Hiya! Decided to make an omake on an Eternal Warden, an Apothecary, which began to grow into something else that I didn't really expect. Anyways, uh, I hope it isn't too bad. I'm a little worried about this as I haven't really made a character for the Eternal Wardens before. Hope you enjoy it, despite that! 0u0
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Time Heals All Wounds.
Your name is Dian Vaidya, an Apothecary of the Eternal Wardens, and at the moment you were free of your duties.
No, that is incorrect. You are never free of your duties. Your duty is to save your brothers with your medical skills, tools and knowledge.
To oversee the next generation of Eternal Wardens was simple, if at times tragic when some failed. To tend to the dead is a difficult task, but not the hardest. To judge whether or not still living bodies, broken and struggling, were already dead or not was...
In all your time in the Eleventh Legion, even in the greatest and most nightmarish of battles, there was nothing that you feared more than the notion that you may make an error in your judgement and add a name to be carved into armour when they could have been saved.
So you make sure that such a thing never happens, that no matter what you would save as many lives as you could and to keep them from an all too early end. Even if they would need bionics to continue battle, or even to be interned into a Dreadnought to rest and retire from life until called again.
Wardens like the First Captain of the Legion barely spared a moment of their focus as they came up with plan after plan to save as many as possible, preparing strategies for anything. Others trained and sparred near constantly so that they could triumph over whatever they fought. And Primarch Kesar Dorlin himself dedicated so much, always trying to find ways to save his sons as he carved up new runes so that he wouldn't have to carve something else.
Therefore wouldn't it have been against your duty to not follow their example, the example of the greatest of the Eternal Wardens? To waste time, to waste your potential, was tantamount to turning your back on the lives you were meant to save.
That was unacceptable. You had to be better, you had to plan ahead and prepare for whatever came. The nightmares in the Warp, the roaring Greenskins, various Xenos both alive and extinct, other empires of humanity and even the lost and corrupted.
At first you began simply, studying a vast amount of medical and anatomical information on both Astartes as well as regular humans and even some on abhumans. You already knew a lot, especially of many various ways the body could be damaged or die from, but you made sure to expand your knowledge on the subject of biology.
You also made sure to go over what was available on psykers, particularly what wounds they could inflict that you could treat more effectively and what was possible for some of them to heal. Every little bit of data would help, and you made sure to remember everything that was important.
But you didn't just learn from texts, images and recordings. You knew before that the battlefield was the greatest teacher and tester, and the same held true after you made your commitment. You couldn't find something better outside of it, merely things to prepare for it.
During one battle you managed to reach and treat a Warden that had their legs blown off from an explosion. But the enemy still fired on his position while you were there, a few shots nearly hitting them, so you stood guard over his form and took what he could not. After that you decided to wear a combat shield over your right arm.
Another time you rushed over to a fallen brother and tried to drill into his armour to heal. Heavily injured and rapidly losing life but with your knowledge of Astartes physiology you knew that you would have just enough time to save him.
But you couldn't pierce through their armour as fast as you should have, it was warded with a reinforcement rune. He didn't die, but that one mistake came too close to that fate. So you studied the effects of what was in the ruinic library more closely to understand and take note of them all for the future.
And it was due to another case of research of armour, as you went to the Armoury for some notes on Terminator gear, that you went to the armoury and first met an interesting figure that you could come to regularly meet.
A Techmarine by the name of Solomon had provided you with all that you asked for when you met him back then, at first confused and then happy to help when he learned why you were asking about such things.
He started by talking at length about what he knew about various armours, their designs and specifications, and a few improvements that were projected to be implemented in the future. It was a lot more than you had expected to get from your inquiries, what was discussed about Terminator plate alone was enough to last you a few days of detailed study. But then he surprised you by then asking you about what other subjects he could help you with.
You tried to decline, you already had everything you needed and you didn't want to take up more of his time than necessary. You knew then the importance that Techmarines had more than you did before your pursuit of improvement, to have the knowledge and training to manage and maintain even the most complicated of Astartes gear in the most hectic battles was something to be respected. In a way, it was inspirational to what you were trying, and not something to heavily interrupt for your own sake.
