Ante Meridiem
Ah, this felt so awkward. Harry braced his arms on the sides of the girl's head, then leaned down steadily, and hovered a few inches above her face, with hesitation dancing and singing in his chest like a string of pearls, where every pearl was its own sort of doubt.
It was a difficult action to even consider - let alone accomplish, especially with a straight face and ledger. How does one simply kiss a girl? A sleeping girl that doesn't even know she is receiving a kiss, no matter how noble its purpose? How could a Disney prince do this so casually in that one movie?
As if guided by some innate divine epiphany, he realized that his absence of valor concerning the kissing of girls must've originated from some deeper and darker place; a deep-rooted insecurity that slumbered for some time in his heart, and emerged to haunt him for no reason other than to punish him for being a meek weakling.
As the rats behind devoured their prize, one of them spoke through its chewing snout, "Hey, that human is about to bite the sleeping human."
He felt embarrassed, cheeks heating up. Or maybe, there was no divine epiphany after all, and he was simply going through the nasty, confusing, early stages of male puberty.
Just imagine you're wearing the Invisibility Cloak or something. No moral repercussions.
Imagining that didn't help. It wasn't about morality - although that part was skeevy, too. It was about Harry's emotions simply not allowing him to perform the action requested of him, as though someone had tied a cord around his brain. However, it caused Harry to consider other scenarios that could make this situation easier - none of them worked particularly well, even as he kept sorting through them with a kind of conscientious focus; attempting to find the right button for the open slot, so to speak.
And then, suddenly, Harry's accumulated weariness, like an ocean of turbulent fatigue, shattered the dams of delicate anxiety that had kept it at bay, steering a blank canvas of apathy and sudden, fierce determination to overtake his heart. It came from somewhere even deeper than mere anxiety. He acquired a resolved look. He would kiss this girl, and he would do this now, with not a second more of pointless dilly-dallying and foot-scorched dancing around the subject. After checking his breath to make sure it wasn't nasty, fixing up his hair a bit, and correcting his glasses so they wouldn't get in the way, he leaned further down and, finally, placed a chaste smooch on her lips.
Harry leaned away from the unconscious girl.
Almost unexpectedly - as though in an epically unforeseen anticlimax - nothing bad or strange happened to him or his emotions.
Feeling faintly surprised with this placid outcome, Harry thought to himself,
Actually, that wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be - I didn't even freak out or anything. Huh. It turns out kissing people is overrated.
However, there was another concern worming itself in Harry's mind. His eyes narrowed in suspicion.
Why isn't she waking up, though, Geist?
It's simple, Geist interjected,
You've spent so long deliberating whether or not to kiss this girl that the Wiggenweld fluid formerly on your lips has had enough time to dry up, evaporate into the air, begin dating a particularly nice cloud of Angel's Trumpet Draught fumes, make a family, find a steady well-paying job, find out that its wife was cheating, get a divorce, return to your lips, cry itself to sleep, die alone, and evaporate once more, into the afterlife. Apply some more and do it again, dumbass.
Begrudgingly, with a discontented look, Harry again pulled out the small flask of healing potions on his belt, applied a new touch of fluid to his lips, and then leaned back down. He kissed the girl on the lips again, modestly.
Immediately, he noticed the appreciable difference between attempts. The very second their lips made contact, she coughed harshly, and began to wrack and seize, eyes shutting even tighter in burning pain; hissing, seizing, and groaning, as though she were deeply sick.
"Am I that bad of a kisser?" Harry pondered to himself, saddened by this information, but not particularly troubled - he was no longer afraid of the fairer sex.
No. That's a normal reaction to not having oxygen in your lungs for Merlin-knows-how-long.
After a couple of seconds of coughing and making strangled noises with her throat, the girl's eyes opened with pained lethargy. They immediately turned, in order to track Harry in the corner of her vision - she attempted to open her mouth to say something, but what came out was a sound somewhere between a horrendous cough and a screech. She curled into herself a little, in response to the pain, as Harry observed with steadily growing concern. He wasn't sure this was a normal reaction anymore.
