Hestia&theCourt
Turns out we're plural too.
- Location
- In transition
- Pronouns
- She/Her
"Envy is when you know what you want is impossible. And once you realize that, you can't just seal your wanting away!"
"I'm no one," it sounded so melodramatic to finally say it after so many weeks of dancing around the point, "I'm nothing, just deception after deception, stacked on top of itself until I almost look like a real person!"
"It's not fair!" Inessa cut me off. "You're so kind to everyone else, why do you always get to be mean to yourself? If this was anyone else you'd tell them to try! That even if they couldn't be exactly the person they dreamt of, they could still become someone great!"
"It would be nice," I admitted. Speaking was hard. My wings had already begun to dissolve into miasma. My seed hated every word. "It would be nice to be that person. To… let myself try, let people help, even if I couldn't ever believe I could be what I wanted to be."
"But I'm weak" I glared at her. "And I couldn't just go back to wanting, not if it means pretending it's not impossible, not if it means that I have to risk being him again!"
...so I don't have the capacity for putting it into words, but something about these lines, both alone and in conversation with each other, hits very hard. My compliments to the author, for accurately and powerfully conveying the emotions behind these sentences.
I'm a little less thrilled to be inheriting these emotions, to be clear, but it's not like anybody expected me to get illegally downloaded in the first place so eh. I'll live, probably.
On a largely unrelated topic, there should likely be a period in that last quote immediately after "weak".