The hospital's halls are warm this morning, as they always are. A patient three rooms over died last night. Cancer. You can hear his wife weeping from here, wracking sobs that have you biting your own lip in turn.
You know exactly how she feels, after all. You just wish your Wish carried you back a few more hours…then, maybe, she wouldn't have anything to mourn.
As it is, you can only walk your way through the halls, aimlessly looking for something new.
A child falls to his knees as he runs in front of you and begins crying loudly. You step around him. His mother will be there for him in twelve seconds. He's not even injured, just scared.
Turning a corner, you observe one of the hospital's internal gardens--carefully maintained and monitored, of course. Children play there clumsily, there parents watching quietly, and even now you feel a faint envy pulling at your heartstrings.
You turn from the garden, and make your way deeper in, the sound of laughing children haunting you as you depart.
You roam the halls, searching vainly for some idea, some inspiration. You don't truly know what you're expecting to find in this all-too-familiar place, but you're desperate. Eventually, your feet carry you to a distant wing of the vast Mitakihara hospital.
"I found you a new CD. I think you'll like it; it's from this Norwegian orchestra, and…"
A familiar voice faintly reaches your ears from a door up ahead, and you feel your brow furrow, 'Sayaka shouldn't be here today. I know her schedule--she visits Kyousuke on Tuesdays, not Wednesdays. Did I forget about this?'
You consider walking away. This isn't really important, after all. You've had enough of Sayaka Miki for many, many lifetimes.
'I don't think I've tried this before, though.' You think, considering what you could do with this. You're rarely more than cordial with Sayaka, and she despises you far more often. You're not sure if your mission just always puts you opposite her, by its nature, or if the two of you simply can't get along, but it never works out.
'Except for the first time, at least.' You consider that, too. That first timeline, when it all began, you and Sayaka had been friendly--she never became involved with magic, and the two of you bonded as mutual friends of Madoka, even if you were never particularly close. She seemed eager to help you, since you were sickly and behind in your studies.
You try to remember that girl--sweet, pitiful, and so very helpless. You smooth your skirt nervously, and try to slouch just slightly--not enough to look strange, but enough to look timid. It's uncomfortable, but not unbearable.
You've become a very good liar, after all.
You visibly glance through the window to see the two of them, then knock hesitantly at the door and gently open it without waiting for a response, trying to look scared as you interrupt the pair of ticking time bombs.
"Umm…hello?"
Sayaka looks back to you in confusion, while Kyousuke cuts a vicious glare your way, mad as usual. You don't blame him, considering this is the worst month of his life, but you'd be lying if you said it wasn't getting very old by now.
"What the hell do you want!?"
His expression's an open book to you now, 'Anger, hurt, and…relief? Interesting. Was he trying to…?' You don't really know Kamijo Kyousuke, but you do know that he starts lashing out at Sayaka over the next month or so.
Considering he commits suicide just before Walpurgisnacht, if he's not healed, you can only imagine that he intends to drive her away first. Maybe you just gave him an excuse to wait a little while longer.
You bow deeply in excessive apology, "I-I'm sorry. I saw your uniform, and I…" You glance at Sayaka without fully straightening, internally cringing at your own act, "That is, I'm Homura Akemi. I'll be transferring to your school soon, and…um, oh this is so silly. Would you…um…I'm sorry, but would you helping me when I get there? I've been here for most of my life, and when I saw someone that might be able to help me get used to things outside, I just…this was foolish."
You really hope Sayaka takes this bait, after what you're putting yourself through here.
"Wait, most of your life?" It's, surprisingly, Kyousuke who speaks up, the anger already faded from his expression, "Actually…I've seen you here before, haven't I? Your heart?"
You blink, surprised he recognizes you, then remember you generally only meet him after disposing of your braids and glasses, "Mmhm. The doctors say that I'm finally healthy enough to leave, and I've been given a slot on the school roster." You have your parents to thank for that. Mitakihara Middle isn't cheap.
He nods firmly, a small, satisfied smile appearing on his face, "Good. I'm happy to see someone getting out of this place." His gaze flicks to Sayaka, "Watch out for her. Anyone who gets stuck in here deserves to have someone waiting for them outside."
'Wait…what? Just like that…oh, I see.' You find a new respect for Kamijo Kyousuke in that moment. He's found a way to distance himself from Sayaka, give her a new friend, and help you all at once.
She smiles at him, eager to please, and then at you, "Definitely! You can call me Sayaka, and I'll show you the ropes, Akemi-san, and I bet my friend Madoka will be happy to help you out too! You'll be skipping class in no time!"
'Just like that. Four words from Kyousuke, and she's here to help me. Just like back then. Have I really never done this before?'
You feel a headache coming on, but you smile, "Thank you, Sayaka-san, Kamijo-san. Y-you can call me Homura. I'll let you get back to your conversation." With that, and a wave from Sayaka, you leave the room, closing the door quietly and turning down the hall to get out of sight.
As you do, you straighten your back and let yourself rejoice, smiling broadly as a piece falls into place for the first time in a very long time.
'I'm going to save you! I'll save you all! I promise!'