After it was over, the girl spent a single minute breathing, and Harry stood by her side.
"Year," she muttered questingly, not a mote of strength in her voice.
"Year?"
"...what year is it?" A demanding tone made its way into her voice; portraying strength in spite of her rather pathetic state.
"1992."
She closed her eyes. An indescribably bitter and disappointed look appeared on her face; an emotional pain on a scale of blank, dull agony - a pain that couldn't be dealt with and that couldn't go away on its own, that made you want to bang your head against a wall, or curl up into a messy, crying ball and kick at furniture or walls in impotent rage, ignoring the feeling of increasing pain in your knees and feet. It was the crushing, heart-rending sensation - the very essence, in fact - that occurred when you abruptly realized you were completely powerless to do anything, and that your fate was never in your hands to begin with; that you'd lost because the world decided for you.
Harry instantly comprehended the feeling she displayed, and strongly commiserated because he was expertly familiar with that kind of pain.
"Are you alright?"
"No." Her answer was dry and callously straightforward, with grueling, necksnap immediacy - as though she'd expected the question several seconds before he even thought of it, and considered it the stupidest possible question he could've asked. It actually hurt a little, but given she wasn't feeling too well, Harry forgave it.
Tiredly, like an exhausted snake looking for a spot to rest, one of the girl's hands reached under her robe. Then, it stopped, with cold shock, almost recoiling.
Her eyes opened up, wide as saucers. Harry stepped back, cautiously.
"My wand," she said, numbly - the girl forced herself to sit up on the slab, hands patting all over herself in search of an object. "My wand. My wand! Where is it?! Where is it?! Oh Merlin, where is my wand?!"
"I haven't seen it."
"Nooo!" she cried out; almost as a screech, not quite as a gurgle - with a cringe so deep that it was possible to drown in it even with diving equipment and an oxygen canister on hand. She put both hands on her temples and bent over forwards, teeth grit, nose wrinkled in equal parts rage and fear. "My father will kill me. I'm sure he's going to do that. It's going to be the straw that broke the camel's back - the final nail in my epic coffin. I suppose I might as well stay down here." She laughed tremulously.
It was difficult to imagine anyone's father as so excessively violent, and to even consider such a possibility as plausible - let alone as a certainty; a dead-set, foregone conclusion that couldn't be prevented. The Hogwarts supply room maintained a set of no less than seventy-five spares, in a wide variety of cores and woods. And even if that weren't the case, Hogwarts students enjoyed a generous discount on wands and related supplies at Ollivander's. A lost wand honestly didn't seem like such a big deal.
"Because of a wand?"
"It was a family heirloom," she answered, not bothering to look at him. "And I've lost it. My stupidity lost it."
After a second of hopelessly staring in front of herself, the girl finally began to turn, sitting on the edge of the bed. As she did, the girl began to make hand gestures and whisper incantations that Harry only vaguely recognized or understood. Alert, Harry stepped back and prepared to dodge, but none of the spells were directed at him. As a matter of fact, the girl's continued incantations produced a halcyon glow, like spears of morning sunlight emanating from the center of her chest. There were only a scant couple of incanted spells that were self-directed, and she was rattling them off, one by one - including a few that Harry didn't recognize entirely.
The girl paused upon casting a spell that sounded more Chinese in origin, and looked up at him. A blank, expressionless look appeared on her face. It was the haggard face of someone so completely done there weren't any more words that could be used - the look of an animal accepting its promised death. Her eyes were staring, not at Harry, but through him; as though metaphorically drilling a hole through his very being and looking past into the infinite void of cosmic ether that existed between layers of reality. It was as though her soul had decided the only valid option left was to abandon ship.
"Uh... Do I have something on my face?" Harry asked.
Her voice was husky and lifeless, now. The antipode of energy. "No. No, you're fine." She began to laugh, then, disturbingly relaxed and broken. She repeated herself, as though forgetting what she'd said, "No. No, you're fine. I'm the one who's screwed up."