He agreed, stating that there were a few tasks that he had to finish up too, but then said that he would be glad to help out again in the future whenever there was time. You thanked him for the offer and then left, immediately trying to find out how best to apply the information that Solomon had given you.
And then after compiling your notes on how to deal with potential threats and hazards while treating those wearing Tactical Dreadnought Armour, considering a variety of hypothetical scenarios against several different enemies that were most probable to occur, you hesitated for a few brief moments before decided to accept Techmarine Solomon's offer for help in your next avenue for research.
He knew more than you did about several subjects, and he knew them better than you would have even by studying them extensively.
That was when you started a form of routine with him, spending time together when you were both free from your duties to discuss a variety of subjects relating to your duty that he could assist you in.
Bionics and how much an Astartes body could be replaced by them, injuries that could be inflicted by vehicles they were in that became damaged or destroyed, how broken a body would be before it was too late for even a Dreadnought's life-support systems to save.
Then, as the depths of your knowledge was expanded and you memorised detail after detail for the tactics and plans you prepared for the battles of the future, your talks began to slightly shift. Knowledge and data was still shared, but occasionally there were discussions on other subjects. From philosophical considerations to reflections on the history of the Legion.
You began to visit each other more too, and you began to realise that you were spending more time with him than even your fellow Apothecaries.
During a few times when the conversations heavily diverged into other topics or when began to take a lot of time you voiced your worries that you were costing the Techmarine time that was better spent elsewhere.
Each time Solomon stated that he was glad to help you in your own duty, that the mindset was commendable and that to help those Wardens that saved the lives of their brothers was something that he considered more than worthy to do.
You had to agree, even as you thought of his role in a similar way. You both bore names on your armour, you both knew what it felt like to add another one to be worn. None of the Eleventh Legion would need to explain to each other why they wouldn't want that to happen, not when it could have been prevented. You both understood that loss all too well.
And he understood you. He approved of what you did, said that what you were doing was a quest for knowledge meant for the betterment of others. He even said that he had been learning a little from the talks too.
"In a way we both repair our own different machines," you had said one time, reflecting on how alike the two of you were. "I fix those of flesh and body, and you fix those of metal and circuits."
"Yes, yes, in a sense that is correct," Solomon replied a moment later. "Indeed, there exists a sizeable portion of the Mechanicum that believe organic matter is but another machine. Others disagree, 'There is no strength in flesh, only weakness', but I say that there exists potential and worth within both. Although, as to what you say, I prefer to see it that we are both healers. You heal the Astartes of the Legion, I heal the machines of our Legion, and sometimes we work together to heal by uniting flesh and machine."
And, having watched him do their work on simple maintenance on your equipment, you had to agree that the work of Techmarines did seem to be a sort of healing. To soothe and appease the Machine Spirits, to know what was broken and how to repair it.
Weapons, armour, gear, vehicles and all else in need of repair weren't just objects. To Solomon they had life, all of them were a part of the Eternal Wardens and fought with them. You began to look at your own gear in a different light after a while of interaction with him, and you made sure to preform the rites to ensure they all worked properly.
Over a decade had passed since you first met Solomon and gained a rapport with him. The both of you had done much together during that time, from at times fighting together in battle and at others tending to those that were wounded enough to require more than just an Apothecary. Through your efforts together you managed to save more of the Eternal Wardens than you would have otherwise.
Together you fought for the Legion and you both gave all you could for it.
Now, at the dawn of the great Ritual War, you were headed to meet Solomon again. This time you had something else to talk about other than more research, there was something important you had to do.
You found him where the Dreadnoughts rested at, he spent much of his time there when there was nothing else he needed to work on.
You did not often come here, not unless your skills were needed.
"Ah, Dian?" Solomon said as you came up beside him, in front of a Deredeo that was deep in his slumber. "Perfect timing, I was just about to head to you."
"I wanted to meet you here, actually. And I wanted to see over the Dreadnoughts with you."
"Oh? Would this be for your research?"
You shook your head. "Not quite."
A moment of silence fell as the two of you watched over your fallen brother, your eyes drifted over to the names that were carefully carved across their body. You wondered what dreams that would manifest in any Warden that was inside one of these, if they ever relived the moments that made them how they were now.
