The fact that fucking Brooklyn Visions Academy wanted you to take another blood test with
their people to check your androgen levels for themselves was just... it was fucking gross. Sure, you were deliberately underperforming to keep from breaking records and drawing attention, but you were still winning everything, and you'd bet anything the bougie parents of those BVA kids leaned on the school to try and get you removed so little Miss Comesfrommoney McPrivileged didn't lose to a tranny. it was easier to just back out, even if Coach Murch had lamented what should have been an easy win.
"Look, it's not hard. They thought they were going to lose, so they threw a fit to get my hormone levels checked. I already have to submit all my blood tests to the school to be allowed to compete at all, so it was just a formal way of calling me a man and trying to stop me from competing. It's disgusting, and there's no point to it other than to intimidate me."
"... so why quit? Why not go anyway to stand up to them?" Eddie asked.
"Because..." you said, "I don't particularly want to get my photo smeared across the cover of the
Daily Bugle after I won. I didn't want to be used as ammo against other trans athletes. Make sense?"
"I
guess. But like... doesn't it upset you? It's really unfair."
"Of course I'm upset! It was going to be super fun, and I was excited." you said, "I hope whatever parent complained is feeling great about ruining it for me. That's my official comment."
"... thank you." he said, stopping the recording. "Uh, off the record, like that matters, when did you get into
track? You were a total nerd before."
"Hormones addled my brain and turned me into a jock." you said, totally deadpan, then you couldn't help but smile. "Coach Murch just put me on the spot after class, and I had a good enough time. Plus... a lot of hot girls do track?"
"
Nice." he said, and you shared a fist bump. "Totally get that."
He walked off, and you were struck with a sort odd feeling. You and Eddie used to be close friends, before everything got weird. It was remarkably easy to slip back a moment into Dude Talk and connect again, but... wow, it left you feeling kinda gross. That hot girls comment was uh... it wasn't great. It felt like regressing to an earlier mindset, one that didn't reflect who you were now, and it sent a little shiver through you. A cruel voice in your head, the one that couldn't help but read the comments, whispered something about
male socialization. Urgh.
That got you in a bit of an introspective mood, walking to class. You quitting Track had actually accelerated your plans to get back out as Arachne. You
had been planning to resume patrols in the summer once school was over, but once the complaints were being registered and you realized how big a deal this was going to be, you'd just quit in a huff and within the week you were moving your timetable up. Talking about it with your therapist, you'd vaguely come to the conclusion that it was because Track was providing a psychological need that being Arachne met. Yes, you went out to help people because you thought you had a responsibility, because it was the right thing to do. Because you didn't have the luxury of abandoning the work. But you got other things out of it: freedom, excitement, validation, the intellectual and physical challenge, a sense of purpose...
... and the feeling of power.
There was no denying that was an element, and it was the thing you'd struggled with the most in your preparations to return to the mask. Confronting some mugger in an alley with superior strength and a host of impossible technologies gave you the same intoxicating rush as effortlessly outrunning some girl who'd been training hard for months. Winning, seeing others lose, you felt
invincible.
Which was another reason you quit. A bigger reason than you liked: It had been a bit of a wake-up call. Yes, they were transphobic assholes, yes, they were wrong to do it. But they were also
right. It wasn't a fair contest. You were participating
because it wasn't a fair contest, and you'd been as disgusted with yourself in that moment as you were them.
So back to the mask. Back to chasing the high while helping people, instead of just dashing their hopes at the 60m dash.
"
Perhaps not the noblest motive, but better than building a doomsday device." Athena whispered in your ear.
---
"Watcha doodling?" May asked, leaning over to look at your laptop. You leaned it over to show a piece you'd been working on for your 3d printer.
"Doomsday device." you said, grinning. "No, really, it's just a bracket to hold up a shelf in my closet. I need a place to store some things."
"Oh, cool, okay." she said. Probably wouldn't if she knew it was because you needed a better place to stash all your stolen guns at the top of your closet until you could figure out what to do with them. You were putting out online feelers to see if you could donate them to the SRA or something. "Couldn't you just buy one though?"
"Sure, but then I wouldn't get to use my 3d printer." you joked, "What are
you up to?"
"Oh, you know. Planning the weekend excursion." she said. "Maps and stuff."
Oh right!
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[ ] It wasn't anything major. There was a flea market in Williamsburg that both of you were interested in poking around, then you figured you'd wander a bit. Degentrification has hit the area hard, but she was with you: you weren't worried.
[ ] This weekend, you and her were jumping on your bikes and going up the North County Trailway. A lovely and very long ride as far out as you could go, just the two of you, out of the city and into some trees. You're looking forward to it!
[ ] Road trip! May's had her license, and there was an anime con in Baltimore she wanted to go. She didn't want to go alone, so she invited you along. You didn't particularly care for anime, but you were excited to be excited about her thing!
You can propose write-ins, subject to approval, if you think of a fun thing and I can think of a plotline to hook it into.