Commiserating
Donald presses the joystick on his wheelchair and adjusts the position of his chair. He tries whenever possible to wheel himself, but his arms are tired. He gets exhausted so quickly. The doctors say that it'll take weeks of physical therapy for his body to rebuild all the nerve connections that were damaged by the thing that he was shot with, and in the meantime he just has to go through hours of exhausting exercise each day to help it along.
But all work and no play makes Donald turn into Jack Nicholson and... well, fall over when he tries to pick up an axe. Honestly, his current physical state is a great impediment to axe-murder, and without axe-murder what's the point of going crazy? Which is why he's coaxed Henriette into going out with him for drinks. Sure, 'out' in his circumstances is the in-house bar, but he likes to think of it as out. It makes him feel less useless.
And it's a pretty good bar, he has to admit. Lots of wood. Expensive drinks. A bartender that's clearly an old MiB 1.0. Okay, that bit doesn't fit, but clearly his boss is wasting her chance to access the NWO alcohol budget. They've got good scotches. And yes, martinis.
Henriette's even put some work into making him feel less she's humouring him. She hasn't just shown up in a pilot's jumpsuit, but is actually wearing a cocktail dress. It's probably secretly a pilot's jumpsuit or can transform into one if she presses a button hidden in the neck, but it does make him feel better. And if she's secretly checking her email, she has the good manners to use the computer in her brain so he can't tell she's doing it.
But ye gods, it's really really showing that she's a hothoused twenty year old who's had most of her real world experience in the past year, which is to say in one of the most anormal amalgams you can find. Among other things, it means she has a really warped impression of what normal life as a Technocrat is like.
"... no, you would be amazed at how many times I haven't been shot," he says in response to her latest question. "This isn't normal for me. Or... most people."
"I don't believe you."
"Yeah, Henriette? Most people can go entire years without being shot."
Henriette leans forwards. "You said you struggled with the SPD before! They must have tried to have you killed then!" she raises in the manner of someone presenting a devastating counterargument.
"Yeah, but they failed. I ran away."
"Well... what about when you were on the other side? You must have got shot at then!"
"... look." Donald takes a breath and forces his hands to cross. "Here's one of the big secrets. A lot of... I guess you can call them 'small fish' Traditionalists really, really don't go looking for Technocrats. If you're in contact with a Technocrat, you fucked up because you're just a rag-tag group of misfits and they're the big, scary force of the Man who've got the police working for them and they've got shiny guns and stuff. I mean, sure I did get shot at a few times, but most of the times it missed. When you're not against a HITMark - like, say, when you're being shot at by ghouls or some Pentex First Team - if you keep your head down you have to be unlucky to get shot." He tries to think of how to explain it. "It's... like, this is how we can get away with Men in Black being the first response units, rather than needing HITMarks or Progenitor stuff all over the place. Most people aren't great with guns, so Men in Black are fine. They're comfortably peak-human."
"But what about when something big shows up?"
"... well, then you're in trouble," he admits. "But most of the time... like, back in '05, I got hit in the shoulder by a stray bullet from a Pentex goon. It really fucking hurt at the time, but my friends dragged me off and patched me up."
"Ah. So we're talking about that kind of baseline injury," Henriette says, in a very Iterator way.
"Well, I was savaged by a werewolf once," Donald says. He smiles. "Well, okay, it wasn't really a savaging, but I was bitten by one. To be honest, she was in human form. Okay, it was a love bite. But it did take an unusually long time to heal!"
"Charming," Henriette says flatly.
"Not even a giggle?" He gets a glare. "Look, I'm just trying to find some comedy where I can. You could help by making some jokes about my current condition, if you don't want me to have to carry all the humour weight here."
"I don't joke about bodies not doing what you want them to," Henriette says quietly.
No, Donald supposes, she doesn't. "Yeah. Fair enough."
"I wonder who has my old one," she says in the same quiet tone of voice.
"Sorry, what?"
She gives him a bitter smile. "You don't think it odds that a meatbag like me would be an elite pilot?" She sighs, smoothing down her cocktail dress. He gets the nasty feeling she'd be trembling if her implants weren't stopping her hands from shaking. "I used to be able to take a 30g acceleration, easy. Bremsstrahlung from cosmic rays? No problems. Of course, those kinds of bodies are expensive. And I was broken equipment." The last words are said with self-mockery. Then she suddenly squares her shoulders, and sits up straight, her expression neutral again. "But that's just self-pity and old scars"
He's not fooled for a minute, but he recognises that she doesn't want to talk about it. Because, you know, he's not blind and has even the slightest capacity to read another person. "Are you?" he asks anyway.