If they thought about those that died around them, while they just barely clung to their half-lives.
"Through their noble sacrifices and tragic sufferings they are granted rest," your said as your thoughts slipped out. "And as they have given up everything to fight for the Imperium now their fate is to do nothing else except to fight more."
"One day they might be able to stay awake with us," Solomon reminded. "Perhaps even a time where they could be healed, brought back from their state. It's not impossible."
"Few things seem impossible in this age," you admitted. "But no matter the future, it doesn't change the here and now."
A few more moments of contemplative silence passed before Solomon spoke again.
"When you see them, Brother Dian, you don't think of them as those that survived." It wasn't a question.
"No, I do. I just think about the names that they bear, the hardships that they go through above all else. They can only fight, only in battle will they have a chance to forge new bonds or keep holding onto the ones they made before their internment. Such brief times, fleeting moments that come and go over their lives."
"Then why do you come here now, if you feel this way?"
You sighed at that, you had asked yourself that question many times the moment you considered to come here.
"This war in the Maelstrom will, most probably, be certain death for most of the Legion." you grimly stated as you faced your brother. "And for the Iron Warriors, White Scars and Ultramarines too. I have been considering as many situations that could occur as I can, and even in the best cases in the most relatively calm battlefields it doesn't look good at all."
"Indeed," Solomon nodded, their voice now tinged with sorrow. "I doubt we will ever face a war as terrible as this any time soon, even if we would be capable of waging such a thing. The costs would be... colossal. The worlds and armies on them we will face would be worse than Cadia or even Aleph, worse by orders of magnitude. This will be a trial like no other."
"It would be worth it if this all succeeds, to purify at least move of an area of space as vast as that terrible rift and all the riches inside could shape the future of the galaxy in a way that might truly determine the fate of the Imperium."
"That it would. But I know that's not all that you're concerned about, and you didn't answer my question as to why you are here."
You hesitated for more than a moment, your silence stretched over as you considered the reasons that you possessed. Self reflection over your thoughts was something easier done when it was about something rooted in the physical, a problem to fix or a strategy to construct.
"Part of the reason is that I need to face them, the Dreadnoughts, to remind myself as to what shall happen to those if I falter when we enter the Maelstrom. I will cause more names will be etched onto their bodies through a mistake or an inability to treat them, and some others of those in my care will be entombed like the ones around us. And, no matter how greatly I try or prepare, I know that I will always have those that I fail to save."
You turned around and looked upon the other Dreadnoughts that were in the area, various different types of Castaferrums, Contemptors and Deredeos filled your view and of the names carved into them you recognised more than a few.
"And they remind me of my nightmares when I see them, brother, my failures." your voice full of sorrow and bitterness. "Every time they wake up, they must think 'how long has it been?', 'what happened to my brothers?' and 'will I have to carve another name?' To not even know when your closest companions fall, to know that you weren't there and you wouldn't have known until you woke up perhaps years later. They can barely even train themselves for the battles they face. I will not lie, Solomon, I feel as though I am intruding upon those that that are deep in mourning for those they already lost and will suffer more news of death whenever they awake."
You turned away from it all, from Solomon and the Dreadnoughts, and looked toward the ground.
"I understand your views and I hold nothing but respect for your duties here and for those you tend to. And it is unfair of me to feel this way, to say what I am saying here while they rest. But... being in this place brings up thoughts I would prefer to not think, makes me feel as though I am an unwelcome intruder. I'd rather spend my time preparing to ensure that those that fall will be as few as possible, that would be the best thing I should do for them."
A hand fell on your shoulder as you finished your little speech, and you turned to face the Techmarine that was by your side.
"Just as you understand me, Dian, I understand you." Solomon spoke, voice firm but not cold. "It pains me also to see such things happen to them too, but remember that the spirits within them and the machines they are united with burn brightly along side all the Eternal Wardens. No matter what we face, or what we suffer, we fight to bring a brighter future for humanity. For those we cherish."
"For those we cherish." something like a smile formed on your face as you repeated the words. "You always know what to say, Solomon."
The Techmarine shrugged and lowered their hand. "We are all brothers, and we all stand together."
