Would you Distort or manifest EGO?


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The greater the magical girl, the greater the witch, and very powerful magical girls all have problems regulating their output to not witch out instantly (Tart can only attack once seriously without saturating her soul gem and Madoka's far past that point), us contracting is more likely to make us WEAKER because we now have a maximum output and any strain on us makes it very likely that we reach it. It doesn't matter if we can self cleanse if we instantly reach the cap.

Our main avantage right now is the fact that we don't have an actual cap for our stamina that would end up with an instant apocalypse, wishing is just creating one for no reason.

By the way, the fact that Madoka can't attack without becoming a witch on the spot is why I consider her wishing a bad end.

Tart's case is rather unique. Under normal circumstances, it makes little sense that Magical Girls can hit harder than they can handle. And I'm pretty sure regular Magical Girls can control the amount of force put into a punch. In the case of Madoka's shot, she puts all her energy into this attack, so it makes sense for her attack to use all her energy.
Whatever, in X's case, it's just enough for her not to use magic to attack. She has many other options anyway.
 
Madokami can still operate just fine without witching out. She just instantly cleanses any grief she builds up.

Madokami is not a magical girl, she's a concept, trying to use her as an example of things that can happens to magical girls is missing the point that she isn't in the category in the first place.

Tart's case is rather unique. Under normal circumstances, it makes little sense that Magical Girls can hit harder than they can handle.

No, it is consistent with:
In the case of Madoka's shot, she puts all her energy into this attack, so it makes sense for her attack to use all her energy.

Madoka stopped being able to regulate her attack and not kill herself in one shot too when she got too powerful, she is far past the point were she needs her full power to kill walpurgisnacht, yet she ends up using everything because she cannot do otherwise.

Wishing is a trap, a disguised way to bad end, we cannot get anything worth it from it and the price is automatically too great to pay, I'd rather break our cage and go full power than wish if the situation gets that dire, at least there would be no risks of our entire values being rewritten by a torrent of despair that way, more chances to not kill everyone and everything.

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Like, I don't get why some people think Kyubey is benign and wishing can be good, the authors are not that subtle at telling that this is not the case, what with the multiple references to faust, between kriemhild gretchen's name to an entire passage of it being seen written in with runes at some point.

Kyubey is literally Satan, or, well, Mephistopheles, he is not trustworthy and his gifts are all poisonous.
 
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I would not contract personally. It's just another loss condition to add to ourselves.
But more than that, I don't like the contract because it's going to limit out decisions and character development. That time where X despaired a little because of being an abno? Would likely witch out because of it, one of the girls gets hurt or dies because the wish was not enough? Really close to witching in best scenario, and finally, all those feelings of 0% self worth? Not going to get better...

I guess you could say that magical girls DO have character development in the series, but their "character development" is like 3 seconds long, more than that would be lethal, and I doubt X is going to just get better like that...
Most of the character development in the series is butterfly effect from Homura. If X witches out there's not going to be a next time...

Madokami is not a magical girl, she's a concept, trying to use her as an example of things that can happens to magical girls is missing the point that she isn't in the category in the first place.
Abnos are concepts too...

EDIT: Also, Madoka's lack of grief is thanks to her wish, the wish is specifically tailored for that. I don't think her status as concept help a lot.
 
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I would not contract personally. It's just another loss condition to add to ourselves.
But more than that, I don't like the contract because it's going to limit out decisions and character development. That time where X despaired a little because of being an abno? Would likely witch out because of it, one of the girls gets hurt or dies because the wish was not enough? Really close to witching in best scenario, and finally, all those feelings of 0% self worth? Not going to get better...

I guess you could say that magical girls DO have character development in the series, but their "character development" is like 3 seconds long, more than that would be lethal, and I doubt X is going to just get better like that...
Most of the character development in the series is butterfly effect from Homura. If X witches out there's not going to be a next time...

Agree with this 100000000%

Wishing is a trap, the risk of becoming a witch is way too great to take, not to mention the risks of trying the procedure when it's not even calibrated for us, what if Kyubey simply release our greater self when he tries to go for our soul? And abnormalities are very dependent on their state of mind, since they are literally a state of mind given form, I don't want to see what grief would do to us even before witching.

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At the end, wasn't that intentional given the nature of her Wish and desired goal with that attack?

At the end, maybe, all the timelines were it happened before? Very much not.
 
