Aleph: I've had some breakthroughs with defining Rathan, and... no wonder he's the polar opposite of Calesco, when summarised like this.
Aleph: Looking over the notes I have on him - his grudge-holding, his childish wonder, his generosity, his attention-wanting - a common theme basically just seems to be that... Rathan is the most
emotional of her souls. Whatever he feels, he feels absolutely and with no restraints - not quite in the way of Haneyl's fire dancers; he's not
overwhelmed by it and still has his intellect alongside it. But he does basically seem to have a single-track mind, emotionally speaking, and dials it to 200%.
Aleph: If he's happy, he's
overjoyed and a smiling cherubic angel who is honestly the best out of all of them at making
Keris happy just by proximity. If he's calm, he's lazy and content and at peace. If he's upset... well, we know what happens when he's upset.
Aleph: And the other side was, heh. He's privilege. He is literally the privileged, entitled mindset of someone in power who just doesn't have "I am wrong" as a mental tool. People like... what's her name, that girl who demanded she get into university with sub-par grades and decided that it was reverse racism that was keeping her out when they said no. He can be generous, in the manner of the privileged where they're being charitable for themselves rather than the people they're giving to. But he's fundamentally privilege culture (while Calesco is
all about social justice and caring more for the weak than the strong, lol).
Aleph: Amusingly, in being her emotional side... he's basically The Chick.
Aleph: lol keris ur gender roles
Aleph: they r weird
Aleph: srsly keris what is up with ur psychology
Aleph: I should do a little mini-essay on What Ur Souls Say About U once Vali and Zanra show up.
EarthScorpion: And then there's Haneyl, who's... not privileged despite being a princess, and in fact spends a lot of her time worrying about proper standards.
EarthScorpion: ... indicating she's actually noveau riche middle class pretending to be upper class.
Aleph: Oh, Haneyl. You're noveau riche. Rathan is true nobility. No wonder you don't get along very often.
Aleph: Heh. This does give me a better handle on Rathan, I think. And it makes him rather fun. Because he can be horrible, yes, but in a good mood he can also be amazingly sweet. And then someone criticises him, and #masculinitysofragile.
Aleph: ... though Rathan's approach to real-life masculinity is to turn his nose up at it. Especially the part where you're not meant to show your emotions.
...
Aleph: ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED: GIRLFRIEND'S KID NO LONGER HATES YOU!
Aleph: ... hee.
Aleph: There is something inherently endearing about a woman who is warier about walking into a ten-month old's playroom than charging at a four-storey-high ten-headed cannibal giant that eats souls and also the people they belong to.
EarthScorpion: Heh. The existence of Keris's children is going to be the final thing to win over Aiko. At least once they become playfriends.
Aleph: Hee. Also lol, Keris did it again.
EarthScorpion: Oh?
Aleph:
Keris shifts uncomfortably. "I... okay," she sighs. "I won't upset the Order. I do want to avoid a Wyld Hunt, if I can," she admits. "And I wouldn't want to make your job harder."
She frowns. "Actually, what is your job?" she asks. "I know mine is to ruin the Dynastic trade out of An Teng, but you're working with the Tengese themselves, aren't you?"
Aleph: she did not actually technically promise
Aleph: that she wasn't going to steal the ships from the harbour
Aleph: and then she smoothly changed the subject to a related one before sasi could ask any follow-up questions
Aleph: (I don't think Keris actually notices when she does that)
Aleph: (she's just so naturally evasive that she does it instinctively in combat and in conversation)
EarthScorpion: Kerissssssss
Aleph:
Sasi: "Stop doing that."
Keris: "???"
Keris: "Doing what?"
...
Aleph: Sigh. Dammit Keris. I have a feeling she might be going to scare Sasi accidentally next year.
EarthScorpion: Mmm? Oh dear.
