And on this point - trust is reciprocal. Asuka's breach of privacy shouldn't just be ignored, either.
Does Misato (or anyone outside Asuka) know about this though?
[X]Plan Truth and Reconciliation
-[X]Okay, we need to back up here and explain a bit more
--[X] When Rei mentioned she was part of a series of "Rei Ayanamis" and the 11th we have to talk about that. I don't know the details of how every past Rei's life went, but I can tell you that
our Rei was seconds away from being killed and replaced by a "12th" Rei - one with her memories reset, the term "system restore" was used - all because Gendo and Ritsuko have been unhappy that she's been developing her own personality that doesn't include absolute obedience and deference to their orders. And I think you guys all remember the kinds of "orders" they've tried to give during our operations at times.
--[X] We're not playing the tragedy Olympics here, but imagine having to live under those conditions, knowing that not only are you probably going to be killed if you deviate even the slightest from protocol, but that you
have been. Repeatedly. Even then, Rei tried in her own way - and no, I'm not saying that makes it all okay - to take that kind of risk to prevent a friend from dying too. I'm saying this because I'm trying to let you guys know just how
fucked up this all has been and how that might scar someone.
---[X] Again, we're not competing here, but I think we all understand on some level how emotional trauma can mess you up and make you miss the important things sometimes, or twist what you think is important, or hell just give you tunnel vision where you don't see the things you should in the moment. It doesn't make it good, it doesn't make it
right, but it doesn't mean you're inhuman either. It means you're suffering. Hell, is there anything
more human?
---[X] Rei, I think I get that you were trying to find a way to thread a needle between the orders you have to follow and protecting a friend's life, but there's more than just a person's physical well-being to think about. There's their mental well-being too and that's important too. What you did may have protected Asuka physically, but it was a shitty thing to do to her emotionally - if your action hurts a friend, regardless of your initial intentions, it's right to apologize for that hurt. Was there a better option? Could any of us have done better in your position, given everything? Don't know. But that's what we're here for - next time, you can confide in one of us and we'll try to help you through it and come up with an answer that hopefully is better than what we could have thought of alone.
idk something like that? I tend to be wordy which is why I'm always reluctant to write up plans a lot of the time - feels like I'm writing a short essay when there's surely a more concise way to put it but...
(There's other stuff I'm omitting, like I was going to end it with Misato making a crack about "Oh, right. Speaking of confiding. The fact that this is still our Rei and not a replacement clone is a secret we can't let NERV High Command know or else they'll probably kill us all. Well, actually, they'd probably also kill us all for knowing she's part of a series of clones so really I guess as long as we act like things are like they always were it's all good!" but it's probably not
quite the time for that - although it'd be a humorous way to end the conversation - but I didn't want to expand the focus of the plan past the core point(s).)
