Okay, heads up. Liv and her mom have a talk about... well, teenage sexuality here, the kind of thing that scared teens with approachable parents discuss.
There's nothing gross or inappropriate, but I want to give a warning in case this stuff is triggering for you.
"She
would." you said, eyeing your 3d printer. You could put this together pretty quickly if you got started now, you bet.
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About an hour and a half later, perhaps slightly too late, you emerged from your room wearing a sort of white vest over your t-shirt, feeling rather proud of yourself, and you strutted into the front room. Your mom was, rather appropriately, putting the finishing touches on the last of her minis, the big snakey stabby guy that made up the centerpiece. The army, laid out now in their full glory on the table, was like 20 years old and she'd only gotten back to painting them last year, and they looked
awesome, sort of painted up like orcas with slick black carapaces, white spots around the eyes, and red blades and weapons.
"What the hell are you wearing, Liv?" she asked, setting down her model and cleaning her brush. "Is that what you've been making the last few hours?"
"Yep! Uh, your bug guys are looking rad." you said, like you didn't know it was a Trygon and they were Tyranids and your mom's giant old collection of Warhammer codexes weren't your favourite collection of dumb shit to read as a kid. Trust no one and trust yourself less! "And yes, this is my latest creation, and it is
weirdly related. Do you remember what Eldar have as armour?"
"Uh... five up saves, usually? Last time I played at least, who knows what they have now. I think a lot of the aspects get four plus though..." she said, clearly thinking about it. She hadn't played in a
while.
"Nono, I mean, in the lore." you said with a sigh.
"Oh! Mesh armour? Liv, did you make mesh armour?" she asked. "Like, cosplay stuff?"
"No, like,
working mesh armour!" you declared, striking a pose with your hand on your hip. "I took apart some of the smart fibres, like the ones from my stretchy arm, and I've woven them together into these parallel... okay, look, just, uh, throw something at me."
"Liv, I'm not going to throw something at you." your mom said, shaking her head.
"Seriously, it'll be fine! This stuff is great, it's impact resistant and, if I add some aramid fibres or something, bulletproof. Ooh, poke me with your umbrella!" you said, pointing to it at the door. "Trust me, it's so... mom?"
Your mother had a look on her face that... it was
sad. Oh god, it looked like she was about to cry.
"Liv..."
"Mom, sorry, what'd I do wrong?" you asked, standing awkwardly in the middle of the room, still in your stupid vest.
"Are you making this for the trip?" she asked, and before you could answer she just plowed on talking. "Is this for the ride to Baltimore?"
"... what?" you asked, not comprehending. What was she talking about?
"I was really proud that you're going, but... do you want to talk about it?" she asked, shifting aside on the couch so you could sit. "You can always talk to me about things like this. Is... is this what you need to feel safe?"
Oh.
Right. To your mother's knowledge, this was your first major car trip since your accident. She didn't know about the ride in Justine's car from upstate New York, after all, everything had been by train or the subway, or just walking. And she obviously didn't know that there
hadn't actually been a car accident. To you, taking a car down to Baltimore was just... how you were going to get there. To her, and to her perception of you, this was the first time you'd gotten in a car since you had your arm torn off in a horrible crash.
And you'd walked in the night before you were due to leave showing off the armour you were making.
Fuck.
"No, mom, I just thought it'd be cool..." you said, sitting down, and she wrapped a protective arm around you. Fuck, she looked so scared. This probably looked like denial to her. "Mom, I'm okay, I really am. It's just a project. It's not like I'm going to bring it with me..."
She nodded, and you weren't sure if she believed you or not. But... you were lying to her, after all. You
were going to bring it, alongside your Arachne kit. The Arachne kit with all the extra armour plates and the new taser shooters and the reinforced arm and-
... fuck, maybe you were all kinds of traumatized.
"Do you want to go? You don't have to go just because your girlfriend asked you, you know that, right?" she asked, and you nodded. "Are you worried?"
"... yeah. A little." you admitted. "Not... not really about the trip down itself... like, I know statistics, cars are safer than they've ever been, what happened to me was a... a fluke. A freak accident. I'm not going to let it scare me out of doing what I want."
"Then what's got you worried? You can tell me, Liv..." she said, and you sighed, leaning back into the couch.
"Well, um... I'm going to be sharing a hotel room with May." you said, "Which you know, just... kind of reiterating it. Thanks for being cool about that, by the way..."