Any, uh, advice, Geist?
Don't look at me. Even Geist sounded fairly disturbed.
You're the one who kissed her, not me. Maybe the Draught of Living Death screwed with her brain.
"Are you feeling-" Harry stopped midway through his question, realizing he was about to repeat his mistake, "-actually, no, that's a stupid question, forget it. How about this instead. I'm Harry Potter. What's your name?"
"I..." As though recalled to earthly reality, the husky emptiness vacated her, and she reacted normally - though very unexcitedly, and tiredly. "I suppose, Hecate."
He tilted his head. "You suppose?"
"It doesn't matter," she muttered. "Call me Hecate. I'm Hecate."
It didn't sound like a real name, but Harry chose not to press.
"I noticed that you're proficient with, uh... wandless casting," Harry said, as obliquely as he could given the statement's contents. "Pretty remarkable, that."
"Sure. Whatever," Hecate said, standing up with a knee-shaking weariness from her resting place. Most impressively, she was capable of standing up after what must've been a pretty long while in suspended animation. Maybe one of the spells she'd cast took care of that problem? "Do you know the way out of here?"
"I do."
"Great." She removed her school robe and began to fold it elegantly into a more compact form. She pulled down the bottom of her jumper and frowned, as though unused to the sensation of the cotton over her skin. "Can I borrow your wand for a moment?"
"No," Harry said, as mildly as he was able to. "No offense, but I don't know you."
"Fine," she acquiesced simply, with barely even a hint of disappointment, and no bitterness. He'd almost expected it, so he was pleasantly surprised to find her accepting his justification at face value. "Do you know the Severing Charm? Are you well-practiced with it?"
Harry nodded. "Of course."
She unceremoniously dropped the folded-up school robe to the floor. "Can you dice this up?"
"Why?"
"You ask a lot of questions, Harry Potter," she remarked, "Not very charismatic of you."
He decided to shrug in response, unashamed and uncaring. His response didn't seem to convince her to be more forthcoming, though, and deciding not to stress their already rocky conversation, he decided to acquiesce with her request. His wrist moved in a trained sequence: a flick down, swoop up, curve down and right smoothly. "Diffindo."
A phantasmal flash of chalky dashes and strokes filled the air surrounding the folded robe, blowing away like compressed air, and a fraction of a second later, the Gryffindor robe was cut into thin and short stripes. Hecate looked momentarily impressed with his spellwork but schooled her face when Harry noticed her expression. Hecate bent over and started to pick up the pieces, aiming for the smaller ones; she gathered them in a pile in her hand. After she'd gathered an entire handful, she nodded to herself in satisfaction with the assembled pieces and bits of cloth.
"I'm going back to the surface. It's late and I want to sleep," Harry said. "Are you coming, 'Hecate?'" He stressed the name with subtle skepticism.
"Of course. I'm not planning on staying here," she answered calmly. "Why are you so questioning?"
"You're suspicious," he answered plainly. "Everything about you kind of is."
At least she had the decency to look self-conscious at his remark. After a second, though, she unapologetically folded her arms and raised a challenging eyebrow. "Am I? Am I really, Harry Potter, or are you simply in the wrong?"
"There was a lot you could've said to dispel that image, but a pointless rhetorical question to assert your nonexistent authority over me wasn't one of those things. Maybe next time someone wakes you up from eternal sleep, after having a panic attack, you might be able to say 'thank you,' hm?" Harry managed to bite out, having located some incredible wellspring of teenage sass in him. As casually as when leaving the classroom, he turned around and started the walk to the surface. "Lumos Linea Maxima."
Holy shit, that response was so cold. Geist whistled.
Maybe overcoming puberty's largest hurdle sped up your advancement in adolescence? Have you been elegantly matriculated into the arcane techniques of impertinence and cheek?
I don't know. It doesn't change the crux of the matter, though - we have no idea who she is and why she's down here.
Ask her on the way there. Test the waters; maybe we'll find her boat is shaken. Your response was hurtful enough that she might realize how much she's taxed your patience, and extend an olive branch as a form of apology. It's a master-level technique. It's called the guilt trip.
