An idea I had for if we start hybrid channeling just from reading this involves white and green channeling to enable a more advanced healing method, like for organ or limb replacement/regrowth.

That's White and Green use, not channeling, but yes. Channeling the two might give us a caretaking queen persona though. Queen Mama Bear if we add Red.
 
Major kudos to you. When Agneyastra 'adopting' us came up I rolled my eyes and resigned myself to that kind of thing coming up yet again and thought that at least this time it was parent instead of sibling which is nearly omnipresent so just hoped it wouldn't affect the story too much.

I see family as something entirely different from friends and thus I don't see the sense in it being an upgrade from best friends so even if in this case I can tell it is not agreeing with that notion just for the fact this is literally the first time I have ever seen a character in fiction give a moment's thought to this topic I must post and greatly congratulate you for this unique accomplishment.
 
I was hoping I hadn't called it...

At least one of those comfort defaults should go in whatever vote gets made. It's a good time for them, and for Jade to internalize the responsibility of being to someone else what Agneyastra was to her. Some bleed-through should help.
 
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People are different. Backgrounds are different. And now Jade is fretting over her definitions because the are different from Sidhe's.
Yeah uh, Jade was okay if a little hesitant with letting Sidhe cling to her in her sleep when they first met, but now hugs are on the edge of off limits? What.
Probably because Sidhe was clingy earlier. The awkwardness got associated with physical contact.
 
I thought we did. @Alivaril is stalling for some reason.
The winning vote did include to accept the oath, but a big chunk of it before the oath-acceptance got vetoed and it wouldn't have been right for us to proceed ignoring it. Instead, Jade stalls while she thinks and we have to come up with something.


Actually, this is really weird to me. Why is this weird to Jade? Nanoha practically hugs her every chance she gets. Shouldn't Sidhe be well past the point where she has a personal space exception?

Obviously head in lap is an Agneyastra special, but hugging is weird? I'm almost to the point of thinking Jade's under the influence of something.
Yeah uh, Jade was okay if a little hesitant with letting Sidhe cling to her in her sleep when they first met, but now hugs are on the edge of off limits? What.

Nanoha has successfully gotten Jade to change her opinion on hugs, yes. It's still at the edge of what Jade thinks is OK, even if it is within those boundaries.

For similar actions, it's more due to intent instead of the physical contact itself. Sidhe's clinginess was to comfort herself, so really, it was closer to a hug variant as opposed to something completely different. Something similar, like placing one hand on a shoulder or holding hands? Jade would be fine doing that to comfort other people, but thinks it would feel weird if anyone save for Agneyastra does it to her.

(see also: unreliable narrator)
 
[:V] You aren't family to me. Mind you, of my family one tried to kill me and another probably wants to eat my soul. But I can tolerate and even enjoy extended interaction with you without needing to flee to the maddening void between realities. That's almost as good as it gets with me.

That's even worse. Sure, it would be excusable as Jade Doesn't Like Physical Affection, except that Jade is fine expressing that to others? Those two ideas don't go together.
Meh. I like frequently headpatting some people and hate people touching my head under almost all circumstances. My mother is a partial exception, incidentally.


And with that, goodnight, folks. Vote well.
 
That's White and Green use, not channeling, but yes. Channeling the two might give us a caretaking queen persona though. Queen Mama Bear if we add Red.
If Blue instead of Red, probably a Noblesse Oblige tutor of some variety. About the only color I foresee not easily being hybrid channeled is Black.
 
I forgot, how much of Jade's traumatic past does Sidhe know about?

How would she react if we told her that we don't know enough about what it's like to have a family (at least of the sibling variety) to be sure how we feel about her?
How are we meant to manage Jade's feelings if she won't be honest with us?:(
Very carefully?
 
Can't say I'm entirely surprised that 'love' and 'family' turned out to be hard for Jade, but I was surprised by how hard it locked down the process. Then again, Jade is a loooong way from being fully ready to open up to people.

