'This should be weird…right? Homura's not exactly someone I've known for a long time.'
The girl in question, nervous as she is, is sitting next to me in my Mom's car, laptop open in her lap and turned to face me. We're going shopping, so that she can have some stuff for her temporary room.
'…Huh. Actually, we really haven't worked out how temporary it is. I pretty much just invited her to stay forever. Uh…now that I think about it, that's kinda a crazy thing to do.'
"U-um, you should take a look at this, Sayaka. I think you might like them."
I focus on the screen; it's a website for a symphonic metal band I've never heard of: "Clockwork Serenade."
"T-they're really good! They have some really cools stuff they do with clock-controlled instruments, and clockwork components as instruments, but they ALSO use violin and other strings really well, so some of their songs will be good for a classical fan like you! P-probably, I mean."
I nod, pulling out my headphones, "Wanna listen together?" She nods hesitantly, and I plug them in, handing one earbud to her, and start up the song she's brought up.
It's good. Like, not the same as classical. Not at all, but…it's interesting, and the music is a proper composition, not the simplicity I tend to expect from rock music. I hum along a little bit, and Homura smiles a bit at that--I smile back, feeling a faint warmth at her expression, "It's good, Homura. The violinist knows what he's doing, and…I don't quite get the mechanical parts, but they seem to be well done, I think."
She nods quickly, almost squeaking out her excited answer, "T-they are! You, um…clocks really are special because of the regularity and order, you know, and they manage to keep that while still using them musically. A lot of bands, even if they use mechanical sounds, use them like any other instrument. Serenade uses distinct clockwork devices, each timed consistently, to provide accompaniment without--" She pauses, "U-um, without making them irregular? It would be really bad if they did, but they don't; every note's timed perfectly, which is what makes them so special. They show proper respect for their clockwork, instead of just using it as a gimmick."
I'm unable to stifle a laugh at her sudden enthusiasm--I'm not sure if she really likes the band, really likes the genre, or just really likes clocks, "H-honestly, Homura, I didn't know clocks were used in music that widely. You're saying there are multiple bands that do this kind of thing?"
She nods firmly, "Yes. I-I know of only a couple that use it regularly, but lots of bands use clocks in one song or another."
"Huh. I'll let you know if I find any more, then, huh?"
"T-that'd be great!" She seems genuinely excited at the prospect, and I catch myself just short of patting her on the head.
The car pulls to a stop, and we pile out, Mom turning to Homura as we do so, "So, Homura-chan, what's our first stop? Anything you're looking for in particular?
Homura looks around, nervously considering her options, and I start thinking it over, trying to figure out what we should get for Homura first--she probably won't be up for taking the initiative, after--
"M-maybe that shop over there? The one with the crescent moons?
'Uh…what? Crescent moons?'
"Crescent--? Wait. There's no shop like that." Mom says, sounding incredulous, but Homura simply points.
I turn to see what Homura's pointing at, and find myself staring at a wholly unfamiliar shop--it's a weird one, seeming to be some fusion of local and European styles. It also wasn't here a few days ago, and there's not a single sign of construction work.
Glancing at Mom, I see her staring at it, clearly befuddled, "Wait, that's not supposed to…I guess that I forgot about it."
'You didn't just forget about it, Mom.'
Your mother seems determined to ignore the impossibility, though, looking back at Homura, "Are you sure you want to go there?"
I almost object--it's kinda creepy--but…
"Yes."
I can't say no to that determined expression on Homura's face. As nervous as she normally is, she seems really firm in her decision. She looks a bit like Madoka, actually--when Madoka's decided to dig her heels on something, at least.
Stepping close to my new friend, I take her hand in mine, chuckling slightly, "Heh, first time I've seen you so sure about something. Alright then, let's go!"
With that, I start pulling her towards the creepy shop, ignoring Mom's laughter--even if Homura knows what she wants, that doesn't mean she won't be nervous. Anyone can be nervous. If I run ahead with a smile, though, then maybe she won't be.
Thinking like that, it's easy for me to smile for real.
Leading the way, I step inside the shop, and find a pair of creepy kids waiting for me. Suddenly, I'm not so sure this was the time to teach Homura how to be brave…
...because I think this might be the right time to run for my life.
Too bad I can't bring myself to walk away. Not sure if I'm just frozen in fear, or surprise, or what, but I just can't seem to turn around.
