Right, reviewing story to try and clarify my views on things.
Saaya smiled, her lips thin, her eyes glittering. She reached out towards Amu, their minds clashing with a feel like snapping twigs in-between, and-
And-
It felt almost like a dream.
Saaya was still standing there, a sneer on her face. Her hands were on her hips. She hadn't reached out at all, except mentally. The air in between them looked shattered, as though a window had cracked and the shards were falling apart. Amu could feel Saaya's emotions. Fear, anger, jealousy, a hurt, vulnerable honesty, and a desperate loneliness, all fused with a gravel-like, grating feeling that Amu couldn't quite describe.
It was the sort of feeling you got when you were holding a not-wet-enough ball of sand, and it was about to slip away.
And then, as if someone had pressed a reset button, the world snapped back into focus. Saaya stumbled backwards, a hand over her mouth.
This is Amu, interacting with Saya's mind.
Saaya's mind is
falling apart.
Mind slipping away, passively suicidal, and thinking that she is a monster.
This work has been tagged as [Persona].
I'm reasonably sure that Saaya is, at present, experiencing something equivalent to a Shadow "You aren't me" fight from Persona 4.
(I am cheating slightly, because I know Baughn is most familiar with Persona 4 of the 3/4/5 branch, so that's what he's going to be basing things off. See his comments re: Teddy for proof.)
This is a key part of why I want to give Saaya the Humpty Lock for the moment. Her mind is falling apart and shattering, and the Lock will hold her together.
(As it once held a four-egg Amu together, through random Chara-shifts.)
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Side note, only noticing this now, but:
It felt almost like a dream.
Himamori Dream, anyone?
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"You're not, and you shouldn't be," Saaya told her, distantly. "I wish you'd just leave me alone. Leave me here. I'm a monster as well, so it's only fair, right? You're the only one who's not- not- not-"
...it occurs to me, Amu's UMI to 'fix' people is entirely a mental attack. And her opinion of Saaya?
This wasn't the time, Amu knew, but she couldn't help it. Saaya wasn't nice. Saaya wasn't a good person, Amu had always known that, but she couldn't ignore her, either. They'd been classmates for years, and she'd never seen her happy, not once. Gloating, yes. Vindictive. Jealous. But never happy. And lately, she hadn't spotted even those.
Getting that shoved into her mind to 'fix' the damage Easter and Lulu did can't have been pleasant for her.
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Amu glanced down, and her mouth set in a frown. She'd nearly forgotten. Saaya was still curled up on the floor, her hands pressed against her ears, her eyes closed. Her mind was a muddy tangle of emotions, full of cracks, and menacing with thorns of fear. Saaya, it must be said, was why she was still there at all—and Saaya, dammit- Amu didn't swear, but this time she would—Saaya seemed to have a death wish, all of a sudden.
Further proving a point here.
"Full of cracks".
Saaya is falling apart.
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Moving on a bit, to the
song Baughn linked.
...
Incredibly sad!
I'm not going to go line by line, because I'd be repeating myself a lot.
But going by Baughn's comment of 'every line is relevant', we can hit these key notes:
- "Reaching for a nucular reactor" = She is reaching for the rift, and doing something likely to kill her with it.
I would imagine that she is trying to hold it in place long enough for everyone to escape.
- "So faint I hear it echo; A crowd of voices growing old, Repeating on and on until it swallows me whole" = Her psionic abilities have been tormenting her for awhile.
- "Giving in, I'll leave this world for good" = She's suicidal. We knew this, but the lines associated with it have a lot of association with peace of mind, being at peace, memories tormenting, going insane.
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Thus Saaya is catatonic because she just can't handle the world not being as she expects it to be, something I have some small experience in people some times doing in certain cases. Where they just block out their senses in hopes things go back to how they though things should work.
I don't believe this is the case at all.
The rift started developing faster as Saaya went unresponsive.
She's already given up on the world being what she expects it to be, over the last six months.
If she was going to go that type of fugue state, it wouldn't happen just as there's a confirmation that she hasn't been going insane.
Saaya made it this far, made her accusation. She's being proven
right that Amu is touching minds, that something fucked with reality is going on.
It doesn't make sense for her to go unresponsive now that things are finally starting to show themselves.
Further on this point:
Saaya was still curled up on the floor, her hands pressed against her ears, her eyes closed. Her mind was a muddy tangle of emotions, full of cracks, and menacing with thorns of fear.
Her mind is dissociating and blank, or not paying attention.
She's terrified and falling apart, yes, but she's still here.
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Yeah, I don't think Saaya has any special connection to the rift at this point. She might, but I don't think it's likely, and I don't think a connection to the rift has anything to do with her current state.
Amu tried again, reaching out with her thoughts, at the same time she reached down and physically grabbed her shoulder.
'Saaya!'
Still no reaction, and something was happening to the rift. A faint pinprick of light appeared in the middle, accompanied by a tinkling laugh. It didn't sound merry in the slightest.
Amu reaches for her mind again, and the rift develops a voice in it.
Saaya is linked to this rift, and she's accidentally summoning something through it.
The comparison to a Shadow Fight grows, but this is SMT in the title, so my money is on Saaya (twelve years old and choosing to die rather than try and escape) internally screaming for help as Amu taps her mind.
Whatever is answering that call for help is amused by the current state of affairs, apparently.