Henriette shrugs. "I can't say there weren't advantages to being like that, but at least this way I don't have to spend every night in a maintenance pod." She smiles. "Being a meatsack is much easier, especially inside a gravity well. Excellion-class bodies really don't like extended life in 1g. That's why they'd resleeve us back in our old bodies when we were earthside. That, and it freed up the bodies for use by other people."
Donald boggles. Just a little bit. "You were hot-bodying?" he asks.
"Yep. Normal practice for space-adapted shells," Henriette says casually. She runs her hands through her short hair. "I guess I'd probably not have taken so well to being 'humanised'," and oh my, there's bitterness there, "if I wasn't used to spending time in this thing for groundside work."
He leans back. "Mmm," he says.
"But enough about me." Henriette smirks. "I know, I know, me not wanting to talk about me. You're probably dying of shock. Don't worry, if you want later I can make it up to you by bragging. And will, if you tell me about another one of your stupid affairs."
Donald snorts. "Now, see! That's better. That's more along the lines of cheering me up." He mock-frowns. "Probably shouldn't give up the day job to become a stand-up comedian, though."
"Ha. Ha."
"You'd still be a better stand-up comedian than me right-"
"... yes, yes. You've made your point." Henriette sips at her vodka-and-coke. She really is wasting the offer of the drinks here, Donald thinks sadly. Hands wrapped around her glass, she looks straight at him. "So. Rose."
Yes. Rose. "Can't we go back to me making jokes and you acting all weary about it?" he suggests.
"She's not alright."
He sighs. "No, she isn't."
"She's pretending she is, but she isn't."
"I know." Donald is hoping that Henriette remembers she's in a NWO bar and the place will be tapped. Hell, the beer taps will be tapped. Badum-tish.
"I know all about pretending. It doesn't help." Henriette puts her drink down. "I'm not surprised. From what you said, she was running at full combat readiness for more than a month. That's enough to make a HITMark start glitching. People need downtime more than HITMarks, and she's still a person. You need to make her take a rest, Financier. She just needs some time off to de-stress."
Donald silently thanks whatever's listening out there that Henriette has at least learned enough tact to approach it as a personnel issue. "I've been trying," he says wryly. "This was meant to be a low-risk mission for intel gathering."
Henriette snorts. "With all due respect, as if."
"... yeah," he agrees. "But still, I am aware. She's not going to relax when she's wound up tight. And she's very loyal and wants to serve the Union to the best of her abilities," he says for the benefit of the listeners, "so she won't react well to being flat-out ordered to take downtime. She's a construct. She considers 'being useless' to not only be a failure, but also a risk."
"Well, I can understand that," Henriette says. "So." She taps her index fingers together. "That means she needs a few quiet low-intensity missions that won't turn into life or death situations, but which... hmm. She'll realise if it's too obvious you're giving her easy things. She needs to feel useful."
It's quite a good insight from the young woman. Donald nods. "Pretty much. And that's why I'm putting together a few mission profiles she can carry out with you."
"Why me?"
"Because she knows you. And because unlike me, you're not her superior." Donald grins. "Plus, it's always easy to find makework with your skills."
Henriette glares at him. "Thank you very much," she says sarcastically.
"Breaking into SPD-linked Masses companies to grab data off their secure servers, researching people mentioned in data we got from LaCroix, her going to clubs with you and having a night out while also bugging the place... it's work that has to be done. I should be able to get a support/protection MiB team from Bastion as he needs people he can trust to keep it quiet to do these things, but none of them should be that risky." Donald folds his hands. "The way I see it, she'll get some low-risk missions that should help her calm down slightly and maybe open up to you-"
"Wait wait wait. Wait. Wait."
"I'm waiting."
"Open up to me." Henriette's mouth twitches. "I'm not a people person."
"Exactly."
"Run that past me again."
"If you were a people person she'd suspect you of being a people person out to get her to open up, but since you're not a people person she knows that and thus she'll be less guarded to people person-ness."
"I think the phrase 'people person' has stopped sounding like a phrase," Henriette observes.
"Look, basically, just talk with her, especially post-mission. Don't push her, but just... be there for her. You know?"
Henriette sighs. "I'm not good at this, but I'll give it a go." She jabs a finger at him. "But this better be mentioned in my next performance review!"
He grins. "Well, lieutenant, considering that the Men in Black will be answering to you, it certainly will be. This should get you some low-risk command experience with covert forces." He takes a drink. "It won't just be you. I'll also try to help her, but I can't do it as a peer. I'm too old and have too much authority over her. She can't look like she's stressed or exhausted to me. She's got too many bad experiences with authority figures. You're younger, less experienced, and she knows that. If you ask her for help for planning a break-in to plant bugs, that's just because she's done more break-ins than you."
Running her hands through her hair again, Henriette sighs. "I'll try my best," she says. "But I'm still not the best pick for any kind of touchy-feely stuff. I just want this out in the open. Any plan which relies on me being all... all persuasive is probably a bad plan."