Hmm. I'll have to remember this one - the guilt trip.
Maybe we'll be able to plumb Neville's juicy secrets out of him once you get really good at it. There's an issue with the guilt trip, though: it doesn't work on people who don't care and don't care to care, so to speak. If she's immune, and she might be, we're shit out of luck. If she isn't, well... you'll see - or I'll tell you.
After a long walk up the dungeon, during which they were followed distantly by Harry's rat friends, Hecate did, as predicted by Geist, hesitantly speak up, "I'm sorry for dodging your questions. I didn't feel like answering them."
Excellent. She's not immune. She actually cares about what you think.
What do I do, then?
Keep being cold. You don't like her. There isn't much that's actively dislikeable about you on first glance - especially in that adorable beret - and people have an innate instinct to be liked by the people they do not actively detest. If you pretend you don't like her, she'll cave in, in a desperate attempt to turn yourself to her favor.
I don't really have to pretend, Harry mused.
Even better.
"Mhm," Harry simply hummed in response - utterly disinterested in her words.
"It's a private matter," Hecate continued, as per Geist's predictions. "I'm sorry for being so cross with you, too. I'm thankful for you waking me up."
"Whatever."
An uncomfortable, dead silence dominated the hallway; their footsteps, and the pitter-patter of rats aside, one could probably hear a pin drop. A nasty doubt appeared in Harry's mind, like a haunting specter - did he maybe take it a step too far, crossing over into asshole territory? A second later, though, his doubt was proven wrong.
"...I'm sorry. I- I've been asleep for a while, so I must've really forgotten my manners. One of my father's friends was a Seer, and foresaw... an event, in the near future, so I took a potion in order to essentially skip forward the time, so I could prevent the event he mentioned. I thought I'd prepared everything correctly, and that I'd wake up at the right time, but... apparently, I screwed up. I overshot my target by a slight margin. And... even then, it seems like my intervention wasn't necessary. So I'm going to go and find my father, if he's still around, and talk to him. And maybe, hopefully, convince him not to, like, completely murder me for losing an important family heirloom."
Tell her it's alright, but don't completely drop the matter like it's nothing - anyone reasonable in your position would be at least tentatively curious. Ask her, once and not any more after that, if she's willing to share more about her circumstances, but when she says she doesn't, simply accept it. It'll make you look reasonable, but more concerned with being a gentleman who cares about people's feelings than an ardent, inherently suspicious knowledge-seeker.
"It's alright," Harry replied, settling down in his external glumness. "I shouldn't have judged you for wanting to keep a secret. I assume you don't want to say anything else, about the event itself, or the other stuff?"
"I... would prefer not to."
"That's fine," Harry said with a shrug. "Actually, one thing - why was there a bunch of colorful roses growing around you?"
"I-" Hecate stopped, then recalled the overall shape and contents of the chamber she was in, and narrowed her eyes in puzzlement. "I genuinely have no clue."
She's actually being honest on this, as far as I can tell.
"Maybe it's related to whoever or whatever took your wand," Harry posited a theory.
"Maybe. I'll have to go back there and find out, some other time." She didn't sound pleased about it. "I am sorry, though - about everything. I hope you forgive me."
Harry nodded.
Given how smoothly the conversation had ended, from then on, their silence was a fraction more bearable - amicable, almost.
Interrresting.
Any idea who she is? Harry asked.
No. The opposite, actually - all the new information has only rendered her more mysterious.
So, what do
you know?
The event she's talking about was me ingloriously killing myself in Godric's Hollow, or something related to that entire debacle - it's the only notable event that's occurred this century. Maybe she was aiming to stop Grindelwald, but I doubt anyone in the world can brew a Draught of Living Death that's so fucking good it stays active for what'd probably be, like, over a century. It was something that'd happen within the shelf life of the Draught, but that she'd be too old to stop without taking one. Around a century sounds correct - however, that raises other questions. The Hogwarts uniform was a little different back then. Did you notice how fidgety she was in her clothes? I'm willing to consider those clothes might not have been originally hers. I'm not sure on this part for several other reasons, though. Like, why does she need a bunch of dark cloth scraps? Did she do that simply to confuse us, or is that part of some other spell? Dark Arts sometimes use metaphysical connections, but that's way past her level.
