"I…"
Miki sat, and thought. Underneath Margaret's calm gaze, it felt like going with her first impulse would be the wrong thing to do. So she pondered, her mind drawing up alternatives at lightning speed—what did she want, exactly? When all was said and done?
One of the things she wanted was to get out of here. That went without saying; almost anything she might do afterwards required her to find an exit first, but was that really what she
wanted? What she wanted…
The world seemed to fade around her, the entirety of her being focusing inwards.
She wanted to be safe, to not worry about being attacked.
—
She wanted to defeat her attackers, before they could hurt anyone else.
She wanted to make beautiful art, just for the sake of making art, and then have others congratulate her on how pretty it was. She wanted to see their smiles, and she wanted to smile in return.
—
She wanted to make art, just to make the world a better place—
She clutched her head. That was wrong, she didn't—she wanted to meet her family, and to hug them—she wanted to pick up Ami and spin her around—
—
She wanted to help them, to—
She wanted to help Amu. She wanted to be a child. She wanted Amu to be a child—her twin, her everything—but if she couldn't, then she wanted to share the burden. She
wanted to
have a normal life, and she didn't care what got in her way. Septentriones, gods, demons, she didn't care, she'd find a way through. She'd find a way for all her family, and everyone they cared about, and—everyone
they cared about, if she could, but that was implicit in wanting a normal life. It couldn't be normal if they were squatting in the ruins, so she wanted to avoid that.
And something cracked.
Miki looked up, seeing through blurry eyes. It couldn't have been more than a few seconds, but she felt like she'd run a thousand-mile marathon; she was gritting her teeth, there were tears in her eyes, and she'd started breathing heavily. Still, she wasn't crying. She'd finally figured out what she wanted.
She'd been so focused on reacting to crises, the last two days, that there hadn't been time to think about why she was doing it. She'd had time earlier, back before everything started, but back then she'd hardly ever thought of such things at all. She'd wanted what Amu had, that was all.
Margaret still sat in the seat opposite to hers, her gaze intent, and Miki rubbed her eyes to clear them. Her mind was made up—she no longer had any doubts.
"…I want a lot of things, Miss Margaret," she said. "I want the Septentriones gone. I want not to fade away. I want Earth not to fade away, because I had barely started learning about it, and because everyone deserves to live. I want to make beautiful things. I want to grow up—"
She thought for a second.
"—And one day, if I find someone I like, I want to get married, but because
I like them, not because Amu does. I still want to help Amu with whatever she does, and I want her to have a good life. I want a good night's sleep, and a comforting hug, and an entire liter of ice cream for each of us—and I want that ice cream to not turn into a swimming pool—" She wanted to stay this size, if she possibly could. "—But I can do most of that myself, some day. Right now I'll settle for getting us home, and I will be more than happy if you can help."
"And I'm glad to hear it," Margaret said, smiling serenely at her. "Getting you home, at least, is something I can do. The rest of your requests—"
Miki immediately leaned forward and spoke quickly, her earlier uncertainty forgotten. "You can? Oh, of course you can, otherwise Amu wouldn't have—though she'd never met you—" She shook her head. "How?"
Was it her imagination, or did Margaret's left eyelid just start trembling?
"I'll need to ask someone for help," Margaret said. "He's someone I think you'll enjoy meeting, though. He used to be in a situation that's similar to yours in at least some respects. As for the rest of your requests, well…" She momentarily looked pained, then held out a strange-looking blue key. "I'd like you to take this. It will allow you to return here, whenever you wish, and I can at least give you advise. Unfortunately there is very little I can do in terms of direct help. The Velvet Room does normally offer a number of services, but the situation is abnormal. I will inform you if that changes."
Miki took the key, inspecting it closely. It looked like an old skeleton key, the kind you'd use on the sort of locks you'd normally only find in museum, but there was something different about it—a kind of force, though she couldn't tell what, exactly. At Margaret's nod, after hesitating for a moment, she put it in her messenger bag for later.
"Now, it will probably take half an hour's time for Teddy to make his way to a meeting point. So, while we wait…"
Margaret dug into the bar, then came up with two anonymous boxes. Miki felt herself begin smiling.
"I seem to have found a pair of ice cream boxes. Chocolate, I think. Would you like some?"
Miki nodded enthusiastically. "Please!" She said. "Oh, but can I call my sister first? Let her know what's happening? And… um. What happened to Maya?"
Margaret nodded. "Of course. As for your friend, you don't need to worry about her; she'll meet you later. There are a few things you should know about her, however."
———————
Amu's camping site
Minutes earlier (But not many)
"—Unless it's something else," she complained. She was still trying to find a way out, caste mark glimmering almost constantly from the continuous expenditure of essence, and she'd even started talking to herself just so there'd be some kind of sound. Having grown up in a city, she couldn't handle the absolute silence of this place for very long.
She scratched out the last several minutes of calculations, crumpled up the page, and went to work on a new one with a long-suffering sigh.
It wasn't like she was completely stuck. She was making progress, just very slow progress. Another… six hours, maybe, and she'd feel sure enough about her results to risk trying to use them. Hopefully Exa would be back by then, because this was definitely something she wanted a second opinion on.
Really, with any luck she wouldn't need to use it at all. If Miki found what she was looking for—
Her pen quivered on the page.
Miki was okay, right? She had to be, but it had already been minutes since her last call. No, not very long at all, but Amu had a lump in her throat that wouldn't go away.
She had to be okay. The alternative didn't bear thinking about.
Amu returned to her calculations, filling another three pages over the next two minutes. Then, without any warning, she jumped to her feet and spun around, responding to the merest hint of something being off in the atmosphere. A hint she couldn't possibly have picked up, except she'd been burning essence on her Occult excellency to understand her environment better.
A shiver made its way down her spine. She'd sat facing the front door of Miki's small fort, but behind her, just beyond the range of her chaos-repelling pattern and right on the other side of the walls, the mist had gone a deep, midnight black.
The darkness spoke. "You never cease to impress, little one. I meant to wait for a more opportune moment, but this will do as well."
"Who—"
Amu shut up, fragmented memories running through her head. She'd nearly died, throwing herself against Kagutsuchi, and it had come to her while she was sleeping. This thing, which had—despite its appearance—protected her while she was healing herself. There was something off about that thought, something that didn't quite make sense, but it had nothing to with, with…
Nyarlathotep. Humanity's self-hatred. All the evils of the world, and it had basically asked her to help it commit suicide, without taking humanity down with it. She knew she was leaping to conclusions, but with an occult excellency active she could hardly do otherwise. But there was something missing, something important that she couldn't quite remember. The memory should be
right there…
It wasn't.
"You seem frustrated. My offer stands, if you have given it thought; my power and my knowledge, in exchange for breaking Kagutsuchi's bonds. That
is what you are planning, is it not?"
The darkness crawled, waves of shadow seeping through the palisade and rippling across the surface of her Pattern, but—she checked—making no attempt at penetration.
"Returning to the material plane, and rescuing your sister, would be the simplest of matters if you take my offer."
Amu gulped, and shivered. Even if it was, why did it have to be so dramatic? Here, which had felt like a haunted house even before it showed up? But if she wanted to save everyone, she couldn't let that get to her…
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