Opening Up
30th of September 2006 A.D.
You move, hair still wet from the morning shower, into the kitchen where both your mom and dad are, a steaming pot of coffee on the counter. Filling your cup your join them: "So, I wanted to talk to you two about this" You motion at the cup to their increasing bewilderment. "Well not this specifically, the idea, the platonic ideal of coffee," You offer a sheepish laugh that is, mostly honest, it is a bit of insight you had stumbled upon. "My vast cosmic powers come with super coffee recipes now. I guess I can always start working as a barrista for the supernatural folk if the whole 'make diamonds and protect community' thing falls through."
From the way dad is starting to frown, not in anger, but in thought it's clear he is getting the idea. As for mom... yeah about what you would expect. Still she isn't interrupting you. You take that as a good sign and soldier on:
"It's a blend that will reduce the need for sleep to one hour per night, with zero side-effects, and the effect lasts for a whole week. I plan to use the free hours to try and get more things done, and I was planning on sharing the recipe with Harry; he could certainly use more hours in a day. Would you also like some? It'll take a bit to brew though, and I'll have to order some ingredients - the super-coffee is actually quite hard to make"
"No! Molly are you...?" Oops, apparently that was not a calm silence, more of a 'I'm at a loss for words' one. "You don't know what this thing does!" When you open your mouth to reply she just reiterates with emphasis and about a dozen or so decibels louder. "You do not
know what this thing does, you know what it
should do, but you know what they call drugs that some scientist somewhere thinks are safe? Experimental, they go through long trials, first on animals, then on healthy adults to get a baseline, then on the general population and when all that is done, then they start selling the stuff. Even with all that they still get it wrong sometimes."
"Well then I guess I'll never take another aspirin again in my life mom, because in case you haven't noticed I am not
baseline anything," you snark back, in what you are reasonably sure isn't a very good argument, but is not as unhinged sounding as the other thing that comes to mind: 'I don't make mistakes,' no matter how sure you are that this is the case here.
"Molly," your name comes out half a sigh from dad, but you notice the way his hand brushes mom's as he shifts on the couch, an offer of support... and a plea to calm down. It's almost unnerving to be able to read them this well. You are no stranger to butting your head against the wall of parental disapproval, but usually you are just reacting. "I realize you are proposing this out of a desire to do good,
the most good you can and I know how daunting that can be. There is a part of me that still wishes you never ended up here, but I hope you will believe me when I say that the reason I don't think 'super coffee' is a good idea is not just that, it's not just your dad getting in the way of saving the world like you are Kim Probable..."
You are morally certain dad knows the name of that show. Doesn't stop you from smiling and with that a bit of the tension goes out of the room
He continues: "If you do everything you can, give every part of yourself to the mission, then when there is a crises, when you have to pull out all the stops there won't be any stops to pull, or at least not any ones you want to contemplate."
"What if you just have more stops than everyone else?" you ask quietly.
"Molly everyone thinks that," Mom sounds more tired than angry, still angry mind, just not her primary emotion. "Just because you can push your body, your mind, your sleep schedule with magic doesn't mean it's a good idea."
"No Mom I mean that
literally, what if I have the means, the lore, the sheer good fortune where I can push myself ten times harder than most people and still be twice as far from the edge? I don't know what I am just what I can do
so far. Harry doesn't know, Lydia is more like me than not but she's still mostly in the dark. The only ones I think
might know more are Queen M... ah the Queen of the Frosty Fey and the Archangel Uriel. What if I use the wrong yardstick now because I don't know any better and then people get hurt, they get killed or worse and then the next time there is an emergency I discover oh I
could have done this all the time." You can feel dampness in the corner of your eyes and you are pretty sure that's not water.
Neither of your parents says anything for a moment that goes on forever, then. "Alright, I'll try it for two weeks, then stop for the next two" Mom says. "Goodness knows I could use the extra time, then if nothing
unexpected happens to me you can do the same next month while I take it a whole month and if that still works out fine you can just... keep taking it."
It does not escape your notice that in two months you are going to be an adult anyway, but you can see that mom is trying. There's still ancient corpses sworn to hell and a cannibalistic god monster on the loose. Can you afford to just not take the super-coffee this month at all and only half of next month?
Do you take the compromise
[] Yes (6 AP this Turn; 6+1 Next turn and 6+2 on Following turns)
[] No, this is too important, you'll move out if you have to
[] Try to argue further
-[] Write in
OOC: Charity is indeed jumpy about drugs given Molly's history, but she is even more worried about something she's had to deal with for a whole of a lot longer being married to a Knight of the Cross, the threat of just burning out for the greater good. And Michael is right there with her because this is very familiar to him.