"I know. But Rose won't open up if pushed. Just... handle her with care, okay?"
But all work and no play makes Donald turn into Jack Nicholson and... well, fall over when he tries to pick up an axe. Honestly, his current physical state is a great impediment to axe-murder, and without axe-murder what's the point of going crazy? Which is why he's coaxed Henriette into going out with him for drinks. Sure, 'out' in his circumstances is the in-house bar, but he likes to think of it as out. It makes him feel less useless.
And it's a pretty good bar, he has to admit. Lots of wood. Expensive drinks. A bartender that's clearly an old MiB 1.0. Okay, that bit doesn't fit, but clearly his boss is wasting her chance to access the NWO alcohol budget. They've got good scotches. And yes, martinis.
Henriette's even put some work into making him feel less she's humouring him. She hasn't just shown up in a pilot's jumpsuit, but is actually wearing a cocktail dress. It's probably secretly a pilot's jumpsuit or can transform into one if she presses a button hidden in the neck, but it does make him feel better. And if she's secretly checking her email, she has the good manners to use the computer in her brain so he can't tell she's doing it.
But ye gods, it's really really showing that she's a hothoused twenty year old who's had most of her real world experience in the past year, which is to say in one of the most anormal amalgams you can find. Among other things, it means she has a really warped impression of what normal life as a Technocrat is like.
"... no, you would be amazed at how many times I haven't been shot," he says in response to her latest question. "This isn't normal for me. Or... most people."
"I don't believe you."
"Yeah, Henriette? Most people can go entire years without being shot."
Henriette leans forwards. "You said you struggled with the SPD before! They must have tried to have you killed then!" she raises in the manner of someone presenting a devastating counterargument.
"Yeah, but they failed. I ran away."
"Well... what about when you were on the other side? You must have got shot at then!"
"... look." Donald takes a breath and forces his hands to cross. "Here's one of the big secrets. A lot of... I guess you can call them 'small fish' Traditionalists really, really don't go looking for Technocrats. If you're in contact with a Technocrat, you fucked up because you're just a rag-tag group of misfits and they're the big, scary force of the Man who've got the police working for them and they've got shiny guns and stuff. I mean, sure I did get shot at a few times, but most of the times it missed. When you're not against a HITMark - like, say, when you're being shot at by ghouls or some Pentex First Team - if you keep your head down you have to be unlucky to get shot." He tries to think of how to explain it. "It's... like, this is how we can get away with Men in Black being the first response units, rather than needing HITMarks or Progenitor stuff all over the place. Most people aren't great with guns, so Men in Black are fine. They're comfortably peak-human."
"But what about when something big shows up?"
"... well, then you're in trouble," he admits. "But most of the time... like, back in '05, I got hit in the shoulder by a stray bullet from a Pentex goon. It really fucking hurt at the time, but my friends dragged me off and patched me up."
"Ah. So we're talking about that kind of baseline injury," Henriette says, in a very Iterator way.
"Well, I was savaged by a werewolf once," Donald says. He smiles. "Well, okay, it wasn't really a savaging, but I was bitten by one. To be honest, she was in human form. Okay, it was a love bite. But it did take an unusually long time to heal!"
"Charming," Henriette says flatly.
"Not even a giggle?" He gets a glare. "Look, I'm just trying to find some comedy where I can. You could help by making some jokes about my current condition, if you don't want me to have to carry all the humour weight here."
"I don't joke about bodies not doing what you want them to," Henriette says quietly.
No, Donald supposes, she doesn't. "Yeah. Fair enough."
"I wonder who has my old one," she says in the same quiet tone of voice.
"Sorry, what?"
She gives him a bitter smile. "You don't think it odds that a meatbag like me would be an elite pilot?" She sighs, smoothing down her cocktail dress. He gets the nasty feeling she'd be trembling if her implants weren't stopping her hands from shaking. "I used to be able to take a 30g acceleration, easy. Bremsstrahlung from cosmic rays? No problems. Of course, those kinds of bodies are expensive. And I was broken equipment." The last words are said with self-mockery. Then she suddenly squares her shoulders, and sits up straight, her expression neutral again. "But that's just self-pity and old scars"
He's not fooled for a minute, but he recognises that she doesn't want to talk about it. Because, you know, he's not blind and has even the slightest capacity to read another person. "Are you?" he asks anyway.
Henriette shrugs. "I can't say there weren't advantages to being like that, but at least this way I don't have to spend every night in a maintenance pod." She smiles. "Being a meatsack is much easier, especially inside a gravity well. Excellion-class bodies really don't like extended life in 1g. That's why they'd resleeve us back in our old bodies when we were earthside. That, and it freed up the bodies for use by other people."
