drum turned and left, entering the back of the wagon.
"Well, what's your business little lady? I'm afraid the performance is done for now. We'll be starting again in about an hour though," A friendly voice shook her from her thoughts, and He Qingge realized that she had approached the performers wagon without thinking.
Her cheeks flushed in embarrassment and she looked up at the speaker… and then further up. How was he so tall?
"I am sorry," she said hastily, bowing even quicker. "I was just curious about your instrument, I've never seen one quite like it before."
The two performers left glanced at each other, and the man spoke. "Well, I think you folks call it a Bang Di, I suppose it's a bit deeper toned than what's in fashion around here."
"I think your part of the performance was very well done. It was a fascinating melody," He Qingge said. Something about the way his clear blue eyes twinkled with good humor made her flush even further.
The woman rolled her eyes, and said something in a strange foreign tongue that made him look her way. Something about her tone made He Qingge feel very irritated. She had a feeling she'd just been insulted somehow. The woman turned and walked away.
"Don't mind Sangge, she's always a bit of a grump," The man said, seeming to sense her irritation. "She's just a little stressed out. Our elders are performing for your city lords right now you see."
"O-oh, I see," he Qingge responded, feeling a little alarmed. Still these people, this man, maybe they could help her?
"Your band must be very skilled then," Qingge complemented. "If you have some time Sir…"
"Tulishen," he supplied good naturedly.
"Tu Lingshen?" She muttered with a frown, what a strange name.
"Close enough," he laughed, gesturing for her to continue.
"I could dearly use some insights on what is needed to live as a musician," He Qingge asked, bowing her head again.
Tu Lingshen regarded her curiously, and He Qingge squirmed under his gaze, she was being terribly forward.
"Well, I don't see why I can't give you some pointers," he mused.