"Liv, you're eighteen in two months, it'd be ridiculous if I wasn't." your mom said, "I know you're going to be safe-"
"I'm scared she's going to pressure me into doing something I don't want to." you admitted, speaking in a rush.
Yay, talking to your mom about sex, how completely fucking mortifying. "Not... on purpose, she'd
never, but I'm afraid s-she'll want to and I'll just go along and hate it."
"... alright, not what I was expecting." she said, and something about her tone of voice made you laugh. "Okay...
phew, give me a second to switch gears here. Different mom mode. Disable mom-scared-for-her-kid mode, activate cool-mom-you-can-talk-to."
"You're not going to disable scared mode, mom, I know you."
"You're right. I've been looking in the manual but I can't find the keybinds." she said, chuckling to herself. "Okay kid, let's have this incredibly awkward talk. Let's open with... have you done... anything, before, with her? Or anyone? If you feel comfortable telling, just trying to figure out where we are here."
You shook your head. A blanket no was maybe a
bit false, but was true enough.
"Huh, alright."
"We just played smash brothers on prom night." you said, and she burst out in awkward laughter.
"Did you win?"
"No, but I use a handicap to make it fair." you said, and this time both of you lost it, the subject matter just
way too much to talk about without tension being let out.
"Alright, okay. So... I'm assuming because you're worried that this was a mutual thing on your parts, and now you're worried she wants to go farther and you don't?" your mom said, dead on, and you nodded awkwardly, "I... am sad to say that I know exactly what that's like."
"Thanks,
dad." you muttered, and you mom nodded sadly.
"You're already a lot more mature for your age than I was, I was not putting this stuff together at all." she said, frowning. "Okay. So, first's things first, you're going to be in a hotel room with her, so that's going to be a lot of pressure because you won't feel you'll be able to leave, I get that. And it's a con, so even if you could afford it all the rooms are probably booked up. So here's what you need to do. Tomorrow, on the ride down, before
anything happens, you need to talk to May about this. It's going to be
awful, I'm sure, but it'll save you both a lot of grief if you lay out expectations and make sure you're both on the same page, okay?"
"Right..." you said, nodding. Talk to her. You could do that. If you could talk to your
mom about this, you could talk to her.
"Don't leave any wiggle room, be firm. Tell her exactly what
isn't going to happen. If she's disappointed, she can get it out of the way before you're in a room together. If she takes it really badly, you get out of the car as soon as you can and call home, and I will leave work and come get you, I swear to God."
"Okay mom." you said, a bit numb. There was something deeply ironic about the fact you knew she'd do so in Clint's van, considering your cover story for your arm was effectively that you'd lost in in a crash... in Clint's van. Different cover identity, different van, but
still.
"I don't exactly know what kind of pressure you might be under on this, with the whole... trans... lesbianing... thing, the dynamics are well outside my wheelhouse, but I do know you have to be firm about this stuff. Anyone who tries to talk you out of your boundaries is somebody who
is not worth your time, and moreover is probably actively dangerous. She might be disappointed, she might even be mad, but your boundaries are worth more than her desires, got it?"
"Got it." you said. You knew not to protest her fairly harsh characterizing of May here: this was probably mostly advice she wishes she could give herself at 17.
"If she tries to guilt you by talking to you about love, remember, if she loved you, she wouldn't be doing that to you." she concluded.
"... I don't think she'll do that." you said, "That's what her ex did to her."
"Jesus." you mum muttered, cradling her head in her hands a moment. "Here I thought things would be
less complicated for you, without any guys involved."
"Um... her ex was a guy. But... yeah." you muttered quietly. "Thanks for... all this. Weird... ness."
"... any time, kid." your mom said quietly, and you sort of shuffled awkwardly away to the other side of the couch, feeling utterly mortified.
"Also, talk about this with your therapist next week." you mom said, and you nodded numbly. "Anything else?"
"... wanna test the armour?" you asked, and, after a moment, she nodded. You turned and brushed your hair out of the way, and fairly gently she poked you hard with a finger. You could feel the armour stiffen to stop it.
"
Ow... okay, really cool Liv. You should sell this stuff." she said, "And before you protest, as long as we're still doin' a capitalism, you're going to need money."
"I'll think on it." you said, "Thanks."
Hugging her felt really weird with the armour.
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You were leaving at around two, and taking a fairly leisurely trip down. May had gone to the con before and had a favourite place to stop along the way for food (waffles!), and there were viewing rooms and stuff open before the con itself go started tomorrow. Technically, today and tomorrow were both school days for you, but also,
literally who cared, they were the last two school days ever and the half-a-dozen kids who showed up were probably just going to watch movies or play on their phones anyway.