Aleph: At least unless Keris has bought Sapphire Sorcery, Demon of the Second Circle (as her first purchase therein)
and Raise the Puissant Sanctum by then. Hmm. Or Monstrous Manse-Mother, I guess.
EarthScorpion: Oh. I thought you were going for "monstrous manse mother will scare her".
Aleph: Nah. The thing that will scare her is if Keris
hasn't, because then when she finds the Sister that's in a Wyld Zone, she's going to go "fuck the manse is broken" and then "Sasiiiiiii, come help me reverse-engineer the blueprints for these manses and then use your sorcery to rebuild this one after I murder everything in the Wyld Zone with Wyldeater!"
Aleph: And then she's going to murder everything in the Wyld Zone singlehandedly while Sasi is waiting outside and possibly watching, because Keris has not quite grasped the fact that some forms of showing off do not make people impressed so much as intimidated.
Aleph: Oh, Keris. She's semi-frequently going to pop back to Malfeas and be like "yo Ligier, I found another Wyld Zone packed full of raksha, I can has borrow Wyldeater plz for murdertime?"
Aleph: And Ligier will be like "no use my waypoint-collapsing engine this time I want to see how well it works", and Keris is all "but but but then I barely get to murder anything :c" and Ligier is like "deal with it".
Aleph: ... huh, actually. Would that hoover up the wyld zone but leave the remains of the manse (and the jade) still in Creation? Does it basically just suck all the Wyld essence up and revert the terrain to Creation? Because that would be very useful, since Infernal terraforming is probably going to do less-than-good things to the demesne.
Keris: "So you want me to carry the Pyrian shrine (in my soul) to the middle of the waypoint, and then guard it for like an hour while it charges up. And not kill too many things so that it gets maximum yield."
Keris: "You realise my style of 'guarding' involves murdering everything attempting to damage it, right?"
Keris: ":c"
EarthScorpion: The Little Sister is probably utterly wrecked. Like, the geomancy is just plain fucked. It's not like the powered down one where some geomantic work could shift the dragon lines back into position, or the Wood one which would require work to change the aspect from Wood to Water.
Aleph: Ah crap. Hmm. Well, it's probably worth reverse-engineering a blueprint from the others anyway. If nothing else, I might be able to find another nearby demesne that I can connect to the geomantic grid.
Aleph: Okay, just working out what Keris has left to do before heading back to Malfeas.
THINGS TO DO BEFORE HEADING BACK TO MALFEAS
- Raid Agenete, steal the silver, steal the ships, burn the docks.
- Capture a raksha pirate ship to give the Shashalme (possible one-session thing; useful way to offload that debt and have some more "little Keris" RP).
- Offload fleet at the Isle of Gulls for repair & storage away from keruby.
- Learn Jupiter's Embroidery Style for Lilunu.
Aleph: ... I can't say I don't like the image of the Baisha towing a dejected raksha pirate ship (lol Flying Dutchman) behind it with all the hatches nailed shut with cold iron and the crew imprisoned by bars of the stuff.
not!Davy Jones: "Do you fear death?"
Keris: "No." *stabs him*
Aleph: Heh. You know, for all that she's a Green Sun Princess now, Keris still has a very Nexan-street-rat attitude to fights. That is to say; if you're going to fight, fight. If you're going to talk, you get stabbed repeatedly mid-sentence, because she has no respect for dramatic tension or the deep and complex nuances of her enemies' backstories.
Aleph: She also considers that shanking the other guy before he's ready and indeed preferably before he's actually pulled his weapon out is not only fair game, it should be encouraged.
Aleph: ... Keris is basically the sort of antagonist who is very unfair to a group of heroes in your standard fantasy cartoon series, and who the Protagonists probably lose several members to before they catch wise and start treating her like a lethal threat in every engagement.
EarthScorpion: Oh, Keris. And yes, it's true, the fleet in her soul is suffering extra keruby-based degradation.
