Retirement:
(Kakashi POV)
You took several breaths before the final buzz hit you, and the terror went away. The mission was over, the enemy was dead.
"Dog, you alright?" Cat asked as you stopped your heavy labored breaths.
You realized where you were right now… you were back at HQ. The battlefield was far far away. So many missions… so little rest.
You slumped against the wall, closing your eyes as you calm yourself down. You were starting to lose your grip… your touch.
Or was it because you couldn't stop thinking about that boy. Shiro.
You had done some surveillance on the kid, with what little free time you still had with your duties here in ANBU.
He was… a gentle child, at least that was the vibes that you got off of him. A gentle child who seemed very capable, despite the first few years of life without the use of his arms.
He was kind, and open, both with himself and to others. He was… far better than he ought to be. That boy, humiliated, picked on, and pitied by his clan… nevertheless had an empathy with him that made him… not care about what others thought about him.
That boy, was good. Far too good for the rotten world that he inhabited.
He listened… when others did not care. He waited, and came forward, when others ignored, and saw weakness, that boy came forward, and understood.
You hadn't felt that way since before Obito died… since Rin died. He did not judge, did not hide his displeasure or fear.
Shiro Hyuga… just listened. He listened and said words that made you feel alive again. Like all the tragedy you have suffered in your life was going to be okay in the end.
But it was in his words that you see what you had become. A broken, hollowed out, a husk of a man, waiting to die, to see his friends again, after so long.
It was something you always were since your father died. And it sickened you… It made you wish to rage against your father's cowardness, of him stealing his own life instead of trying to make amends for his mistakes.
But that was a road you long since traveled… all you felt was sadness. The lessons you learned from Rin, and Obito, and Minato showed you one important thing.
It was impossible to live this life alone, to wall yourself up and never let anyone inside.
It was too exhausting… to… You didn't know the words.
But you made your choice. And would have to live with it.
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"Lord Hokage." You said quietly, as you walked into his office. All the guards were in their positions, and all relaxed when they saw it was just you.
Minato-Sensei looked up from his paperwork. "Yes Dog?" He asked, instinctively. "Do you have a report for me? Or is this a social call like at the party?"
You removed your mask and handed over the paperwork. Your resignation from ANBU.
Minato-Sensei looked down at the paperwork. "I see. Very well." He replied with a small smile rising on his lips. "Why the sudden change of heart? If you don't mind me asking?"
You sighed. "I… don't know." You thought back to the boy, and your friend's ghosts standing beside you… standing by him. "I've had my fill."
Minato-Sensei nodded. "Very well Kakashi." He saw the other paperwork beneath your resignation forms. "Medical leave?"
"I-" You paused. "I'd rather be fully healthy, before I continue with my duties sir, and get another physical evaluation."
Minato-Sensei nodded again. "Very well… dismissed."
You vanished from the office with a gust of leaves. You knew Minato and the other guards would not have minded that sudden exit.
They owed you that much.
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You went to the only place where someone still cared about you.
You knocked on the door, and Might Gai answered, still shaking off the sleep from his eyes. "Kakashi?" He said confused and unsure of what to say next. "What are you doing here?" He asked, as he finally gathered his nerve.
"Gai… can I stay the night here?" You asked. There was nowhere else for you to go.
Not anymore.
"Sure Kakashi." Gai said your name without the youthful energy he always had. He understood what you needed.
A warm bed, and a friend to talk to.
Reward: Kakashi has resigned from ANBU and is on leave for a little while. Minato is secretly relieved.
AN: Enjoy this drastic change in canon.