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Yeah, that's about what I figured Superbia's reaction to be: more pissed about being wrong than getting a new Beast.
How can you just.. write these lies!?And here we go! Chiro finds that actually it turns out that selling out all your morals and friends to turn into a cool goth girl does not solve all life's problems.
Considering just the sheer euphoria I could feel from the chapter made me have a mini crisis of my own, I'm gonna guess Chiro has the ability to instill gender envy in people from across dimensions./joking (or just the fact the author wrote it out super well)Good as always, but why does readibg this still feel like digital masochism? Chiro's turned into the goth girl we all wish we could be (even if she hasn't accepted it yet), and it turns out the Sinners have (something resembling) a righteous cause, ibstead of being good people in a tight spot. But something feels off. Is it just my own gender envy flaring up?
I don't think there are any problems that can't be resolved with a strategic application of cool goth girls tbhAnd here we go! Chiro finds that actually it turns out that selling out all your morals and friends to turn into a cool goth girl does not solve all life's problems.
I mean, he is Pride.Yeah, that's about what I figured Superbia's reaction to be: more pissed about being wrong than getting a new Beast.
Hypothesis:I don't think there are any problems that can't be resolved with a strategic application of cool goth girls tbh
"When the boomers were young, cool, and committed to their own time's form of social justice... I was already yelling at them to get off my lawn."So Superbia is not actually related to Lupin... and is far older than (atleast I) initially believed.
Seriousness aside, this obviously makes him an ultraboomer.
I wondered about that. What was envy really? I admired Inessa, Ida and Temperance; and Lupin. That went without saying. But admiration wasn't a sin. Or at least, it didn't feel sinny. Envy's power was imitation, well and inexplicably, bat wings and, I somehow knew, sonic blasts; but mostly imitation. So what was the difference between aspiring to be like someone and envying them?
I can see the stonks memes for Invidia/Avaritia shippers being posted in the universe where this show is real in real time...although based on the next chapter preview, they might not have gotten to see any of this.
Anyway excellent timing, I needed this today.
It probably wouldn't solve any of mine either, but I'd still do it given the option.Surprisingly, turning into a magical bat girl had not actually solved any of my problems.
Okay, you two should just ditch Superbia and go be adorable somewhere.
(sounds of metaphorical bat teeth scraping against the inside of an iron eggshell)I had boobs! I wasn't quite sure why I'd done that last one to myself, but it felt all nice and thematic to sink into the dark mirror so I couldn't be too upset about it.
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"We'll help you C, you don't need this to change! Just, let us help?" That wasn't important here.
"What does being a girl have to do with anything?" I asked, then shook my head.
(sounds of literal shark teeth scraping against the outside of an iron eggshell)Temperance's eyebrow twitched as she stared at me. From the impassive girl, that might as well have been a scream. It wasn't her fault, she'd tried hard to help me; she just had it all wrong from the start. I wasn't the kind of person she could reach like that.
(wailing and gnashing of wolf teeth against the iron eggshell)I grinned stupidly and offered a curtsy in return, "Invidia Bat and, umm, he/him I guess. It's not like I have a choice about it though."
Avaritia stared at me in stunned silence for several seconds before slowly burying their face in one palm. "What?" ey asked as if I had just punched them in the nose.
C had rather serious reservations about Lupin's beliefs, but now that they're the standards Invidia is struggling to live up to, it's "the right thing"? My poor tautologically self-loathing blorbo."I don't know if I believe in any of this." I said eventually, "I just had to embrace sin; not for any big good reason; I just needed to pretend I could change to keep holding on at all and I can't go back, so…"
And there it was. The truth, the simple fact that I wasn't a good person; I wasn't here to do the right thing, just because I'd set one foot in front of the other and this ended up happening and now Avaritia could acknowledge that and I could end up as alone as I deserved.
Interesting lore. The seeds make people feel like crap if they don't indulge in their sin enough. Contrast that with, for instance, Temperance still being able to snack to her heart's content, or Ida being actively encouraged to be less diligent by her saintly companions."So," I managed, struggling to distract myself from the horrible scouring sensation, "because I felt envy of you, but I wasn't willing to let it reign and imitate…"
I'd known, intellectually, that it could happen, but there was horror in seeing how easy it would be to lose everything I'd traded my life for.