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Anyways, I'm sorry that I can't stay more in the thread, but it's 7:30 AM and I haven't slept yet.
If you have anything to say respecting my post pls wait until I wake up. I'm sorry, but I really need to sleep. Cool food for thought though.
 
Ok, on a completely different topic, I was reading the cthulu powered lightbulbs LP and I stumble upon this quote from Angela:

"But I think you and A might have become separate entities now. From the moment you began to have new memories, you both started to walk different paths. I must wonder how the memories separated you from A. Well, even if you two have differences, it is still important for you to witness this place through A's eyes."

Seems like she did know about X not being A after all, makes the eventual reunion even more awkward I think, she'd probably have no idea how to treat us.
 
That's the thing though Lobotomy deals with the mind ie the brain and as the existence of pale and white damage shows, mind and soul are 2 different things in the moon verse
So of course it comes from the body that's where the brain ie mind is, we have nothing that interacts with souls ie the gems

I'm sorry, but I will have to disagree.

Chapter 42:
The inner contents of the Grief Seed finally spill out, and you fight the urge to vomit at what you see. Instead of the normal branches of radiant light, gleaming with each precious memory and cherished emotion, a fountain of cancerous blackness pours forth into a disgusting tower.

Lobotomy works just as normal on a Seed.

Not to forget that we literally cleanse the Girls Gems when we only interacted with their trees which spring from their bodies.
"When you say something that wasn't supposed to be there, were you referring to Grief? I didn't cleanse my Soul Gem, and yet it's completely clear."
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But yeah the current discussion re:Wishing is too interesting for me not to want to take part.

From my position wishing for X has a few too many "If's" and "maybe's" to ever be anything other than an unneccesary risk.

Also I'd very much like if we could help the girls without needing to buy into QB's system.
Would just be narratively stronger I feel if we do not need to endanger ourselves (and the world by extension in our case) like the kids in order to help them out of the MG-Witch system.

ProjMoon's humanity didn't need Aliens to achieve any of their things.
And X wants to defy the City with every breath.
WE of all people have NO need to fail by coming up lesser than the fucking City.
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Also something about Madokami I just thought of and would like opinions on.
This is highly speculative, but I still find it worth it to throw into the discussion.
With what later materials revealed I wonder if Madokami ain't that great as originally presented actually.

Mainly because Wraith Arc (A Story set between Series and Rebellion) AFAIK shows that Madokami is constantly fighting Ultimate Gretchen (the witch that could devour the Universe and Madokami's own witch) in a permanent manner due to the simple paradox of her wish.

She kills all the Witches by absorbing the MG's at the moment of their fall -> at the end of time she turns into a Witch -> her prior self arrives and kills that Witch -> that prior self witches out -> her prior self arrives again and kills that witch -> repeat ad infinitum

Which is all fine and well, but we know from later material that "Wish Rejection" is a thing.
So I worry if Madokami by canon mechanics would have an actual chance to eventually regret her wish; regret it; thus lose her ability to paradox throwdown with her own Witch; and then the Universe is eaten by Ultimate Gretchen with no saving throw because there is no time for Madoka to find her resolve again.

The End of Rebellion is not that great because the Universe is now run by an unstable and yandere Demiurge and thus has little stability to speak of.
But unless I missed something Madokami would also have an actual Failure state upon which the world would have become eternal unending despair.

Felt this relevant with the notion re:Wishing that it worked out for Madoka in the end and wanted to see what others think.
 
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I agree that we should not conclude a contract if there are no serious prerequisites for this, but we should not doubt if this is really necessary. Wish is a double-edged sword, while it can probably fix almost any of our problems, it carries an unknown amount of danger in its turn. In comparison, removing the seal will give us an unknown amount of power in exchange for a very certain disaster.

Speaking of Madokami's Wish, if she hasn't regretted it throughout the existence of the universe, I don't think she'll give it up now. She seemed completely satisfied with the results and she has probably the strongest support network in the universe. Also, she is a Concept, not a Magical Girl. She is probably much closer in nature to Abnormalities than to humans.
 
Felt this relevant with the notion re:Wishing that it worked out for Madoka in the end and wanted to see what others think.
I think Madoka Wish Rejection sort of couldn't happen, because we (well, Homu) already saw the end. So it's impossible for anything else to happen, since everything preceding occurred exactly as it did "before". It's not like Madokami goes through the entire universe's lifespan in a time loop, introducing new information with each iteration. There just isn't any intervening causal node that could make things different.

...Sorry for probably being confusing, I don't really get it either.
 
