On a somewhat ironic note, GOD BLESS R/EYEBLEACH
Post-fuckup edit: huge thank you to @Algalon for pulling this from the aether with his spooky mod powers!
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Your name is Ada Doyle, and your eye hurts.
The sun is still high in the sky as you walk home, blade safely sequestered away in a quick sheath of wrapped leather- non-shifting weapons aren't legal to carry bare on a preliminary Hunter's license, as you found out the hard way- but it's on its way down, the horizon touched gently with pinks and oranges. The end result is that, naturally, you're being blinded by the sun as you walk home.
"Fucking sun, gotta shine right in my eyes while I walk home, what kinda right's it thinks it's got, pulling that shit..." You grumble to yourself as you navigate.
The pain flares up, and you have to stop for a moment, gently gritting your teeth and palming the gauze covering the source of your pain, gently rubbing it. It's not very effective, but the intent matters, you suppose. After a few moments of head-pulsing pain, it fades again, and you're left wondering what caused it. Taking a few deep breaths, you press on.
It's nothing fresh gauze and painkillers can't fix, you hope.
Once it settles down to a more typical pain, you walk on-
a hot breath on the back of your neck becomes a high, shuddering laugh-
You whip around, eye wide, machete out of your scabbard in a flash as you feel yourself flicker, ready to...
... Get caught up in old memories.
You take another deep breath, trying to calm down your heart so you can't feel it pulsing in your chest, in your wrists, in your neck... nothing there.
There's nobody there. It's nothing to worry about, she tells herself as you slip your blade back into the scabbard, and walk home a little faster anyway.
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Your apartment is a small, not quite
dingy affair, but... lived in, you'll say. Granted, it's still situated in one of the rougher parts of Vale, but it's cheap, and the landlord doesn't ask questions about why a 17-year-old girl with a missing eye needs to rent an apartment by herself. You walk past that odd picture frame in the hallway that you can never quite bring yourself to take down, showing a girl the same age as you. Same hair, same eye colour, same eyepatch...
Walking past it, you untie your makeshift sheath from the belt loops on your trousers, leaving it in a bucket near the door, and pull your poncho off, hanging it up as you walk past the otherwise empty coat hooks, happy for the chance to bring some order to your life.
You walk into the small kitchenette cum medical facility you call, er, your kitchen, and, after some effort, manage to get up onto your counter and into the cupboard with the gauze and eyepatches. You suppose you should move them down to the lower cupboards, but in truth, she knows she just likes climbing on the counter.
It's a simple pleasure.
Taking out the gauze, the painkiller tablets somebody your size really isn't supposed to have, and antibacterial solution, you set some water on the hob to boil. While waiting for that, you begin the process of unwrapping the bandages around your head, laying the small pocket mirror in the kit in front of you as you do.
Pulling the patch away, you find nothing too concerning- tears, sure, but that's normal, no real mucus buildup, no blood, perfectly healthy eyehole, as far as your not medically trained ass can tell. As you look at yourself in the mirror, she sees how her eye is sunken, the lids drooping and deformed from years of having nothing to shape them. And beyond that, bright pink flesh, not inflamed, thankfully perfectly healthy.
You take pride in the fact that, despite years without formal medical attention, you've only had one eye infection, and that was when someone played dirty and threw sand in your face during a spar. Not hard enough to trigger your Aura, and too fast to react with your Semblance.
Ass.
Taking the water off the heat, you turn the hob off and leave it to cool, taking the time to think about... well, today.
You... passed your test. That's good. Hell, that's great! You're going to Beacon! You made...
Friends, you guess. There's that Arc guy, he's... quiet, but nice. Lumen's... a bit of a dick, but not in a bad way, and Creme...
It was weird, having someone check on her during the aftermath of one of her more severe episodes. It was nice, but it was weird. You wouldn't mind having that happen more often, on reflection.
But, yeah, it was... it was fun! Just, joking around with other people who aren't dicks that ask about your eye, or why you're so short, just, four people having fun and laughing about it.
... You didn't get their fucking Scroll numbers, you
fucking dumb bitch-
Ugh. You can deal with that tomorrow- lockers still have to be cleared out, yearbooks, projects- eh, you'll probably run into them again at some point. No big deal.