Aleph: Yeah. I think she's probably going to strip the Baisha down to a skeleton crew, leave as many as she can with the fleet to repair them (and later crew them), and then pick up
more crew in Malfeas.
Aleph: ... bluh. Need her to learn a shipbuilding style and teach it to people so that they can be repaired in her personal variant of the style.
Aleph: Hmm. She may come up with a name for that specific style of patterning she's starting to use as a signature. You know, the abstract one that brings to mind waves and wind and mangroves.
Aleph: Well, it's not a single pattern. More a style like, hmm... like Celtic knots. Many different types, but distinctly recognisable as that "family" of art.
EarthScorpion: Mmm, yes.
Aleph: Latin, I think. Some combination of the Latin words for "wave" and "wind". Named in the Malfean style.
...
EarthScorpion: So, how does Keris feel about what her souls say about her and what they feel about her?
Aleph: Oh, hmm. Hmmm. Well, let's start at the top.
Aleph: Keris knows the snake is her po, and what the po is. The seat of emotion, the wellspring of passion and instinct. Hers is, uh... a giant snake. She supposes that means she has really strong instincts and passions? Which seems fair. That it will even attack
her... is something she hasn't (yet) put much thought into (pending the Trust Your Instincts short), but it would probably unsettle her a bit that... apparently her instincts can turn against her.
EarthScorpion: Also, it's beautiful
Aleph: Heh. Yes. She likes that. If part of her is going to be a giant monster, she's pleased that it's such a gorgeous one.
Aleph: Moving onto her Fourth Soul; Keris does consider Dulmea to be a part of her, I think. A more independent part who is also her own person, but... hey, all Keris's souls are their own people. They're still part of the greater her that she considers her "self" - as her hun - to be merely the first among equals in and
wow, I don't know if Keris has actually sat down to meditate on this (and perhaps she should) but her mental self-image is
weird.
EarthScorpion:
EarthScorpion: Oh, Keris. She's literally become more than she can handle on her own.
Aleph: She's simultaneously thinking of herself as a baby Unquestionable with seven+ souls and... almost heretically toying with the notion that she's the fetich of an infant Primordial that's the combination of all her souls, of which she is only one, because she doesn't
feel like a Greater Self so that must be some emergent thing from how sometimes her other souls prod her to do stuff.
Aleph: If she
does sit down to meditate on this she might get a bit freaked out for a while and start wondering if "the Greater Keris" is going to form a jouten in her Devil-Domain or something. And she would fight tooth and nail against the view that
she was the Greater Keris, because she doesn't feel any different and it makes her edgy to think of herself that way.
EarthScorpion: ... no, Keris, don't wonder if Greater-Keris is cute
EarthScorpion: Hmm, I wonder if her experiences with forking are causing any weirdness there, and if she's wondering if she's just a limited facet of the greater-Keris.
Keris: "... can I have a Keris Shintai?"
EarthScorpion: Actually, sigh, a Keris Shintai would merge the imagery of all her souls into its form.
Aleph: Heh. Yes. Sasi would get a headache talking to her about this, lol. Especially since... annoyingly, Sasi is aware that she probably has to defer to Keris's judgement on this stuff, because Keris has explored it a lot more than she has.
Aleph: Man, this stuff is totally going in the extras.
Aleph: But yes, getting back to Dulmea, Keris considers her very much a part of the Greater Keris, and is basically using her as a downloaded sense of caution and superego. Who she <3s, obviously. If you brought her attention to the fact that she's grouped together her ideas about motherhood, caution and poison, she would consider that perfectly natural. Obviously mothers need to be cautious and patient and calm, and poison is the careful measured way to kill someone, so they go together really well!
EarthScorpion: Fate: "Why would you consider motherhood to be poison?"
Aleph: Keris: "It's not that those two are linked to each other, it's just that both of them are linked to being calm and patient and cautious and smart."
Fate: "..."
Aleph: Next up; Echo!