"Welcome! Master's been waiting for you!" They declare proudly, speaking as one. I'm assuming they mean the shopkeep, but who the hell calls their boss "Master" in this day and age? Maybe's it's just a gimmick, like being creepy and appearing out of nowhere. Marketing.
A girl can dream.
"Um…master, you said? You mean the shop keeper?" I really hope they just mean the shop keeper.
They nod, to my partial relief, and begin walking, "Right this way!"
Exchanging glances with Homura, who has caught up, I notice Mom strolling off into the shop alone, "Well, what are you two girls waiting for? You came here to shop, right?"
I try to tell her I want to leave, and that this is scary, but my mouth refuses to move.
Homura just nods, and begins walking, looking weirdly calm, and kinda business-like. She must be the type who goes cold when scared.
With no other choice, I follow her, looking around as we go--the entire shop is furnished in the same ornate style, and a variety of creepy knickknacks line the walls. A couple of things look interesting, but something tells me I shouldn't touch anything in here.
Standing behind a counter at the front of the shop is a woman--she's gorgeous, in a way no one I've ever seen before is gorgeous. Like, I'm pretty sure no one looks that perfect, but she does. She's also wearing a kimono that…honestly, who wears that kind of ornate kimono just to run a shop?
Her eyes are locked unnervingly on Homura as she speaks, and something about it sends a shiver up my spine. Not…not fear, exactly. Anticipation, maybe? It's like…something inside me, or something around me, is dying, and I can't bring myself to mourn it.
It's weird. I should definitely be scared. Something here doesn't make sense, and I know that, once it does, my life will never be the same. I can't wait, though. I want it to happen faster, to see everything change.
"Welcome. It seems you have finally found this place, child of clocks. In this place, one can find what one needs, and your needs are great, as are those of your companion…" She trails off, and her eyes meet mine for a moment. Something seems to crack inside me.
"So…what is it you require? Anything at all can be granted, but a balanced price must be payed…"
The children laugh, even as that maddening feeling seems to grow, "Balance! Grief and Hope!"
'Anything? Even…I can help Kyousuke? Madoka? I can…I can save them? I can be amazing, like they are?'
".…A-anything?" I speak without even trying, words forming faster than thought, "Anything at all?"
Homura says something, asks something of the woman, but I miss it. I need my answer.
The woman spends time responding to Homura, ignoring my question. I NEED that answer!
"Well!? You said anything?"
She turns her attention back to me, nodding serenely, "Yes. Anything for a price."
Nodding, I step forward, and tell her what I want, "…I want to save him." I pause for an instant, realizing my mistake, and correct my words, "I want a way to save those who are suffering."
She smiles. It's a bit unnerving, but she seems genuinely pleased, "But are you ready for the price? It's," Her eyes gleam, "Your humanity. If I grant you this wish, you will no longer be able to live as a human."
That's...that's not what I wanted to hear. 'What does that even mean? It's…I…what could that possibly mean?' I think it over for a moment, hesitating, wondering how stupid it would be to say yes.
Then I look at Homura, who looks terrified, eyes wide with fear. I remember Madoka, slowly breaking. Kyousuke…Kyousuke, without any hope for the future, barely holding himself together.
".…I'll be able to save him? And everyone else?"
She shakes her head, and my heart sinks, "No one can save everyone, at least, no one short of a goddess, but you will be able to save some. "Him" included," She pauses, eyes twinkling as they meet mine, "And maybe this girl beside you as well."
I'm still scared. I want to say no. To run away.
I'll never be able to help anyone by running away, though. I'll be worthless forever, if I can't be brave.
"Okay. I'll do it." I say the words before I can change my mind, committing before I can think better of it, and brace myself, waiting for the consequences.
She simply turns, walks over to a shelf, and pulls down a sword. It's big--too big for me to use, I know, and Mom hasn't taught me much about western swords.
She presses into my hands, and I immediately feel something--a connection, a calling, a hunger. It's…this sword isn't mine, not yet, but it also very much is. I know that what she's just handed me is my future, and I'm not afraid at all.
'If this is my future, then what is she going to take? This--! What's she going to do? Why is she just standing there?' "Wait…what? What about the price?"
She smiles, looking ready to laugh, like someone hearing a joke only they understand, "Don't concern yourself." I am very concerned, but she goes on, "Wielding that sword is the price… a heavy one, but so was your wish."
Without another word, she turns away, looking to Homura, and I am left to regard the weapon in my hands. My sword. The only sword I need.
"I am the bone of my sword."