Life=Pain
- Location
- Hampden Park
Life
=
Pain
Self=Darkseid
I sit on the beach, turning away from the ragamuffins as Diana takes in my little speech. And I can see it in her face, in the slight frown and tightening of the skin around her eyes as she almost manages to master her expression that I have spoken unwisely and alienated an admirable woman merely by being me. I didn't want to do that. Why did I..?
Self=Darkseid
I smile as I put my right arm around Wallace's shoulders, being happy that I just deliberately made a fifteen year old boy who of his own free will fights armed criminals for no greater reward than knowing that he did the right thing… Made him feel bad.
Self=Darkseid
Lawrence Crock looks at his own arms in horror as they turn orange and I permanently alienate myself from all of my peers and create a secret I can't tell my… The woman who might have become my mother in law. Did my parents not raise me better than this? I felt satisfaction, joy at my victory… But now…
Self=Darkseid
I smile at Artemis' expression after I made a tentacle sex joke to a fifteen year old girl while alone with her in a darkened corridor.
Self=Darkseid
I chased Jade across the country because I found the fact that I could scare someone like her so easily pleasant. I apologised later, but looking back I can see a little of the damage I caused in every part of our interactions.
Self=Darkseid
Jade sits on my chest, smiling down at me as she runs her hands over my naked chest and by every gesture I am reminded of the time eleven months hence when she will reject me and slash at me with a knife.
Self=Darkseid
I turn away from Theodore Kord's office, already knowing that the fool will misuse my technological gift for something puerile. Why did I bother?
Self=Darkseid
N-no. Jade-!
Self=Darkseid
She will reject me and slash at me with a knife.
Self=Darkseid
I… I don't…
Self=Darkseid
She has rejected me and slashed at me with a knife. She never wants to see me again.
Self=Darkseid
M'gann is still dazed by Artemis' apparent death. She's my friend, and I torture her to break the illusion because that's just how things are.
Self=Darkseid
Life…
Self=Darkseid
Ms A'Daire shakes with fear as I drive away yet another group I could so easily have befriended.
Self=Darkseid
I reach out to Richard in order to improve our relationship but can't resist sabotaging my own efforts for momentary amusement.
Self=Darkseid
The Justice League, people I believe to be better and more moral than myself, stand around like garden gnomes as Mister Zatara goes to put the Helmet of Fate upon his head.
Self=Darkseid
Diana is so concerned about my possible actions that she takes the time to confront me, ignoring the bleeding world outside. Poor threat assessment? Could she not stand it? All that…
Self=Darkseid
I lift away a heap of rubble to reveal the mangled remains of the family of the woman who followed me inside. She collapses with a wail, sobbing 'why? why?'. She cared, and she suffers for it.
Self=Darkseid
My team mates are genuinely conflicted as I make every effort to turn them from their mentors. They're children! They shouldn't have to-!
Self=Darkseid
Kon vaporises Luthor's drugs because he's learned to behave that way from me.
Self=Darkseid
Lynne, shaking and sobbing on the floor as Father steps towards me.
Self=Darkseid
I was trying to turn them into me. No higher reason. Just because.
Self=Darkseid
Because I'm me.
Self=Darkseid
Because that's what I do, what I am.
Self=Darkseid
I strove to crush the idealism that I can't feel myself.
Self=Darkseid
Alan gave me his lantern in a gesture of trust and hope and I've done everything I can to make him regret it. I made the greatest hero of the greatest generation cry with joy finding out that I wasn't a supervillain! How low were his expectations of me!?
Self=Darkseid
Life… Equals…
Self=Darkseid
I get to spend time with Jade and I'm happy, even though in nine months' time she will reject me and slash at me with a knife until I discover that a single careless phrase has made her cry and doubt my love.
Self=Darkseid
I sit down to eat with Jade's family while eight months in my future she slashes at me with a knife and I killed Paula's husband and I can't tell her.
Self=Darkseid
My pretence at being Grayven nearly gets my friends killed by Apokoliptian soldiers. Jade lies broken and bleeding while eight months in my future she slashes at me with a knife.
Self=Darkseid
I try and help a world avoid its destruction and I get shot, beaten and nuked for my troub-.