Aleph: ... ooo. *wince* Echo. Yeah, Keris still remembers Calesco's words here. Her sense of fun and whimsy and desire to be loved (which Echo doesn't actually show much of, hmm) is, uh... the part of her that murders people and hurts everything it touches.
Aleph: ...
Aleph: ... yeah, Keris does not like thinking about that, and would probably dive overboard to avoid talking about it.
EarthScorpion: Isn't Rathan the desire to be loved?
Aleph: Mixing up Principle, Charm and Urge. Echo is Be Loved/Silence In Her Wake/Follow Keris. Rathan is Get Revenge/Carmine Mantled Emissary/Proclaim Innocence. Though, hmm. Echo does get very upset when Keris is unhappy or risks her relationships and losing the people she loves. Echo is the desire for
love, I guess. Rathan is the desire for
attention. Echo is happy because Sasi loves them and they love Sasi, no matter where Sasi is at the time. Rathan is happy if Kasseni is staring at them and can't look away, because they're all she's thinking about even if she doesn't love them and they hate her.
EarthScorpion: Oh, Echo. Also, she made the szelkeruby as the
worst cupids as an expression of her own desires as friends.
Aleph: Heh. True. But yeah, Keris is
not comfortable with the fact that her happiness and joy hurts people. And prodding her about that would, uh
Aleph: ... be a
fantastic way to drive her into a killing rage, actually.
Aleph: Like, wow. A few pointed barbs at that particular sore spot and she'll be ready to murder you to shut you up, unless you're Calesco, in which case she'll shout at you to go to your cave and then go storm off into the Marsh and stab a bunch of trees until they catch fire, which happens regrettably often in the Marsh even if you're not stabbing them with any magic.
EarthScorpion: Haneyl: "That's what trees do."
Aleph: it's... it's really not, haneyl
Aleph: well
Aleph: like
Aleph: maybe
your trees
Aleph: but not normal ones
EarthScorpion: Haneyl: "Mine
are normal ones. That's how most trees in the world work."
Aleph: *facepalm*
Aleph: Anyway, Rathan. So Keris has put her emotional side, her innocent aura and her VENGEANCE together. Like Dulmea, this is actually pretty intuitive to her. Of course her grudges are justified - she's the victim here. And of course her revenge is the most emotional part of her. She wants revenge because her feelings were hurt, after all.
Aleph: ... actually, at a deep down level, Echo might be intuitive. Because... hasn't Keris always hurt the things she loved? She hurt Ogi
and she killed Rat and maybe her village wouldn't have been attacked if she hadn't been there...
EarthScorpion: Oh, Echo. Echo understands a lot more about her position in the hierarchy than Keris wants to acknowledge.
Aleph: Oh Keris, more like. She's never even thought that last part consciously, but... she came from Baisha and now everything is wonderful and she's an Exalt.
And everyone else who came from Baisha is probably either dead or a slave; why did she get to survive and flourish where they didn't?
Aleph: But this is touching the sort of deeply buried insecurity that brings the knives and spears and TEETH out, so let's hastily move on.
Aleph: Haneyl, then! We've spoken a lot about what Haneyl means as part of Keris. She's another of those intuitive-to-Keris souls that reveals a lot about how she thinks. In fact, Haneyl does so even more than Dulmea and Rathan (and Echo). Greed, possessiveness... and the sincere drive for self-improvement? Not something most people would consider a natural fit. But it makes perfect sense to her.
Aleph: It comes down to hunger. Fundamentally, to Keris, you can only afford to be generous if you
have enough already. If you're hungry, you can't give away food; you have to fight for every scrap. If you're cold, you can't share your space, you have to kick people out and defend your fire and blanket. Cling to what's yours and always reach for more - that's the only way to claw your way up out of poverty. Improving yourself;
bettering yourself, means never lacking in
things. Then -
then - you can start being compassionate (more on that with Calesco). But letting go of
your things risks losing everything, and the more you have to lose the further you have to fall.
