An for my second omake
Omake - Inner Peace
The University is a place of learning, culture, and inner excellence.
Music plays in the background and trainers practice what craft they feel they need to explore that day. To be honest althugh I finished my trials to become a psyker I feel lost. I no longer have a goal to work for like I had for so long and I do not know where life will take me next.
Mother said that she felt the same when she graduated and recomended to go mediate. I asked what should I think about and she replied 'that is for you to decide. There are no final answers except the very obvious.'
I sit alone now with my handlers to the side meditating on my life up until now. I have done what many wished they could and passed. I am eternally a servant of the Emperor destined for great things surely with my innate power. But my real talent is not in peacecraft but in pyromancy the ability to burn things into death and oblivion. So much so that it will never return as if I was censoring it from reality.
I stretch my legs to the side and raise my arms to the sky,er, roof and feel my body listen to me. I have still have control over it thankfully. Control that no one else may take from me for I am a daughter of the Emperor of Man. I love him and he loves me just like his Holiness says in his mass. My hands joined together go forward and I feel my body shake in retribution.
My body is not used to working in such a way but I decide that today is the day I try new things. It fights me again as my hands dive forward and my torso at around 45 degrees. I push again but my body cannot go forward and I am unable to complete my exercise today. Frustrating.
I release the stress on my body and forgive it's weakness for I know that it did try it's best. I am still whole and my body is still my own.
Next I focus on my breathing to reach inner peace and focus my mind on my greatest task yet. To discover myself fully and now that my body is tired my mind has no choice but to relent to my questions.
I must find truth. Hard truths that will never change no matter what happens...the first is simple really. One day I will die for example be it on the battlefields that I will visit, in my bed by a phase tigers, or maybe even in old age. It is a hard pill to swallow and I can feel whispers offering me an alternative. I categoriacally decline because my body and mind are my own.
I decide that I will make love to the world as my mother does. She is always happy and never long in a state of angst or hatred. She loves me and I love her. She sings and dances still an always takes me to her classes plays. She'll never give up on me and I will never give up on me either. It's why I made sure that my last name was Jameson afterall. I want to be happy too now that I think about it but do I want what she has?
~Ahh~
I know not. I love you mother may the Emperor bless you and father find the correct synapeses to make you happier.
I take a long breath and begin to think about father now. He frustrates me with his sneaking around to see what I am always doing but I know it's because he's worried about me. I considered to be part of his familly but I know that he is still unsure on how to be a father. I always feel guilt in him and I think I know why. Behind his back soldiers call him "The Manavik Matchstick". He hates war and the things he's done. I know his pain from losing students to war, the warp, the trials, betrayal, and more. He knows that one day, sometime soon even, that he will have to send me to fight and that I may lose my life. His regimen for training is very extreme and he makes it that way so that I can be the best that I can be. I work hard though so that I can live up to his expectations because quite frankly I want him to be happy like Mother. Like me?
~ahh~
Now that I think about it where do I stand in the world? I am considered a 'Elite Primaris Psyker' but I do not know where to use my power yet. To Discover or Destroy? Both are needed and will be needed? Am I to do both? Can I do both?
~ahh~
Questions upon questions. The quest of knowledge is not unique in this aspect I see. I will need to take more time.
*4 hours later*
The handlers in the room are at a loss for words. They can no longer feel her power or see her soul with her witch sight. She is a lost and yet right in front of them. Not hesitating they call for Tamia and Gerald to come and take a look at this.
One of the researchers takes a check on her pulse to find nothing as if she was dead and refusing to wake up. Oh dear.
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If humanity survives will it need to change? It's changed so much since the old Imperium from what Ophelia has been told by her teachers. Hmmmm
If humanity were all to be psykers than they would all be susceptible to the warp..even though they already are. The warp can manifest when it wants to and attack at will. So shoudn't we all be psykers to blast those foul Daemons that deign to eat our souls? Oh but these are bad thoughts. Not everone likes psykers or me. Even though i'm absolutely fabulous like mother says.
No, Humanity is not ready to become 100% psykers but one day we might be. An it's up to the Telepathica to guide humanity there correctly. All will need to learn control and she must embody control where possible in order to succed for the Telepathica and Humanity. Yes.
I know my path.
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*Back in the real world*
"I see she takes up after you Tamia. What now?" Gerald says as Mittens goes to lick her face while in that trance. Cheeky tiger.
Tamia for her part punches Xavier and tells her that she'll be fine "she's just meditated herself into a trance. Nothing to be fearful or greater need than to just watch her like before."
The handlers seem to just look at her with a bemused face "but she has no soul! Only Aria can do that right?"
"No, she's supressing her soul involuntarily. She has no need for a soul as she looks deep inside herself. Beutiful really."
It is then that Ophelia opens her eyes to see Mittens licking her. Falling backwards and screaming "DAMNIT MITTENS!" she rubs her face from the saliva "EWWW! I need a shower now. EWW it's in my nose!" she whines. Mittens phases out of the room proud of himself as she turns around to see her parents and handlers.
"Um, Am i in trouble?"
Her parents nod there heads and Tamia speaks out "No dear, we were just worried about your ability to go into such a strong trance. Let's take you home after a shower."
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