Donald boggles. Just a little bit. "You were hot-bodying?" he asks.
"Yep. Normal practice for space-adapted shells," Henriette says casually. She runs her hands through her short hair. "I guess I'd probably not have taken so well to being 'humanised'," and oh my, there's bitterness there, "if I wasn't used to spending time in this thing for groundside work."
He leans back. "Mmm," he says.
"But enough about me." Henriette smirks. "I know, I know, me not wanting to talk about me. You're probably dying of shock. Don't worry, if you want later I can make it up to you by bragging. And will, if you tell me about another one of your stupid affairs."
Donald snorts. "Now, see! That's better. That's more along the lines of cheering me up." He mock-frowns. "Probably shouldn't give up the day job to become a stand-up comedian, though."
"Ha. Ha."
"You'd still be a better stand-up comedian than me right-"
"... yes, yes. You've made your point." Henriette sips at her vodka-and-coke. She really is wasting the offer of the drinks here, Donald thinks sadly. Hands wrapped around her glass, she looks straight at him. "So. Rose."
Yes. Rose. "Can't we go back to me making jokes and you acting all weary about it?" he suggests.
"She's not alright."
He sighs. "No, she isn't."
"She's pretending she is, but she isn't."
"I know." Donald is hoping that Henriette remembers she's in a NWO bar and the place will be tapped. Hell, the beer taps will be tapped. Badum-tish.
"I know all about pretending. It doesn't help." Henriette puts her drink down. "I'm not surprised. From what you said, she was running at full combat readiness for more than a month. That's enough to make a HITMark start glitching. People need downtime more than HITMarks, and she's still a person. You need to make her take a rest, Financier. She just needs some time off to de-stress."
Donald silently thanks whatever's listening out there that Henriette has at least learned enough tact to approach it as a personnel issue. "I've been trying," he says wryly. "This was meant to be a low-risk mission for intel gathering."
Henriette snorts. "With all due respect, as if."
"... yeah," he agrees. "But still, I am aware. She's not going to relax when she's wound up tight. And she's very loyal and wants to serve the Union to the best of her abilities," he says for the benefit of the listeners, "so she won't react well to being flat-out ordered to take downtime. She's a construct. She considers 'being useless' to not only be a failure, but also a risk."
"Well, I can understand that," Henriette says. "So." She taps her index fingers together. "That means she needs a few quiet low-intensity missions that won't turn into life or death situations, but which... hmm. She'll realise if it's too obvious you're giving her easy things. She needs to feel useful."
It's quite a good insight from the young woman. Donald nods. "Pretty much. And that's why I'm putting together a few mission profiles she can carry out with you."
"Why me?"
"Because she knows you. And because unlike me, you're not her superior." Donald grins. "Plus, it's always easy to find makework with your skills."
Henriette glares at him. "Thank you very much," she says sarcastically.
"Breaking into SPD-linked Masses companies to grab data off their secure servers, researching people mentioned in data we got from LaCroix, her going to clubs with you and having a night out while also bugging the place... it's work that has to be done. I should be able to get a support/protection MiB team from Bastion as he needs people he can trust to keep it quiet to do these things, but none of them should be that risky." Donald folds his hands. "The way I see it, she'll get some low-risk missions that should help her calm down slightly and maybe open up to you-"
"Wait wait wait. Wait. Wait."
"I'm waiting."
"Open up to me." Henriette's mouth twitches. "I'm not a people person."
"Exactly."
"Run that past me again."
"If you were a people person she'd suspect you of being a people person out to get her to open up, but since you're not a people person she knows that and thus she'll be less guarded to people person-ness."
"I think the phrase 'people person' has stopped sounding like a phrase," Henriette observes.
"Look, basically, just talk with her, especially post-mission. Don't push her, but just... be there for her. You know?"
Henriette sighs. "I'm not good at this, but I'll give it a go." She jabs a finger at him. "But this better be mentioned in my next performance review!"
He grins. "Well, lieutenant, considering that the Men in Black will be answering to you, it certainly will be. This should get you some low-risk command experience with covert forces." He takes a drink. "It won't just be you. I'll also try to help her, but I can't do it as a peer. I'm too old and have too much authority over her. She can't look like she's stressed or exhausted to me. She's got too many bad experiences with authority figures. You're younger, less experienced, and she knows that. If you ask her for help for planning a break-in to plant bugs, that's just because she's done more break-ins than you."
Running her hands through her hair again, Henriette sighs. "I'll try my best," she says. "But I'm still not the best pick for any kind of touchy-feely stuff. I just want this out in the open. Any plan which relies on me being all... all persuasive is probably a bad plan."
"I know. But Rose won't open up if pushed. Just... handle her with care, okay?"