Aleph: Keris is a little worried by Haneyl sometimes, though. Her greed is by far the most
aggressive of all her souls; the loudest and the most headstrong and demanding in what she wants from Keris - both in materials and perhaps more so in behaviour. Maybe that's part of her nature - her Urge compels her to claim all that she can, even control over Keris herself - but it unsettles Keris that some part of herself wants to overtake all the rest, regardless of the harm it would cause.
EarthScorpion: Haneyl is the soul probably... mmm, she's the first post "I'm a GSP, not a street rat" soul.
Aleph: Yes. And it really shows.
EarthScorpion: If Keris had chosen another way, Haneyl wouldn't be Haneyl.
Aleph: Heh. An interesting hypothetical for another day.
EarthScorpion: In fact, mmm, both Haneyl and Calesco are more "princessy" in Keris' eyes. Rathan owes at least as much to a Nexan gang boss in her eyes.
Aleph: Calesco is in many ways a reaction to Haneyl, heh. Which again harkens back to Keris's axiomatic view that charity is something that only rich people can do. Fundamentally, to her, you cannot afford to be kind unless you are secure. It's a form of power, in some ways. A thing that the strong can do to - or rather do
for - the weak. The street rat in her would balk at the idea of kindness from someone in poverty with everything to lose and nothing to gain - and perhaps that's why Calesco has some street rat in her. Or maybe her dirty fighting is just because she sees the awful truths of the world and thus doesn't bother with the lies about fighting being noble or fair.
Aleph: But yes, Calesco is her messenger, and her compassion, and her understanding of how horrible the world can be - and they're all interlinked in a way that
challenges Keris. Calesco is the bit of her that interacts with the world - that
has to interact with the world - in a way that renders her unable to ignore the injustice and cruelty there. Which she reacts to with kindness towards the weak who suffer it and with bitterness towards the strong who allow it.
Aleph: Calesco is definitely the soul that pushes Keris off-balance the most. Dulmea and Rathan she understands, Echo she doesn't like to think about and Haneyl pushes Keris to
act and worries her. But Calesco is the one who, as a core part of her nature, calls the powerful out on their lies - and that means that Keris doesn't see much of her kindness, because Calesco is driven to ask her the
hard questions.
EarthScorpion: Heh. There's the axis of pushing-Keris - Haneyl, Calesco, Echo.
Aleph: Specifically the girls, I note. The boys - well, the boys-and-Zanra - are her more passive half.
Aleph: ... keris your gender roles are
really weird. Your emotional side is Rathan, your hyper-lethal killer is Echo, your active souls are the girls while the passive ones are the boys. Hmm. This was probably set by you and Rat. "I'm the muscle, he's the mouth", etc.
[VALI, ZANRA AND HOLISTIC SOUL-HIERARCHY STUFF CUT TO AVOID SPOILERS]
...
EarthScorpion: Oh, Dulmea. She does insist that all the children know the proper ways of acting as angyalkae.
Aleph: Oh yeah! That was something else I wanted to do back in Malfeas, heheh. I had a thought that was a thing that was funny.
Aleph: [Games of Divinity, pgs 110-111]
Those who listen to [an angyalka] hear the beat of moments within their soul and know what they have lost - an hour from a life of valor, perhaps, or five minutes from a life of shame. To those that like their nature, the song of the angyalka seems beautiful. To those that despise themselves, it is painful - either denying their self-image or confirming it.
...
The truths of the angyalkae's song sound to the spirits of the world as much as human ears. The earth rests peacefully, secure in itself. Water ripples uneasily, aware of its forgetfulness and unsure of what it has forgotten. Fires burn the angrier for knowing their own rage, and winds blow more subtly, commending themselves on their guile.