Throughout the morning, you finished the flexible armour, stitching it into the inside of the Arachne suit, and packed it up, along with the clothes you'd need for the trip. When the hour rolled around, you got a text from May that just read
outside! and you glanced out to see a sleek silver vehicle waiting outside, May stepping out of the back. It was one of those nifty self-driving vehicles which let you dim the windows when you weren't driving yourself, so you could just pretend you weren't in a car at all.
You raced downstairs and she practically leapt at you to wrap her arms around you, grinning massively, and you got a rush of like, four or five species of butterflies in your stomach about the day ahead. You put your stuff in the trunk and got in the back seat after her, noting that the drive and passenger seat were folded down and May's laptop was set up on them like a little theatre system.
"How much did this cost to rent?" you asked, and she shrugged.
"Graduation gift from my parents!" she exclaimed, practically vibrating in her seat with excitement. "Also, congrats on being done with high school
forever, Liv!"
"Likewise!" you said, and you both broke into laughter. You hadn't had a decent chance to celebrate yesterday because she was in last-minute cosplay finishing mode, so it was fun to get it out of your system. "No more Mrs. Warren!"
"Bye, bitch! And no more gym class!" she declared.
"No more
Eddie!" you exclaimed, and May cheered loudest for that.
"Yes!
Finally, oh my God. Okay... car! Take us to Nani?Con!" she declared, and nothing happened. "Yeah, no, I actually have to put it in."
You waited patiently a moment while she poked at her phone, entering the address, and you felt the pulse of the car starting up, the flow of electricity from the batteries and the computer starting up, plotting out the route. The wheels shifted, and you felt the odd sense of movement as it pulled out into the road.
"Ooh, sodium-ion." you muttered, and May looked over curiously. "Oh, sorry, just remembering a thing. The car's got sodium-ion batteries."
"... oh, cool!" she said, looking back down to her phone. "Okay, so we have a four hour ride ahead of us, that's enough time for about 12 episodes, season one. Though let me know if you start getting motion sick."
"I don't get motion sick." you said simply, and she shrugged, tapped the spacebar on the laptop, and then leaned against you.
"Lucky."
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So, the Lensman anime was kind of rad, actually?
It was this really odd blend, because they were keeping faithful to the technology presented while kinda updating the aesthetics? So the screens were all transparent glass displays and the ships were sleek and cool, but there were still characters whose job it was to use slide rules to calculate orbits, because they didn't have
electrical computers of course.
Smart of them, really. It'd make it a lot harder for you to defeat their fleets.
And pretty much immediately you could see why May loved the show, because the costumes were pure retro cheese. The Galactic Patrol uniforms were these smart blue and yellow things with wedge hats that bore more than a little resemblance to WW2 American dress uniforms, complete with skirts for the ladies and ties for the guys, wedge hats and laser pistol holsters. The ships were awesome, like brightly painted submarines with battleship turrets and rocket engines, and they were clearly just completely unafraid of being silly in a way that felt very refreshing.
"So what's your cosplay?" you asked, and she stuck her tongue out at you.
"Not telling! You've already seen it though." she said. "You'll see tomorrow, you'll
love it."
The first episode ended, and the second, and as May started up the next you tapped the button to render the window beside you transparent, looking out over the highway as it came into view. A blue, cloudless day, utterly beautiful. You glanced down to your phone.
A message from Athena.
"
Remember to talk to her." it read. Right, yes. You lowered your phone and looked back at the laptop, May rubbing her head affectionately against your shoulder.
After this episode.
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May's traditional convention waffle stopping point was in Wilmington, and you resolved that post-waffle would be the perfect time to talk to her. Before she started the show back up. Athena was right, you'd been putting it off. Time to rip the bandaid off.
The two of you sat close together in the booth, waiting, checking your phone, May deep down a rabbit hole of cute gifs of squirrels playing and eagerly showing you them. You food finally arrived, you poured an excessive amount of syrup down, and got to eating, trying to get your wits together for the conversation ahead. It was going to be easy. Just set your boundaries. May was the nicest person you knew, and she'd been in this spot before. She'd understand, for sure. You just had to ask.
It'd be easy.
"Hey, Liv, can I asked you something?"
"Huh?" you said, blinking into awareness of the world. May was looking up from her waffles, smiling, nothing seemed out of the ordinary.
"I keep seeing a name on your phone, like, texts and stuff, and I've just been wondering. Who's Athena?"
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