Two possibilities. She is - or used to be - a Gryffindor student at Hogwarts; or she stole her robes. I don't know which is more likely, because I don't know enough about her habits. There's compelling evidence for both sides of the argument. Her chosen sobriquet - the goddess of magic. A generalization meant to indicate nothing and obscure her identity, or deep-rooted arrogance. Interestingly, given her displayed behaviors so far, I am unsure which one - she's excellent at concealing her own emotions. An Occlumens, I bet, though I wouldn't test her. A spy maybe? I doubt she's an agent of Dumbledore or anything like that, but who knows. Anything might be true at this point.
Do you believe her, though? Harry asked.
About her story?
Definitely. Oh, she's inserted a few white lies here and there, twisted some meanings to conceal the truth, and probably didn't mention an entire bucket of details; but overall, Occlumens or not, I'm too good at reading people to miss the major facts. I can sense that she was being honest, although only in general terms. Also, it also makes sense and lines up with the tangible evidence. Her story's general shape is almost certainly true - someone in her past was a powerful Seer, told her that something inconceivably terrible would happen at an appointed date sometime this century, and she drank a potion in a hopeless endeavor to stop it personally. And that's where the evidence comes in - this action is textbook for someone who's a brash, idealistic idiot; something you might expect of a person wearing the Gryffindor coat of arms on their chest.
However, on the other hand, despite her seeming absence of conventional wisdom, and rather shoddy execution of her plan, she's also uncannily smart and talented: notice the fact that she was able to either procure or brew such an advanced potion at her age, and she's very adept with wandless casting. Actually, some of those spells she cast on herself indicate she's extremely adept with spellcasting in general, and shouldn't be taken for granted. She's definitely a peer to you, not only in age, but in raw talent.
Any plans?
Eh, I'd let her go.
Harry blinked.
Seriously? Why?
There's no point chasing after her, or her secrets. We can do that later. After all, she'll be malingering around Hogwarts for years to come, assuming she doesn't eventually figure out some way to rejoin the student body.
How come?
Because she's spying on you. If she was actually in so much pain, and fear of her father, and so concerned with getting out of here - which, having 'failed' her mission, she should - there'd be no reason to get invested in you as an individual and seek your forgiveness. You were already leading her out. She could've kept her secrets, kept you in the dark, and returned to doing whatever it is she usually does. And yet...
She did. She asked my forgiveness.
Yes. And there comes the biggest part of the mystery - why spy on you? Are you related to her mission after all? A point of evidence in favor of me being related to the event. But then, she didn't seem to recognize your name either. So how does she know you're involved? And there's another angle to consider - is she the actual cause of that ghastly shrieking we've heard, or is that something unrelated?
Damn, Harry thought, realizing how much he didn't know.
And that's why I said that she's interrrresting. A big Hogwarts mystery unfolds in front of us.
Harry cast a furtive look back at Hecate and noticed her staring at the back of his head.
She immediately looked away at a blank painting frame, pretending she hadn't been doing anything suspicious.
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After that most fascinating event, Harry and Hecate parted ways in the upper dungeon levels - he didn't see her again for the immediate future. And maybe that's fine, because he was more focused on education. Here is your curriculum for
March and
April --
Astronomy
*Irrelevant
Charms
*Free Practice
*Softening Charm (Practice)
*Levitation Charm (Practice)
*Featherlight Charm (Practice)
*Fire-Making Charm (Practice)
**Private Tutoring (Smokescreen Spell, Advanced Dueling techniques; actual simulated Duels against Flitwick himself - he'll go easy on you)
DADA
*Gargoyles
*A treasure hunt exercise where students must count the non-sentient Gargoyles of the castle and come back with code words the sentient gargoyles give out. Each word is part of a clue that leads to a chest somewhere on campus. This chest has tokens of proof that the task was completed. The Count is 25% of the grade, gathering all the pieces of the puzzle is another 25% of the grade. Returning to the class with the token is 50% of the grade. After staring at the stars as he regularly does, Harry figured out something like this might happen, and prepared accordingly - he'll pass with a 100% grade and help his friends do the same.