Self=Darkseid
No! That was-! I did-!
Self=Darkseid
Fire all around me as the worthless fools who I've been trying to save don't help me as my flesh evaporates.
Self=Darkseid
That's not-! I… I helped!
Self=Darkseid
Kara In-Ze casually suggests killing me after I twice saved her world and am at her mercy. Why do I help these people?
Self=Darkseid
Life… Equals…
Self=Darkseid
Doctor Robbins served the greater good her whole life and ended up a gibbering incontinent in a home for people no one cares about.
Self=Darkseid
Doctor Robbins..? What happened to-?
Self=Darkseid
Lines of staring Genomorphs, unseeing as Father's presence does its work. They trusted me to show them the world and I wanted to. And that is what they received. Lynne, curled up on the floor and sobbing.
Self=Darkseid
She's probably the same.
Self=Darkseid
Lynne comes through the portal, smiling and running towards me as she sees me and she's sitting on Father's knee as the living repository of the Anti-Life reads to her.
Self=Darkseid
She throws her arms around me and collapses, hugging her knees to her chest and it's my fault. I brought this on her!
Self=Darkseid
We fly a kite and she collapses, hugging her knees to her chest and it's my fault!
Self=Darkseid
I love Jade and it made me vulnerable, made me hurt.
Self=Darkseid
Life
Self=Darkseid
I love Lynne and it hurts! He wouldn't have come here but for me! It must have been even worse than when she was in the SHADE facility, she'll never feel safe again!
Self=Darkseid
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Self=Darkseid
Graaaaaagh, no! No! It doesn't! I don't believe-!
Self=Dar-. No! I'm Grayven! God of Conquest! And you won't-!
Father looks down on my broken body with disappointment. He knows.
Self=Darkseid
Even if I recover… Lynne will never recover. Lynne will never forgive me.
Self=Darkseid
No! Even… Even my pain! My pain is mine! Whatever you do-.
Self=Darkseid
Even if I lose everything, I can rebuild. It will hurt, and that is right, but I tried to repair my relationship with Richard and only drove him away more strongly.
Self=Darkseid
Help me! Someone, please!
=
Pain
Self=Darkseid
I sit on the beach, turning away from the ragamuffins as Diana takes in my little speech. And I can see it in her face, in the slight frown and tightening of the skin around her eyes as she almost manages to master her expression that I have spoken unwisely and alienated an admirable woman merely by being me. I didn't want to do that. Why did I..?
Self=Darkseid
I smile as I put my right arm around Wallace's shoulders, being happy that I just deliberately made a fifteen year old boy who of his own free will fights armed criminals for no greater reward than knowing that he did the right thing… Made him feel bad.
Self=Darkseid
Lawrence Crock looks at his own arms in horror as they turn orange and I permanently alienate myself from all of my peers and create a secret I can't tell my… The woman who might have become my mother in law. Did my parents not raise me better than this? I felt satisfaction, joy at my victory… But now…
Self=Darkseid
I smile at Artemis' expression after I made a tentacle sex joke to a fifteen year old girl while alone with her in a darkened corridor.
Self=Darkseid
I chased Jade across the country because I found the fact that I could scare someone like her so easily pleasant. I apologised later, but looking back I can see a little of the damage I caused in every part of our interactions.
Self=Darkseid
Jade sits on my chest, smiling down at me as she runs her hands over my naked chest and by every gesture I am reminded of the time eleven months hence when she will reject me and slash at me with a knife.
Self=Darkseid
I turn away from Theodore Kord's office, already knowing that the fool will misuse my technological gift for something puerile. Why did I bother?
Self=Darkseid
N-no. Jade-!
Self=Darkseid
She will reject me and slash at me with a knife.
Self=Darkseid
I… I don't…
Self=Darkseid
She has rejected me and slashed at me with a knife. She never wants to see me again.
Self=Darkseid
M'gann is still dazed by Artemis' apparent death. She's my friend, and I torture her to break the illusion because that's just how things are.
Self=Darkseid
Life…
Self=Darkseid
Ms A'Daire shakes with fear as I drive away yet another group I could so easily have befriended.
Self=Darkseid
I reach out to Richard in order to improve our relationship but can't resist sabotaging my own efforts for momentary amusement.