Checking if the water is cool, you dip a cotton ball into the liquid and put a couple drops of disinfectant on it.
... Get it over with Ada. Putting it off isn't going to make it hurt less. You need to do this, she tells herself.
Gritting her teeth, you watch from afar as she gently wipes the mix of boiled water and disinfectant across her eyelids, wincing as the pain hits her. You feel it too, but it's just so... distant.
You find yourself pondering your feelings on today as you watch yourself clean out your eye socket on autopilot, observing yourself and your thoughts as time passes.
You passed. You made friends. Both of these are good things. Very good things. And yet, you find it... hard to care. You observe the disinterest, not quite connecting to it yourself, treating it more like a metaphorical curiosity to be turned in the hands. An oddity. Not one you can throw away.
As you wrap up your bandages, placing another patch just before you forget, you quickly down one of the painkillers with some water, before finishing the job, and wandering through to your bedroom.
Ha. Bedroom. Broom closet, more like. It's messy, as one would expect from someone your age, but you made your bed this morning, so that counts for something, right?
You flop down onto it, just about managing to kick your shoes off as you do. Ugh... you
hurt all over. As soon as you hit the mattress, it's like every latent ache and pain in your body from the weird tingling sensation in your face from where you got a faceful of... what, fire? No, what's that other shit- plasma?
Plasma, yeah, sounds about right. Then there's the bullet to the back of the head,
that hurts like shit, especially since you weren't even the one that got shot in the head,
ugh. At least it makes all the other aches and pains kind of... not matter, in comparison.
You'll take that.
Without meaning to, your thoughts slowly drift towards that disinterest from earlier. You're...
happy, about passing, about, about managing to make new friends through it, but you don't... think you're as happy as you should be.
For a moment, you wonder what that says about you. What this disinterest says about you. What your inability to be just truly, honestly happy about your own accomplishments says about you.
You feel those questions on your chest like physical weights, for a moment, and you can't help but feel a little short of breath for it.
Once again, you're watching yourself from the third person, and you find it... easier. You see yourself begin to flicker and imagine what it would be like to just... let it happen completely. Would you disappear, completely stop existing, just like that? Would you sink through the floor, through the earth, all the way down to the planet's core? What would happen then? Would you burn? Would you suffocate? Or would you just be kept there, unable to move, breathe, do anything to help yourself until you starved, or died of dehydration?
Some basic survival instinct gently clears its throat and you remind yourself that none of those are actually desirable.
Before you find yourself completely engrossed in those thoughts, you pull your Scroll out from your pocket, your earphones from another, and play some music to calm your nerves.
... And cause permanent hearing damage, but that's just a bonus. As the sound of soothing low-fidelity music fills your ears, you close your eyes and let it flow over you.
You feel the impact of thin knuckles on thinner wood more than hear it, and you open your eyes. A completely different song is playing in your ears, and the sky through your window is much pinker, twilight settling in properly. You must have dozed off.
Removing your earphones, you get off your bed and walk to the door, passing the living room, the hallway mirror, and up to the door.
Cracking the door open a little, leaving the chain on, you see an old woman in grey waiting outside.
"Hello, Ada!" She chirps, still managing to sound bright and cheery at her age.
"Oh. Hey, Mrs Pearl. Hold on-" You close the door and quickly undo the chain lock, opening the door for the old woman. You like Mrs Pearl. She knows how to keep you grounded. And she lives right across from you, so, you know, might as well make friends with your neighbours.
"I remembered that today was your test, so I thought I would make something special for the two of us. Have you ever had chargrilled shellfish?"
Immediately, your mouth begins to water as the smell of the dish wafts from her still open door.
"No, but if it tastes as good as it smells, I'd love to."
Her smile widens, a little croaky giggle escaping her.
"Well, come on, let's start before they get cold! You can tell me all about your test."
You find her smile infectious as you follow her, closing the door behind you and taking in the heavenly smell of marinaded shellfish slowly grilling.
"Well, I think it went well..."
It's... odd, the more you think about it, but your eye doesn't hurt so much anymore.