I only kept half an eye at the meeting, keeping Huginn's viewpoint at a corner of my visor as the rest of the senior crew discussed diverting course to investigate a proto star system.
Instead I was focusing on the pretty simple math problem before me.
1782x89
158598
I sighed and wiped the screen. Damn it. The answer came automatically. What's worse, it didn't pop into my vision or get shoved into my mind or anything external. I just looked at it and knew what the answer was.
Which made it insanely hard to ignore.
What I was trying to do was to find an off switch. Yes, knowing the solution was useful, but knowing how I get there is often just as important, if not more so!
Alright.
Listen here you stupid piece of ancient crap. Do not give me the answer for the next calculation.
Got it?
198x33
6534
Damn it!
"Mister Zephyr, what do you think?" Janeway asked,
I called the view to fill mine and I shook my head, Huginn copying my movement, "Sure. Why not. Let's divert course and check out every random anomaly. I'm not the one that already risks dying of old age before we reach the alpha quadrant."
Silence.
"...Apologies," I said after a moment, "That came out harsher than I intended."
"Not that you don't have a point, Lieutenant," Chakotay said from the comm screen on the wall, "Can we really afford to divert course for anything but useful resources?"
Janeway looked thoughtful for several long moments before she spoke, "Our situation is a unique one for many reasons. But in the end, we're still Starfleet. Our original mission has always been to explore strange new worlds; to seek out new life and new civilizations. We have our own mission, our own goal of reaching home. But I think we also have a duty to the Federation, to Starfleet to explore what we can on the way. We're the first ship in this sector of space, who knows what can be found. Perhaps even something to aid our journey."
"We're not Starfleet," Chakotay said and shook his head, "But in this case, the system is only half a day out of our course. And we might as well use the time to fill up our deuterium tanks."
"Plenty of that in a proto-star system," Paris agreed.
Janeway nodded, "Set a course, Mister Paris. Dismissed."
Everyone got up and started to leave. I had Huginn remain and Janeway paused as the door closed after Dinah who glanced back into the meeting room before disappearing out of view.
"My apologies, Captain," I said, "You're correct, we should take advantage of our situation while we can."
Janeway leaned slightly against the table, her arms crossed as she watched my drone, "Are you feeling alright, Lieutenant?"
"Just frustrated, Captain. Trying to get the stupid thing in my head to do what I want it to and it's not cooperating. I should not allow it to interfere."
She nodded, "We still don't know what it does. What are you trying to make it do?"
"Not tell me answers to any math problem I see, or at least tell me how it got there," I admitted, "Without knowing how it got there, the answer itself is often useless. So far, it's not cooperating."
The Captain nodded and then hesitated slightly, "I had been meaning to talk to you, Lieutenant," she said after a moment, "Commander Tuvok brought to my attention that he has gotten several complaints about you."
I stared at her in surprise through Huginn before I nodded, "I have been irritable lately… and I know I have been getting worse," I admitted. It was likely Paris, "I will do better."
She shook her head, "While I don't doubt people would appreciate it if you were less so, it's understandable. The complaints are regarding your treatment of the Doctor."
Divide by zero.
"What?" I asked after a second. What doctor, all the medical staff were dead.
"The complaints state that you treat the Doctor like a machine," Janeway said before raising a hand before I could answer, "I know he's an hologram."
"It is a machine," I protested, "It's literally a database managed by a self referential generative algorithm and a personality overlay matrix. Other than the information he's loaded with and the medical subroutines, it's identical to... I don't know, Orion Pirate Mook number three on the holodeck!"
Janeway just shook her head, "I know what an EMH is," she sighed, "Just... be politer."
I sighed, "...Yes, Captain. What else, protests outside my quarters when I wipe the storage of my drones to install a new software version? They use the same technology. A murder trial next time somebody shoots a hologram on the holodeck?"
She shook her head, "Just be more polite to the Doctor. Especially during off hours."
"It should be off during its off hours! Every minute it's online is one minute less it can be useful later!"
"He."
I growled. This is so damn stupid, next thing people will be thanking doors for opening for them, "Humans anthropomorphize things way too easily. It's an algorithm and a database. If it looked like a floating ball of steel tentacles ending in instruments we would not be having this conversation."
Janeway looked thoughtful, "Maybe. Maybe not. I have seen studies where people give their cleaning robots names and would rather have them fixed than a new one if the old one is damaged."
"Just because it looks like you and talks like you and seems to think it does not make it a person," I grumbled, "And playing along with the delusions will not do any of you any favors, sir. Sooner or later the EMH will need to be disabled or have its storage wiped to prevent matrix degradation. It will be reset back to standard operating parameters at least once a year or it will start to break down in three or so at most at current rate of usage. Less if it keeps being left on."
"Just... go along with it, Lieutenant. It's not just one person thats complained," Janeway said, sounding tired.
This is so damn stupid.
"Yes, sir," I answered anyway. She was the captain. Now I likely won't be allowed try to reprogram the damn thing either.
Damn primates packbonding to everything that moves and some that don't.