This actually feels a bit like Nanoha's crush to me - Sidhe fixated on us because we were available and supportive and she didn't have anybody else. Except, because Sidhe didn't have phys- oh fuck, she got rid of physical attraction because she was being distracted by Jade. Either way, instead of getting a crush on us, she decided we were family.
o_O

That is... alarmingly plausible. We know Sidhe denied, point blank, having any same-sex attractions... but then again that very denial may reflect discomfort that could be an underlying part of why she'd decide as you suggest she did.

Did we really not get enough votes for accepting the oath yet?
Oh, the support was nearly unanimous, ti's just that the "accept her oath" train came to a screeching halt at the part where Jade isn't comfortable saying "I love you" to a friend like Sidhe.



So... my vote.

[X] Try some other method of comforting Sidhe.
-[X] You're still fuzzy on what it all entails, but you don't intend to let anyone become your retainer if you don't already really like them.
-[X] You already treasure Sidhe, oaths or no oaths. She doesn't need to meet any arbitrary standards.
-[X] You aren't a fight away from leaving her. Period.

[X] Ask Sidhe if she wants Nanoha present for the giving of her oaths. It's entirely up to Sidhe, you just wanted to ask.
[X] If the answer to that is "yes," it's probably best to wait for Nanoha to wake up, then accept Sidhe's oath. If not...
[X] Accept Sidhe's oath.
 
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I almost no longer feel comfortable offering retainership. It is premised on an absolute trust. If Jade can't offer that, then she shouldn't accept. I think it would be pretty shitty of her given the thought process she just used. Really wish there had been a veto earlier if this is where we were going.
 
[X] Skip ahead to taking Sidhe's oaths. You can try comforting her afterward.

I sort of feel like accepting her oath now would be the most comforting thing we could do for Sidhe... as opposed to what we have been doing, which was more for our own benefit.

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I almost no longer feel comfortable offering retainership. It is premised on an absolute trust. If Jade can't offer that, then she shouldn't accept. I think it would be pretty shitty of her given the thought process she just used. Really wish there had been a veto earlier if this is where we were going.

That's the nice thing about a mind-affecting loyalty oath. Once your retainer has made it, you can absolutely trust them. It's the Agni way.
 
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I almost no longer feel comfortable offering retainership. It is premised on an absolute trust. If Jade can't offer that, then she shouldn't accept. I think it would be pretty shitty of her given the thought process she just used. Really wish there had been a veto earlier if this is where we were going.
The retainer-ship is meant to smooth over those last hurdles. This is really important to Sidhe.
 
The retainer-ship is meant to smooth over those last hurdles. This is really important to Sidhe.
That's the nice thing about a mind-affecting loyalty oath. Once your retainer has made it, you can absolutely trust them. It's the Agni way.
That's not what I mean, even without the joke.

The one who is offering her absolute trust is Sidhe. Jade's role is to be the kind of person that Sidhe can absolutely trust. We just got through dragging out that Sidhe does in fact have that kind of trust in us, which was half of what getting her to tell us the why was all about. But now we find out that Jade isn't ready to be the kind of person that Sidhe thinks Jade is or should be. It has only a little to do with how much Jade trusts Sidhe, and everything to do with whether Jade is worthy of Sidhe's complete faith.
 
That's not what I mean, even without the joke.

The one who is offering her absolute trust is Sidhe. Jade's role is to be the kind of person that Sidhe can absolutely trust. We just got through dragging out that Sidhe does in fact have that kind of trust in us, which was half of what getting her to tell us the why was all about. But now we find out that Jade isn't ready to be the kind of person that Sidhe thinks Jade is or should be. It has only a little to do with how much Jade trusts Sidhe, and everything to do with whether Jade is worthy of Sidhe's complete faith.

Interesting point.

Have a counterpoint; how would "sorry, you should find a better person to swear absolute loyalty to" be better?
 
That's not what I mean, even without the joke.

The one who is offering her absolute trust is Sidhe. Jade's role is to be the kind of person that Sidhe can absolutely trust. We just got through dragging out that Sidhe does in fact have that kind of trust in us, which was half of what getting her to tell us the why was all about. But now we find out that Jade isn't ready to be the kind of person that Sidhe thinks Jade is or should be. It has only a little to do with how much Jade trusts Sidhe, and everything to do with whether Jade is worthy of Sidhe's complete faith.
Well Sidhe can trust us who control Jade's actions.
 