"Probably," Lupin admitted awkwardly, "Sorry about that."
Now, admittedly, it's possible the other Children of the Forest are stricter than Michael. I don't think we know anything about them except, like, a paragraph of Avaritia describing Babby Gula."It'd have killed Gula," ey said at last. "It was killing her to be the kind of boy they'd do anything to force her to be, because mandatory virtue is just something you use to hurt people until they can do the same."
Lupin grinned, "And sure virtue sounds nice. Let's make everyone be good and all. Except, well, if you're someone who wants things or needs things or doesn't quite fit in the right way; people can be 'generous' with correcting your behavior; they can hurt you out of kindness to teach you humility, you know, and even if you're someone who can make it through all that, it still breaks you a little inside, right? We need to want, to crave, to rage!"
And then ey say stuff like this."Good may be able to show up to school in a sweatshirt she bought at Old Navy, but sin has standards."
Priorities."Oh no," I muttered quietly as I landed in someone's small rooftop garden, "I can't go to school like this!" This was terrible! I'd already missed so much from monsters and then, sure tomorrow was a holiday but how was I supposed to be there on Tuesday?! What if my grades dropped?
Oh no, suppressing your true thoughts to pretend to be the boy everyone thinks you are? How will you ever manage such an unfamiliar—Even so, I knew, in the same way I knew how to work my new wings, that I could take off the mask and bottle up all that miasma inside of me until it was needed. The power responded to my desires, to my vices and my needs. I knew I could bottle that all away and transform back.
Oh right, magic.I opened my eyes and surveyed my work. I still had boobs. My skirt still swished distractedly when I hopped to my feet. I still had an amazing pair of bat wings wrapped around me.
I'd have to ask Michael, but I'm pretty sure you still have the title.It was too easy to picture it; a green-haired girl who could have been Inessa's cuter twin. She was pretty and normal and her parents probably didn't hate her. She didn't hate herself or the world or feel so desperate to change that she'd sell her soul.
Well, um, it's good that you admit your faults."I'm selfish," Avaritia added sadly, "I'm pretty awesome I mean, but, well, at the end of the day, party line aside, I'm not doing this for the world. I'm doing it because I think there are people like you, like Gula, like me who need it right now and, like, ultimately, I'd let the world burn if my important people get to be happy."
...
"You're the type to think about things in the big picture, just like Gula was. I'm jumpy and fast and have all the great instincts to win, but I'm not the kind of person who can watch everyone around me! You're just what I need; a partner who can handle the small things because she's a genuinely caring girl who really wants to do the right thing."
Eleven episodes in and this is the most damage anyone has done to C's eggshell.Avaritia stared at me intensely as ey thought for several long minutes. "Okay, Invidia! You copied Inessa's face, right?"
I nodded, where were ey going with this?
"So, obviously, well, being a beacon of envy it's only right to steal her pronouns too! It's a way of feeding your sin, right?"
"That makes sense," I admitted, tempted. "But, I wouldn't want to pretend to be something I'm not.
"Well," Avaritia continued, gaining confidence, "if you look like that and go by he/him, people will think you're a trans guy and we can all agree that that's never going to be an appropriate label for you so really you'd only be appropriating a trans identity if you tried that."
"I guess," I said reluctantly, "I can use she/her for the moment."
"You're as bad at this as Superbia" ey said with a feeling of deep pain, "but I guess it's kind of adorable when you do it."
Oh hey look, it's that central theme again. What is virtue? What is vice? When is indulging sin good?Lupin began walking, gesturing for me and leaned against a pillar, "Like, take you. You tried hard to be a good boy, but that obviously wasn't going to work for you. Envy was the mirror you needed to be yourself and like, I've only been around you for a few minutes and you're actually smiling now instead of making those sad little fake smiles so people think you're okay."
I hesitated. I didn't think I'd done anything noble or valuable honestly. A better person would have kept living as I had, instead I'd betrayed everyone for my own selfish need to join them on stage. But, well, it was tempting to find something of value in the decision I'd made. I should have gone back. I should have let Inessa and the others help me, and it was only a fit of pique that had stopped me.
