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Dexexe1234 said:
...Okay I noted on this but I guess I should properly explain it:

I am actually starting on medication for the depression and anxiety I have been going through. It has punched my gut with my ability to draw and such, but it is just the start. Currently it's pretty hard for me to concentrate and draw, yet I hope those skills come back with time, or when I get on a better more suited medication.

Basically what this means is that Terrene Spire will be even worse with its update times because I literally can't work, but in the good news is that if it actually manages to ebb out and help me I will have so much more energy to actually work that Terrene Spire will come faster, because I wont be fighting myself 24/7 just to work on anything!

So, slowdown now, possibly good changes coming for me, increase in speed possibly later!

Sorry if all this sounds weird or is oddly typed, my brain chemicals are adjusting to new things.
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Oh, that's such good news!! I'm sure I'm not the only one on this forum who's been hoping that you'll take positive steps to address your mental health issues. I've heard from my friends that finding the best medication and dose can take some time and effort and also that it's worth it when you do. I wish you all the best with your journey and whenever you want to pop in here with a personal update (or some more Terrene Sprire) we'll be here for you.
 
Dexexe1234 said:
...Okay I noted on this but I guess I should properly explain it:

I am actually starting on medication for the depression and anxiety I have been going through. It has punched my gut with my ability to draw and such, but it is just the start. Currently it's pretty hard for me to concentrate and draw, yet I hope those skills come back with time, or when I get on a better more suited medication.

Basically what this means is that Terrene Spire will be even worse with its update times because I literally can't work, but in the good news is that if it actually manages to ebb out and help me I will have so much more energy to actually work that Terrene Spire will come faster, because I wont be fighting myself 24/7 just to work on anything!

So, slowdown now, possibly good changes coming for me, increase in speed possibly later!

Sorry if all this sounds weird or is oddly typed, my brain chemicals are adjusting to new things.
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No direct experience with depression and anxiety, but my wife (okay technically she's my girlfriend but we've lived together so long that we're basically commonlaw married) just started on pills for her own anxiety and possible depression.

Don't worry about the update time, Dex. I understand that it can take time for the chemistry to sort themselves out. Keep open and frank with your doctor, sort this all out, and remember that we're just happy that you're getting the help you need.
 
You're a better person than me, I'm still somewhat afraid of getting on depression meds because my family fucked me up and was taking away my medication and just kinda shoveled misinformation into my skull.

Get better, let the meds settle and see what happens. Keep looking
 
Dexexe1234 said:
...Okay I noted on this but I guess I should properly explain it:

I am actually starting on medication for the depression and anxiety I have been going through. It has punched my gut with my ability to draw and such, but it is just the start. Currently it's pretty hard for me to concentrate and draw, yet I hope those skills come back with time, or when I get on a better more suited medication.

Basically what this means is that Terrene Spire will be even worse with its update times because I literally can't work, but in the good news is that if it actually manages to ebb out and help me I will have so much more energy to actually work that Terrene Spire will come faster, because I wont be fighting myself 24/7 just to work on anything!

So, slowdown now, possibly good changes coming for me, increase in speed possibly later!

Sorry if all this sounds weird or is oddly typed, my brain chemicals are adjusting to new things.
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Dude this is excellent news! I've you get through the weird and uncomfortable stuff with your meds, you'll feel so much better, and yet, even then, we'll still tell you to take a break now and again probably. Seriously, you sound like a workaholic even when you're not depressed and having your brain beat you over the head with it.

Also, that's the most coherent I've seen you during an RL post in a long time, you didn't sound weird at all.
 
Dexexe1234 said:
...Okay I noted on this but I guess I should properly explain it:

I am actually starting on medication for the depression and anxiety I have been going through. It has punched my gut with my ability to draw and such, but it is just the start. Currently it's pretty hard for me to concentrate and draw, yet I hope those skills come back with time, or when I get on a better more suited medication.

Basically what this means is that Terrene Spire will be even worse with its update times because I literally can't work, but in the good news is that if it actually manages to ebb out and help me I will have so much more energy to actually work that Terrene Spire will come faster, because I wont be fighting myself 24/7 just to work on anything!