Self=Darkseid
The Justice League, people I believe to be better and more moral than myself, stand around like garden gnomes as Mister Zatara goes to put the Helmet of Fate upon his head.
Self=Darkseid
Diana is so concerned about my possible actions that she takes the time to confront me, ignoring the bleeding world outside. Poor threat assessment? Could she not stand it? All that…
Self=Darkseid
I lift away a heap of rubble to reveal the mangled remains of the family of the woman who followed me inside. She collapses with a wail, sobbing 'why? why?'. She cared, and she suffers for it.
Self=Darkseid
My team mates are genuinely conflicted as I make every effort to turn them from their mentors. They're children! They shouldn't have to-!
Self=Darkseid
Kon vaporises Luthor's drugs because he's learned to behave that way from me.
Self=Darkseid
Lynne, shaking and sobbing on the floor as Father steps towards me.
Self=Darkseid
I was trying to turn them into me. No higher reason. Just because.
Self=Darkseid
Because I'm me.
Self=Darkseid
Because that's what I do, what I am.
Self=Darkseid
I strove to crush the idealism that I can't feel myself.
Self=Darkseid
Alan gave me his lantern in a gesture of trust and hope and I've done everything I can to make him regret it. I made the greatest hero of the greatest generation cry with joy finding out that I wasn't a supervillain! How low were his expectations of me!?
Self=Darkseid
Life… Equals…
Self=Darkseid
I get to spend time with Jade and I'm happy, even though in nine months' time she will reject me and slash at me with a knife until I discover that a single careless phrase has made her cry and doubt my love.
Self=Darkseid
I sit down to eat with Jade's family while eight months in my future she slashes at me with a knife and I killed Paula's husband and I can't tell her.
Self=Darkseid
My pretence at being Grayven nearly gets my friends killed by Apokoliptian soldiers. Jade lies broken and bleeding while eight months in my future she slashes at me with a knife.
Self=Darkseid
I try and help a world avoid its destruction and I get shot, beaten and nuked for my troub-.
Self=Darkseid
No! That was-! I did-!
Self=Darkseid
Fire all around me as the worthless fools who I've been trying to save don't help me as my flesh evaporates.
Self=Darkseid
That's not-! I… I helped!
Self=Darkseid
Kara In-Ze casually suggests killing me after I twice saved her world and am at her mercy. Why do I help these people?
Self=Darkseid
Life… Equals…
Self=Darkseid
Doctor Robbins served the greater good her whole life and ended up a gibbering incontinent in a home for people no one cares about.
Self=Darkseid
Doctor Robbins..? What happened to-?
Self=Darkseid
Lines of staring Genomorphs, unseeing as Father's presence does its work. They trusted me to show them the world and I wanted to. And that is what they received. Lynne, curled up on the floor and sobbing.
Self=Darkseid
She's probably the same.
Self=Darkseid
Lynne comes through the portal, smiling and running towards me as she sees me and she's sitting on Father's knee as the living repository of the Anti-Life reads to her.
Self=Darkseid
She throws her arms around me and collapses, hugging her knees to her chest and it's my fault. I brought this on her!
Self=Darkseid
We fly a kite and she collapses, hugging her knees to her chest and it's my fault!
Self=Darkseid
I love Jade and it made me vulnerable, made me hurt.
Self=Darkseid
Life
Self=Darkseid
I love Lynne and it hurts! He wouldn't have come here but for me! It must have been even worse than when she was in the SHADE facility, she'll never feel safe again!
Self=Darkseid
=
Self=Darkseid
Graaaaaagh, no! No! It doesn't! I don't believe-!
Self=Dar-. No! I'm Grayven! God of Conquest! And you won't-!
Father looks down on my broken body with disappointment. He knows.
Self=Darkseid
Even if I recover… Lynne will never recover. Lynne will never forgive me.
Self=Darkseid
No! Even… Even my pain! My pain is mine! Whatever you do-.
Self=Darkseid
Even if I lose everything, I can rebuild. It will hurt, and that is right, but I tried to repair my relationship with Richard and only drove him away more strongly.
Self=Darkseid
Help me! Someone, please!
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