Interesting point.

Have a counterpoint; how would "sorry, you should find a better person to swear absolute loyalty to" be better?
It's not. We basically have to stay the course and slowly turn Jade into the kind of person who deserves her loyalty after the fact. I'm just disappointed, for pretty much the first time ever, in Jade as a person.

Well Sidhe can trust us who control Jade's actions.
Points to the last update.
 
That's not what I mean, even without the joke.

The one who is offering her absolute trust is Sidhe. Jade's role is to be the kind of person that Sidhe can absolutely trust. We just got through dragging out that Sidhe does in fact have that kind of trust in us, which was half of what getting her to tell us the why was all about. But now we find out that Jade isn't ready to be the kind of person that Sidhe thinks Jade is or should be. It has only a little to do with how much Jade trusts Sidhe, and everything to do with whether Jade is worthy of Sidhe's complete faith.
Jade's past and current actions and SOP, viewed objectively, are quite enough to compensate for her thought process first thing in the morning not being quite up to standard yet. The issue may stem from seeing Sidhe entirely as a dependent, and there might also be yet another thing Jade wasn't told about her current body.

[X] Relative time-worthiness never was and never will be a factor.
-[x] Accept Sidhe's oath. The responsibility makes you a bit uneasy, but that just means you'll have to be sure to do it right.
 
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Some of Jade's problems probably come from her definition of "family". Look at this, for example:
Indira doesn't fit into most of those boxes, does she? I thought of her as a family member. Does default admission excuse her from all of that?
I think that Jade's emotional connection Agneyastra is as Mom, not as family. Which Agneyastra immediately reinforced is by bringing up the confidant thing, emphasizing that family has a major royalty component. Whiiiich is probably where that "being a princess is hard" line came from. So Jade's view of family is super screwed up, by our, and more importantly Sidhe's, standards.

Sidhe probably thinks of the retainer bit as a way to join our family a bit more formally. Which is sort of accurate; when "family" includes people like Indira, you kind of need another category for "people you care about and trust".
We basically have to stay the course and slowly turn Jade into the kind of person who deserves her loyalty after the fact.
Yes. I'm half-tempted to think that Agneyastra engineered this somehow, but I just don't see how she could have done it. And we're probably going to have to do it explicitly, just say "I don't deserve this. I'm just going to have to do better."
I'm just disappointed, for pretty much the first time ever, in Jade as a person.
Some of this is on us; we didn't read Jade's or Sidhe's feelings on this topic right at all.
 
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That's even worse. Sure, it would be excusable as Jade Doesn't Like Physical Affection, except that Jade is fine expressing that to others? Those two ideas don't go together.
A person doesn't want to be comforted by others, what's so unusual about it?
I almost no longer feel comfortable offering retainership. It is premised on an absolute trust. If Jade can't offer that, then she shouldn't accept. I think it would be pretty shitty of her given the thought process she just used. Really wish there had been a veto earlier if this is where we were going.
The one who is offering her absolute trust is Sidhe. Jade's role is to be the kind of person that Sidhe can absolutely trust. We just got through dragging out that Sidhe does in fact have that kind of trust in us, which was half of what getting her to tell us the why was all about. But now we find out that Jade isn't ready to be the kind of person that Sidhe thinks Jade is or should be. It has only a little to do with how much Jade trusts Sidhe, and everything to do with whether Jade is worthy of Sidhe's complete faith.
Be honest, then? It's obvious that family for Sidhe doesn't mean the same as it does for Jade. Sidhe knows that Jade has lost quite a lot. Jade won't let herself form an attachment and risk losing more so easily.
It's not. We basically have to stay the course and slowly turn Jade into the kind of person who deserves her loyalty after the fact. I'm just disappointed, for pretty much the first time ever, in Jade as a person.
Opening up to people isn't easy, you know.
 
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