Imago 3.1 (Preview)
The day following that nightmare, you awakened groggy and stiff, with the taste of vomit still in your mouth. Staring blearily around you, you tried to figure out where your bed had gone. A sudden and stabbing horror knifed into you as you realized you were in a holding cell, the walls heavily embedded with an absolutely stunning variety of tinker-tech. A solid third of which you were tempted to try and take apart to figure out
why it worked. You could clearly tell
how it worked. It's just...it
shouldn't. Not that way. Still, as pleasant as a distraction would be right now, you felt it as tears began to burn your eyes. As you were about to spiral into a cycle of self loathing and fear over the nightmare, Uncertainty cut off your train of thought.
<Taylor! Shhh. It's alright. It was a nightmare. It wasn't real. Emma is alive, and none of that happened. You're at the oil rig with your father and the Protectorate. You didn't kill anyone.>
<I...U-Uncertainty? What...what was that?>
You moved to the door, grimacing at the reek of your own vomit-scented breath.
<That, Taylor...was, well.> He paused for a long moment as you spit into the trash can to clear the taste of puke off your tongue. Blech, crab and cafeteria food do not make a good smelling mix on the way back up.
<That was a nightmare, and perhaps a caution not to tread the precise path of the Titans you can learn from.>
You froze a moment, shuddering.
<You mean that's...a-an actual risk? That these powers might turn me into into a monster like that?!>
He didn't say anything for long moments, clearly marshaling his response carefully.
<If you are reckless? If you are not careful in how you choose to emulate them? Yes. There are titanic charms that will change the way you think. It is possible for that to lead you to become someone significantly inhuman in their thoughts.>
Your stomach threatens to rebel again as you make your way to the shower room the heroes have made available to you.
<That...Oh. Um. H-how do I prevent it?>
<There are a variety of ways that have been attempted, but if I'm honest...the best method is likely to ground yourself. Spend significant time with mortals that you trust. Make friends. Find confidantes.>
Confidantes. People you trust. The last person that fit both of those you had was...well, Emma. Or Mom. A part of you insisted that was proof enough that you couldn't, shouldn't trust anyone that heavily. They'd just abuse it. You'd loved Emma. She'd been one of the three anchors of your whole world. Last of the three to abandon you, a bitter and angry part of you insisted. And at least Mom and Dad didn't choose to do it. You chewed on your lip at that thought, it was angrier than you were expecting and you forced down the vitriol by insisting that no, neither Mom nor Dad had betrayed you. They hadn't abandoned you at all.
And Dad...you shouldn't blame Dad. He'd been in the same boat you were, but his first anchor had given way before yours: like you, Dad had three grounding loves in his life. For him, it was you, your mother, and...you weren't sure whether to call the third the Union or the city. Maybe both? The city had failed your father by breaking before you were even born. When your mother was lost...you were left with just each other...except you had Emma. Well, for a while anyway. No, you couldn't blame Dad that it hit him harder, and neither of you had been in a fit state to support the other then.
Still...you weren't even remotely comfortable with the idea of your father being your sole confidante. The fact that you'd never been the Daddy's Girl type to begin with aside, if Emma's betrayal and the subsequent splitting of your life at the seams had proven anything to you, it was that it was a bad idea to have any single point of failure in your emotional support system. Of course, you
might have made a start at building a new one. Surely, again presuming you could trust him and all your operating theories and assumptions held up, Uncertainty counted as part of it where he had relevant experience. And you had gotten contact information from both the Dallon sisters. Plus Lisa seemed, well, surprisingly nice for a supervillain. Maybe she was like Mom? After all, your mother had been part of a certain feminist movement in college back before the whole thing went all
'Lustrum is Good; the Penis is Evil!' and started cutting body parts off of people. Maybe you could help her if it turned out she was in over her head?
You shrugged. That was a concern for the future. For now, you desperately needed a shower and for your mouth to not taste like yesterday's clearly
brilliant idea to eat seafood for breakfast.
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Just a quick preview of some of what I've been jotting down in the time between job applications today.