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I would like to point out that a good death does not equal a painless one. With the exception of the ships outright sunk or annihilated, Crossroads would have been a very painful death.
Did I ever say a good death was painless? No. No I did not. Unless you're so badly hurt you no longer feel pain, which fucking sucks for a number of reasons, dying is painful. Blood loss isn't this nice and light, fluffy thing that makes you fade out, it's this sucking feeling as oh hey it doesn't matter you're trying to breathe anymore. Getting strangulated is like have a wire peel your throat open. Burns don't hurt as they leach every drop of water from your body, until you move and you feel as if you were on fire again. Watching your skin flap loose can give you nightmares- I know it tried for me. Stab wounds aren't so bad, until you realize that you can't move because a system that's reliant on every part moving together can no longer do that.
I'll tell you what Crossroads was like. Immagine being struck by a fist of God, searing every inch of your skin and breaking every bone. Immagine being paralyzed, every sense tingling in white noise and pain as you loose control of your body, lying there helpless. The pain in truth starts later, every twitch tearing open muscles that were seared together by the blast. There might be some skin left, somewhere, but most of you is a blackened mess. Each gap in the charred remains of flesh is a place for saltwater to seep in, giving you new aches. Your lungs are gone, blown out from the overpressure wave. Your ears are ripped off, your eyes burst.
You're not dead yet. You could lie there for a day, waiting to dehydrate to death, waiting for your poor lungs to stop pulling in oxygen. A torpedo to end it all would be a kindness at that point, but the proof is you surviving to need it.