The two of you lapsed into silence again, surrounded by figures of those that had given everything they had and would continue giving until they had nothing more left to give. That thought about their nature, at a time where you were really considering several things about yourself, made you realise that it sounded quite personally familiar.
You looked over the Dreadnoughts with new eyes, your contemplations now reached a place that perhaps they should have already reached.
"Another reason I came here," you began as you took out something that you had kept in your armour. "Was to give this to you, brother."
"And what is it?" the Techmarine asked as they took it.
"A gift. Perhaps my legacy."
You saw him realise what he held in his hands as you said that, and yet he examined the contents inside to confirm it.
"Hah, you cited me as co-author, editor and a source. And, goodness, it's formatted better and illustrated in more detail than even what some of the teachers I served under in the Mechanicum presented. Though they certainly didn't possess your drive for education and sharing knowledge."
Solomon focused on reading, engrossed in seeing the fruit borne from years of effort, before he voiced something that was on his mind.
"I thought you said that you would have preferred to have compiled and shared all your research and tactical analyses when they were completed, that you still had so many more details and hypothetical to consider before even making a first draft."
"I still believe that is the case, and I lament the fact that I have little more time to work on it, but as I said...," you sighed as you looked down at the names you carved into your armour. "...the Ritual War will be certain death for most of us."
Your brother stopped reading at that and slowly looked back up at you.
"Consider it a promise, Solomon." you said before he could say anything. "Hold onto the original for me, so that afterwards we could both continue our work on it together for the next version. Or, if I do not make it, you continue it with another Apothecary in my stead."
"I doubt I'd find any that would be as driven as you." the Techmarine chuckled for a moment, before they became solemn again. "And if I die while you live?"
"Then... I will have cherished our moments together, and make sure to continue my work with this project. And I promise keep your name on my work, as the one who helped and inspired me to get this far."
Solomon, your cherished companion, gave a smile at that. And you gave one back too. Together you two, and all the rest of the Eternal Wardens, would fight in this war and whatever happened... you would all stand there together. Even beyond death itself, the memories always kept alive by your thoughts and deeds.
A few moments passed before the Techmarine seemed to realise something. "Wait, did you say that this was the original? Than you have a copy for yourself?"
"Oh, of course!" you said, genuinely confused at the question. "This Ritual War could provide a wealth of information to decipher, well more than almost any other battle the Legion has faced. To waste an opportunity like this would be unthinkably lax and pointless, it would be inexcusable and a disservice to the Legion if I did that."
Solomon seemed to find something about what you said funny, as they began to laugh harder than you had ever seen him do so before.
"And I have already shared several other copies towards the other Apothecaries," you continued on without pause. "You did give me permission when I asked if your work could be shared back when I accepted your help if you recall. I've already submitted all the necessary paperwork for First Captain Oriacarius and he has thankfully allowed it."
The laughter kept going for a little while longer before it died off, Techmarine Solomon's face bore an expression of amusement and amity to you.
"I do hope that they find our efforts worthwhile," he said as he lifted up the first edition of a decade of research and carefully considered plans. "I should give you a gift in return for handing me this and your promise. I had some plans for improving your shield, the power capacity definitely could be tuned. Hopefully I will be able to get it done in time for the war."
You nodded at that. "Thank you, I would be extremely grateful for the added protection."
"I'll work as quickly as I can. Also," he said as he turned to look at the guide again. "I can not believe that I somehow missed the mandatory notice for my part of the paperwork that's required for this. Is it... not needed?"
"Ah, do not worry about that. I requested for your notice to be delayed long enough for me to share the copies and give you the original. That's actually the last reason I'm here, to tell you that you should go and deal with that now. The amount required has grown slightly due to the delay, actually."
Solomon's reply was delayed by a few moments, the smile on their face now faded away. "...yes, I am glad that I do not have to worry about not doing more paperwork."
"And, on the topic about shields, I included several passages that strongly recommended them. You're probably going to get at least several requests for combat shields from other the Apothecaries. In hindsight, I probably should have given you more advance notice for that."
"Well," the Techmarine said as they put the guide you both worked on inside a secluded part of his armour. "I am certainly glad to be able to support my brothers as much as possible, if nothing else."