Changing angles, what do the girls need the most right now? My guesses below:

Madoka: The Will to Stand Up Straight, and The Fearlessness to Keep on Living if things get worse
The mini-manager discussion is an attempt to give her this without having to throw herself in the MG side of things.
(This is something Homura's efforts have been consistently preventing her from getting, I'm not sure if Homura noticed this at all or realized the importance of)

Sayaka: The Rationality to Maintain Discretion
Aside from combat ability, pretty sure this is absolutely necessary for any MG to survive for a long time.
She needs to be able to listen to advice even from people she doesn't think are good, and to be more focused on protecting people than hurting the bad (also, better self-understanding in the case of Kyousuke)
Kyouko was trying to teach her this, but given their unique clashes wasn't able to make it entirely sink in. If we want to help with this, we will need to arrange for solo time with her, and to mentor or even challenge her under controlled circumstances.

Homura: The Eye Facing the Fear; Breaking the Cycle
As already noted, she's missed out on ways to achieve her objectives because she fears the pain that said means will bring if it doesn't work (also relevant if the whole Homura increasing Madoka's Potential thing comes out)

Kyouko: The Eye Embracing the Past, Building the Future
...is what I would say normally, but she seems like she already has that down at least partially here. She might actually be able to help Sayaka with some more growth down the line with this

Mami: The Expectation for the Meaning of Existence
Currently she bases her identity on being an MG (Protection), and Excellence, the Witch Bomb absolutely knocks out the first pillar at the beginning.
We can passively help with this, by helping her look at things outside MG life once again and by taking care of her I imagine

I'm not sure about Yuma, don't know her character well enough.

But which of these do they already have, and how can we use this conversation to shore up what's already there or build something new?

Not sure if X has all the characteristics tbh, what do you think? I believe X needs to internalise being Those Who are Faithful and Trustworthy more, for one

E: Diplomacy, you meant Homura already saw Madoka succeed once / up to a certain point in time, so further failure/regret is unlikely?
 
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I'm sorry, but I will have to disagree.

Chapter 42:


Lobotomy works just as normal on a Seed.

Not to forget that we literally cleanse the Girls Gems when we only interacted with their trees which spring from their bodies.

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But yeah the current discussion re:Wishing is too interesting for me not to want to take part.

From my position wishing for X has a few too many "If's" and "maybe's" to ever be anything other than an unneccesary risk.

Also I'd very much like if we could help the girls without needing to buy into QB's system.
Would just be narratively stronger I feel if we do not need to endanger ourselves (and the world by extension in our case) like the kids in order to help them out of the MG-Witch system.

ProjMoon's humanity didn't need Aliens to achieve any of their things.
And X wants to defy the City with every breath.
WE of all people have NO need to fail by coming up lesser than the fucking City.
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Also something about Madokami I just thought of and would like opinions on.
This is highly speculative, but I still find it worth it to throw into the discussion.
With what later materials revealed I wonder if Madokami ain't that great as originally presented actually.

Mainly because Wraith Arc (A Story set between Series and Rebellion) AFAIK shows that Madokami is constantly fighting Ultimate Gretchen (the witch that could devour the Universe and Madokami's own witch) in a permanent manner due to the simple paradox of her wish.

She kills all the Witches by absorbing the MG's at the moment of their fall -> at the end of time she turns into a Witch -> her prior self arrives and kills that Witch -> that prior self witches out -> her prior self arrives again and kills that witch -> repeat ad infinitum

Which is all fine and well, but we know from later material that "Wish Rejection" is a thing.
So I worry if Madokami by canon mechanics would have an actual chance to eventually regret her wish; regret it; thus lose her ability to paradox throwdown with her own Witch; and then the Universe is eaten by Ultimate Gretchen with no saving throw because there is no time for Madoka to find her resolve again.

The End of Rebellion is not that great because the Universe is now run by an unstable and yandere Demiurge and thus has little stability to speak of.
But unless I missed something Madokami would also have an actual Failure state upon which the world would have become eternal unending despair.

Felt this relevant with the notion re:Wishing that it worked out for Madoka in the end and wanted to see what others think.