Avaritia has been planning this since ey put that seed in her, hasn't em."Her sin," Avaritia grinned, "Is envy. She envies the Saints so much for their might, their heroism, their everything, that her power turned her into their mirror when she awoke. She's been changing for weeks now as she's been half-formed, and her awakening catalyzed the transformation. Treating her as she looks is the best way to help strengthen her sin."
"I… see," Superbia said, in the tone of someone who was pretending to understand the plot.
For all the good it did.Finally he chuckled, "Perhaps it has some potential after all."
Yes, queen! Slay! Literally, if possible!"My name," I found myself saying, wondering why I had to say it when the words might mean my end, or at least all sorts of agony, "Is Invidia Bat."
Take your bets: Abyssal creation or Little Caesars?Avaritia brought me a new phone and a new laptop that evening, along with some of the worst take-out pizza I'd ever had.
Mood.And, much like my animal inspiration, I really had no business whatsoever being around people or loud noises or out in daylight where anyone could see
Oh right, trans. Less mood. Or...more specific mood? I think?the fake girl and realize what a fraud she was and then they could…
It works for Temperance."Anyway," ey ignored my panic, "Before we get going, you really should pick a new name."
"Invidia!" I snapped back easily. I'd thrown away everything for that title. I could think of nothing else.
Avaritia sighed, then shook eir head. "No, no, like, of course your real identity is Invidia, but if you're going to sneak in to school and 'pretend' to be a girl, you can't exactly go around telling the saints who you are can you?"
MIDI is a file format for electronic music which records notes and some metadata rather than pure audio. I'm sure this answers your question.Lupin stared at me with cold uncompromising eyes. "Chiro," ey said with all the finality of Saint Peter announcing someone's fate, "it's a midi."
"I," I said, retreating to the perfect defense, "have no clue what that word means."
Good timing.Good fucking lord this was awesome and hurt to read. I want more!
I can't speak for everyone (especially people who empathize with Invidia's gender and not just her self-loathing), but I feel like this chapter isn't actually showing that the Sinners have a righteous cause. It's clarifying Avaritia's previously-stated beliefs about why her cause is righteous, while also throwing up a bunch of brimstone-red flags.Good as always, but why does readibg this still feel like digital masochism? Chiro's turned into the goth girl we all wish we could be (even if she hasn't accepted it yet), and it turns out the Sinners have (something resembling) a righteous cause, ibstead of being good people in a tight spot. But something feels off. Is it just my own gender envy flaring up?
But as Avaritia herself admits, she's not good with strategy. Turning C into a cool goth girl was a good tactical choice, but the way ey did it is mucking up the operational layer.I don't think there are any problems that can't be resolved with a strategic application of cool goth girls tbh
Hey now, that's not fair. This kind of reactionary transphobia is hardly unique to Peterson. And come to think of it, Superbia doesn't spend much time on Peterson-ly debates with woke liberal communists or whatever he calls them.It's just a shame that his Jordan Peterson energies cause him to channel his Pride specifically along transphobic lines.
Not sure how that would play with the anime's actual plans, but it would make a great OVA once the series wraps up.You know what the showrunners should do? Have a "Bad Guy" episode where it shows a day out doing things and plotting deeds with Invidia/Avarita.
To be fair, Avaritia admits that it's all bullshit. Or at least that the stuff ey say to Superbia about eir pronouns is bullshit, but considering how hard eir transceiver pinged at C and the fact that we know ey engage in gendyrnastics to get Abyssal people to go along with trans identities...well, it's not like ey'd tell Invidia ey were BSing her.I've seen less elaborate gymnastics at the Olympics than whatever the hell is going on in Avaritia's head.
Not counting the "Next week!" segment, 36. 38 if you do." Episode 23: The Fourth Saint?! A Mysterious Transfer Student Arrives!"
Is C(hiro}ptera) going to pretend to be another saint and stop their own monster please tell me this is what's going to happen
Also can someone tell me how many times the word girl was using the last chapter? I feel like this is very relevant
Well, she does know better than anyone just how well that kind of insane troll obviousness works.It's hilarious that after calling all the saints out on how obvious they were, she's going to be equally obvious though lol.