So, slowdown now, possibly good changes coming for me, increase in speed possibly later!

Sorry if all this sounds weird or is oddly typed, my brain chemicals are adjusting to new things.
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It's good you are feeling better and take as much time as you need.
 
Dexexe1234 said:
...Okay I noted on this but I guess I should properly explain it:
I am actually starting on medication for the depression and anxiety I have been going through. It has punched my gut with my ability to draw and such, but it is just the start. Currently it's pretty hard for me to concentrate and draw, yet I hope those skills come back with time, or when I get on a better more suited medication.
Basically what this means is that Terrene Spire will be even worse with its update times because I literally can't work, but in the good news is that if it actually manages to ebb out and help me I will have so much more energy to actually work that Terrene Spire will come faster, because I wont be fighting myself 24/7 just to work on anything!
So, slowdown now, possibly good changes coming for me, increase in speed possibly later!
Sorry if all this sounds weird or is oddly typed, my brain chemicals are adjusting to new things.
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I'm glad your antidepressants seem to work better for you than mine ever did for me when I took them.
I'm still struggling along without any. So here's my semi-sob story. Spoilered for possible memetic hazard. Be in the clear mentally before reading.
I've been depressed for a long time. I have a fairly strong form of xenomelia. My entire body feels to me like a mix of an annoying pet and a cramped cage pressing in tight all around me, making me want to just rip it off and escape. I am regularly frustrated at being physically embodied at all, let alone in meat. I want to be an infomorph in the internet with no physical presence. Kinda sucks. Win free depression. That's not the only thing contributing to my depression, but it's the biggest one. I don't see living as much of a good return on investment. There's 24 hours in a day. Sleeping is six of them. Getting ready for, going to, doing, and coming back from work is 12-13 of them. I have five or six hours a day to live in. Why? So I can pay bills to live long enough to do it again the next day. And most of those hours are filled with people I live with annoying me to do one thing or another or complain or making stupid messes I have to fix.
Anyways, I tried some antidepressants. And ... well it kinda helped a little. But the way it helped was questionable. I didn't have the bad thoughts about wanting to rip my body off. I still felt all the annoyance of having a body, but it didn't seem to bother me. And eventually, after acclimating, I even stopped feeling like the body wasn't mine. But about the same time I felt strangely dissociated mentally. The things I used to enjoy didn't matter to me either. The body belonged to 'me', not to me. I watched as 'I' did all the things I do on a daily basis. And I thought, yeah, it's the drugs. That's sort of it. I really am disembodied now, because the drugs are living my life for me, and it's their body now not mine, and I'm just watching it do it. That's why the xenomelia stopped. But I wasn't getting anything I wanted done. I just stopped being upset about it. And frankly, it pissed me off that the drugs did a better job of living my life than I did. What was the point of me, then? At some point I decided this was even worse than the depression. I stopped taking the drugs. Shit got worse fast. But at least now it feels real. I still want out of this body, but I don't want to trade away my agency for it. I made up my mind to just ignore my depression through force of will as much as possible, and no more mind-affecting drugs. I don't suggest that for everyone. I don't think it's responsible of me to suggest it for anyone. Don't quit your doctor's prescription, kids. Anyways, that's where I am now. I'm behind on updates for my quest, I don't have anything like the time I want to enjoy myself, I'm always low on cash... but it feels real again, and I do slowly make progress.
So yeah, seeing you go strikethrough on your bad thoughts and prop yourself back up with a hearty "Fuck it, I'm doing this?" Really helpful both to you and to me. Keep going, brother.
 
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Dexexe1234 said:
I WILL think of something!
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Zest: Hey, Daeva, how come this stuff didn't appear until I scanned it?
Daeva: *looks up from thing* Hm? You probably weren't paying attention.
Zest: ... oh. No... magic walls, or -
Daeva: Nope.
Zest: Illusions -
Daeva: Nope. You're distractible.
Zest: That sounds so... anticlimactic though.
Daeva: *shrugs and continues working on thing* it is what it is. Except when it isn't.
Zest: ಠ_ಠ
 
Okay so, I am less groggy today and I fixed the error.