I never said we couldn't interact soul gems period just nothing to directly do so

One has to remember lobotomy meddles with the mind and by extension the heart, Greif is a by product of the mind and connected to it and why we most likely can do so

We just don't have an ego that can properly interact with soul gems in a non aggressive way directly

And admittedly It also boils down to what a spirit is composed of from my personal perspective, not fictional but Real Life beliefs of myself
The parts of the spirit being
Heart, seat of emotions and instinct
Mind, seat of memory and knowledge
Soul, seat of wisdom and will

The heart connects to the mind through memories and emotions
The mind connects to the soul through knowledge and wisdom
The soul connects to the heart by will and instinct


So in my mind it makes sense we can cleanse the gem
Gems are basically the soul manifested but it's still connected to mind and heart, X is basically pulling the greif out like reverse weeding or very good weeding, X is literally ripping the greif out by its roits in the other two which are the source with physical manifestation in the gem removed as well, like a dandelion ripping out both the obvious flower part ie physical manifestation of greif and the root ie the actual negativity stained into the spirit due to the physical crystalization of the soul

Ps you also bring up interesting point in puella lore, and something to worry about
 
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I agree that we should not conclude a contract if there are no serious prerequisites for this, but we should not doubt if this is really necessary. Wish is a double-edged sword, while it can probably fix almost any of our problems, it carries an unknown amount of danger in its turn. In comparison, removing the seal will give us an unknown amount of power in exchange for a very certain disaster.

I see it the other way round, wishing leads to uncertain results for a certain disaster, and removing our shell leads to enough power to resolve our problems with an uncertain amount of damages that we may be able to mitigate.

Madoka: The Will to Stand Up Straight, and The Fearlessness to Keep on Living if things get worse

While I do agree she desperately needs the will to stand up straight, I think the second most needed thing for her is an eye facing the fear, breaking the cycle, the goal is to have her able to look Kyubey in the eye and say *no, I won't perpetuate your cycle of atrocities*, which is pretty close to what she did in canon already with her wish, just have to find a way to make it so that she doesn't need a wish to reach this point.

Homura: The Eye Facing the Fear; Breaking the Cycle

While it is easy to think that this is the one for her, given the name, what she actually needs is an eye facing the past, building the future, just like Hokma, she is trapped in the familiarity of the timeloop and unable to reach past it for new solutions, she needs to break out of this, and not stay stuck in the past.

I'm not sure about Yuma, don't know her character well enough.

Don't worry, Yuma already has the knowing I. :V
 
Sayaka: The Rationality to Maintain Discretion
I think Yesod's thing isn't quite the super-broad notion of 'rationality' that the name implies. It's more of an ability to delineate between what you feel about things and what needs to be done about them. She's already okay at that I think.

If we go by canon at least, Sayaka needs The Hope to Be a Better Person (she has a big thing about regret). Also The Fearlessness to Keep on Living, which is the designated Sephirah for people who are kind of useless and have to tag along because the narrative demands it :V

E: Diplomacy, you meant Homura already saw Madoka succeed once / up to a certain point in time, so further failure/regret is unlikely?
More like "further failure/regret" is the wrong notion in the first place, because Madokami's prior self is the same every time.
 
Fair enough re your points, but any ideas on how to help with getting them these?

Madoka: the eye facing the fear, breaking the cycle will naturally come from her obtaining the will to stand up straight, so what we can do is buoy her self confidence, our plan to make her the manager is already a step in that direction, make sure to empathize that it is not relegating her to uselessness or anything, it is taking her good parts (the fact that she was able to take control during the Hitomi situation, her kindness, and her ability to actually be pretty clever when she's not doubting herself), and acknowledging them.

For Homura… oh boy is she a big knot of problems. We already pointed out a little of why trying new things is a good thing in a timeloop, the biggest obstacle to her learning emotionally is the very big problem with all magical girls' self actualisation: it's probably going to hurt at some point and the grief accumulation means that they die before they can go past this.

As such, our biggest possible step for her is making a way that she can go past the despair stage, we'll duct tape hundreds of grief seeds to her gem if necessary, but we need to have a conversation with her that will probably lead to her feeling very bad for a time, letting her guilt and other things like it out. All the bad feelings she accumulated during the loops and couldn't afford to get stuck on, all the apologies she think she needs to give, all the tears she couldn't cry, we need to allow her a safe place where she can let her barriers down so that she can finally think on it and learn from it. We need to be there every step of the way, ideally we need Madoka there to tell her: *you're not a good for nothing, you tried, it counts, you are NOT a failure, we believe in you*

…I want to cry a little now, got quite in the mood for that.
 
Adhoc vote count started by Lepidoptera on Nov 10, 2022 at 5:49 PM, finished with 196 posts and 23 votes.