*Dark Wizards and the Dark Arts
*Herpo the Foul
*Morgana le Fay
*Maladora Grymm (Oddly familiar, this figure)
*Hags
Herbology
*Spiky Bush
*Daisies & Dandelions
*Gouging Spell / Practice
*Herbological Lore - Metaphysical Meaning of Plant Life
*Revision
*Herbology Project (Pick any plant you've learned about this year and cultivate it for next year. By default, Harry is going to pay someone else to do this for him, because he considers this a waste of time, but you can have him do this instead, if you consider it important for his education.)
History of Magic
*Hermetic Magecraft
*The Consideration of Forms by Plato
Potions
*The Twelve Uses of Dragon's Blood, Part I
*The Twelve Uses of Dragon's Blood, Part II
*Flobberworm Mucus Collection & Proper Squeezing Technique
*Azurenut Extract (as well as how to render it into an essential oil)
*Wiggenbark Extract
Transfiguration
*How Forms Affect Magic
*Practice
*Methodology
*Field Trip - Professor Pettigrew takes the class out to the lake and challenges everyone to transform nearby objects into the most comfortable seating arrangement they can come up with. A pretty comfy event; everyone experiences ++Pettigrew.
Now, is there anything that you'd like Harry to focus on or expand on?
[ ] Write-in
[ ] Maintain Standard Coursework - A balanced spreadsheet of skills.
[ ] Prepare For Astronomy OWLs - Harry's already considering the possibility, given a few glances at OWLs from previous years. At this rate, he'll easily be able to write his OWLs in the first months of his 2nd Year. If you select Excelsior, he may be able to do so this year instead.
At the moment you have
31.5 Gnosis.
[ ] Excelsior [7 Gnosis] - All of your learning endeavors are doubled for next trimester; applies evenly to your Domains of Greatness.
[ ] Eternal [Astrology] Mastery [14 Gnosis] - Attain complete [Master]-y, in the fields of Astronomy and Astrology. All of the remaining 5th Year syllabus will become clear and translucent to you, and everything else up to 7th Year won't be that far behind. Discounts Dark Astrology.
[ ] Rending of Untold Infinities [25 Gnosis] - Attain [Master] in the fields of Astronomy and Astrology, and then make significant progress towards [Archmaster]. A stupefying level of advancement. All through sheer talent, you become more knowledgeable in these fields than your own teacher!
[ ] Eternal [Ancient Runes] Mastery [32 Gnosis] - Attain complete [Master]-y in the field of Ancient Runes, and [Proficient] in the field of Transfiguration. If you even bother taking Ancient Runes as an elective, you're sure to ace it.
As usual, up to
three (3) selections:
[ ] Homework - A dedication to your studies and student duties; not only do your homework, but go an extra step and a half for every assignment, and then do some ahead-of-curriculum reading for the topics involved, simply to be prepared and ahead of the curve. You're now learning the second year curriculum.
[ ] Experimentation - Play around with magic you know, as well as magic you barely know; either produce novel results or learn to cast spells you know in slightly fresher and more interesting ways. Alternatively, burn down your desk for nothing as you miscast, but at least it'll verify what
doesn't work.
[ ] Write-in (As a few other examples of potential activities: explore the castle, sneak into the kitchen, familiarize with student body, etc.)
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Here's a
character sheet for this quest.
As a reminder, you can join
Discord here for discussion, as well as alert pings to let you know an update is going to come out in a short while. All discussion on Discord counts partially towards your Gnosis progression and offers boosted rewards if relevant parts of discussion are reposted in the thread.