Please view these three updates to see the change (you might need to hold CTRL and then click reload the site so the cache'd version clears and you can see the proper new one):

Fade out.

Fade in 1.

Fade in 2.

Now, I have tied this into something that comes later that was already planned. I didn't plan on revealing this effect this early on, but eh, this was enough of a reason for it I guess.

What do you think? I can't reveal what it means because Spoilers but, eh!
 
Dexexe1234 said:
Okay so, I am less groggy today and I fixed the error.

Please view these three updates to see the change (you might need to hold CTRL and then click reload the site so the cache'd version clears and you can see the proper new one):

Fade out.

Fade in 1.

Fade in 2.

Now, I have tied this into something that comes later that was already planned. I didn't plan on revealing this effect this early on, but eh, this was enough of a reason for it I guess.

What do you think? I can't reveal what it means because Spoilers but, eh!
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The Glimmercite was behaving weird, showing up and fading out between panels, but it's not a mistake... is it actually a perception filter?
 
That's great, Dex! Don't worry about the update speed, we don't mind waiting :D I'm really glad you've got some medication that might help. Hopefully it works out well for you!

This whole glimmercite fading in and out thing is very interesting... the first time it faded out also coincided with the disappearance of what seemed to be a piece of ruined orange-faction equipment? It's partially off screen, so it's kind of hard to tell what it is.

If it is something old and orange-faction-y, then it's possible that the fading in and out some is some sort of timey-wimey thing: maybe the glimmercite and the ruined thing-a-mabbobber are from the past, and they just briefly protruded into the present? It could even be something like the fortress remembering the past and trying to bring it back. Of course, this is just wild speculation, and we'll probably have to just wait and see. A very interesting detail, whatever it turns out to be!

edit: The spooky eldritch mouth is (1) really, REALLY cool. I love how it just appeared from nowhere and spoke directly to the voicelords! Awesome animation as well. BUT ALSO, (2) pretty foreboding. I'd say saving our Ordgrown buddy takes precedence over claiming the throne, but we should probably try and do that before it accepts someone else as the heir. Although, Zest didn't seem to hear it, so I'm not sure if we can tell him. Hmmm...
 
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NemiTheNen said:
I'm sorry if I made a hassle for you bossman! ;-;

Do you want us to point out errors or not?
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Din't apologize, I want the errors pointed out. It's honestly part of the story. I just wasn't too well when I read it, yet I crushed that negative thought. Seriously, point out errors to me! Im glad you did it! We get another connection to a further plot point this way! Everyone should point out the errors!

And you're fine. You haven't hurt me or anything. Thank you for your attentiveness!
 
Dexexe1234 said:
Din't apologize, I want the errors pointed out. It's honestly part of the story. I just wasn't too well when I read it, yet I crushed that negative thought. Seriously, point out errors to me! Im glad you did it! We get another connection to a further plot point this way! Everyone should point out the errors!

And you're fine. You haven't hurt me or anything. Thank you for your attentiveness!
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Thank you! I'll keep a keen eye out, and be extra paranoid because Zest's attention effects what we see oh my god
 
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    • TIME TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. TIME TO BECOME A NEW YOU. TIME, FOR SOME CLASS.

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    • Oh sweet buttermilk biscuits the damn thing is even creepier in motion.

    [X] Acquire duds, quickly, battle awaits! And by duds you mean a body, not fancy clothes. The clothes come later.

    [X] Eat the class crystal you fool!
     
    Zest's head is vibrating in the speech box portrait when Daeva's hand is muffling him.
    So many little details.
     
    [X] Acquire duds, quickly, battle awaits! And by duds you mean a body, not fancy clothes. The clothes come later.

    [X] Eat the class crystal you fool!
     
    [X] Acquire duds, quickly, battle awaits! And by duds you mean a body, not fancy clothes. The clothes come later.
    ---[X] While in the process of acquiring said duds, (quietly) ask Daeva what the heehaw is that thing!?
    [X] Eat the class crystal you fool!
     
    [X] Acquire duds, quickly, battle awaits! And by duds you mean a body, not fancy clothes. The clothes come later.

    [X] Eat the class crystal you fool!
     
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