  • [X] Plan Everything v1.3
    -[X] Abnormalities
    -[X] Yourself & EGO Gifts
    -[X] Soul Gems - link to past Abnormality observations and existence of Soul damage attacks, and that it may not be their actual Soul
    -[X] Prepwork for Witch Bomb reveal in the future
    [X] Plan Pre-Planned with Witches! And Coffee!
    -[X] Abnormalities
    -[X] You are an Abnormality
    -[X] Your EGO Gifts (Yuma's beak, and your employee card)
    -[X] The Book of Abnormality and how you will entrust it to Madoka
    -[X] Nothing There
    -[X] Truth about Soul Gems and how you might be able to eliminate grief-build-up
    -[X] Tell the girls about the origin of witches, make sure to explain that you think it might be reversible and that you at least can make sure they won't become witches.
    [X] Write in plan Kalibrius V2
    -[X] Abnormalities - start with Nothing There, then others that can snowball such as melting love or parasite tree, and elaborate on how they are harmful despite appearances otherwise, moving on to yourself and your nature before that part
    ---[X] show them the book of abnormalities you're working on and entrusting it to madoka as the 'manager' of the group, the vital leader and information keeper
    -[X] EGO - the various types, using the egos you've recovered as examples of weapons and using yuma's ego gift and the employee card as ego gift examples
    -[X] other related topics such as your world, your history, the facility, etc for second to last
    -[X] MG Information - if they can take it at this point
    ----[X] if they have questions answer them completely and truthfully
    -----[X] don't hold back your emotions, they are your children, officially in the case of yuma and mami, be fully honest and forthright... and if you cry and greive over the employees you couldn't help and had to put down for their own good due to an abnormality's influence or the sense of fear and shame at having become the very thing you fought and contain show, it's okay, they are your daughters, THEY DESERVE TO KNOW THE TRUTH AND IF THEY BECOME SCARED OR HATE YOU BECAUSE OF IT, SO BE IT
    [X] Write in plan Kalibrius V2
    [X] Write in plan Kalibrius
    [X] Plan Pre-Planned
    -[X] Abnormalities
    -[X] You are an Abnormality
    -[X] Your EGO Gifts (Yuma's beak, and your employee card)
    -[X] The Book of Abnormality and how you will entrust it to Madoka
    -[X] Nothing There
    -[X] Truth about Soul Gems and how you might be able to eliminate grief-build-up
    -[X] Truth about Witches. Speak with caution. You know how horrified you were when you learned of your true nature.
    [X] Plan Everything v1.3
    -[X] Abnormalities
    -[X] Yourself & EGO Gifts
    -[X] Soul Gems - link to past Abnormality observations and existence of Soul damage attacks
    -[X] Prepwork for Witch Bomb reveal
    [X] First topic:
    [X] Abnormalities
    [X] Plan Everything v1.4
    -[X] Abnormalities
    -[X] Yourself & EGO Gifts
    -[X] Soul Gems - link to past Abnormality observations and existence of Soul damage attacks, and that it may not be their actual Soul
    -[X] One more secret to soul gems X has learned, worse than the lichbomb - Kyubey hides it to stop girls from making informed decisions about their wish
    --[X] You're not revealing it right now to avoid information overload, but will tell them soon because chances are some future abnormality or unexpected event will reveal it to them at an extremely bad time and you want them to be ready
    --[X] Girls who realize it on their own at a bad time after making their wish can fall into despair and breakdown
    --[X] Some of them already know, which is why you're confident the others will be able to handle it as long as they are in the right frame of mind. You will support them in this at every step

I'll get everything sorted and the next chapter will be up soon.
 
I was thinking if we should tell Sayaka stories of our Agents, maybe get her to attempt to figure out their motivations or what happened next as training of her discernment, and perhaps to show her that people can change?
It helps that I really want to see it myself too

Also, aside from Enchantment, we should probably at least try to find out if we can throw Pale swords/Pinks Grenades into Homura's Shield and use it later
 
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The die has been cast
Now we will see whether we get a serpents eye or if our 6 champions survive the storm
 
So hey, had a thought that's very relevant to the discussion, but somehow hasn't come up. It's predicted on a couple unlikely, but by no means impossible circumstances.

Kuybey: "What is your wish?"

Nothing There: "I wish I was human!"
 
...The problem lies in whoever is "telling" them to do things given that the Abnormalities have hinted at a great mastermind behind their entrance into the world.

But it's not too unlikely like you said. In fact, I hope Nothing There does wish. It would give us an insight into what an Abnormality wishing would be like.
 
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