Shinji looked up as he heard Mari speak from the front seat.
"How we deal with loss speaks to who we are. We should not ignore it, but... you should also not let yourself become consumed by it. Take the part of them that made you stronger and keep it with you, emulate it and then hope that the next generation takes that from you. That is all that matters."
Shinji saw Kaworu's eyes go dark. "That seems a bit callous, to think of it like that."
"It is the human condition," Mari explained. "I am sorry if I am not more sentimental, but I am not sure I have time for it."
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Oh man, this is neat. It makes me wonder, Mari and Kaworu haven't really spoken to each other much before this, have they? It's still great, contrasting two very different people and I bet it really gets Kaworu thinking and might strongly motivate his future actions.
Misato held the silver cross around her neck between her fingers, feeling its cold metal seep into her skin like a shade. "I have been where they are, and I know the last thing they need is to be alone."
The doctor nodded taking one last drag from her cigarette before tossing it over her shoulder towards the white stone path. "Take them, then. We can sort out the specifics later."
"Thanks." Misato Katsuragi smiled, wrapping an arm around her friend boisterously.
Nice to see that Ritsuko shows she cares in an intense time. Is it easy for her or Misato to open up or do they also need to be in dire straits to do so? How much is she feeling affected by this compared to Misato?
"Umm, Misato?" Rebecca closed the fridge door and then opened it again, faintly hoping what she saw would be different then when she last checked. "Do you have anything ugh... non-alcoholic?" The blonde girl gave a little sigh as she inspected the fridge full of golden beer cans and boxes of take out she did not wish to speculate the age of.
Aww, Rebecca. I love having characters respond to their environment. It always feels more substantial.
"Let me guess, lots of cookies and cakes?" Asuka poked her sister before snickering to herself but making Rebecca blush in shame.
"Asuka..." Misato sighed. "I know things must be hard, but can you please just..." she trailed off clearly not sure what else to say.
"Fine," Asuka grit her teeth and sulked. "I'll be good, my best behaviour, even. "
Should have expected to see Asuka lash out like this. Escalating, gathering steam, boiling, that's how it feels to read this.
"She ran away because you tormented her! Just like you torment me!" Rebecca started shouting, her throat going sore as she felt more then a few tears pour down her cheeks, so much bottled emotion being let loose. "She tried to love you but you would not let her!"
"I didn't owe her my love! I am sick and fucking tired of everyone telling me how much I owe them! How I have to work and fight and bleed and be happy while doing it." Asuka seethed her face going red as she held the edge of her chair in a death grip. "The second Kyoko died your mother tried to swoop in and replace her. Why the hell should I have given her anything but my contempt?!"
Rebecca grit her teeth, the dam broken. "So that's it then? It was just out of spite? You were just mad my mother was still alive and yours wasn't, so you had to even the score? To win?" Rebecca almost laughed. "You're pathetic."
Who was sitting on these feelings the most? Who has bottled it up more? I'm assuming Rebecca. I can tell that it's more painful for her in this scene. But how much has Asuka been honest about this? Does she usually blow up over other things as a distraction?
"It is," Kaworu said after a moment, something catching in his throat. "I suppose part of the beauty comes from its ending, without it... nothing else could begin." He smiled a bit and squeezed Shinji's hand hard in his. "Thank you, Shinji."
Shinij blushed at the contact. "For what?"
At that Kaworu chuckled. "For everything, for being with me, for being so kind to me... to saving my life even when they punished you for it, just... thank you for existing. You have no idea how much of a balm your presence has had on me these last few weeks, and before that... the impression you gave me as a child, that lasted all those years."
And I'm having more questions. How long did Kaworu spend coming up with these words? Did he have to rehearse or did they come out quickly and easily? And again, did the stuff Mari said have something to do with his choice to talk to Shinji here? How does he handle feeling confronted by mortality?
Gotta go on a bit of a mini-tangent here. Just the way you keep having Kaworu grapple with the human condition in so many scenes. It's a bit odd to ask about it so many chapters in, but was that a central idea or theme you knew you wanted to expand on when you started writing BnB? It feels natural to want to explore that dimension and make an interesting addition to the picture of Kaworu we get in canon Eva.
He was cut off by Kaworu's lips on his, a needy hunger surging through him as the boy rested a hand on his chin and kissed him again, and then again, savoring every moment before withdrawing and taking a deep breath before leaning in to whisper in Shinji's ear, "You are worthy of my grace, Shinji Ikari."
(Ooooh, he did the meme!)
Serious thoughts though. It's very charged, this moment. The passion and the hopefulness bleeds through everything Kaworu is saying and doing here.
"We are not so different, Shinji. You are the frist Lilim to successfully mingle with Adamite flesh, a miracle of a union unseen on this Earth. While I..." Kaworu took a moment and lifted his arms wide before a bright and queer light began emanating off of him in waves, surging up and around like great wings that illuminated the whole floor in their majestic light. "I am Tabris, Adam reborn, the last and greatest of all Angels, destined to end this world and remake it in my image."
Something inside Shinji died, his breath growing slow as he tried to process the words he was hearing. "Kaworu?" he asked desperately, his voice cracking as he felt the light from Kaworu rush over him, mingling with his own field in a painful harmony. "What are you talking about..."
Ah yes, here we go! It's the big reveal. And the shock of it is absolutely earned. I can tell how tremendous it is, for the wider narrative and for these two in this moment right now.
Man, I legit gasped and OMG'd in real life during this chapter. Applause for you, you've earned it.