"Ah, I think I'll actually just… go talk to her." At their questioning glance, you scramble for an explanation. "You know, for team-building… and stuff. So we can work together better next time. Right?"
Despite your awkwardness, they take it at face value and nod in agreement. "That's a good idea, actually. Go ahead!"
With a final glance out over the city, you step through the door into an unfamiliar bedroom. Whereas yours is somewhat messy but kind of plain, this one is painfully neat yet undeniably feminine. There's a vanity with mirror (with makeup, lipstick, nail polish, all lined up neatly) next to a desk with a laptop and some textbooks, as well as an overhanging lamp (green shaded, of course) that provides the only illumination, leaving the desk brightly lit and the rest of the room cast dim. There's a window opened wide to let the night breeze (and city noises) in, and a western-style bed in the opposite corner, complete with a handful of plushies in various sizes. Among those is the other girl, curled up against the wall with her face hidden in her knees and arms. "Is the universe mocking me? Is this all some kind of sick joke?" She asks rhetorically.
"That's one way to look at it, but it doesn't have to be the only one," you say, sounding more confident than you feel. "It's kind of been a weird day for me too."
"What the hell do you think you're doing in my room." There's no real bite to her tone, just defeat, as she raises her head to fix you with a tired glare.
Seeing her like this is… painful. Your self-consciousness rises, and you shift your weight back and forth as you try to find an answer. "I just wanted to talk. We didn't get much chance back there…"
"Fine." She doesn't sound fine, slowly slumping back down.
"Are… are you okay?" You instantly wish you could take back the question, since the answer is painfully clear in front of you, but it's too late now.
She chuckles bitterly, making you feel even worse. "No, I'm not. I am very very not okay." You're not sure how to respond to that, but before you can formulate an answer, she continues on. "You look too much like her, so I'm sorry, but I… I can't talk about it."
"'Her'?" Cautiously, you take a seat on the edge of her bed. "Whoever she is, I'm not-" your voice cuts off abruptly, a lump rising in your throat. How do you know that for sure? This girl looks naggingly familiar, even if you can't for the life of you place where or why.
"But you look so much like her." She's suddenly in your face, hands gripping your shoulders hard. Her eyes are wide, crazed and confused and in pain, like an injured animal backed into a corner. "So much like her that it terrifies me. I don't understand why any of this is happening!"
She retreats just as suddenly, looking away in shame. "I… I'm sorry. I'm just… a mess right now. You should probably just go; you don't need to know my problems."
"Well, maybe I want…" you stop yourself again. No need to make this about you. "Nevermind that. Just… talking to someone about this may help a little. If you don't feel comfortable with me… I guess I can understand that, but at least someone should be willing to listen."
An awkward silence fills the room, and for a moment you worry that she's gone catatonic or something. You stand up to leave, but she suddenly speaks up again. "There was this girl in my class. We never really got to talk, but I kind of admired her. She seemed like she always had something on her mind, and I wanted to…" she glances at you, blushes, and looks like she's rethinking her words. "...to get to know her better. But it just never seemed like the right time. I had clubs, she went straight home, and aside from that she always seemed so distant, distracted; I never felt confident enough to pull her away from that."
You feel your stomach tighten, even though you're not even sure you still have a stomach. "Well, why not now?"
She smiles bitterly, tears forming again. "Three days ago, she got run over by a car. She was leaving the city library with her head in the clouds, and some drunk skipped the corner and plowed right over her, from what I heard."
Your heart seems to implode, and you unconsciously finger the sleeve of your dress. That was you, you know it. And it hits you where you've seen her before - The back of the class, a silent and shy beauty you'd sometimes catch staring at you, though she always looked away as soon as you noticed.
In the present she's not done, choking out words even as she cries harder. She's trying desperately to rub the tears away with the sleeves of her hoodie, only to leave liquefied makeup and snot smeared all over; she doesn't seem to care. "What the hell is wrong with me? I didn't even know her, not really. She could have been a completely horrible person… or someone wonderful. And if- if it had been anyone else in our class, I would be sad, sure… but not like this." She takes several wavery breaths, forcing herself to calm down and failing miserably. As she continues, her voice rises in pitch and her words blend together, almost hysterical. "Her funeral was today, and I couldn't even bring myself to come, I just stayed in here crying for hours. Why can't I make myself get over this random girl I never even talked to because I was too much of a coward, why does this hurt me so much, what is wrong with me!?"
Before you can react, she hurls herself backwards into her bed, curling up around a stuffed animal and hugging it so tight you're frightened it may burst. After a long minute of silence, her breathing heavy and slow now, she resumes speaking in her defeated tone from earlier. "That shadow person came to me a week ago, before any of this happened, and offered me the chance to become a magical girl. I thought it was a joke at first, some elaborate smoke and mirrors to make them look like that. Then they doored me through to Paris, France for an hour, and I was convinced. I didn't understand it, but they said I had the chance to save people's lives, do some good in the world. They were also upfront with the risks, though, and said that since none of the other candidates seemed interested, I would likely be going it alone… so I said no."
You set a hand on her shoulder, feeling useless to help as her tears continue to flow. "After she died… I still said no. Yesterday, I said no again. And then today, after I missed the funeral, they came again, and I told them yes. That I accept. That I want to do this. I said that I don't want anyone else to have to feel this way, not if I could prevent it… but honestly, I think I just wanted to do something, anything else. To distract myself and forget all about her. That they then said someone else had chosen to join, so I'd actually have someone else to help me… that was just a bonus."
She scoffs more than laughs, a harsh bark filled with self-loathing. "How selfish can I get? I could have done this a week ago, but it took this for me to get some damn perspective. And then you come along, looking just like her, and it's like the universe is… playing some sick prank, or trying to tell me something, or… I don't know. I don't understand, but she's like a phantom, finding new ways to haunt me when I still don't know why I care so damn much in the first place."
She sits up, looking you in the eyes before hugging herself again. Her mascara is in tatters by now, leaving trails down her cheeks, and the dark circles under her eyes seem even darker now. "Please don't take that the wrong way. I… don't want to try to replace her with you. It's not fair to her memory… and it's not fair to you, either. If… If I do anything that makes you feel uncomfortable, please tell me. Stop me. I just can't trust myself right now. And… please don't hold it against me." You nod quietly, hiding the confusion of feelings roiling in your gut.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to spill all of that, especially not on you. You must think I'm such a creep… Who knows, maybe I am." And suddenly she smiles, crying again even as she laughs. "I just realized… I never even got your name. I'm Kazane Midori. Who are you?"
What do you do?
> Tell the truth. (Explain that you're Yukimura Kikuko, and you're a ghost.)
> Lie. Lie hard.
-> (Your name is ___ and…)
--> Write-In
---> (You're a recent transfer student to the other high school. The resemblance to this other girl she knew is an unfortunate coincidence.)
---> (You think that girl is your ___, who just died under the same circumstances and had her funeral today.)
----> Cousin
----> Twin Sister
> Flee. (You can't handle this right now. Turn invisible and get out through the window as soon as she looks away.)