Aleph: So firstly, that second part is
totally valid thaum for Time-Strung Harpist Style. Keris can play a song to a fire to make it flare, for instance. And secondly, in AESSing the innermost melody of a person's very Essence and then playing it, Keris has basically taken this to a whole new level that even angyalkae would probably be in awe of (and that's discounting the fact that she can get as many successes as the best mortal alive has dice). So she should totally go hunt down Dulmea's old assassin house and introduce herself.
EarthScorpion: Keris: "I'mma gonna steal you."
Aleph:
Keris: "Also you should all be totes proud of Dulmea, she's awesome."
Aleph: ... aww. In all honesty, she probably will be on her
absolute bestest best most Mama-Approved civil polite graceful elegant behaviour ever to wow them all with AMAZING MUSIC and SUCH POISE and VERY ASSASSINATION SKILLS.
Aleph: ... and then, yes, steal them.
EarthScorpion: Of course, heh, she knows Dulmea and she knows how Dulmean honour works. They won't abandon their master. So she needs to either do it legitimately and get the house to sign on with her with the permission of the master, or she needs to leave them masterless and looking for someone new to serve.
Aleph: Keris: "Yo. Pretty horse dude. I wanna buy your assassins."
Lamulis: "... you... what?"
Keris: "Well, actually I want to steal your assassins, but this seems to be one of the very rare cases where buying them is actually easier."
Lamulis: "..."
...
Aleph: Heh.
This right here. This is why Keris likes cities.
Mortal Keris could parkour her way around Nexus. Pirate Queen Keris considers it almost insulting not to.
...
EarthScorpion: Hmm. If Keris had stayed a Street Rat and rejected being a princess, her hunger soul would be a cheeky cheerful liar and trickster who gets their hooks into people to rip them off - Metagaos and TED - and her messenger soul would be a thing of burning bright truths (Adorjan and Malfeas).
Aleph: Sigh. That Haneyl and Echo would have gotten along well.
EarthScorpion: Well, that Haneyl would have been utterly, utterly untrustworthy. Willing to do
anything to ensure she got fed, without pride or dignity or morals.
Aleph: ... Keris would once again be made very uncomfortable by her.
EarthScorpion: Heh. Also, probably wouldn't have anything to do with Sasi. That might wind up with alt-Calesco, a painfully-bright burning exemplar of perfection.
Aleph: Who probably wouldn't be between Haneyl and Echo anymore.
EarthScorpion: Sigh. Oh, Echo. The way she expresses her urge is by being someone who loves Keris unconditionally and who always finds her fun things to do.
EarthScorpion: Meanwhile, Rathan expresses his urge by... well, being a spiteful little brat who never lets go of a grudge. And Haneyl expresses Keris' greed by wanting Keris to be the best and have the best things (also, as part of Keris, she naturally gets the best bits of that as it's her hard work that's pushing Keris to actually be not-useless!)
Aleph: Well, technically his
Urge is to Proclaim Innocence. The grudge thing is "merely" a defining element of his personality. And he can let go of a grudge! Just... only once it's been paid out in full.
Aleph: Heh. You could probably circumvent his revenge by paying him homage and attention and making an incredibly elaborate, humiliating, sincere and expensive apology that involves you publicly grovelling a lot where everyone could see you agreeing that he was in the right and you were in the wrong.
Aleph: He'd like that enough that he'd probably let you off unless it was something really major.
EarthScorpion: Haneyl still doesn't understand that. Calesco does understand that - she just refuses to do it. Echo both understands it and would be willing to do it - she just can't be bothered.
Aleph: *snrrk*
Aleph: dammit eko
EarthScorpion: ... oh, Calesco. TLA is hers. That means all her Compassion works like TLA Compassion.
Aleph: Yyyyup. She loves Keris, and wants to help/teach/hurt her.
EarthScorpion: Haneyl: "... does that mean you love Rathan?"
Calesco: "I love all of you. I just also hate him."
Aleph: Keris: "I hope all my children love each other as family, even if you argue a lot."